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 Posted: Wed Jul 29, 2009 2:49 pm
Persy shook her head absentmindedly. "Oh...nothing happened to me. I'm perfectly fine." she said, almost completely mechanically. "Please don't worry about me darling. As for your father...yes...he did try to kill himself. Aiden found him before...before he died and brought him to a medic. He's stable now." she said, swallowing hard. "And Dracal ran away because...because he thinks it's his fault that your father tired...to do that. Which, of course, isn't true in the least. If the truth were to be told it's really all my fault." she said quietly, looking down at her hands. "It's my fault he tired to kill himself."
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Posted: Wed Jul 29, 2009 5:10 pm
But he was worrying about her; she really didn’t look well at all. He reached across the table and took hold of his mother’s hands. “Mom…” He said unhappily. He couldn’t do this to her. He wouldn’t do this to her! But… he had to… He had to know what happened to his family. But as he looked across at her, all he wanted to do was make her feel better. “Mom, I don’t like dragging this all up again, and I’m really sorry that I am…” Morph took a deep breath. “Why do you think it’s your fault? What… what’s the reason why you think it’s your fault. ”
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Posted: Thu Jul 30, 2009 2:02 am
Persy looked back up at he and smiled unhappily. "It doesn't matter darling. I don't mind talking about it, really. After all you deserve to know the truth." she said quietly. "I know it's my fault because...because I said somethings to him, some pretty horrible things. I didn't mean them...I really didn't. He just made be angry and made me fear that I wasn't doing the best for my family."
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Posted: Thu Jul 30, 2009 2:36 am
she said with a sigh. "I blamed him for something that I couldn't do. Something that was all my fault. And then he tried to kill himself because of what I said. Oh Morph...it's all my fault." she said with a resined look of someone who had perhaps been put in prison for their crimes but as she spoke she squeezed the kittens hand tightly, her hand shaking as she did so. It was clear on her face that she was trying her very best not to cry. "And he could have died because I was stupid and afraid and lost my temper." she muttered. She would do anything to turn back time and change things, but she knew she couldn't. The damage was done and she wasn't getting the person she loved most in the world back, ever.
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Posted: Thu Jul 30, 2009 9:18 pm
Morph got up from the table and moved quickly over to his mother, hugging her to his chest as she hugged him. Now he understood why she was so pale and fragile looking. “Oh, mom… I’m so sorry.” He held her gently, wanting to do anything to make it better, to lift even an ounce of her pain. Rocking gently, Morph thought about his conversation with Dracal, and sighing to himself, he realized that he still had some questions about that, too. “Was it about Nyx and Dracal?” Morph found it easier to ask now that he had started this painful topic, easier to dig into something he now wished his family never had to deal with in the first place.
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Posted: Fri Jul 31, 2009 12:35 am
As her kitten hugged her gently, not blaming her for his fathers attempted suicide Persy couldn't hold her tears in anymore. She let a few silent tears roll down her pale cheeks as she started talking again, still hugging the kit as she spoke. "Truthfully Dracal did come up. Kieran really does treat him as a son so he thinks that Dracal loving Nyx is wrong. But I think Kieran was annoyed more at me for how Dracal was acting I guess...I just don't know really." she said with a quiet, pathetic sigh. "But never tell Dracal that. If Kieran wants to tell him eventually then it's up to the two of them...and me. It's also up to me. But I doubt you would tell him though...I just thought I'd be sure." she said with a very small smile.
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Posted: Fri Jul 31, 2009 1:45 am
Morph nodded and gave his mother a gentle squeeze. “I promise.” A blank calm filled the pit of his stomach; he knew, now, all he needed to know, and the burning panic had faded away. Only with confidence in the truth of the matter can we move forward. Now was time to make things right, and to go about the much more pleasant business of cheering her up and chasing up on the better things that each other had missed. But there was one final thing that Morph wanted to say. “Mom? Could you promise me something? Promise to take care of yourself. Please?” Morph grinned slightly at her. “You get some healthy color back in you or I won’t let you see my new house.” He teased, the weight in his throat and stomach already starting to ease.
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Posted: Fri Jul 31, 2009 2:01 am
Persy nodded softly, wiping a stray tear from her eye as she did so. "I'll be better soon darling. I really will be." she said quietly. She knew that she looked a state, that she had lost far to much weight and just hadn't slept enough. But she couldn't help it. When she tried to eat she just wasn't hungry and when she tried to sleep thoughts of Kieran invaded her mind, giving her nightmares and keeping her awake all night. She knew though, somehow, that it would be better one way or another when she got the chance to talk to him. She knew that she would be able to sleep, maybe not easily, but at least sleep no matter when the outcome of the talk might be. "I just need some time is all but I promise that I'll be back to my better self as soon as I can be. After all I have to see your new house don't I?" she said with a small smile. "And meet Ara. Nyx has told me so much about her." It was time to get to a lighter, happier subject. After all time was too short to dwell souly on the sad ones. "But why don't you tell me about her instead?"
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Posted: Fri Jul 31, 2009 2:30 am
Morph smiled happily and nuzzled her before getting his chair and pulling it around to sit closer to her. "She's wonderful! The first time I saw her dance..." Morph shook his head, his enthusiasm making him lightheaded. “It was amazing. She’s amazing. I guess… she just fits. Like a song to a dance.” Morph smiled, and took a moment to get his thoughts in order. “The first time I saw her, she was so… different. Intriguing. And we got to talking, and I played her a song, and that was that for our first meeting. But I couldn’t stop thinking about her!” He chuckled, half lost in his story. “And a few days later we met again and that’s when I first saw her dance, and it was… that was it. I was in love.” He grinned at his mother. “I love her. Everything about her; she makes me laugh, and smile, and I can be a goof and she’s playful and so full of energy and it just… everything she does is like a dance. She’s so graceful.” Morph laughed and made a slightly apologetic face. “She’s gonna help me get into shape. Oh! And the house! It’s perfect! And there is so much room to expand. We’re thinking of putting in a dancing stage in a nearby tree and so many other things.” Morph laughed again. “It’s exhausting just to think about it again.”
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Posted: Fri Jul 31, 2009 5:55 am
Persy couldn't help but smile as she listened to her son gush about the love of his life. It was a delight to hear something happy happening to one of her children during the chaos which was now her family life. It was especially nice because it lifted a weight off of the frail cats shoulders. She couldn't feel quite as guilty as she once did about Morph running away now, now that he had someone whom he loved as much as that to be with. She missed her son, certainly, but she would never ask him to return. She always knew that he was made of bigger, better things then this small mansion. She knew that he would have always left anyway...he just left sooner then she expected him too. Listening to him talking about the person he loved most was like music to her ears. She knew his feeling, his feelings of unbelievable, overwheming love that one could feel for another. She still felt them every time she though of Kieran. But she wasn't sure if her love was going to work. Maybe it was always doomed from the stand, but oh to be in young love when everything was happy and sweet and beautiful. "You've got in bad, my little Morph." she said with a warm smile. "I'm so glad you've met your someone. I really am. I can tell you two really love each other. When all of this chaos is over I'd love to meet her. I know Nyx was telling me about her. They practice in the abandoned dance studio sometimes but Nyx has never brought her to see me. I think she's going to wait until you formally introduce her or something." she said with a small laugh. Nyx was a very odd kitten at times.
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Posted: Fri Jul 31, 2009 10:01 am
Morph blushed and scratched his head apologetically. “Yeeeaaaaah…” Grinning at her, he nodded. “Ara’s wanted to meet you, too.” There was a little hiccup in Morph’s happiness as his original plan of Ara meeting his parents together seemed like so far away, but he knew that Ara would understand and would be delighted to me his mother, anyway. “Whenever you’re free, we could come over and you could meet her officially. And you have to come over and see the house, too. You could both at the same time, if you want.” Morph thought about it for a bit and smiled. “How about we do that separately. It would give us another chance to say hi, right?”
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Posted: Fri Jul 31, 2009 2:08 pm
Persy nodded happily. "I would love that Morph." she said with a soft smile. It was so nice to see how her son had really made a life for himself, even if it was done almost completely without her help. "I also agree that we do it separately. She could maybe come over here first and then I can com over after that to see the house. After all I do plan to have you come visit me a little more, now that you've come to see me now." she said softly. "Maybe your father will be joining me but it's far too soon to say whats going to happen there I'm afraid." She sighed quietly. She could only hope that they could indeed be together but fate can be a cruel mistress.
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Posted: Sat Aug 01, 2009 11:15 pm
“However it works out, I would love to see you again, Mom.” He kissed her on the cheek and hugged her again. “It’s great to see you.” Morph chuckled “Though I would have chosen different circumstances, if it were up to me.” He gave a wry grin. “Oh, how is everyone else? Ishtar, Hermies and Nyx, how are they doing? I kinda lost touch with Ishtar after I met Ara.” He smiled apologetically and made a face. “I keep loading you with questions, but I promise I one have one more.” Morph’s features softened and he smiled tentatively at his mother. “I don’t think I’ve played my guitar for you.” He chuckled again. “And if I have it’s been much too long.”
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Posted: Mon Aug 03, 2009 11:40 am
Persy smiled. "It's great to see you two Morph. It really has been to long." The elder cat was still feeling guilty for her son running away, like so many of her other children. Maybe they were never supposed to stay with her, she guessed, for all of them seemed happy in their own way in their new lives, Morph especially. "Ishtar is living with Valiant so I havn't seen him since the time you two ran away. I still havn't gotten up the courage to go and visit him." she said guiltily. Valiant had really hit a nerve when she had spoken to Persy last, saying how horrible a mother she was. "Hermies left eventually too but Nyx is still here. She's up in the abandoned dance studio right now. She's gotten much better." she said quietly. She felt sad that she could only account for the happiness and wellbeing of one of her children, but being a mother of so many so young had really taken a toll on Persy and her family. "I don't think you ever have. I would love to hear you play." she said with a soft smile.
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Posted: Mon Aug 03, 2009 1:33 pm
Morph’s smile faded and a wave of guilt washed over him. “I’m… I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to disappear… I just… Nyx was sick, and I didn’t want to get in the way and then… I guess I got distracted…” He leaned against his mother, eyes closed shut. “I’m really sorry, Mom.” Once again, Morph deeply wished that events in his family had gone in a more pleasant direction. It wasn’t fair to anybody to have to deal with so much pain. He looked up at her unhappily, hoping to hear her forgiveness again, to know his mother knew he didn’t mean to leave like that.
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