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 Posted: Tue Jul 07, 2009 3:27 pm
The smaller things? She was quiet for a while, thinking, wondering what she might consider the 'smaller things'. She'd been a reasonable hunter - though more as part of a group, she hadn't really liked travelling, it had just sort of happened to her and she wasn't one for poetic interludes and stopping to just... enjoy the world.
"I rather like the rain" she said absently, a small twinkle within lighting up. Yes, she liked rain - from a summer thunderstorm, full of big, fat drops, the the light misty kind. Yes, rain, there was something she 'liked' - enjoyed even. It wasn't much, but it was a start. She hadn't taken the time to enjoy it for a long while, not since she was young, it had seemed a nuisance at times, but she had always loved running in the rain as a pup, hadn't she?
The rest of his words began to catch up to her, and it took a moment before she had sorted them out. A cripple? She hadn't been that keen to talk to him at first, either, but that was because he belonged to two groups she was wary of: strangers and males. To her, a strange three legged male wasn't any less male or a stranger just because he had less legs. The thought tickled her slightly and, for the briefest of moments, there was an upward tilt to her lips. Almost a smile.
"I've... I've sometimes felt like I should just lie down" she left the rest unsaid. It was true, and a little uncomfortable to admit, but she had felt the need to say it. She wondered if one less leg or ear or eye would have stopped her? All three at the same time? Probably. "have you never... even once?"
It was odd feeling respect for a male. Only a little bit, she told her inner self, and only because he seemed less... stupid than most males.
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Posted: Tue Jul 07, 2009 6:51 pm
Aki smiled, "See, there is always at least something we find joy in. Rain is so simple and yet it can make our hearts sing." he said nodding his large head. He watched her as she thought. He could tell she was finally taking in his words in totality and it was making her think. One did not need fortunes from the stars to tell them how to find happiness, they had to find it within themselves and realize that they are what kept them from being happy.
Everyone at least at one point in life would resist happiness, blaming the world around them for their problems and their emotions of being miserable and upset with themselves. He'd been through it; many a times he had cursed the world around him, walked with his tail between his leg, his head hung low. But he had learned, he could no long force himself to dwell on the things that upset him, for it only made things harder, it was easier to just let these thing slide off like a light rain on ones pelt.
He nodded at her question. "Many times I considered it, wondering why I was ever born and survived. For a while I even hated myself, starved myself, cursed the world for what I thought it had done to me. A few times I really did lie down and just sat there, letting my stomach eat at itself, biting at me with hunger and I ignored it. I watched days and nights go by without a care. But I changed myself, I learned. It is amazing what even the Two-leggers can teach us." he said laughing at himself. He found them as miraculous creatures.
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Posted: Wed Jul 08, 2009 7:46 pm
Two-leggers, stars, males, hate, hope. It all whirled around in 'Neira's head, sloshing about queasily, trying to find some sort of escape. Everything was being made topsy-turvy and she had no idea what sense she could make of it, yet.
Deep breath, calm yourself. Her dusty red eyes closed as she struggled against the inner turmoil, her mind rejecting the shake-up of its foundations, the slow eroding of it's core principles. It was messy.
She sighed. "You know so much, explain so much, but it's more than I can even understand. I don't even know if you're just saying it to mislead me, or trick me or even making fun of me" she said, tentatively "but I.. I want to believe you". The monotone female knew that there was a shred of hope inside her, but she also knew such hopes could be easily extinguished - she didn't know if she could survive that again.
The male, Aki, had gone through hurt, pain, and come out of it strong, or so he said, could she do the same? She wasn't sure but she might give it a try...
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Posted: Wed Jul 08, 2009 9:57 pm
The starry pelted wolf shifted himself again to get more comfortable, one problem he did have about missing a leg is he often had to readjust himself to get comfy, from sitting up and laying down. For a wolf who had apparently never seen a lot of hope in her life Aki understood, but he knew no one should go on with their lives in a black pit, blind to the simple pleasures around them.
"I would never dare mislead you, trick you, lie to you even. It would make no sense for me to do so. I have nothing against you, nor do I even truly know you anymore than you know me. Believe whatever it is that you like, I can not make you choose to do one thing or another." he nodded, closing his eyed. Just as his pelt told a story of it's own of the festival of Saimhain, everyone had a story to tell, but he did not believe in anyone having to live a tragedy.
"Take my words for whatever it is that they mean to you. With life ahead of you, enjoy it, don't let anything drag you down and make you unhappy, because no one deserves to be miserably, or sad, or even hurt in any way. Just as we must eat to live, we must keep some hope in our hearts to enjoy life for what it is, otherwise, there is no point in life if all you do is curse it for every day that it gives you." he said looking back at the gray and black female. "For you never know if today could be your last day. Why not make the best of the time we have here."
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Posted: Fri Jul 10, 2009 5:34 pm
"Well... you would say that" she said, but her tone was soft, not harsh, and she had little heart for condemnations. He really had given her something she felt - even if it was only a door back to reality, to life, to thinking and existing as more than a shadow.
Her eyes fell to one side, contemplative, and for a long time the she-wolf was silent. She knew, then, that there were things she should do, would do... Had to do! 'Neira got to her feet, looking down at Aki, and turned her eyes to him.
"...thank you. I think I know what I have to do now. No, what I want to do now". Her words were quiet, and her tone held no venom. She didn't know what else to say, except goodbye.
"I... if I see your sister..." she said, hesitantly, then turned away. It seemed so hard to say such simple words now - as though a whole new reality had come down upon her and she had to struggle to relearn to do the simplest thing. It had been so long since she'd had to react 'normally' to others, so long since she'd been actually truly polite to someone and so long since she'd said goodbye of her own accord.
She started to move off, but gave one last glance over her shoulder. "I hope we'll meet again."
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