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 Posted: Thu Jun 18, 2009 9:58 pm
Royce smiled weakly and flushed in response at the phrase being so openly said, but didn't deny it. He curled his tail around his paws and tipped his head back, glasses reflecting the starlight. However at Dai's next inquiry, the slight smile slowly vanished from his lips and his gaze dropped to his paws avertedly. He felt a pang of unease in his chest at the topic being brought up. "I was... just in some bad relationships... is all..." he muttered a bit bluntly.
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Posted: Thu Jun 18, 2009 10:14 pm
Daichi sighed, "I'm sorry... I hope that your hope returns when you find the right someone..." he said, knowing he probably opened up some painful memories. He winced at the thought that Roy was abused like he was or taken advantage of in anyway. Daichi looked over at Royce, "I'm sorry for bringing it up... " he said censerly(sp?).
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Posted: Fri Jun 19, 2009 11:04 am
Royce flicked his ear back, eyes veiled. "Don't be sorry... it was my fault... all my fault." he breathed. "I doubt I'll even try to find someone... no I can't let that happen again, ever." he murmured shakily, turning his head away to stare dejectedly at thee ground, wincing at the sincerity in Dai's voice. "You're a nice guy Daichi... handsome too. You shouldn't give up. I'm sure you'll find the right guy sooner or later."
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Posted: Fri Jun 19, 2009 11:49 am
Daichi's eyes saddend as Roy said that it was his fault, "You know... It takes two to cause a problem... there is no way it could have been all your fault..." he told him as he looked him in the eye. "It's never just one persons fault.." He said as he turned his head and looked at the ground, "Even if you were abused... or raped....." He added then mumbled, " I could have fought back..." a small tear ran down his cheek.
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Posted: Fri Jun 19, 2009 12:44 pm
"You don't understand," he hissed, a little more sharply than he intended. "I WAS the problem. Everything is entirely my fault... everything I ever did to them." he growled, cringing at the resurfaced memories. "Don't you get it? I wasn't the one being taken advantage of! And I can't ever go back to fix that!!" he shouted, before pulling away in shock at his own tone of voice. He crumbled to the ground and pulled his hat over his face. His head throbbed and his throat burned at the sudden expression of raw emotion. He couldn't understand how he just spilled himself out so easily. Perhaps he had been bottled up for too long and needed to vent it out... but it wasn't fair for Daichi to be yelled at like that.
Royce took a moment to register Dai's last remark and he looked over at the other male with a pang of guilt and regret. Part of him wanted to move back to Daichi's side and nuzzle him in comfort, but he couldn't do that... not after that outburst. "I'm... I'm sorry..." he chocked in a hoarse whisper.
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Posted: Fri Jun 19, 2009 11:08 pm
Daichi sat there and let him yell then when he was done, he walked over and wrapped his arms around him, "I refuse to believe that it's your fault...." he told him, "Is there anything more you want to vent out?... I'm here.. I can handle it." He added as he hoped that Royce wouldn't get upset with him holding him. Daichi tried to smile, "My life can only get better... so can yours..." he told him in a sincere tone.
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Posted: Sat Jun 20, 2009 11:53 pm
Royce buried his face in his paws and flushed slightly as Dai embraced him, but didn't look up at the other male, only shaking his head. "But it was my fault, Daichi... No one else can be blamed for how I manipulated them." he muttered as though he were some horrible freak for all the things he had done in the past. Concurring with this idea, he groaned softly and tried not to take notice of how close Dai was to him. "I don't deserve a better life."
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Posted: Sun Jun 21, 2009 12:20 pm
Daichi held him a little tighter, "No one is perfect... you made a mistake. That does NOT mean that you don't deserve a better life." he told him as he thought of his words, hoping he wasn't being harsh. "Everyone deserves a second chance... including you..." he added.
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Posted: Mon Jun 22, 2009 10:29 pm
Royce bit his lip and forced himself not to whimper as he felt himself falling limp in Daichi's hold. Why was Dai acting so forgiving to him? They were on polar ends of their distorted pasts; Daichi who had been abused and Roy who had been manipulative. Yet here he was, pressed against the other male in the tight embrace, feeling so lost and bewildered... "I... I don't... I don't want to make the same mistakes twice though..."
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Posted: Tue Jun 23, 2009 2:04 pm
Daichi took a deep breath, "You should only change if you want to change..." He repeated then felt a little more at ease as Roy rested his head on Dai's chest then whispered into Roy's ear, "Because everyone deserves another chance... I wan to give you a chance..." Daichi blushed as he realized what he had said, 'Stuiped! Why would you say that!? It's not like your in love with him..... am i?....' he thought, 'Maybe I am in love... my heart can't stop beating this fast... and I feel like I want to be with him... to protect and be with him. Love a first site?' He rambled in his thoughts.
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Posted: Tue Jun 23, 2009 10:27 pm
Royce felt a shiver go down his spine and his fur bristled slightly as Dai whispered in his ear. He tipped his head up to look at the other male and blushed as his nose was just a breadth's away from Daichi's. He would have fell back, but the other male's grip was still tight around him. Roy felt his heart jump at Dai's words, but he tried to refrain from feeling too anxious. "I... don't know if I want to take that risk again. Not with you, Dai." he murmured weakly, ears falling back. Daichi's words, his sincerity, the enclosed space between them... it was all so tempting... but Royce couldn't allow himself to submit to it.
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Posted: Tue Jun 23, 2009 11:48 pm
Daichi smiled and looked into Royce's eyes, "I will be fine.. Nothing you can do will change how I feel... Royce, I think No... I know I love you..." He told him as he blushed but continued looking into his eyes. "I want to give you a chance, Will you let me....please?" He asked as he nuzzled his cheek against Roy's.
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Posted: Fri Jun 26, 2009 12:03 pm
Royce looked at him a bit reluctantly at first before slowly accepting the fact that Dai was offering to help him. Maybe... he could really start over again... perhaps it wasn't too late to give himself another chance. The dark male nodded slightly before leaning forward and stealing a small, tentative kiss from the other male. "Just promise you won't let me hurt you..." he murmured shakily before holding his head against Daichi's.
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