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 Posted: Wed Apr 01, 2009 6:17 am
Forest moved back. "Whatever." She snorted. If she wanted to be a brat, then she can be a brat. "I was trying to appologize." She muttered, moving away from both of them. "Kezia is the smartest Soq you'll ever meet, she doesn't like books, she adores them, and don't you forget it." she snorted again. She paused as her sister spoke. "Skinwalker? I've heard of them but what are they?" She asked, her sarcasm, and annoyance gone. She meant what she said about Kezia being the smartest Soq ever. And she was looking for information.
Then she paused, mind, slower then Kezia's, going over every thing that had been said. "Mom told you not to come back?" her ears flattened. "What do you mean mom told you not to come back? She banished you? made you leave?" Oh dad was not going to like this. Not one little bit. "Your grown, and you've got perfect eyes, there is no reason for anyone to know where you go, what the heck?" She snorted and fidgeted, wanting to run home and give her mother a piece of her mind. Or drag her here. "Can i go get mom?" She looked between her grandmother and Kezia.
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Posted: Wed Apr 01, 2009 8:40 am
" It's some small animals, but unless Vatican like to ripe them apart then it isn't him, I think is it the skinwalkers, I've seen a couple the last full moon." Hanna looks worried and looks over her shoulder then at Forest.
" Skinwalkers are ones that have been either attacked or turned with crused po, they turn monsterous growing claws and fangs, with a furred pelt of a wolf, coyte, bear or cat, they attack and kill everything around them, they don't even like to be around another that is how evil they are, and they don't care whom they kill. If you can get your mother to come, I know that she hates me and might not come if she knows that I'm here." Hanna wondered why Ellina would be blind it worried her a bit, what did fate or the great spirit have in store for her, maybe she would go to the pool of spirits and ask them.
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Posted: Wed Apr 01, 2009 1:00 pm
" I'd rather not see mom I'm having a hard enough time with your insults. I know you don't mean them...but the hurt. You can get mother but I will not stay." Ears pinned back to her skull Kezia laid down slowly laying her head in the grass. Shaking her mane slightly so it moved to cover her eyes Kezia sighed. " I don't think mother hates you she might be resentful to some point yes. But I think its more of the fact that she grew up with Admon raising her. For a good part of her life she only knew Admon and perhaps his mate as parents. She knew Admon has a regular female mother but she didn't and she understood she didn't come from Admon. I believe she grew to believe perhaps you were no longer living or with in the soquili lands and then you appeared and she can't really see you to know what you look like but you claim to be her mother and she knows what Admon looks like she knows as her male mother they don't look like so she may not make the connection between to be any thing with out visual proof. And even if she didn't need the proof she's believed Admon was her mother for a good part of her life she might have a hard time accepting that that isn't really true. Mother is very understanding for the most part but when raised a certian way one gets steeped in that mind set it and it very hard to break if they don't real understand the reasons behind something."
Nosing the apple her grandmother had rolled over earlier Kezia rolled if from side to side simply playing with it for a moment." Uncle Vatican get help and skins the animals some time to add to his bedding or mine. What grandmother said was pretty much correct soquili are turned to skinwalkers but a two legger like them with a curse powder or some through being attacked by a skin walker. Though very rarely the bowels of hell open forth and a true skinwalker emerges they are easy to tell from the turned skin walker due to that the fact that instead of hooves they have paws much like an the animal they turn into does. They are visious and ruthless either the turned of the real skinwalkers they kill for pleasure and not only just to eat."
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Posted: Thu Apr 02, 2009 6:32 am
"I'm not insulting you! For crying out loud, Kezia, for someone so smart, your awfully stupid." She snorted, annoyed at her sister's blatant pessimism. "Fine, i'm done trying to apologize or to have anything to do with you. You get upset because people are bothered by how smart you are, but you shrink away from anyone who has said anything cruel. The world is a cruel place, Kezia, and your not going to get anywhere ducking away when me or mother or Meme walks by. Its not that we want to hurt you, or mean to hurt you, or even hate you, its that your not letting us into your world. Your so frightened that we might get angry, get upset, that you won't let things from the past be fixed. You want to live away from the family, cut off from us. I didn't come here to meet the old lady..." she paused, glancing at Hanna. "No offense, grandma" She looked back at Kezia. "I came here because i knew you would be here and i wanted to see you, to talk to you and fix things! Weather or not Mom yells or gets angry, weather or not i make fun of your learning, weather or not Meme gets upset, whether or not Dad tells you to tone down you brain, we are your family for crying out loud and we care about you more then some cave dwelling vampire unicorn. Meme isn't the smartest leaf on the tree, and its fine. I...I'm blind 90% of the time, Dad never lets me leave, and at times i can't comprehend how you could stay so calm, so composed, and be so smart and civil. I want to be able to go out and explore like you do, i want to be as lucky as you. Even Meme can go and find an adventure, a path. But where am i? Stuck at Mom and Dad's side. And half the time mom hates me. You and Meme, your both so beautiful, so perfect, you have no room to complain. Yes your smart, yes its going to be laughed at, ridiculed, and mocked. But tucking your tail between your legs and hiding away isn't going to do anything! The only ones who will laugh at you are those who feel stupid, who don't believe they are worth the time of day. Who think, every time you speak, that they are idiots and morons who can't understand the basic structured sentence. And when you talk and talk and talk, smarter and smarter as you go, while they stand there helpless, they start to become upset, then mad, and then they reason you must be arrogant, shoving this knowledge in their face. So they mock, they laugh. They hurt you to make themselves feel smarter. To make themselves better. Meme might be the only one who doesn't, she just gets upset because she doesn't understand and then she feels like you hurt her, but she's forgiving and you simply tell her you never meant to make her feels stupid and she'll forgive you. but when one of those who tries to make you feel down comes to you and realizes they are wrong and wants to help and make it better you don't cower from them! You stand up and you be sure of yourself. You tell them that you accept their apology, that you don't want to make them feel bad, and when they say "I know" you be the better mare and you show them how mature, how wonderful and smart you are. You open yourself up and you don't hide behind your books because if you hide behind you books then you become cold, distant, and crueler then those who mock you. And when that mare tries to help you make amends with your family, and tries to prove to you that you don't know everything, that your mother doesn't hate you, that you can have your family and keep your knowledge, then you listen to them. You take the chance you might get hurt knowing that you've got someone who is trying their hardest to stop being cruel, to tone it down to keep it from hurting you, to help you be who you want to be and let you be who you are. But you can't turn away someone for being who they are when you want so desperately to be who you think you are. Yes my words can be harsh, and cruel sounding, but you know i don't mean them. That its just how i am. I'm better then i was, i don't fly off the handle, and thats thanks to you. I've been around you so much when we were little, getting upset and mad when you said things, when anyone said things, but i wanted to be like you. How Mom adored you and Dad cared for you. I felt left out and it only made thing worse but i worked and i worked as we got older, and i'm still cruel at times, i'm still loud and i still have a temper, but i try now. I work to keep it under control i work to be like you. So accept my apology dammit!"
Forest took a deep breath after her long tirade and slumped to the ground, hiding her head in her tail. The apple Hanna gave sat forgotten and ignored beside her. This was all not going how she planned. She closed her eyes, trying to calm down. All she had said...things she never spoke before. Deep things, that hurt her as she spoke, again and again, hurt to admit it, hurt to think about it. She counted slowly in her head, calming her self, planning to get the heck out of there soon as she could walk straight and be sure no tears would cloud her already horrific sight. Another part of her listened with baited breath to hear what her sister had to say, how she would respond in both words and actions.
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Posted: Thu Apr 02, 2009 8:51 am
"......" Standing slowly Kezia said nothing as she moved slowly to her sister. Leanning her heand down she ran it along her sister's neck in small calming strokes. Straightening again Kezia stepped back. Turning away from Forest and her grandmother to hide the tears. " Forest.... I can understand the jealous while you think mom is more caring for Meme and I because we are more to be blanant normal. You don't see it. Do you know how often I talked to mother or even father before hand. I was lucky to get told I smelt from mother after chasing a bird to see where it lived or how it acted. But I digress each of us is treated different We are different of course thats going to happen. And you know what I would rather live in that cave not because of my books but because Vatican though jealous of my intellegence does not insult me! Even trying to explain yourself you can't keep them out. I AM FAR FROM STUPID! I understand all to well that people wish they were as smart as me or they could act as calmly as I do or be treated as I am. But you know what this isn't a bed of roses for me! I am never calm and cold. I have just learned to suppress emotions to well."
" And you know what I understand the fact that lot of people want to be smart like me but they don't insult me. Because they either understand my intellegence is something they can't reach or that if they try hard enough they could be just as smart. I understand it is the nature of people to put down what they don't understand or don't like. And that if on some level if you didn't mean them then you wouldn't say them. And whatever I'm cool with that. Just don't expect me not to react in one one way or another. Most of the time its submission because otherwise I would explode. And did you ever think to go to a unicorn for your eyes. Their horns heal they of course it is very unlikely heal you completely but they could help your vision."
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Posted: Thu Apr 02, 2009 10:14 am
Hanna watches both Forest and Kezia and the rereaction to another, it hurt her heart that she didn't notice that Forest was almost blind, she watches them carefully thinking of something to say, some words of wizdom to offer and comfirt them both. " It is not good for you to suppress your emotions Kezia, they eat at you, it is better to lett it all out, Forest, have you thought of getting a familar, someone willing to stay by your side and help you? I heard that vampire can help heal wounds and blindness, if they are willing to share their blood, legands say that you can only become one if both share blood."
Hanna twitches her eats to keep the flys off them " I don't think he is doing it then, I wonder if he sense them, legends say that he his kind can, or so that is what Forest and garden of spirits have told me."
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Posted: Thu Apr 02, 2009 10:30 am
"Vatican says that all the different species of vampires have different abilities and that their blood works different. With Vatican his blood did not stare to repair wounds right away he has scars from fight from right after he was turned. Well he believes that they are from after he was turned. And I don't contiunously bottle up my emotions normally its just around others. Uncle Vatican has been teaching me to spar to deal with my emotions.... Oh where was I hmm ah Yes. Contray to popular belief there is not just one specific type of vampire. Well there is in the sense that their all vampires. Think of them like soquili we are all soquili but some are skinwalkers or unicorns or any of the other breeds. They all have different abilities and so on and its the same with vampires. Each hmm breed of vampire comes from a different area of the world and each has their own special features."
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Posted: Thu Apr 02, 2009 11:26 am
Forest didn't move while Kezia spoke. When she finished she lifted her head. "You are pushing us away...and all this while i thought if i could prove to you that i can't help how i talk, that i'm trying to not insult you, that i don't mean them as insults...you'd forgive me..." she stood. "Father won't heal me, he wants to continue to look after me, and i think he's scared to try, or else why wouldn't he have healed mom by now? And you..." She shook her head. "Do we mean so little to you that everything i've said means nothing to you? That everything i've tried to explain is null? I want to help, i want to make things better. I know your not arrogant, i know you don't view yourself as better, no matter what i might say, i know. When mom says it...i don't know what she thinks, why she says such mean things, but dammit i won't let her! I'm your sibling, we are suppose to call each other names, in joking Kezia, in joking. I told you, your the smartest Soquili i know. The smartest i'll ever know..." She stopped herself.
"If yo won't listen...if you won't even let me try, then what is the point? you've already condemned yourself. You've already locked yourself away emotionally and physically...If mother came to you now and apologized, ask you back, would you listen to her? If father told you how much he adored you, and you know he does, would you listen? Are you even listening to me when i tell you that you are my biggest role model, biggest inspiration? I wish, for one moment, i had the self control you do...i wish, for one moment, you might trust me, like me, and realize when i say your stupid, or that your a know it all, I'm teasing you...not to hurt you but to be close to you...But you don't trust me enough to see that...you think all i want to do is hurt you, bring you down....All i want is for you to like me...want me to be around you...heck, teach me something, i'll listen. Why is the sky blue? Why did i get mother's hair but neither of you get it?"
She turned. "I'll leave..." She said softly. "I'm not perfect, neither are you or mom...or meme, or dad...but we're family...and it shouldn't matter. Grandma, thanks for the meeting, its nice to meet you. Come by some time, maybe mom will talk to you. Or maybe i'll get her to come here..." She paused. "Do you want me to leave Kezia?"
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Posted: Thu Apr 02, 2009 1:03 pm
Hanna watches Forest trying to think of a way to keep her from leaving, and try to keep the tears out of her eyes, she didn't like to watch them fight, it broke her heart as she watches them. Hanna blinks at Forest " I don't know if I'm welcome around your mother, that is why I have never seeked her out."
Hanna blinks that was true she knew that talking to Abel that there were many different types of vampires, she also met Caine he was different too. " I heard something like that from a friend of mine, his blood was deadly. I'm glad that you have a way to deal with your emotions."
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Posted: Thu Apr 02, 2009 1:11 pm
"of course I'd listen. Its one of the only things I can do right. I'm not going to tell you to stay or go sissy because thats not really my choice thing I say or do would influence your staying or going but in the end thats your choice. Everything has its place and its influence on the world around it. And don't think about dad that way I think if anything he's not afraid of losing you as you said we're family and he knows he'll never loose you. I think dad never really learned how to use his horn." Sighing Kezia ignored the sigh that ran down her body.Tossing her mane into her face to cover the tears she curled her tail around her back right leg. Glancing down at the apple she hooved it from side to side before rolling it towards Forest.
" explaning why the sky is blue would take to long and involves to many chemicals and reactions. That recalling with out scratching them into the ground to keep the straight... er the hair is genetics I tried to explain it to you once.... And I would really prefer not to talk to mama. I toned down the the things she said. You know she and Admon fought once. The things she said made Admon gasp in horror."Sniffling Kezia let out a sad little laugh. The sound was filled with pain and desperation. "I mean she was right who would want some giant brain coming out of them and running loosing tormenting the lands with her giant retarded smart...bottom words anoying the hell out of everyone. Then not even having the manners to tell the person who got their big brain into the world were they went.." Laughing again Kezia shook her head sending tears flying before laying back down in the grass. "We're not perfect we're so far from perfect."
"Vatican says there atleast two hundred if not more kinds of vampires. Which would make sense with all the different places in the world and how each different place would create a new kind or breed."
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Posted: Thu Apr 02, 2009 6:33 pm
"I'm bringing mom here and i'm going to make it right, or she'll lose more then just her smart daughter." She snorted, her moment of helplessness passing. Grandma and Most importantly you Kezia, wait here...please?" She looked at her sister with an almost pleading. You don't have to talk to her...you don't even have to look a her...But i am going to make things right...or get hurt trying. She can't hurt you anymore, Kezia, she can't. So your safe. I'll protect you." She nodded. Tilting her head she looked at Hanna. "We'll figure out why she doesn't talk to you as well. Alot of whys...and i want to know why." She snorted softly.
"Kezia...is that alright with you?" She moved to her sister and nuzzled her neck. "I'll bring dad, he'll help. You know he doesn't think your to smart." She moved, heading towards the tree line, pausing, wanting...no needed, and ok from Kezia.
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Posted: Thu Apr 02, 2009 6:53 pm
Shaking her head wildly Kezia started to cry harder. " No I don't want to see her!" Shutters running down her body Kezia curle up in the grass as if though it could hid her. " Please Forest no no no no. I can't see her she's been looking for me. Uncle Vatican has kept her from the caves. I just can't do it yet. I'm start not tought I can't deal with things like this. I don't want too." Starting to pant Kezia struggled to stand. " I shouldn't have come I shouldn't have left my books. I need to go back to my books. My books are nice"
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Posted: Thu Apr 02, 2009 7:25 pm
Forest hurried to Kezia, standing over her to keep her from standing. She nuzzled her sister softly. "Shh, its ok, its ok. You can hide in the forest...you can hide in the forest and watch, ok? you don't have to talk to her, she doesn't have to see you...but you should be here, even if she doesn't know your here. Please...shh, calm down Kezia...trust me...i'll protect you. I'll protect you. No one will ever hurt you again. Not mother, not me, no one. You can have your books and your family, you can...trust me Kezia...please?" She looked to Hanna for help. If Kezia ran off now she was certain she'd never see her sister again. And no matter the differences, she couldn't bare that.
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Posted: Fri Apr 03, 2009 8:31 am
Hanna moves towards Kezia and nuzzles the mare, she didn't know how she would react to it, but it was the best she could do to help she wanted Kezia to stay in the woods and listen as they talked to their parents, she then towards and nuzzles Forest too " Please Kezia, I will protect you as well, you are welcome at my home anytime, but I think that you should stay and listen to us talk with your mother, but if you want to go I won't stop you, forcing you to do something you don't want to do, can cause more harm then good." She nuzzles the both of them again trying to be confiting to both.
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Posted: Fri Apr 03, 2009 10:32 am
Kezia whimpered softly unsure of what to do. She really didn't want to see her mother. She was not strong in any sense of the manner. She often watched others studying their manners and picking up their nervous reactions as her own. Swaying herself from side to side Kezia started to nibble on Forest's hair using the nervous she had picked from Peony. " I...okay... but I don't want her to see me please..."
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