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"Only for a short time, then the beast comes back worse then ever and I end up killing something. I had found that feeding just a little every night keeps the beast at bay, but it grows harder still when I'm around my brother. Him and his tamed ways." Nikolas sighed some turning to stand sideways to look back more easily.

He noted that she still kept a safe distance from him, he couldn't, wouldn't blame her. He would keep a safe distance from himself if he could, but that was impossible. He could still see that fear coming from her, that he couldn't blame her for, he feared himself as well. Confusing times, to be called not a monster when he knew he was when no other eyes were watching.

"That may be true that I don't feed on those like yourself and mine. But still, there's the other animals that do take fear when I'm around. Everything that moves I always watch, trying to keep the beast caged, but every try is agonizing and I don't know how much longer I can take it." Nikolas gazed toward his hooves. "To protect those against myself, I take care to keep those I care for away. Hard love it is, but one I uphold so none fall to my damnation." He had to shake his head and let the wave flow down his back and out his tail. "You see a noble stallion, but inside is a beast who knows no nobility."

Nikolas watched Yazmina as she came another step towards him. She was slowly coming closer to him, he could feel deep within the beast was growing more agitated with the waiting, but he swallowed back making the feeling go away once more. He had taken enough for it to stop bothering him, but it seemed that Nikolas hadn't done much at all. The darkness in his eyes showed around the fringes, ever creeping back into his vision like shadows creeping along the forest's edge.

"No!" he catches himself shouting, though unexpectedly turning as if to follow her is she were to walk away from him. "No... You aren't making it harder. I will just find something later. Lets change to merrier things. All this darkness is starting to feel too familiar." He lifted his head some and gave a somewhat uneasy smile, uneasy with himself for the most part.

Deep within, he willed the beast into slumber for the night, he didn't want it roaming anymore. Only thing was, that it would be back when he least expected it. Nikolas would have to keep on his guard to keep the beast at bay, even if the beast was just himself or a shadow of himself that took over when ever it pleased. Someday he would control the beast, but until then... He would have to make due with trying to keep it hidden.

Now that was something else to think about to take his mind off things. Then again, he hadn't really seen a bad winter in years. Though he could still feel her fear, when her wings flared out he had the feeling that she was going to leave and never look back. Some how he hoped it a bit, but was pleased that she remained, wings tucked in close to her sides. She had that determined look that said she wasn't going anywhere, but still kept that safe distance.

"I haven't seen a real winter since I was little. Back before I became what I am." He answered thinking back to when the snow fell and the lands were white.

An almost dream like look came to Nikolas as his eyes stared off into space as things from his past came rushing back in black and white. Laughter filled his ears but it wasn't just his brother's there was someone else there. Eyes widening a bit, it was a small filly, older then he was to say the least. But still a foal like himself and his brother. She looked happy, her coat a shade of gray with roses around her neck. He couldn't really remember her, or who she was... Anymore... Her bell like voice rang through his ears, calling him something, a pet name? His brother flashed past his vision before he uttered a single name, Nissa.

In the waking world, Nikolas just stood there as if someone had paralyzed him as his past played through his head. His mouth moved a little uttering the name out loud, "Nissa". He wouldn't know what that name meant, but something about the onset of his memory coming back to him from his foalhood... Things were going to get a lot more complicated on his part.

He blinked. Then blinked again, the laughter slowly clearing from his ears. Yazmina has said something, within his daze he hadn't come to know that she had placed herself closer to him. Nikolas had taken a step of his own amidst his 'dream', but toward what? On the outside it looked like toward Yazmina, but from his view toward a strange young face that he didn't remember, only the fragment of a name. 'Nissa'. Shaking his head, Nikolas looked at Yazmina quite dazed that he had said something without hearing it.

"Nissa? I don't know." He said puzzled, "I've never heard it before now... Did I say that while I wasn't... Here?"

Now this was a puzzle, a strange face from his past. Or was it someone elses past? No, it seemed like his own, he saw what could have been his brother there. But was it really? Nikolas was becoming more and more confused about all this. The theme of winter triggered this small image, what could trigger more? That he knew he didn't want to find out.

"I guess winters weren't too good for me.' He muttered to himself. "I've only hidden away from the season, deep within the mountain caves. Away from the cold and white. If you remain out here, you will see a good winter I suppose. From what my brother says, the land is always white until the sun rises to warm the lands and bring about the spring."

Yes, change the subject back to the winter season, get his mind off that that brings more confusion and puzzles. He would have to dwell on this 'Nissa' later when he was alone. He didn't know who this name belonged to, he didn't know if his brother knew, but he would certainly find out sooner or later. Or maybe never at all, fate it seemed was choosing to torment his already tormented mind even more.

It was like a flood of emotions bearing down on him at once. Still standing there watching Yazmina carefully, Nikolas turning his head to one side a little. He didn't remember saying anything, he only remembered a glimpse of a face, a sound of laughter in his ears. He would have asked if she had heard anything but felt that question would have turned up a no. So he didn't even bother asking.

"No, I don't remember saying anything, Just a glimpse of a strange face and the sound of someone laughing." He admitted. "Where it came from I haven't any idea, who Nissa is I don't know either." Confusing times it was...

A shiver traveled through Nikolas as he moved a little closer toward Yazmina, his steps hopefully nonthreatening. He didn't want to scare her again, but he did want to be near her again. With the talk of the winter season again, it sounded wonderful to his ears. But to his mind a cold barren wasteland where nothing can really survive without some means. But the ways she spoke of it, it was like a fairytale land where anything can be possible.

"Mmm... Perhaps, if." He watched her from where he had stopped. "If you are out there as well." He grinned soft, as he noticed that there might have been a bit of blush to her face. "It wouldn't really matter if it's day or night. My brother is trying to get me used to the day light, like himself. I have yet to really come to know what it really is that fascinates him about the day light."

Nikolas gave her an 'are you crazy' look as it was said that she thought it would be nice if he were out in the daylight instead of the night. He hadn't seen true daylight in years, not since he was young and tireless. Still, perhaps it would be good for him, in the moon light he was very pale, almost as if he wasn't really there at all, but a phase of pale moon light. Still, just about every pure, or nearly pure white soquili looked like him in the straight moon light. Much to say that if someone were to look at them, they might think that they were seeing ghosts.

"Nah, I don't think I would look too good in the sunlight." He gave an uneasy chuckle. "I'm pale enough now, I think I would look worse in the sunlight."

He really wasn't all that sure on being out in the light, but as they spoke there, the sun was starting to peek at the horizon. its rays seeping past the mountains and through what clouds there were scattered across the skies. The stars were starting to head to sleep where he would soon find himself until the night came again. Nikolas glanced at the skies and headed to step past Yazmina and toward the shadows. It would be there he would remain until the night came again. Then again, he might not make it if someone happened to stop him...

He wasn't prompting himself to go to bed, not yet anyways. The night itself hadn't been all that tiring, then again it was more tiring then any other he had had be this. After passing through the bounds of the treeline, he turned and looked back toward Yazmina as she remained on the other side of the trees. She had spoken that he would look different in the day light, ha! He had a feeling that he would look more sickly in the daylight then he did at night. Being the night creature he was.

"I'm not heading that way yet. This place is hardly the most suitable place to rest." He laughed looking about at the black trees as the sun's rays seeped up the trunks like reaching fingers. "I suppose that you will be heading somewhere to sleep too?" he presumed raising a brow a little.

Looking away from the alicorn toward the sun as it rose higher into the skies. Already the dark canvas was pulled away to give way to the aray of colors of the dawn. Soon the creatures of the night would be at rest, like himself, and the creatures of the day would be awake. This wasn't the time for him. he knew his brother and rest would be asleep by now, where Nikolas was miles away from the cave. He wouldn't make it, not at this hour at least he would have to make due with what he had.

"Dawn, the time when shadows flee to where they can find salvation and the light rules for many hours." He muttered loud enough for Yazmina to hear.