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 Posted: Thu Oct 06, 2005 3:09 pm
alright Nan...keeps throwing the positive thoughts and prayers her way..... biggrin
and congrats on the new fishies xd
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Posted: Fri Oct 07, 2005 1:05 pm
not very good news today, my Mum's just back from today's visit, they've put Nan back under sedation to keep her still to give her the best healing advantage, but they've told Mum tonight that they're going to have to operate again.
the staff nurse told her tonight that there IS still hope, but not much cry
we're going across in the morning to see if we can find out what actually is the matter with her now.
Maybe i need to backtrack a bit here. Initially they were going to do an ileostomy, as she's already had 2 bowel ops they were concerned that they wouldn't be able to join the remaining colon together, so it would be better to go for a bag.
But the surgeon obviously decided that the join could be made as she didn't have a bag after her first op last Wednesday, but, she developed an infection and they realised that the join was leaking, so at 3.30am Monday they went in again and now she has a bag afterall.
Now they're saying there could still be a leak and they have to operate again, though i'm perplexed as to what can be leaking now confused
hopefully we will find out what on earth is going on in the morning, i feel like i want to cry now, i've tried to remain positive so far but it's got to the stage when i can't now.
it's my Mum's birthday next week, and i'm so afraid that Nan's going to slip away on that day.
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Posted: Fri Oct 07, 2005 1:14 pm
jellysundae it's my Mum's birthday next week, and i'm so afraid that Nan's going to slip away on that day. Oh noes sad cry I know what that's like, I lost my grandmother on Christmas Eve, and my grandfather on my birthday sad *purkle hugs*
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Posted: Fri Oct 07, 2005 4:43 pm
Kitty hugs to everyone in this thread, I know what that is all like, I went through my grandma having senial dementia, that is why I started working with elderly people so I can help them have a better quality life.
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Posted: Fri Oct 07, 2005 8:12 pm
massive huggles to the jelly.....lets keep every bit of positive energy heading her way....i know what its like hun...we lost my ganny ruby near her birthday...its hard around that time of year...i hope that everythign goes well with her...more massive huggles heart
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Posted: Sat Oct 08, 2005 8:16 am
just back from the hospital, there's no change, Nan's staying sedated to keep her as stable as possible, but the consultant said to prepare ourselves for the fact that she's unlikely to recover, she's being treated but there's no improvement.
The surgeon will be reviewing her later today, to decide whether more surgery is needed/possible or whether it's time to let her go, i have numb feeling at the moment, your brain defends you against these things i think, i don't know how how my Mum's going to holding out this afternoon, i'm just trying to find ways of distracting myself. if i dwell on it too much i shall get too upset and that's not helping anyone confused
it now seems inevitable to me that Nan is going to pass away on my Mum's birthday next Thursday, because that's the way life seems to work.
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Posted: Sat Oct 08, 2005 5:21 pm
cry *massive huggles* heart
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Posted: Sun Oct 09, 2005 6:50 am
*sending you ultra purkle hugs* heart heart heart heart heart
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Posted: Sun Oct 09, 2005 11:20 am
thanks everyone, i don't mean to burden you all with this, i just needed somewhere to be able to get things off my chest sweatdrop
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Posted: Sun Oct 09, 2005 12:52 pm
That's why we are here!! Always able to help relieve the pressures of RL...
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Posted: Sun Oct 09, 2005 1:06 pm
it is a very welcome distraction.
we'll maybe find out tomorrow if they're going to operate again, or whether they'll dither for a few more days, or whether they'll make the dicision we don't want to hear confused
until then they're keeping her comfortable, there was an'episode'this morning, her heart rate dropped to 27(it's usually around 70) but they gave her adrenaline and she stabilised again, but she's still totally reliant on the drugs and machines to keep her stable, this is the main reason the consultant doesn't think there is much hope, they're pumping her full of antibiotics and various other things, but she's not showing any signs of improvement.
i won't be able to see her again this week either as i'm on lates.
i do feel better about the situation now, merely because everything's in limbo i think, if she looked terrible it would effect me more, but she looks like she's napping, and she looks healthy because of her summer tan.
but i do realise that this is just a breathing space really, can only wait and see if i'm going to have to go out and buy some black clothes neutral
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Posted: Thu Oct 13, 2005 4:15 pm
well a milestone has been passed here, it's now 15 minutes past my Mum's birthday and my Nan is still with us blaugh
she had yet more surgery yesterday, to repair a small hole in her illeum, i can't help but wonder if this'hole' was actually a scalpel nick, she's fully awake now, no more sedation, hopefully the antibiotics will start to work now they've stopped the leak.
i'm wanting to be able to feel some hope!
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Posted: Fri Oct 14, 2005 7:23 pm
i was just wondering how is your nan doing now? and what is an illeum?
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Posted: Sat Oct 15, 2005 11:52 am
morphingbutterfly i was just wondering how is your nan doing now? and what is an illeum? I was wondering what that was myself. Your nan is still in my thoughts and prayers.
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Posted: Sat Oct 15, 2005 4:37 pm
the illeum is the small intestine, she's now had all her colon or large intestine removed.
today when we saw her she's actually having periods where she's breathing for herself, the ventilator is attached via a tracheotomy so she can't vocalise, and with no teeth in it's hard to understand what she mouths to us, but she's bright and aware and the nurses are pleased with her progress with regard to her lungs.
the main issue is still the abdominal infection, they'll swab her wound on Monday and see if the new batch of antibiotics are having any effect, the nurse said what they're giving her at the moment is very strong stuff, like bleach she said! but because of the constant leakage into the abdomen the infection is massive. this is the major stumbling block, last Saturday when the consultant was basically telling us to say our final goodbyes this was the reason, the infection wasn't clearing and her body wasn't healing, but with a leak in the bowel it wasn't going to was it??
so who knows how things will go now, i am feeling a lot more positive now, simply because she's awake and aware again, but i'm fully aware myself that there's still a long way to go and things could still deteriorate rapidly, but you can't stay in a permanent state of anxiety, your brain just wont allow it!
but those vibes seem to be working so far.
i can't thank you all enough for your support through this, i do feel like i'm burdening you all with my personal problems, but it is so good to be able to get this out, i've only spoken to 2 people at work about it because i know i wouldn't be able to cope with people coming up and asking how she was and if i was alright all the time, i'd end up blubbing everywhere, and to be honest, i don't like the majority of the people i work with well enough to want to talk about this with them.
so big hugs to you all heart heart heart
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