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 Posted: Tue Apr 13, 2010 11:16 pm
Peke was still scowling at the other cub. He couldn't shake the feeling of uneasiness that plagued him but he couldn't figure out just what was bothering him; the fact that Kamau looked so much like Msiba or that he was so much like his younger sister in personality. Either way he didn't like the boy much at all. Neither were good memories for entirely different reasons.
Sensing his bonded's discomfort Nguvu gently nipped at his fur. "Peke, perhaps..." he began before being rudely cut off by the young male. "No. I'm not done," Peke snarled at the raven. He didn't mean to be so hostile to Nguvu or Kamau even but the lack of sleep(he had given up on sleep since his visions began) had been messing with him. He never thought clearly anymore and he certainly wasn't normal, in more ways than one.
He had been changed by the events brought about by the outsiders, the interluders. He could never forgive them and he knew that a part of him would always wonder about Hisia's cubs and if they too would follow in the footsteps of their father. Or if their existence would bring back the outcasts. If they would one day return.
"You'll never learn if you don't try. Your mistakes will be your greatest teacher," Peke explained anger draining from his features. Right now all he felt was pity for the other male. He knew exactly what it was liked to be judge because of a rocky past or a secret he knew nothing of and he didn't want to judge Kamau based on his father or his father's past.
Too bad Peke couldn't help but resent the male. "I can't tell you why but I don't really like you," he stated plainly not even bothering to sugarcoat the truth. He felt no reason to lie, it seemed unfair for him to be able to withhold the truth when others could not.
"Peke!" Nguvu sharply reprimanded. "Why are you being so rude?" he snapped glaring at his bonded. He turned his attention to Kamau and apologetic look upon his features. "I apologize for his behavior. He's being irrational."
"No. I'm being truthful." He didn't seem to care if the truth hurt or not.
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Posted: Tue Apr 13, 2010 11:35 pm
Well, alright… So Peke had a point. It was just that hunting was big and unknown and, therefore, threatening. Kamau knew the logic behind the words and he completely understood that not trying at all was marginally worse than failing. All the same, words were just… well… words. It was easy to say such things. It was so much harder to put them into actual practice. Kamau didn’t need to be a Seer to realize something was going on between the bird and cub; Nguvu’s actions practically yelled that something was wrong.
And if that wasn’t enough, Peke just outright said it. He didn’t like Kamau. Although a part of the pale cub----alright, a very large part of him---wanted to break down and cry, he refused to do so. He had to be strong, for his sister’s sake. She was always so strong for the both of them. Surely he could… could… Kamau sniffed pathetically and sat down heavily.
“It’s alright, Nguvu. I know what he’s saying.” Especially since it was so utterly uncloaked in mystery. Peke just didn’t like Kamau. “It saves time, I suppose, to dislike me immediately. Nearly everyone hates me and Naamini anyway. I just wish someone could tell me why.” It wasn’t like his mother had ever told him about his father. In fact, Hisia had gone through some trouble to protect her children from ever learning the full truth, especially at such a young age.
To Kamau, it just seemed as though everyone hated him for no apparent reason. Naamini too, but she was better at handling it, since she didn’t seem to need others approval as much. Kamau sniffed a few more times before he got something vaguely resembling control over himself and he could stand up again. “Ok… just tell me the way back to my den and I’ll leave you two alone, ok? Does that sound alright? I just want to go home.”
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Posted: Fri Jun 18, 2010 1:15 am
While Peke had merely been speaking his mind, while he had been telling the truth the effects that it had upon the other male made him feel guilty. So, he was aware of the hateful stares, the secrets whispered about him and his sister, and the general dislike for the twins. The only think Kamau was not aware of was the reason behind it. Peke desperately wished to tell him why, to explain that it wasn't an irrational hate but it was. No matter what his father had done, no matter how much pain and torment Misba had caused the seer he shouldn't take it out on the other male. It wasn't fair, but life was hardly fair to Peke and he didn't see why it should be fair to others.
"If I could explain why I would," he stated ears flattening back slightly. "My dislike is both rational and irrational. I shouldn't dislike you but I do," he sighed scratching an ear. He shouldn't have said anything. He was too impulsive, it was the very reason he had lost his sister. Looking at Kamau was like looking at his sister and the male he hated at the same time. Kamau had the looks of his father but a personality all too similar to Peke's deceased sister and in some ways it frightened him.
Nguvu looked expectantly at his bonded as if waiting for him to apologize. Peke swallowed dryly before speaking, "I'm sorry. I know exactly what you're going through." He had once been the outsider that was frowned upon. "It's not fair is it? To be treated poorly when you've done nothing wrong."
He knew the cub wanted to leave but he couldn't help himself from talking. He felt the need to justify himself but his reasoning was faulty, almost fake sounding. "You feel like the world is against you and only bad things are happening. You wonder if there will ever be a silver lining."
"Peke, what are you doing?" Nguvu questioned confusion settling on his expression. "Once again, I apologize to you Kamau. My bonded is acting strangely. If you head to the west you will return to the center of the pride," he explained hoping that if he got Kamau away and forced Peke to sleep that the seer would act more rational.
"I'm not done Nguvu!" he snapped.
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