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 Posted: Sat Jul 05, 2008 4:50 am
I am afraid of responsibility. I was emancipated at 14 and I still at 21 cannot think of any obligation without panicking.
I have a strange deep seated sexual fear of clowns.
I am terrified of my own lifespan. I am afraid I will die before I get to experiencing everything I can, without living with a capital L. which is unavoidable.
I am also afraid that I will never be really great at anything, and therefor have no worth to even myself, that I am nothing more than a mediocre human being, and that thats all there is for me. Ever.
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Posted: Sat Jul 05, 2008 10:12 am
lotusvoid I am afraid of responsibility. I was emancipated at 14 and I still at 21 cannot think of any obligation without panicking. I have a strange deep seated sexual fear of clowns. I am terrified of my own lifespan. I am afraid I will die before I get to experiencing everything I can, without living with a capital L. which is unavoidable. I am also afraid that I will never be really great at anything, and therefor have no worth to even myself, that I am nothing more than a mediocre human being, and that thats all there is for me. Ever. O_o now she really has a problem xd
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Posted: Sat Jul 05, 2008 4:48 pm
lotusvoid I am afraid of responsibility. I was emancipated at 14 and I still at 21 cannot think of any obligation without panicking. I have a strange deep seated sexual fear of clowns. I am terrified of my own lifespan. I am afraid I will die before I get to experiencing everything I can, without living with a capital L. which is unavoidable. I am also afraid that I will never be really great at anything, and therefor have no worth to even myself, that I am nothing more than a mediocre human being, and that thats all there is for me. Ever. you remind me of one of my friends.
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Posted: Sat Jul 05, 2008 4:59 pm
To be honest I am only afraid of two things, but neither terrify me. I don't let stupid emotions get in my way of living.
The two things I am afraid of is:
1) Drowning; even though it is supposed to be the most peaceful of deaths. I would prefer to die by drowning though, but the thought of it I don't like...I still love swimming, and do it as much as I can.
2) People, usually crowds. I fear the human stupidity, one thing frightens them and they lose control of their minds and usually do something stupid enough to effect everyone around them. But I will face and take on anyone that challenges me even if I know I'll lose.
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Digital Malevolence Vice Captain
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Posted: Sat Jul 05, 2008 7:19 pm
Digital Malevolence To be honest I am only afraid of two things, but neither terrify me. I don't let stupid emotions get in my way of living. The two things I am afraid of is: 1) Drowning; even though it is supposed to be the most peaceful of deaths. I would prefer to die by drowning though, but the thought of it I don't like...I still love swimming, and do it as much as I can.2) People, usually crowds. I fear the human stupidity, one thing frightens them and they lose control of their minds and usually do something stupid enough to effect everyone around them. But I will face and take on anyone that challenges me even if I know I'll lose.
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Posted: Sat Jul 05, 2008 7:54 pm
ashlander_alpha Digital Malevolence To be honest I am only afraid of two things, but neither terrify me. I don't let stupid emotions get in my way of living. The two things I am afraid of is: 1) Drowning; even though it is supposed to be the most peaceful of deaths. I would prefer to die by drowning though, but the thought of it I don't like...I still love swimming, and do it as much as I can.2) People, usually crowds. I fear the human stupidity, one thing frightens them and they lose control of their minds and usually do something stupid enough to effect everyone around them. But I will face and take on anyone that challenges me even if I know I'll lose. Yes, its a peaceful calm death. Sounds better than being murdered alive or tortured and beaten to death. It's either drowning or death by cop.
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Digital Malevolence Vice Captain
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Posted: Sat Jul 05, 2008 8:49 pm
MegaTherion777 lotusvoid I am afraid of responsibility. I was emancipated at 14 and I still at 21 cannot think of any obligation without panicking. I have a strange deep seated sexual fear of clowns. I am terrified of my own lifespan. I am afraid I will die before I get to experiencing everything I can, without living with a capital L. which is unavoidable. I am also afraid that I will never be really great at anything, and therefor have no worth to even myself, that I am nothing more than a mediocre human being, and that thats all there is for me. Ever. you remind me of one of my friends. lol, interesting person, that one must be I suppose I sound a bit off balance, but I don't think i am
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Posted: Sat Jul 05, 2008 9:33 pm
Digital Malevolence Yes, its a peaceful calm death. Sounds better than being murdered alive or tortured and beaten to death. It's either drowning or death by cop.
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Posted: Sat Jul 05, 2008 9:49 pm
MegaTherion777 My Hollow MegaTherion777 kacisko MegaTherion777 you know what frightens us? all of us? eek hollows stalking us!!! the government frightens me Talk for yourself, baby. I have done nothing(?) to be stalked by Hollow, yet. And since you did... well... then yes, fear the sentinel wink . no no, you misunderstand. hollow said she knows what frightens all of us, thus she must be stalking us. all of us. i did not mean to imply that her stalking us was scary. i actually think being stalked by hollow would be rather fun biggrin For for me, sad for you. no no no, fun for you, fun for me. getting stalked by a metalhead chick with a leather jacket and wallet chain? hawt mrgreen On second thought, yeah maybe me stalking you would be fun for both of us.
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Posted: Sat Jul 05, 2008 9:59 pm
lotusvoid MegaTherion777 lotusvoid I am afraid of responsibility. I was emancipated at 14 and I still at 21 cannot think of any obligation without panicking. I have a strange deep seated sexual fear of clowns. I am terrified of my own lifespan. I am afraid I will die before I get to experiencing everything I can, without living with a capital L. which is unavoidable. I am also afraid that I will never be really great at anything, and therefor have no worth to even myself, that I am nothing more than a mediocre human being, and that thats all there is for me. Ever. you remind me of one of my friends. lol, interesting person, that one must be I suppose I sound a bit off balance, but I don't think i am interesting is one way of describing her... she's a very good, trusted friend but sometimes i dont understand her at all xd off-balance is not the word i would use to describe you. fear of obligation, clowns, mediocrity, and death are all extremely common. they are things you must come to terms with on your own time, in your own way. although as for mediocrity, you don't really have anything to fear from that. every person you talk to has their life affected in some way by that contact with you. you often affect people who are close to you in ways you can never realize. there is no such thing as a mediocre human being - you affect everyone around you whether you accept (or like) that fact or not. furthermore, the consequences of the actions you take spin out into the future endlessly, determining what future events will be. you matter more than you know, because by removing a single person (you, me, hollow, anyone) it will alter the outcome, much like removing a single variable from a calculus equation will alter the answer completely.
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Posted: Sat Jul 05, 2008 10:00 pm
My Hollow MegaTherion777 My Hollow MegaTherion777 kacisko MegaTherion777 you know what frightens us? all of us? eek hollows stalking us!!! the government frightens me Talk for yourself, baby. I have done nothing(?) to be stalked by Hollow, yet. And since you did... well... then yes, fear the sentinel wink . no no, you misunderstand. hollow said she knows what frightens all of us, thus she must be stalking us. all of us. i did not mean to imply that her stalking us was scary. i actually think being stalked by hollow would be rather fun biggrin For for me, sad for you. no no no, fun for you, fun for me. getting stalked by a metalhead chick with a leather jacket and wallet chain? hawt mrgreen On second thought, yeah maybe me stalking you would be fun for both of us. extremely. can you get a start on that right away, please?
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Posted: Sat Jul 05, 2008 10:11 pm
MegaTherion777 My Hollow MegaTherion777 My Hollow MegaTherion777 no no, you misunderstand. hollow said she knows what frightens all of us, thus she must be stalking us. all of us. i did not mean to imply that her stalking us was scary. i actually think being stalked by hollow would be rather fun biggrin For for me, sad for you. no no no, fun for you, fun for me. getting stalked by a metalhead chick with a leather jacket and wallet chain? hawt mrgreen On second thought, yeah maybe me stalking you would be fun for both of us. extremely. can you get a start on that right away, please? Who said we hadn't started already? *waves*
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Posted: Sat Jul 05, 2008 10:20 pm
I am scared to death of children and talking directly to people I don't know. I can talk to a group of people at once, but not just one person.
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Posted: Sat Jul 05, 2008 10:23 pm
My Hollow MegaTherion777 My Hollow MegaTherion777 My Hollow MegaTherion777 no no, you misunderstand. hollow said she knows what frightens all of us, thus she must be stalking us. all of us. i did not mean to imply that her stalking us was scary. i actually think being stalked by hollow would be rather fun biggrin For for me, sad for you. no no no, fun for you, fun for me. getting stalked by a metalhead chick with a leather jacket and wallet chain? hawt mrgreen On second thought, yeah maybe me stalking you would be fun for both of us. extremely. can you get a start on that right away, please? Who said we hadn't started already? *waves* *waves back* @ dragon - i'm just the opposite about talking to people i dont know xp
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Posted: Sat Jul 05, 2008 11:00 pm
MegaTherion777 lotusvoid MegaTherion777 lotusvoid I am afraid of responsibility. I was emancipated at 14 and I still at 21 cannot think of any obligation without panicking. I have a strange deep seated sexual fear of clowns. I am terrified of my own lifespan. I am afraid I will die before I get to experiencing everything I can, without living with a capital L. which is unavoidable. I am also afraid that I will never be really great at anything, and therefor have no worth to even myself, that I am nothing more than a mediocre human being, and that thats all there is for me. Ever. you remind me of one of my friends. lol, interesting person, that one must be I suppose I sound a bit off balance, but I don't think i am interesting is one way of describing her... she's a very good, trusted friend but sometimes i dont understand her at all xd off-balance is not the word i would use to describe you. fear of obligation, clowns, mediocrity, and death are all extremely common. they are things you must come to terms with on your own time, in your own way. although as for mediocrity, you don't really have anything to fear from that. every person you talk to has their life affected in some way by that contact with you. you often affect people who are close to you in ways you can never realize. there is no such thing as a mediocre human being - you affect everyone around you whether you accept (or like) that fact or not. furthermore, the consequences of the actions you take spin out into the future endlessly, determining what future events will be. you matter more than you know, because by removing a single person (you, me, hollow, anyone) it will alter the outcome, much like removing a single variable from a calculus equation will alter the answer completely. I did not mean simply having these fears, as you are right, they are commonplace, but the extent to which they affect my thinking and life. It is hard to find fulfillment in the path you life takes.
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