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 Posted: Thu Oct 02, 2008 5:08 pm
Hellsing Retard I've found myself having an increased desire for carnage and bloodshed, and it's seriously scaring the life out of me... Youd be suprised how many of us get those feelings from time to time. sweatdrop
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Posted: Sun Oct 05, 2008 7:59 pm
I want to start watching Rurouni Kenshin again, but I'm afraid that it will make me sad because it was a show I enjoyed with someone who was once a very close friend of mine but who wound up breaking my heart.
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Posted: Wed Nov 05, 2008 7:54 pm
Unfortunely, my boyfriend seemed to be acting weird. Like, once, i saw him flirting with some girl, he's a very honest guy and i've never seen him do that before... And just to tell you, i'm a very curious person, so once, i came over to his house and when he was helping out his dad with something, i secretly listened to the voice mails on his cellphone. I kept hearing some about a date.
I remember what it said, it said this... "Hey, it's me Angela! Anyways, remember to pick me up for dinner. Byes and i love you!"
That scared me alot, at first, i thought it was a family member, but i don't know any of his family members named 'Angela'. I talked to him about it, and he said it was the wrong phone number and he was about to delete it now, but i started doubting it, i became so furious and i started shouting at him. We started an arguement and i left his house as if i just experienced a dramatic event (And i did).
At school, he doesn't even look at me anymore, i once stood in the park where we always meet before walking home together... I stood there, and he still didn't come and it soon started pouring down with rain (Just my luck eh?). About... An hour later or so, i saw him walking under an umbrella with a girl, and it was the same girl he flirted with!
Ah... I'm so heart broken and confused. It's raining right now, and now i don't even like the rain, in fact, i'm starting to hate it because it reminds me of my worst ever day...
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Posted: Sun Nov 09, 2008 9:34 pm
Sounds like a similar experience I had with my last boyfriend. Long story short, he and a very close friend of mine were sneaking behind my back. I dumped him and didn't speak to her for two years. I eventually forgave her, because I found out he played on a lot of girls insecurities and I know she is very insecure...but I still don't completely trust her.
He's not worth your pain if he's willing to give you up after one fight. I found my current man about a year later and we've been together two plus years now. We fight too, but that doesn't break us up. Have self-esteem and know that you did nothing wrong...you deserve a guy that you can trust completely.
My confession. I'm gaining weight and I'm afraid I'm going to end up like my mother (this sounds mean but...she's fat and she knows it). Even so...I can't seem to find the motivation to work out >.<
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Jamais Changeant Vice Captain
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Posted: Thu Nov 20, 2008 6:09 pm
I tried to kill myself.
Twice.
I am positive I am bipolar.
My friends won't listen, no matter what I say.
My mom abuses me.
My boyfriend and I are sexually active.
Recently, I have not been in control of my own actions. It's like I am a spectator to my own life. And for some reason, I'm not afraid.
And now I'm complaining.
Again.
I'm sorry.
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Posted: Fri Nov 21, 2008 5:15 am
imapumpkinwhee I tried to kill myself. Twice. I am positive I am bipolar. My friends won't listen, no matter what I say. My mom abuses me. My boyfriend and I are sexually active. Recently, I have not been in control of my own actions. It's like I am a spectator to my own life. And for some reason, I'm not afraid. And now I'm complaining. Again. I'm sorry. *huggles pumpkin* It's okay, sweetie. I'm here for you ^^
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Posted: Wed Nov 26, 2008 8:00 am
I have a confession...
I LOVE M & Ms!!
Sorry I had to lighten the mood before I tell my true...dark story.
I met a girl in my high school...a girl that wasn't like all the other girls. She was sweet, innocent. I was of course the 'bad boy.' I was always skipping class, smoking underage (which unfortunately caused me to still smoke to this day), went out partying...etc. That's when...she came to me. That day she just suddenly fell into my arms and we held each other until that dumb administrator came up and told us to get to class. I was...lovestruck and I didn't even know it. Apparently, after all that time, she had been watching...waiting. After all the horrible relationships I had been in...she still waited for me. We finally sealed the deal when she caught me from lunch and pinned me against the wall and leaned in slow to give me the sweetest kiss I had ever received. It was very magical...a moment I could never forget even to this day. I always kept telling my friends that she was on my mind all the time. She was the greatest person to me. She meant everything.
We got to know each other more and eventually we dated...for three years. But...the story doesn't end there:
Event after event the closer and closer we became. We had the greatest times of our lives. It was...perfect. The obstacles we faced we overcame. Our families loved each other and our relationship as well. We had the best times of our lives and loved every minute we spent with each other. She trusted me with everything just as I did her. She supported me in all my decisions...made me feel better when I was down. We had the world to us.
Eventually...it came to a point of regret..something I would have never seen coming. She kept asking if I loved her or not...asking...I always told her that I did. You never need to ask me...you should know. I got angry, frustrated that this simple concept couldn't get to her. She soon became obsessive. She started calling me all the time, wondering where I was. All those talks of trust and love we had were being thrown out the window with jealousy. I didn't know it would come to this and I panicked. I didn't know what to do. I told her maybe we should try giving ourselves some space for a while. She took it very hard...but I still loved her very much. I couldn't let her go. We promised each other to never go away...to never separate. Just give it time...
Time only gave opportunity. I found out a girl I used to know in Missouri liked me. She told me she always loved and missed me. I didn't...know what to say. After all...I did almost know her like I did my love here...it was as almost if I became torn. What was happening? I said words I shouldn't have said. They weren't lies...but they felt like it. I was still hurt and I didn't mean anything I said...I was just panicking...or confused. I can't even remember which.
I came to the other and she could already see it in me. That I was torn. She wanted to make me regret that I did, but she looked as if she was concerned. She used me to fulfill her desire. Claimed she 'missed me' and needed me. I simply said, "I promised you we'd never separate. I'm always here for you" She smiled after the night we had and went home...I thought to to myself...I know who really loves me now....who knew it was all a lie.
The next day...everything was thrown back in my face...I deserved it. I told her I didn't mean what I said to the girl from Missouri. She loved me...not the other way around. After the night we spent together, I knew who my true love was, I don't even know why she would think I second-guessed...She didn't even want to hear it. She told me she had been watching me all the time...she had a guy lined up from the beginning to take my place. I couldn't even tell if I was betrayed or just deserved what was coming. After all...it was my fault to begin with. I lost her...the only thing I held dear for so long. After 3 years...did I just throw it all away?
Well, I found out that was a lie as well...she simply messed around with someone during our 'break.' After all that affection we had...it was simply nothing. To this day...I still love her and miss her with all my heart. It made me learn that only true love is something you could really give up...I can't believe I did. It is my only regret to this day...to find out she spent one day with the guy that truly made her happy and is still with him. I'm guessing he can give her something I never could...
She doesn't even look at me anymore...doesn't even pass me by. Told me herself she never wanted to know or see me again. Sometimes...I don't blame her. I get frustrated...upset sometimes. But truly...all I want is for her to be happy...Even if it means me being unhappy.
Lately...she's come in my dreams...or more like...memories of the times we shared. I wake up every few hours remembering...cause I can't sleep. It has gotten worse lately. I act as if I'm ok...but honestly I'm not (oh goodness NOT MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE!!)
I know I have to move on...but I will still never forget her...even though she has long forgotten about me.
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Posted: Sat Jan 10, 2009 8:14 am
Here's one that might have you guys saying, "No surprise."
I am twisted. My friend and I live to be dominant and do anything to get there. I am the manipulative. I take her weakness and make it my strength. Yeah, we love on another as friends still, but behind the curtain, an act of a sexually driven desire for dominance is taking place. It's a corrupt opera. And we are the stars.
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Posted: Fri Feb 27, 2009 11:46 am
Let's see...
I have an obsession with sex.
I flirt with men ten years my elder.
I might have done a few things that involve a camera and my door being locked.
I am a horribly mean person. (But it's mostly humor...)
I can't say, "No" is somebody tells me to do something inappropriate.
My Step-Mother actually called me a whore... And I think it's true.
I get extremely jealous about stuff.
When I start to like somebody, I am full out.
I think I might have mental issues.
I want to kill my Step-Mother and Step-Sister.
I love to be challenged and then prove them wrong.
The concept of "Rape" turns me on.
I go on Redtube.com ... A lot.
At the moment, I hate life and thinking about becoming a lesbian.
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Posted: Sun Mar 01, 2009 6:20 am
Ok, some of this a few of you already know because of our random convo's, but I'm putting all out there.
I absolutely love porn. Real, hentai, mangas, whatever kind I love it.
I masturbate on average of once a day, and depending on the circumstances much more than that.
I sometimes have physical attractions to animals, mainly horses and dogs.
Sexual acts in very public places turn me on alot, so that sometimes leads me to afore mentioned masturbation in very public areas. I've even done it in school, in the middle of class before. Like I said, it's messed up.
Putting in the effort at school is very hard for me, but If I were told it was something I didn't have to do but it would help someone else I'd probably do it way more than I do now.
Sometimes my rage gets so bad I've been known to break things that I shouldn't have the ability to dent.
I like to hurt myself, not cutting or anything, just hurt myself.
I'm bisexual, alot of my friends know it but since I've never dated a guy they don't believe it.
More to come, when I see people's response to this.
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Posted: Sat Mar 07, 2009 5:41 pm
Hellsing Retard I've found myself having an increased desire for carnage and bloodshed, and it's seriously scaring the life out of me... Hellsing, you're not the only one.. When I first realized that my interest in gore and carnage went deeper than "like", I was scared out of my mind.... I slowly learned to accept it, over a couple years of delving deeper into stories of serial killers and the like, realizing that "Hey, I do like this stuff, but it's not something I'm necessarily going to act upon." My love for all of this carnage eventually led me to the Gurochan website, because of the mass variety of violence and bloodshed, and helped me feel more open about my love for this unusual obsession. I eventually was able to openly talk about my enjoyment of this stuff with my friends and partner, once I became more comfortable with my own desires. So hey, chin up 3nodding
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Posted: Sat Mar 07, 2009 5:51 pm
I would also like to confess a few things of my own...
*I am a totally furry fanatic, and have been following Gideon Hoss' furry artwork since I was 13 years old. My fiance knows of, and shares, my love for the furry fandom, but there are a LOT of my friends, and all of my family, who do not know of my obsession.
*I will never like boys as much as I like girls. I have told my fiance this, and it is one of the main things that is keeping us from going through with the marriage.
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Posted: Sun Mar 08, 2009 12:55 pm
I'm in the middle of a friends with benefits relationship as of now. I tried to keep it hidden, and so did the person I'm with, but our friends found out somehow. Also, someone who is just an acquaintance. But she's not telling anyone. I hope.
Trust me, this is one of those things where if people find out, my friends loses her boyfriend, gets labeled a s**t, I get labeled loose and promiscuous, and both our reputations go down deep.
[mini-note for the unknowing: I carry a vag*na.]
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Posted: Mon Mar 09, 2009 6:25 pm
kat_hatake *sigh* I personaly would like to share that I am love clueless. . .I know it might seem weird to you but I once new this guy Jake, I would hang around with my Jake because at the time i didnt know he liked me we were good friends I would go 2 his house and play Guitar hero 3 and woop him at it. . .For some reason we were in the dark together all alone suddenly he kissed me and told me he "loved me" I didnt know wat to say being so young and knowing when to say such rubbish..... I didn't like him then i thought he was too childish and would missbehave at the wrong time other than that I did like his company. . . .At school/lunch he would eye me from across the way of corse my friends would bug me about him like "He's cute Kat, you should totaly date him." It despleased me so. Some months went by I started to see some change in him he became more of a gentlemen; would let me bother him play with his hair,pinch his cheeks; he would not resist. . . . . .When ever I saw him it felt like i had a million butterflies in my stomach. One day he asked me to meet him infront of the Pe doors before PE. . .. . I thought he was going to ask me out; but he had said that Taylor (one of the rich beautiful girls) asked him out he asked me how he should act i didn't say anything i was very heartbroken; but 3 weeks later she broke up with him for a girl and moved. . .He then asked me out and i then said "yes" 4 weeks later he broke up with me with all the fun time we had shared all i ever talk about is JAKE JAKE JAKE JAKE!!! i cant controll myself i feel like im obssesed with him but im too afrain to tell somebody i had to tell someone the whole story that i never told. . . It's really hard to ask him if we could be together again but i tell myself to do these things but when i get the chance i never do it I even wanted to kiss him on the last day of school but i never did. . . . . . .I feel as if it is too late now but my friends say that there is always time to complete your goal HELP WHAT SHOULD I DO!!!!!!!!!!!!! Get up and move on. If he's too stupid to know what he's missing, run off to someone who does.
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Desirable Conversationalist
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