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HAHA!! So it's been a while and the situation has progressed in ways that are quite far from how I originally thought they should. Namely that a third party has become involved. Another boy. I've at least helped to get her away from the boy who would otherwise do her harm. But, rather than coming and being in a relationship with me (a dream come true right?) She went got into a relationship with another boy. At least I can say that this lads intents are a good hearted as my own. So I'm not all tied up in her emotional well being as I was previously. But, for a while I was emotionally hurt that she wouldn't want to pursue a relationship with me. I expressed this to her in a VERY long e-mail. Which she promptly replied to with "we will never be together". She then told me she would explain all in a letter (which she has yet to give to me). So she dated this fellow for a while. Then out of the blue one day she calls me to tell me that she broke up with the good guy for the bad guy again. Only to find out a few weeks later that she won't be taken back by the bad man. But the good guy took her back again (what a sweet lad). Either way, between then and now I've more or less come to accept the situation at hand. Although I feel like my hearts been thrown around a bit liberally so I'm not going to go looking for a relationship any time soon. But I must say that the last few weeks have not gone dully by. We're still friends, and we still talk. But, after talking to her, and seeing the decisions she makes on a regular basis, I don't think I want to have a romantic relationship with her after all. She's wishy washy, and doesn't take much consideration before she speaks and acts. Which leads to constant contradiction and it's hard to rely on her. So, I can certainly stay friends with her, but I don't think (after all I now know) that I could put myself through a romantic relationship with her until, she grows up a little. I don't think I'm ready for a relationship like that either quite yet, considering I'm still tackling with the concepts of love and what it means to be in a relationship in the first place.

Well, despite the ample heart ache I've experienced, looking back I've found that the drama betwixt her and I has been quite entertaining and I hope you all have throughly enjoyed the crazy turn of events that has involved me. I know I sure have.

I hear that brother. No use rushing things. I don't even have a plan for my future let alone trying to plan a future for me and someone else. But, hey man s**t like this builds character. I'll never forget those two nights with her, nor what I what I've experienced in the roller coaster of days that followed. I'm just glad for the show man, other wise what the hella would I have to do while I lived out my life. Pretty rich if I do say so myself. Thanks for any respect given, but there's no need to feel sorry. I made my decisions and things have played out as they have and I feel no sorrow what so ever. So don't pity man, like you said, I'm still alive. And I must say, I think I'm quite thriving.

Lif is progressing fantastically in other areas. My summer is all planned out. Work, two vacations, and right now I'm doing rehearsals for a production of "Much ado about Nothing" where I play the part of Don Pedro. It'll be great, I can't wait to put it on. But, enough about me, how about you? Going anywhere exciting or doing anything crazy over the summer?

ROck and roll man. Gotta love the six flags. Be sure to ride Madusa like 3 times for me cause that ride is the beez knees. Teh cooles s**t evar. As far as college goes, are you going straight into the university? Not going to a community college first?

Aww!! That sucks, I love the Madusa! Well if you're ever in Vallejo, California hit up the six flags there and ride the Madusa. It's bomb.
As far as college goes, good luck man. It can be tough jumping right into the 4yr. But, if you buckle down and stick with it then you can get out quick and easy and score a sweet job. Or do whatever it is you plan on doing with your college education.
Frankly I still don't have any direction to take my college education. I was contemplating majoring history and minoring in philosophy. But, I can do anything I want so I'm not sure I want to commit to anything now.
How about you? Any ideas on what you want to learn?

OOOO, sciences. I contemplated going to HSU (Humboldt, way WAY up north.) to do biology, but what can I say. I don't have the discipline to study the sciences. I love to hear about them, but when it comes to studies, I'm all about the humanities.

Oh and Vallejo is kinda north. Certainly A LOT more north than San Diego.

WEll, I do live in Sacramento actually. So Vallejo isn't that far from us. And as far as action goes, I love action but history is actually all kinds of reading and reviewing so it looks like I'm going to be stuck behind a desk after all. But, I like the review. It's like, examining why we "know" everything we "know". Perhaps I can discover how someone ******** up along the line and I can rewrite history. So to speak anyway. I don't know, it's just so interesting how we take what a bunch of historians say for wrote. A lot of them are just making good arguments on how things "might" have been. Like that movie 300, it's based on real event but it's filled with inaccuracies and misinterpretations. And it takes everything out of context. But, that's not even spoken by a historian. Think of what happens when a historian slaps on his intellectual sounding turn of phrase, and then adds a quote from some text that makes his statement sound true (despite how out of context it may be). And see now, I've gone of on a tangent.

Do you live in San Diego? Or just some small town in San Diego county?

Very nice very nice. You know, I've never spent very much time in Southern California. I should go down there and check it out some time. I know it's hotter and I think it's dryer. But I hear the beaches are absolutely loverly. Is Oceanside on the coast?