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 Posted: Thu Sep 01, 2005 8:43 pm
DAMN ALL PEOPLE TO HELL!!!!
PEOPLE CAOULD ATLEAST COME BUMP IN MY DAMN AUCTION! MY GOSH I CAN'T EFFIN BELIEVE THIS!!!!
A FEW MINUTES IT TAKES. I'VE SEEN PEOPLE BID ON ART WORSE THEN MINE EVEN THOUGH MINE IS PRETTY GOOD AND ME. NONE. IT'S 8 FRIGGIN PIXE THIGNS FOR A START OF 100G. HOW BAD IS THAT!?! EXACTLY! IT'S NOT!
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Posted: Thu Sep 01, 2005 10:32 pm
@Roselite: I had a similar situation (although not as bad) with my first girlfriend.
I guess I'll rant about all that now, because it still pisses me off, even though that wasn't what I was planning on ranting about. (I think I've told this story a few times at least in this guild. ^^; ) (Well, I guess I'll post my other rant another time?) But, if you care to, read this, and help me try to answer and fix the problem that I posed at the end.
So, last year I started getting closer to my friend Ali. I mean, we weren't really good friends (and didn't become so until after dating), but we started hanging out more because she would come and sit in on my last class. It was nothing really, it just started out as a little crush, but when she and her girlfriend stopped dating, I let myself start really liking her and flirting a lot. About a month after she and her ex stopped dating, I got up the nerve to ask her to the winter ball. She smiled and said yes. I was ecstatic! I remember this pretty clearly. She said to me a few minutes later, "I probably shouldn't be asking this, but...you did ask me because you're interested, right?"
I said yes, then replied with, "I probably shouldn't be asking this, but you did say yes because you're interested, right?"
She replied in the affirmative.
So, the next few days we had some little dates, and she gave me my first kiss. That also pisses me off! I haven't been kissed decently since Ali! Anyway, we became "official." A few days later, (it was a Tuesday) I gave her a goodmorning kiss, and things were fine. However, at lunch she avoided me, and at rehearsal for the musical (I stage-managed, she was on crew) she was really distant. After rehearsal, she asked me if we could talk, and then told me that she was confused as to whether or not she liked me or just thought of me as a friend. Then she asked if we could just back off.
Well, what could I say? I agreed, then my mom gave her a ride home. (She's younger than me, and this was before I had my license.) We didn't talk at all on the way home. When she got out of the car and my mom pulled away, I just started crying.
(After the breakup, she gave me really mixed signals for a while. It made it so I couldn't get over her because there would be times when I knew she liked me, and I had to see her every day for school and rehearsal.)
Anyway, that's all ancient history. I'm okay with our relationship and the breakup now. It took me a while, because she didn't give me any closure (it wasn't "let's break up," it was "I don't know..."). However, I got my own closure later, in a conversation with her. She was saying that she was still confused and that she went back and forth between liking me and not, but I told her that it was fine and that I would get over her. I don't think that made her too happy, but whatever.
We became really good friends after that. I considered her to be one of my best. Boy, was I a fool.
So, six months later, we're in Oregon for the Shakespeare festival with our school's drama dept. I was sitting next to her in one of the plays, and just kinda cuddling up because I was tired, and that's just the kind of person I am. I flirt, and not just verbally, and most of the time it really means nothing. It's just part of my personality. Anyway, so she started talking to me during the second intermission; the conversation went something like this:
Ali: ...This probably isn't a good time to ask, but...would you like to go to a movie with me...like on a date?
Me: *shocked speechless* (I had no idea she still liked me, and I had long gotten over her.) *after a minute of silence* ...As a date, probably not. I don't think I could stay friends with you a second time.
Ali: I know I was a real a*****e last time, but (the lights dim, and the play starts up again)
Me: We'll talk about this later.
So, after the play, the group was walking back to the hostel, and I started talking with Ali again. She was saying that she was an a*****e last time, and that she would be different now, and yadda yadda yadda. She also said that she had been thinking for the six months since we broke up, and had come to the conclusion that she really liked me.
I told her that I wasn't sure, and that I didn't want to lead her on. I asked for some time to think. She told me to take all the time I needed. Ha!
I also asked her about some of the girls she had told me that she liked. She said that she didn't like them anymore, and that that was one of the reasons she had thought that maybe it wasn't a good time to ask me out again, because she didn't want me to think that I was a rebound. I told her that our previous relationship had been a rebound for her, and she apologized. I replied that it had been my fault for asking her out too soon after her previous breakup.
Anyway, so we kept talking, and I was really confused, because I didn't know if I liked her. I really didn't, but I also didn't want to hurt her, and I guess I was just kinda vulnerable because I wanted a relationship. So, I talked to one of my other friends, and she helped me to realize that I had already made my decision ("no"), and that it would be better to tell Ali after the trip.
The rest of the trip was awkward, to say the least. Ali kept trying to be near me, and it was really unnerving. Then, we played sex dice with the girls in our room (a good number of which were bi or lesbian), and Ali and I got eachother a few times. When I got her, it was to kiss her lips, so I told her to not move and to keep her mouth shut. It was a quick kiss, and that further helped me decide that I didn't want to date her. It was unpleasant for me.
Anyway, so on the busride home, I had my other friend sit with me. About two-ish hours from home, I look over to see Ali and this other girl making out. She didn't even notice how angry and hurt I was.
Here, I had been so nice when she told me that she liked me, I had asked for time to think, and she had given it, or so I thought. She had told me that she really cared for me, and here she was, making out with another girl before I've even answered her. For all she knew, I was going to say yes! (Due to my later reaction, she probably thought I had been about to say yes.) That really hurt. It made me feel like I wasn't worth anything, and that I was just tossable. My friend, Ang, who was sitting with me comforted me and told me that I was worth so much more.
I was hurt and furious. I don't think I have ever been that angry in my life. I was trembling and tearing up in fury, and I couldn't stop the shaking.
It took probably an hour for Ali to notice that...Oh, whoops! She's not happy! (No s**t Sherlock.) I looked over, saw Ali holding her head in her hands and looking like "Oh s**t, what have I done?" and I saw the girl with whom she had been making out moving up some seats.
That made saying no to her so very very easy.
Then, as we were arriving, Ang said to me, "Ali wants to talk to you when we get off the bus."
I replied, loud enough for Ali to hear, but to Ang (and in an "I really don't care" voice) "I know."
So, we got off the bus. I passed Ali, said coldly, "I will talk to you when I have my stuff." I got my stuff, went back. "Where are we talking."
She moved into a spot with no people. She wouldn't even look me in the eye! She was just saying how what she did was shitty and that she really did like me, etc. etc. etc.
I told her to forget the whole weekend. (AKA, I want to forget you even told me you liked me.) Also, that it wouldn't have worked out.
That night, I went home and bawled to my parents. I don't think I've cried that much, except when my grandfather died. I was so hurt that someone I trusted could do that to me, and it really made me not want to be in the real world.
I got time to think, and didn't speak to her for a few days. Then, I spoke to her again, after she gave me a letter trying to explain, but we haven't really been good friends, and I've not been comfortable around her since. Then, this summer, I found out that she was fingering the other girl, as well as making out! Needless to say, I was absolutely disgusted with the fact that a)she did that on a bus with the rest of us and b)she did that at that time.
I have not been friendly with her since then, even though she tried to be buddy-buddy with me.
Except now that school's back in session, there's the chance of me running into her, since she runs with my friends. Although, I have no classes with any of them, so it's my choice if and when I see them. I just...feel like a shitty person when I ignore her, but I don't really want to acknowledge her, either.
And <********> am I still bothered by this?!
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Posted: Fri Sep 02, 2005 4:35 pm
i hate religion. that should say it all. and not just christianity. no all the major religions. all they do is get in the way of humanity becoming one comunity, just another way people can alienate others. its a way for people to convince themselves that their more then the briliant great grand children of less inteligent primates. its a way that they can try and prove there race was ment to ruel the world, and gives themselve a reason why its ok to hate surten people. it may not have been created for all these reasons but its what it truley is. an ugly falce reality that make people think their beter, or some times worce then what they are. im sorry i know its harsh, but right now i don't care, im tired of people hating each other becous they have different make beleve higherarchys. it would be great if they can al exept each other but they refuse to. i dont want to accept al religions i want to destroy all of them.
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Posted: Fri Sep 02, 2005 4:39 pm
I hate it when people have low selfasteam and then they talk behind poeple's backs and try to make poeple go against you, even though they know that they are wrong, and that they don't have enough friends. >_< I hate school in that sence....emo people ...-_-...
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Posted: Fri Sep 02, 2005 4:42 pm
loginbin3000 Ever want to burst out because of whats happened in your life? Here's the place to do it! After all... the more you shout... the better you feel as well as getting lots of pain and misery off your chest. So go on! Take a deep breath and WHAM! --- I hate n00bs... Im absoloutly SICK OF THEM domokun God damn them. Always like. 'Hey cn u plz giv me sum gyia gold plz k thx lolz' or '*emerges from the bush next oto the window and asks the murderer how he was ((rofl lmfao lolz))*' GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRI totally understand about the whole noobs thing. I hate their stupid short forms...the max of short form that is not so bad is "lol" and thats that....
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Posted: Fri Sep 02, 2005 4:55 pm
wordman rant in white... so taht way you have to CHOOSE to read it! 3nodding What the ********!? how the hell can you break up with me and say you still love me? how can you break up with me by telling your friend to tell me that it's over? while the whole ******** time she was telling me, you were RIGHT THERE and you wouldnt even look at me!? what the hell is this?! You said you loved me last time I saw you, and now this!? what the ******** is wrong with you!? I love you still, and I'm losing sleep because of this, but s**t I hate you at the same time. When will you come to your senses? probably the same time I do... s**t.Part two! How the hell was I stupid enough to let you do taht to me!? You could've ******** told me you didn't like me in JUNE we were only together 9 months then, that's not as bad, I could've transferred ******** schools and been with my friends, you stupid b***h! How the hell can you have done this to me? and how the hell did I believe you!? Today, you have your friend tell me WHY we broke up. It's not what she said last time, but you know, having another ******** boyfriend would've been a much better excuse, you whore. I can't believe all the s**t you gave me for hanging around other girls... and YOU end up being with another man! ******** YOU! I'll never forgive you.
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Posted: Fri Sep 02, 2005 6:57 pm
The past few days my roommate has been flipping out because her sister's long-distance boyfriend had supposedly had a heart attack and died. They were skeptical about it, since his friends had tried to pull that stunt once before.
Someone was going to hack them to find out if he was really dead or not, and people talked to people and stuff.
Long story short, these two kids *stole the identity of their classmate*. They've been parading around on AIM and Ragnarok and who knows where other internetly places, using his old screen names and such. Since *May* at least, they've been lying to the poor girl and all of the real kids online friends. Maybe even since *November*. And no one ever knew they were doing it.
That's identity theft, folks.
pisses me the crap off.
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Posted: Fri Sep 02, 2005 10:40 pm
Well...isn't this a lovely place?
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CURSE YOU KATRINA! (the hurricane) LOOK AT WHAT YOU DID TO ALL THOSE POOR PEOPLE! crying
And the fact that no one's helping all of those who are stuck on the bridge...SERIOUSLY, get someone to let them leave. Have you been watching the news? They aren't letting some people leave New Orleans to go to a newer, safer city to take refuge. IT'S F***ING SICK! They have no where to defecate or urinate, nothing good or nutritious to eat, no where to go and nothing to do in the hot sun for hours on end.
Ugh...and all the people in the Super dome...ugh...it's all just so horrible.
Okay...had my say.
Although, my dad asked me: "If you won a million dollar lottery by some chance, how much of it would you donate to the Katrina victims?"
Half. 3nodding
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Posted: Fri Sep 02, 2005 11:11 pm
Anata @Roselite: I had a similar situation (although not as bad) with my first girlfriend. I guess I'll rant about all that now, because it still pisses me off, even though that wasn't what I was planning on ranting about. (I think I've told this story a few times at least in this guild. ^^; ) (Well, I guess I'll post my other rant another time?) But, if you care to, read this, and help me try to answer and fix the problem that I posed at the end. So, last year I started getting closer to my friend Ali. I mean, we weren't really good friends (and didn't become so until after dating), but we started hanging out more because she would come and sit in on my last class. It was nothing really, it just started out as a little crush, but when she and her girlfriend stopped dating, I let myself start really liking her and flirting a lot. About a month after she and her ex stopped dating, I got up the nerve to ask her to the winter ball. She smiled and said yes. I was ecstatic! I remember this pretty clearly. She said to me a few minutes later, "I probably shouldn't be asking this, but...you did ask me because you're interested, right?"
I said yes, then replied with, "I probably shouldn't be asking this, but you did say yes because you're interested, right?"
She replied in the affirmative.
So, the next few days we had some little dates, and she gave me my first kiss. That also pisses me off! I haven't been kissed decently since Ali! Anyway, we became "official." A few days later, (it was a Tuesday) I gave her a goodmorning kiss, and things were fine. However, at lunch she avoided me, and at rehearsal for the musical (I stage-managed, she was on crew) she was really distant. After rehearsal, she asked me if we could talk, and then told me that she was confused as to whether or not she liked me or just thought of me as a friend. Then she asked if we could just back off.
Well, what could I say? I agreed, then my mom gave her a ride home. (She's younger than me, and this was before I had my license.) We didn't talk at all on the way home. When she got out of the car and my mom pulled away, I just started crying.
(After the breakup, she gave me really mixed signals for a while. It made it so I couldn't get over her because there would be times when I knew she liked me, and I had to see her every day for school and rehearsal.)
Anyway, that's all ancient history. I'm okay with our relationship and the breakup now. It took me a while, because she didn't give me any closure (it wasn't "let's break up," it was "I don't know..."). However, I got my own closure later, in a conversation with her. She was saying that she was still confused and that she went back and forth between liking me and not, but I told her that it was fine and that I would get over her. I don't think that made her too happy, but whatever.
We became really good friends after that. I considered her to be one of my best. Boy, was I a fool.
So, six months later, we're in Oregon for the Shakespeare festival with our school's drama dept. I was sitting next to her in one of the plays, and just kinda cuddling up because I was tired, and that's just the kind of person I am. I flirt, and not just verbally, and most of the time it really means nothing. It's just part of my personality. Anyway, so she started talking to me during the second intermission; the conversation went something like this:
Ali: ...This probably isn't a good time to ask, but...would you like to go to a movie with me...like on a date?
Me: *shocked speechless* (I had no idea she still liked me, and I had long gotten over her.) *after a minute of silence* ...As a date, probably not. I don't think I could stay friends with you a second time.
Ali: I know I was a real a*****e last time, but (the lights dim, and the play starts up again)
Me: We'll talk about this later.
So, after the play, the group was walking back to the hostel, and I started talking with Ali again. She was saying that she was an a*****e last time, and that she would be different now, and yadda yadda yadda. She also said that she had been thinking for the six months since we broke up, and had come to the conclusion that she really liked me.
I told her that I wasn't sure, and that I didn't want to lead her on. I asked for some time to think. She told me to take all the time I needed. Ha!
I also asked her about some of the girls she had told me that she liked. She said that she didn't like them anymore, and that that was one of the reasons she had thought that maybe it wasn't a good time to ask me out again, because she didn't want me to think that I was a rebound. I told her that our previous relationship had been a rebound for her, and she apologized. I replied that it had been my fault for asking her out too soon after her previous breakup.
Anyway, so we kept talking, and I was really confused, because I didn't know if I liked her. I really didn't, but I also didn't want to hurt her, and I guess I was just kinda vulnerable because I wanted a relationship. So, I talked to one of my other friends, and she helped me to realize that I had already made my decision ("no"), and that it would be better to tell Ali after the trip.
The rest of the trip was awkward, to say the least. Ali kept trying to be near me, and it was really unnerving. Then, we played sex dice with the girls in our room (a good number of which were bi or lesbian), and Ali and I got eachother a few times. When I got her, it was to kiss her lips, so I told her to not move and to keep her mouth shut. It was a quick kiss, and that further helped me decide that I didn't want to date her. It was unpleasant for me.
Anyway, so on the busride home, I had my other friend sit with me. About two-ish hours from home, I look over to see Ali and this other girl making out. She didn't even notice how angry and hurt I was.
Here, I had been so nice when she told me that she liked me, I had asked for time to think, and she had given it, or so I thought. She had told me that she really cared for me, and here she was, making out with another girl before I've even answered her. For all she knew, I was going to say yes! (Due to my later reaction, she probably thought I had been about to say yes.) That really hurt. It made me feel like I wasn't worth anything, and that I was just tossable. My friend, Ang, who was sitting with me comforted me and told me that I was worth so much more.
I was hurt and furious. I don't think I have ever been that angry in my life. I was trembling and tearing up in fury, and I couldn't stop the shaking.
It took probably an hour for Ali to notice that...Oh, whoops! She's not happy! (No s**t Sherlock.) I looked over, saw Ali holding her head in her hands and looking like "Oh s**t, what have I done?" and I saw the girl with whom she had been making out moving up some seats.
That made saying no to her so very very easy.
Then, as we were arriving, Ang said to me, "Ali wants to talk to you when we get off the bus."
I replied, loud enough for Ali to hear, but to Ang (and in an "I really don't care" voice) "I know."
So, we got off the bus. I passed Ali, said coldly, "I will talk to you when I have my stuff." I got my stuff, went back. "Where are we talking."
She moved into a spot with no people. She wouldn't even look me in the eye! She was just saying how what she did was shitty and that she really did like me, etc. etc. etc.
I told her to forget the whole weekend. (AKA, I want to forget you even told me you liked me.) Also, that it wouldn't have worked out.
That night, I went home and bawled to my parents. I don't think I've cried that much, except when my grandfather died. I was so hurt that someone I trusted could do that to me, and it really made me not want to be in the real world.
I got time to think, and didn't speak to her for a few days. Then, I spoke to her again, after she gave me a letter trying to explain, but we haven't really been good friends, and I've not been comfortable around her since. Then, this summer, I found out that she was fingering the other girl, as well as making out! Needless to say, I was absolutely disgusted with the fact that a)she did that on a bus with the rest of us and b)she did that at that time.
I have not been friendly with her since then, even though she tried to be buddy-buddy with me.
Except now that school's back in session, there's the chance of me running into her, since she runs with my friends. Although, I have no classes with any of them, so it's my choice if and when I see them. I just...feel like a shitty person when I ignore her, but I don't really want to acknowledge her, either.
And <********> am I still bothered by this?! our stories are pretty similar, really...
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Posted: Sat Sep 03, 2005 1:44 am
Taylor_Highwind Well...isn't this a lovely place?
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CURSE YOU KATRINA! (the hurricane) LOOK AT WHAT YOU DID TO ALL THOSE POOR PEOPLE! crying
And the fact that no one's helping all of those who are stuck on the bride...SERIOUSLY, get someone to let them leave. Have you been watching the news? They aren't letting some people leave New Orleans to go to a newer, safer city to take refuge. IT'S F***ING SICK! They have no where to defecate or urinate, nothing good or nutritious to eat, no where to go and nothing to do in the hot sun for hours on end.
Ugh...and all the people in the Super dome...ugh...it's all just so horrible.
Okay...had my say.
Although, my dad asked me: "If you won a million dollar lottery by some chance, how much of it would you donate to the Katrina victims?"
Half. 3nodding not to be to contraversal but i think they need to get their own sh*t together and start helping them selves. the fact that some people dont want to leave their homes. or how bout the people that are shooting at the rescuers. and a big pisser for me is the people that are bitching about oh i lost this i dont have that and im still waiting for my welfare check. well you know what maybe if you got up and did something for yourself instead of relieing on the goverment then you wouldnt be in suck a position. dont get me wrong, im more then for the efort of helping. but when some people wont do anything to be helped is when i start thinking that some people should be left to fend for themselves. let nature take its course and weed out some of the people that are too lazy to do anything for themselves. it just dosent give me any faith in humanity sometimes. sorry if i seem like a d**k but when something pisses me off. its usally really big. so let the ones willing to be help, to be helped and the ones that want everything handed to them, well let them deal with everything on their own.
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Posted: Sat Sep 03, 2005 11:12 am
There is only one thing I hate about Katrina (other than it happened) is that all those a*****e people who left all those animals!!! I love animals and most of them were family members of the victims. If it was me out there I would make them take my puppies.
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Posted: Sat Sep 03, 2005 11:15 am
Roselite There is only one thing I hate about Katrina (other than it happened) is that all those a*****e people who left all those animals!!! I love animals and most of them were family members of the victims. If it was me out there I would make them take my puppies. OMG are you serious? That's horrible!! gonk
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Posted: Mon Sep 05, 2005 5:34 pm
To go along with wordman and others:
well come to find out my x broke up with me a little while ago. from a relationship of over 2 years. And of course most of it was form her insecuritys. well i recently found out she is now tring to date my good freind that ive know for 8 years. and it sucks because now he never hangs out with me. he stays home and talks with her on im or text msgs. cause she lives 3 hours north of here. whitch is what she clamied was the problem we broke up over, the distance and not spending enough time im person with her. even though i would drive up every other weekend. and spend my money on gas. it almost cost me an entier paycheck per month. and she would only come down maybe once a month if not every 6 weeks. and when she did she would take the train and bus down and i would end up driving her around anyways. ******** gas prices. so i makes no sence to me. and i know it wont last long but im loseing a good freind over it and neither one of them want to here that it wont work, specialy from me cause i would just be the jelouse X. So right now im stuck in a ******** everyone mood. i spend more time alone then anything. but i have plenty of time to work on computers now. and i get a wonderfull monitor glow. so im not wanting any major relationship anytime soon. i enjoy cuddeling with my plushies just fine.
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Posted: Mon Sep 05, 2005 10:28 pm
wordman our stories are pretty similar, really... *hugs* Your ex-girlfriend seems really...like a b***h. confused Gad, I hate people.
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Posted: Mon Sep 05, 2005 11:54 pm
Go Retail world ^_^;. Im gonna post this I'm my journal, but I had to post it here for me ><.
So, Today 9/5/05 Labor day was a busy busy day in retail. I had a load of customers, and just way to many people to deal with that should have been out having fun, that I couldn't have had. Anyways I had a jewel of a customer toward the end (being very sarcastic here ><). Ok, this b***h came up to my lane (cashier @ Walmart -_-) gabbing on her cell phone, standing around just taking up space, which is totally pissing my off. I go up to help he get her s**t out of her cart. As I'm picking up a whicker basket to put on the belt, she says to me that she's not sure if she wants it. Now what dip-s**t decides that they are going to go around the store with a whicker basket and not decide to buy it. So this b***h just leaves it near my lane for some a** to either bump into it, or pull it out for some other person to trip fall and cause a big mess. So I call a CSM (Customer Service Manager) to get rid of it. Anyways, I'm ringing her stuff up, and her brat is playing around with the carousel spinning it around making my job harder, and she's just kindly telling him to stop it, when he needed a firm stop this s**t or else type of thing. In order for me to do my job, I have to hold the carousel with my left hand and grab things with my right hand (not fun at all). Eventually the kid gets tired of trying to turn the carousel and not get results, so the little s**t walks around back of me and pokes me in the a**. This little 4 or 5 year old s**t poked me in the a** and I'm on my last nerve. Thankfully for him I finished scanning her s**t and got her to pay and get the hell away from me. However if the little s**t poked me again, I would have in a loud voice told that b***h if she didn't get her son in order, I would have called a manager over. One of the very merry retail experiences ^_-.
-Im done-
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