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The lady is still sick today so she gave me something to fill out to occupie my time. M'hall dsent want oen and is eating more popcorn and colouring.


Name people call you: Alisdare, Dare
The nice nicknames: Dare
The god-awful nicknames you hate to be called: none
Pets: none yet but the lady says she might get me one
Parents: I don’t remember
Siblings none
Age in dog years: I don’t know
~*~FAVORITES~*~
Color: Dark green
Animal? fox
Song? True colours, it's pretty and the lady has aneat AMV of it
Book? Charlie and the choclate factory
Movie: Grease ,cuase everyone sings and dances alot
Foods: Greek salad
Toothpaste: ?
Flower(s): violets
~*~Miscellaneous~*~
Thing that you would love someone to do for you that no one ever has: Tell me why no one liked me before the lady did.
Dream that came true: Made a friend
Do You Believe in Shooting Stars: yes
Do You Believe In Men from Mars: yes I think maybe that’s wwhere M'hall is from cept don't tell him incase he thinks he has to go back.
Do You Believe in UFO’s: yes
Do You Believe in Love at First Sight: ummm
Do You Believe in Eternity: I will if I live that long
Do You Believe in Soulmates: yes
Do You Believe in Prince/Princess Charming: no they are only for fables
What’s more important-love or money: love
What do you feel guilty about right now: the lady beign sick and me and m'hall worrying her yesterday.
What is the last thing that made you smile: M'hall lickign a marble.
-Laugh: same thing
-Cry: When I though I'd lost m'hall
What do you need/want right now: the lady to be better so we can decorate her room cuase she said we could do it togheater.
Do you obey rules: yes
Do you really: yes
Who is the last person you shared a secret with: M'hall
Been in love before: no
Been to Outter Space: maybe
Coffee or tea: tea especially mint tea.
Blanket or stuffed animal: both
Color of socks that are on you now: not wearing any
Favorite Number: none
What do u do most when you're bored: look at pictures in books. I want to take pictures some day.
What word/phrase/saying do u use too much: I dunno
What Friend lives the farthest away: trinket
Most annoying thing: that I never met trinket at the mansion
Best things: My own room, warms meals and friends

mm popcorn, dare is scribblign on paper about himself while the lady gave me tiny crayon peices and i drew a picture.

Note: I got my picture the other day from the lady who drew me. My skin isn?t quite right but it's a very nice picture and I have a kiki kitty on my head. I think I might have preferred the circlet. It's like a tiara and they are pretty.

Its dinnertime and Dare hasn't come out of his room, which is unusual. He's also quiet that can't be good; he and M'hall are usually so loud I fear the neighbours will come over. I nevr ask what they do mainly because they don't seem to be hurt afterwards.


I walked swiftly down the cream coloured hallway stepping around a ragged kiki kitty plushie and a patched up black teddy bear that are either hugging or engaged in battle, with dare I never know. He's an enigma so everything he does could have a million interpretations. I love that about him though how his mind seems to go in tangents, there nothing predictable about my Dare. Of course the fact that he will still play with stuffed animals makes me wonder. Should I send him out more often let him meet more kids.

"He's got to stop leaving his toys in the hall" I murmured and paused in his doorway listening closely.

Nothing, nervously I pushed the door open and my eyes darted around the room. There in a courner curled into fetal postion is Dare. If it hadn't been for the lava lamp on his dresser illuminating the otherwise dark room, I'd never have spotted him he's so good at hiding. M'hall was nowhere in sight and I'd need to find him soon too.

I walk gingerly across the room, noting the carpet is crunchy and needs to be vacuumed. M'hall has got to start eating something other than popcorn and pickles it's not healthy and no vet is going to treat a skeggz. I knelt beside Dare watching to see if he flinches or notices me at all.

" Dare what's wrong" I asked softly, gently.

" This girl.. At the school, was bugging me because of my skin and hair and I couldn't concentrate on anything and when the teacher asked me question I couldn?t answer." He grumbled

I gave a soft sigh; I'd sent him to a school today with the principal's permission to see if he was caught up enough through tutoring with me to join a class. Apparently I?d forgotten that kids at that age tease and torment.
Much as I am a sulker myself I knew it wasn't good for him to stay that way. It would only cause him to brood and being a dislike of other people that could fester into worse things.

" Dare you have to get up, and eat and help me find M'hall" I insisted

" I'm not hungry, and M'hall under the bed playing with legos building a boat to float in for our bath" he murmured.

I sighed, "well you can't have a bath with a lego boat if you don't get up."

" I'm not going back," he informed me'

I shrugged " I'll hoem school you, it was only a trial day. But I am signing you up for some sort of extracurricular'

'Can I have bubbles" he asked softly

I blinked and smiled " sure vanilla or chocolate;

"Both" he asked hopefully

I nodded and ruffle his hair

'Vanilla and chocolate bubbles it is now go get M'hall and get ready"

I stood and ehaded out the room cricis averted to ready the bath.

The dishes are done the clothes are in the dryer, Dare's outside cleaning out the birdbath. Finally piece and quiet so I can relax and finish the bloody tommyknockers. I swear if I have to put that book down one more time due to distraction or boredom I'm giving up the damn things a menace to my sanity.

" lady lady you have go to see this it's weird" dare voices come floating in the kitchen window.

I sigh and get up from the table eying the tommyknockers with disdain " garage sale for you' I mutter under my breather and walked out the kitchen door into my backyard. I figure whatever dare's found is boudnto be mildy amusing after all he dosent get exceited about just anything.

I walk across the grass noting that its brushing my feet despite beign in sandles and thus needs to be cut. A chores dare and I willno doubt figth over seeing as both of us like towatch outdorrs stuff enotehr of us is really find out beign outside.

Ther ein the mode of my backyards was dare staring at my new bird bath. Wellhsi new bird bath an odd blackpainte perceilun tower with a giant water dish on it. Hwoever it was what he was starign at whch was even odder.a strage flower appear to have dropped from seomwher eitno it and was floating about intit. Evrytime dare attmeptedto prod it it hwould float just out of reach.

I blinked and wonderd if it was another refugee of the mansion. Either way it couldn't really hrut the bird abth .' leave it be dare and come inside eventually whatevr it is will move".

I smiled still wathcign the flower. It was beauitfull shade of dark blue and it seemd to project a sort of happiness. Even its reflection on the glassy surface of the water was soemthgin that made you just want to smile.

Dare sighed and waked over to me " it's odd and it's in the birdbath" he said glaring at it accusingly.

I laughed ' it can’t stay there forever besides I think it's a special flower. Give it some time to get use to you being out here and then try to transplant it in a few days. Put up those wind chimes I bough perhaps it will like the music. I suggested.

Dare eyes the flower again less excited about it than he had been and went to do as I asked. Shaking my head I turned to go inside as well, the thing seemed attached to the birdbath there was no point in upsetting it trying to move it.

Soemthing new has arrived at the house it's small and it has the lady and dare intrested in it. it had better night try and live in my pouch

I have to stop being so soft hearted I really do here I am walking home with a slipper clutched to my chest, not just any slipper though no a slipper puppy. I couldn?t resist her the moment I saw her all black with green paint splattered marking on her. Immediately I though of my old friend Decsuna and how much of an oddity she was and so of course I'd bought the puppy and named her after Decs.

I could see it now I'd walk into the house with the little wriggling slipper attempting to lick my face off, dare would take one look at her and ask me why I'd brought another one home with another child on the way. M'hall would attempt to nibble on her seeing if she was edible and my little flower in the birdbath, she'd probably not care.

On the bright side I'll not have to puppy proof the house seeing as it's kritter proof and kritters area damn site more troublesome then puppies.


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I don't believe it I don't ******** believe it , the lady brought hoem a puppy well sort of it?s a slipper that looks sort of like a puppy. It's all black with green splotches on it. We've barely got the house ready for the girl we've adopted from the tahnee orphanage and she's brought home this slipper puppy.

Oh hell it's cute as ******** and even I don?t mind it's nibbling on my toes. M'hall seemed quiet taken with it at first attempting to sleep inside it and making some sort of conversation with it. . the out of it blue it lefts an ear hearing some noise beyond our range in the distance and goes bounding out of the room M'hall squeaking and clinging on inside for dear life. Suffice to say when Decsuna was caught and M'hall rescued their previous friendship had ended.

Of course I think it will be like little kids they'd fight for a few days then be best of friends again. I hope so anyways M'hall could use some friends and Decsuna really is quite nice.

I need to head back to the mansion soon. Talk to the butler find out where I came from, fill in my memory gaps. I need to just not get distracted this time. Not that the distraction wasn't ******** wonderful. Which reminds me to go to miss nephy's store and stalk up on supplies for any eventuality.

The drama society is holding auditions this week and next for clockwork orange, I need to go to them and try for Alex. I think I can pull him off and I really do find drama an interesting subject . it is a way of exercising my creativity while once again watching people and analyzing them and body language. I intend to know t he way homo sapiens work before I'm a teenager at the most impressionable and dangerous time of my life.



She brought home a slipper that barks and bounces and tries to hurt me. Wait till I get bigger Decs, you'll see what a mistake that was.

So much is going on in the house I almost wish I was there. Howevere it is pleasant to float hear and listen to nature. Eventually someone will come out and care for me. Soon however I hope to be free to join them all.

Things to do
1. find out more about brekke
2. take Decsuna to obedience lessons
3. write a long rant about half blood prince
4. make a date with nephy
5. get a present for Shauna.

things to do
1. teach trinket the meanings of restraint
2. have a talk with Orion about his preferences
3. have a long chat with samsara starting with the words " if you ever give Trink a reason to cry other than his own naive stupidity"
4. practise for my audition

A raven in slight soaring into the sun free and happy. The lady lunging foreword as she practises her forgotten fencing skills. Decsuna and M'hall racing down the hallway for a dish of food at the end. So many pictures so many good memories. And yet they take up on a fraction of my wall and only a fraction of my mind. There are more pictures of trinket and Orion pictures of brekke despite her hating camera. All of them are plastered on the black wall filling that empty space. I place each of them there and hope they will become the good memories that outnumber the bad ones, and the ones I don't remember.

What with a new sibling I haven’t dares asked trinket to visit the mansion with me again so I can get awnsers.every day I put it off and every day I have less courage to try and find out. The happier I became with my friends and new family the less I wanted to dig up the past the less I wanted to know.

But then why did I spend my allowance calling random phone number I though I remembered why did I search online for the. For a small pudgey women with curly red hair who was covered in freckles and a tall man who towered over everyone and wore a ministers collar. Why were my parents strangers why did I remember going to the movies and church and the fair but no their names not my address not what happened after I opened the switchblade and thrust it at.. at who and why.

Ok so life has gotten ,, hectic around her. first the lady brings home another kiddlet from the mansion a crazy little ******** who seems to think he's a cross between samsara and Picasso or something. Next we go to the orphanage and pic up Izari this nutty Tahnee we'd been planning on adopting for a while. She's a dog girl of sorts and rather odd. Now Decs' has gone missing for reasons unknown I hope Tybalt didn't sacrifice her to some art god or whatever.


On a more amusing note rehearsals are going well and my understudy has taken to wearing a bra f or the time being so as to be able to fit into my outfit for the play. I think our director is going to have fits. Still haven't told trinket or Orion got the part. Heck I may not ask em to come see me Trink would find it horribly boring and Orion well Orion's starting work soon so he'll be busy.


Nodding to myself I flop down on my bed and pull my psychology book off the night stand. Being hoe schooled has its advantages like being able to study whenever I like as long as I do my tests on given dates. I flip though the pages letting y eyes scan the black type as it describes the affect of abuse cycles on modern society. Dada hits mom boy see this hits his wife his kid sees it and hits his wife ad infitum until the world stops spinning.


Hours later finds me sitting on the back porch camera in my hands wondering. when the world stops spinning will anyone notice. Is there anyone else out there in the galaxy who will see earth explode as it is destroyed by the sun and give a damn. If life on earth merely some experiment by some far more powerful and intelligent being like kids raising ant farms.


M'hall sneaks up on me making me jump and chirps for a few moment while I pet him for a while before he scuttles off hoping to find Decs if she is around and just hiding. I breathe in the cool night air wrinkling my nose distastefully at the scent of flowers. Gods I hate pant I can't remember why after all we've always had plant, my mom. whoever she was loved them I just hate plants.

Thought at the moment the plants concern me less than M'hall sneaking up on me. He's not exactly quiet. My hearings getting worse every day I rely a little less on sound them memory of what noises things make and what mouth formations mean what words. I can't tell them though that I'm broken that too many falls too many fights and too much music has taken away one of the vital things one needed so get along.

How could I face them tell Orion that by the time they have the chance to-do anything fun I wont be able to hear the other boys moans of pleasure or tell trinket that when he becomes a great musician and creates the ultimate rave song that the melody will be silent to me. I had hearing aids once before I remember them, hard pieces of plastic that irritated my skin and stood out far to much. Without them its a steady spiral to 0% hearing and I guess I'm willing to live with that. I can still act , can remember the feel of pitch in his voice where it should be. I'm too afraid to ask umbra for the money and too terrified that even if we get them they won't work or that I wont be able to adjust to sound again.. In my mind there's no point in getting my hopes up. I shiver for a moment and then stand up to go inside, tomorrow is another day perhaps a better one.

Alisdare lay on the couch thanking the gods above he had the day off. It was the day before his drivers test and he was nervous as hell. While he had studied hard he was positive he was going to get the facts mixed up somewhere. The fact that while he should be keeping his mind clear he was watching an entrancing pattern of pink arrows flash by didn't help.

On top of the table Brekke was using a jury-rigged game boy to play dance dance revolution. The fairy was rather good and only Tybalt had gotten farther playing than she had. Despite her plant likeness, which still vaguely disturbs Dare, brekke had stolen a piece of his heart. The small being was always filled with happiness just to be alive and loved to be around other spreading joy.


As she hopped up and down wings helping her time the correct landing dare had to wonder what would happen when she became an adult. As it stood the whole house was rather fond of her and would be sad to see her go. The lady however, had said that brekke enjoyed her trips to see other fairies and that she got along with other mansion boy parents pets.


Pastel blue hair was pulled back into a tiny ponytail as she crisscrossed her legs and hummed along with the music. Brekke was somewhat addicted to DDR. Actually ever since the lady had brought it hoem they all had been. Even having little time between acting, studying and working to get solid D's on light.

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The day past rather slowly and dare kept an eyes on brekke all day while the other were out. They played chess, which she won. Hide and seek which she won again and Tetris which despite some fancy footwork on the part of brekke dare managed to win. He accredited it to his organized brain. The day ended with the whole household converging in the living room and watching both fast and the furious movies and gone in sixties seconds. It was in dare's mind a rather fitting tributes as he figured he'd likely crash and burn in his test.