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listening to Type O Negative-Love you to death. I love this song alot. Its very fun to sing.

Not that I know of.

the lowest temp I have EVER been in was -8....and you can keep it forever too. I had three shirts, two jeans, two THICK socks, a big long black leather trenchcoat(In Denver and yes I got looks ALL the time, but refuted it with the politeness of a gentleman when approached, thank you very much) a big brimmed black hat that looks brownish now....stupid job ruining my hundred dollar Panama Jack hat....mutter...and a big scarf wrapped around my face and I was STILL freezing with my hands stuffed in my pockets flicking lighters to keep them warm, like holy crap, I'm seriously gonna fall over and die on this street shaking like an epileptic chihuahua after being scared by a lion. I went there after florida summer and arrived on Nov. 17....t e first day of Hell...FROZEN HELL, I've SEEN it maaaaan!

ya, december in anahiem was like late spring/early summer here.. xD

So last night I spent the night at my friend's, but most of the time i was there, he was on the phone with his gf, so it was rather boring. Though I got to play borderlands for the first time.

But his gf insulted me. Saying I'm clueless cause I have no chance to get with the girl I love. She went too far, my friend defended me and then they changed the subject. I choose to ignore it at the time and play with his pets cause they love me.(one of the dogs even ran out to the car as I was leaving, like he was saying I wanna go with you!) But when i got home, I thought. I realize I have little to no chance but its better to hope and have something to live for than nothing at all. And I really shouldn't listen to her even though it's true cause my friend's gf is a brat who knows nothing about the girl I love. The girl I love even dislikes her cause the brat cheated on my friend. I don't really care for her cause of that and her being a spoiled, argumentive brat. So I went to sleep after I got home. Been asleep all day. A. cause I was tired and the makeshift bed of two chairs was painful and B. I sleep when depressed. Might take a day or two for me to get back into posting. Might be able to post tomorrow. Idk. Sorry.
^Rant about a possible day or two absence on my part^

that's crazy and really rude of her, but yuo should know that there is more to life than women. If you dont get this one girl, its not the end of the world or even yours. More will come along because there is always someone looking for a good man. It will be ok regardless of what happens because this life shifts and changes very quickly and can be for the better later on. Perhaps this girl might have been cheating on you years down the road, but now, at least you get to keep the good image of this "Dreamgirl" while you go about your day instead of her ruining it. I've had VERY bad experiences with women being untrue and very bad people in general. (No offense ladies, I'm just speaking my memories) I have not had ONE girlfriend that I was around constantly that did not cheat on me....not one. There is no reason for that either, because if she wanted someone else, then she should have left me for him. That would have been much better than finding out through the grapevine and walking in on it personally, her and my "Best friend". Thats all I ever asked from them too. Be honest and be loyal to me and I"ll return them unconditionally. Anyway, I wouldnt worry too much about what she or anyone else says because those words or thoughts do not effect your reality when you wake up unless you let those words alter your actions. It will be ok.

Yami, you are speaking like you are an old man who has had a wife a children and seen the latter part of your years already. You are only 18, dont base your life on one girl, especially this young. Find one yuo DONT have to fight so hard to be with.You are at the start of a long road ahead of you. This will one day be just a memory, however it turns out. I know 18 years sees like a long time, just like me being 27 seems like I've been alive forever, but I'm getting older and older and its passing by at a scary rate now. Its good to love and want, but dont become ROOTED with ehr unneccesarily. My father married my mother and after 19 1/2 years of marriage, she left him. Thats longer than you've been alive, so dont think of this one girl as the end all be all of your love life. If she has you, then aweome, if she doesnt, dont do something stupid like waste the rest of your life trying to win her heart or be a part of her life when she wont have you. There are others and I know what its like to be in love. Its deep and it seems like the only option at the time, but the longer you are away from that influence, the more yuo see clearly. You lived a life before her and you can live a life after her as well. You were not born on this Earth to satisfy her. You were born to live your life, not accentuate hers. I'm only telling you this so if she continually hurts you, I dont want to see another get his heart stomped maliciously like mine. You can do what my father never did and put her in the past.