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 Posted: Thu May 09, 2013 6:40 pm
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Posted: Thu May 09, 2013 7:39 pm
     =============== ☠ =============== ► Dean swallowed harshly, sliding his hands in his pocket. He was wearing his shirt, just a dark colored shirt that showed off his biceps. His pants fitted nicely on Dean, tucked in his combat boots that he wears constantly. His watch was still on his wrist while his Samulet was clear to see on his chest on the dark background of his shirt. Walking over to her slowly, he cocked his head to the side, almost looking like a headshake, not looking at her but at the floor distanced from his feet. "Yeah, I never heard you.. Ya know.. scream in your sleep." He never knew about her restless sleeps when he was in hell. How while he was being tortured, raped, hurt, bruised, and scarred everywhere, Bianca was on Earth, reliving Dean's death over and over again, night after night. It was to the point where it was so bad, Bianca went off on her own as a hunter. Dean had yet to figure this out. Sam didn't take Dean's death well either. When he was clinged up to the wall, and Dean was being ripped to shreds, the only thing Sam could use was his voice, crying out for Lilluth to stop, crying out for Dean. When he looked away, putting his head against the wall, his eyes shut tightly so that tears could stream down his cheeks, he knew that he couldn't save Dean. Dean was done for. He promised since he was little that he would always watch out for Dean like Dean had for Sam. That he would never let anything bad happen to Dean. That he would prevent Dean from going to hell and that they were going to go home everyday and eat pie. Now? With Sam, Bianca, and Roxanne having to experience his death? Dean didn't know what to say. "I never thought about it much.. Me in hell, ya know.. But, I've realized something recently.." Dean looked at Bianca, letting the moonlight from the light shaded sheets over the window be the light that they only had. They could only see half of their faces. Dean could only see Bianca's left side of her face while she could see his right side. He stood there, all his weight on one feet as he tried to explain what he wanted to say. "When I was shredded by hellhounds, my corpse was on the ground. And that was the last I remember. But what happened after? I woke up in a coffin, underground, miles out. There had to be a way how I got there. You guys dragged my body to the car, didn't you? And then had to drive with my blood stinking up the Impala. And then clean my body up, make me a coffin, and then dig a ground, and put me inside. It was a sudden death where you guys were doing fine afterwards.. You guys had to relive that death over and over again while you had to deal with my body. And I can't help but to think that.. That almost happened to you." Dean let out a hopeless breath, his eyes clearly showing that he was upset, not in an angered way but in a sad way.
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Posted: Thu May 09, 2013 8:20 pm
━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Bianca watched Dean,now,as he spoke.She didn't take her eyes off of him.She just digested everything that he was saying.She didn't like talking about when he died.The girls tried their best to avoid the topic.They'd mention it lightly,maybe,but not the way that he was.The way that actually hurt.All the time she spent crying and at least trying for Roxanne but eventually giving up until she decided that Roxanne and Sam would be better off without her being all mopey around them.She didn't want anyone to go through that,ever.Roxanne and Bianca even started calling the idea of someone doing that 'pulling a Bianca' just to try to make it seem not as bad as it was.Bianca just kept looking at Dean,seeing how upset he was before saying."But it didn't,okay? That's the good part.I wouldn't want you to have to go through that..." Bianca sighed."They'd say that the nightmares took turns.I never knew when they had the nightmares...they had each other.I was alone in my room and i'd always wake up screaming and within seconds the both of them would be standing right over me,trying to calm me down.I didn't talk to anyone at all after a point.I'd say a few words to them through the day but i'd be gone majority of the time before i decided that it was better if i just left them.And then i nearly get myself killed on every case because i wanted to die but i just couldn't do it." Bianca wiped her face,now staring at the ceiling again."So i just don't want that to happen to you.To any of you.I don't want something to happen to me,or Sam,or Roxy and then you end up being like me and doing something stupid." Bianca's voice cracked when she spoke.Well,she was crying.She was past the point of trying not to cry,she had a lot of reasons to.
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Posted: Fri May 10, 2013 4:31 pm
=============== ☠ =============== ► Dean sighed when Bianca explained about how life was before he died. When he gone to hell. How she would cry in her sleep every night, then she went off on her own, try to kill herself in every mission but didn't have enough guts to do it. Yeah, that sounds like something that Dean would do. But instead of chickening out, something would stop him. His brother, the angels, everyone. He could picture it now. Him trying to kill himself but the angels would bring him back, all perfect and new. But that's not what he would want, so he'd scream at the next angel he sees. Even Castiel. He's not afraid to yell at Cas. Hearing her voice break, Dean couldn't help but look a bit helpless. Closing his eyes, he just let out a deep breath, letting his shoulders show how intense this was for him. "I know you said not to have a depressing topic.. I'm sorry. But I have to make sure you know something. If something ever comes along and kills me, I don't want you to kill yourself. who knows where you'll go and I sure as hell don't want you to go where I'm going. I've been sucked to Hell, most likely that when I really die, I'm going to go back to the pit. But, Bianca, you know how you felt when I died? Imagine what Roxanne would feel." Dean sighed, knowing how he was still edging her on about Hell and pretty much dropping hints how he thought that this was going to go. In a way, if it came down to it, Dean will sacrifice himself. He won't let anything happen to the ones he loves. Bobby already sold his soul, Sam already have a hankering for demon blood, Roxanne is a witch, Bianca was suicidal. Dean had to make sure that they stop suffering if it came down to it. He still stood in the spot he did before, where the angle of the light could only show half of their faces.
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Posted: Fri May 10, 2013 7:41 pm
━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ "Please don't start talking like that" she was begging.She didn't want to think about him in Hell anymore,him being there or him going back down there.She didn't want to think about it.She didn't want to think about dying or anything."And i think we both know where i'm going.....Roxy told me that the one time with Gabriel? When he killed you all those times...she said that we died and when she asked Gabriel where i was,he said something like 'let's not talk about that.' I think i'm going to hell.It's a shame,really,i was so determined to get myself through the pearly gates". When Bianca said 'pearly gates' she waved her hand dramatically,just trying to lighten the mood for Dean.Bianca couldn't get out of the bed on her own,there was no way to lighten her mood.She just didn't want Dean to make himself feel like s**t.He did that way too much for her comfort."Now,since you wanted me to know something,i want you to know something.I know that you love us and you don't want anything to happen to us but you've got to cut that out,man.It's scary how determined you are to keep us safe.You can't do that,Dean.Not for all of us.I mean,look at me,i can't get out of this bed even if i wanted to.Stop making it your personal job to save everyone.That's the worst task to ever appoint yourself.It's going to drive you nuts." Well,he really seemed self loathing,something that Bianca tried her best to think wasn't true but it was...sometimes he'd let it show,and that just shows how much this self appointed rule gets to him.Bianca let out a groan."I really hate being depressed,you know? I try my hardest to avoid these type of conversations.They kill me" So maybe that phrase wasn't the best to use at the moment but that's how she felt about it."I think about how i was when you were in Hell nearly every day...You dying is the only reason i refuse to be benched.I just want to be there so nothing happens to you.It makes me feel better if i'm there.I think about every single case i did on my own and how i purposely ******** up just so something could happen.And it's pathetic!" Bianca really hated herself because of what she did.How whenever she came back home,Roxanne would look so relieved and happy and how Bianca would leave again without telling Roxy or Sam.Bianca wiped her face and then rubbed her eyelids.Bianca sat up,extending her arms out to Dean."I don't care if it hurts.I want a hug." She even clenched and unclenched her hands.Sometimes hugs were all Bianca wanted.She was a very loving girl,hugs were practically her favorite thing besides her family.
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Posted: Sat May 11, 2013 8:13 am
=============== ☠ =============== ► Dean saw the outstretched hands that was followed from the speech about how he should just stop protecting them. Maybe it was because he is so used to protecting Sam that he felt like he had the older role of protecting everyone. Even if Bobby was an old b*****d that done this longer than Dean. Dean grabbed one of her extended hands, wrapping it around his neck, while grabbing the other to do the same, bending down to give her a hug. He was careful about her wound, not wanting to hurt her. Helping her up, he got her up to her knees so that she was standing on the bed on her knees. Thanks to the bed, even if she was on her knees, she was his height, 6'1". Lifting her s**t up slightly, he looked at the bandaged wound, grimacing sadly at it. He lightly grazed his fingers over it before putting her shirt down so he doesn't get more upset. It took him a while, but his eyes twitched everywhere until they met with her gaze. With a small smile, he whispered, "As long as you're okay."
Sam was looking upstairs, his visual about what is going up there not good. He imagined Dean throwing a fit that Bianca got hurt even when Dean tried to tell her to not go. He imagined that Dean would smack a lamp off a counter, say some words that he would do to Sam. Sam looked over at the door when he saw Roxanne came through. Huh, Roxanne's back and Sam haven't heard anything bad. Before Roxanne could go to the stairs, Sam stopped her, saying, "Wait.. I don't hear anything. They might be doing something. Talk, I don't know."
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Posted: Sat May 11, 2013 9:33 am
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Roxanne just stared at Sam,surprised that Dean actually went up there.Roxanne just looked in her bag of stuff that Bianca used to like when she was small and sick.Well,Bianca hadn't been bedridden in some years and Roxanne was sure what to get this girl besides a specific book.Roxanne took out the book and showed it to Sam."She likes this.This is her favorite" It was Alice in Wonderland.Bianca would always say that Roxanne looked like Alice but,honestly,any blonde girl looked like Alice.Roxanne was wondering if the silence from upstairs meant a good thing,she had expected Dean to go off about Bianca's current condition.
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Posted: Sat May 11, 2013 12:26 pm
=============== ☠ =============== ► Dean let out a small scoff at Bianca's statement about how it would help him. Yeah, let him take a good look at her bandage, make him hate himself some more that he could've prevented what happened. And even after everything, they couldn't kill Lucifer. But then she explained how she's alive and giving him speeches. "You're alive, barely," he breathed out, just looking at her right back in the eyes. But nonetheless, he looked over at the door, telling Bianca, "I think that you just need to sleep. Alright?" He put a hand up to her jawline before unwrapping her arms from his neck. After that, he walked over to the door, going down the stairs. It took him a while, but he saw Roxanne and Sam just waiting down at the end of the stairs. "Don't worry, I didn't kill her," he assured them, knowing from their faces that they thought he did something. Brushing past them, he walked over to the kitchen, going to grab his beer.
Occ: Dean suit & Sam suit || Dean Outfit || Sam Outfit ◄ =============== ☠ ===============
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Posted: Sat May 11, 2013 1:52 pm
━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ "But i'm still alive"After saying that,Bianca listened to him say that she should sleep and just nodded at Dean,smiling before laying back down.She couldn't go back to sleep,she didn't want to.No matter how tired she was,she didn't want to have another nightmare.Roxanne just smiled at Dean before quietly going up the stairs with the book and into the room."I don't want to sleep" said Bianca as soon as Roxanne entered."I don't want to have another nightmare". Bianca's nose and eyes were still a little bit puffy but Roxanne didn't ask about it."I can stay with you" "You're just gonna get bored with watching me sleep and leave and as soon as you're gone,i'll wake up screaming and i don't want Dean to hear that again.He's not used to it.". Roxanne sighed,it probably did scare Dean.Roxanne and Sam were already used to it."I can read to you in your sleep,make myself a bit more comfortable" Bianca looked at Roxanne with hopeless eyes and nodded.It was all Roxanne could do,right? She couldn't force Bianca to sleep.So Roxanne sat on the edge of the bed and began to read "Alice was beginning to get very tired of sitting by her sister on the bank, and of having nothing to do: once or twice she had peeped into the book her sister was reading, but it had no pictures or conversations in it, `and what is the use of a book,' thought Alice `without pictures or conversation?' " Bianca giggled automatically."Aw,you remember.I still think that you look like Alice." Roxanne smiled,closing the book for a second."I'll be right back,okay?" she said and Bianca nodded.Roxanne left the room and went down the stairs to her bag of items and took out a box of tablets before walking into the kitchen and getting a glass of water.She looked at the boys before saying."No one mentions this to her." Roxanne took out two tablets and began crushing them up before dropping the powder into the glass and mixing it."Bianca! Do you want some water or something?!!?" "Can i get a beer!!?" Roxanne grinned."Nope.Only water!" "Fine!" Roxanne looked at the glass,making sure the powder dissolved before saying."She refuses to sleep and she needs to.". With that said,Roxanne casually walked up the stairs and back into Bianca's room before giving the girl the water glass.Bianca chugged it,being very thirsty,and smiled when she was done,giving the glass back to Roxanne and letting her sister go back to reading the book.
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Posted: Sat May 11, 2013 9:50 pm
=============== ☠ =============== ► Dean looked over at Roxanne when she said that Bianca needs sleep but is declining it. Of course she was. Dean remembers when he would try to sleep at night, but then gets a nightmare. It's never screaming. There are times when Dean gets a nightmare and he shoots straight up in seating position, just panting, sweat. Other times, rare times, Dean just wakes up with a soft gasp. Either way, after each nightmare, Dean gets out of bed and goes over to the laptop, just trying to keep himself up with work. Sam? Sam's the same. Wakes up quickly in sitting position, sweat, panting. But on rare occasions, instead of brushing it off, he lays back down with Roxanne, wrapping his arms around her. Other times, if Dean isn't awake, Sam would go over to the laptop. Dean nodded his head gently and sighed softly, letting Roxanne go up the stairs.
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Posted: Sat May 11, 2013 10:58 pm
━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Roxanne had read an entire chapter before Bianca finally knocked out.Roxanne didn't feel guilty about it.She knew that Bianca didn't want to sleep because of her nightmare but the girl had to.Roxanne just made sure that Bianca was gone before kissing her sister's forehead and leaving the room.Roxanne was pretty tired herself but she wouldn't sleep.She didn't need to so she wouldn't. She was afraid that she'd wake up to Bianca screaming again.Roxanne rather stay up and be alert.Roxanne never really met someone who screamed when they had nightmares.She knew that she saw it on TV but Bianca's the only person that Roxanne's ever heard scream out of their sleep.Then again,it only happened rarely when her nightmares were scream worthy.Roxanne was always a loner when she was thinking a lot.Roxanne just went down the stairs and into the kitchen to grab herself a beer before leaving the house.Well,there was a lot of cars,she could just sit in one.It's not like she intended on going some place.It's not like Roxanne wanted to be alone,she never really wanted to be alone anymore,she just really wanted to think about everything that just happened.That her sister nearly died and could still die and the fact that they weren't even able to kill Lucifer.It was very upsetting but Bianca was seemingly okay so that was the only silver lining right about now.Roxanne was sitting in one of the junkyard cars,hear head resting against the steering wheel as she let out a groan at how things got so bad,so fast for them.
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Posted: Sun May 12, 2013 9:48 am
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx   =============== ☠ =============== ► Sam didn't know what to say when Roxanne walked up to the stairs to finish reading her book to Bianca. Although, seeing the tablets on the table, Sam knew that Roxanne was going to refuse to sleep as well. Walking over to the fridge, he took out a beer - knowing his fiancé full well what she would want after a rough night - and opened the lid with his own hands. When he was done with that, he crushed up the tablets and put them in the beer. Dean watched as this happened, even Bobby, and Sam looked over at them. Saying it a bit shyly, Sam said, "Don't mention this to her." Repeating the line Roxanne told them about Bianca. Hearing Roxanne's feet down the stairs, he set the beer down on the table, fixing the lid on it. Handing it over to her, Sam gave Roxanne and slight head nod before watching her walk outside. Dean opened his mouth but waited until Roxanne was outside, "Hopefully she's not driving."
Bobby stepped up and said, "Nah, none of the cars are enough to run. They are missing a bunch of parts. You'd have to put a whole car together and then hotwire it to drive without a key."
"Yeah, and I have my keys, so we're good."
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Posted: Sun May 12, 2013 10:08 am
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Posted: Sun May 12, 2013 12:14 pm
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx=============== ☠ =============== ► Sam watched as Roxanne came inside, clearly saying that the tablets worked. Her eyelids were drowsy, her legs were dragging behind her, her hands kept reaching up to her face to wipe away the tiredness. It wouldn't be long until she's out like a light. Bobby watched as Roxanne came out and sat down, reading a book. "I'm gonna head to bed, boys. Roxanne." Bobby gave her a small smile before rolling out of the study room and down the hall. Dean felt sorry for the man. He can't make it up the stairs so he's forced to pick a room somewhere on the ground. Dean patted Sam's back and said, "I'm gonna hit the showers." Sam nodded and watched his brother go upstairs, waiting until Roxanne fall asleep. It took a while, but she eventually passed out. Smiling softly, Sam walked over to her and wrapped his arms under her, lifting her up. He wasn't sure she was just really drowsy or just knocked out, but he still carried her.
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Posted: Sun May 12, 2013 12:31 pm
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