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Dear lord, my mom talks about him? She loves him. She wouldn't if she knew what he talked to me about. In fact she'd cut off my internet and burn my computer.

I laid down the law. Sorta..... My mom talks about him? anyway. now he will not speak of religion or politics for awhile, at least. Gives me time to cool down. I have him reading the bible because I said, "Can't dispute it until you've read it." Maybe it's progress....

Good advice, thankyou. And yes, Twilight, I'm a bit too patient sometimes maybe, I admit it. Tis why I make sure I'm never without friends or family.

I can only remember certain things and forget a lot of other things.

My parents don't want me doing anything that might get the DSS on our back. Recently a mother had her children taken away for treating lyme disease. DSS said, "They aren't sick." They're both in foster care, treated miserably, and one of them is dying. I"ve been treated with IV therapy for a year or two and that's why they took her kids; I'm almost 18, but my brother's still in danger of it. I don't know where she lives, lol, her address or anything, next time you write can you tell her I'm praying for her? I approached my mom about sending some of my old stuff that was going to the thrift shop, but she doesn't want me to. Half of her is sure we're safe, another half is worried sick that any day now, a knock is gonna come on our door. It's just...awful what they do. it's gotten so corrupt. It's supposed to be there to HELP people, not tear families apart. Maybe that's what I'll do. I was thinking about going in psychology and aiming towards either child counseling or counseling for pregnant women who feel alone and who are pressured to abort. I'd make a horrible lawyer, I have all the passion for a fight that's just, but I have no sense whatsoever when it comes to that. My morals take over. But if I could help people get their children back, that'd be the most rewarding job in the world, I think. Social workers are puppets, though, that's the problem. There are good, the bad, and the ignorant. They wouldn't want me since I guess I have an agenda. Families should not be treated this way; human beings are not objects, they are not things, you cannot put a price on a human life. If you're gonna do something, do it right or don't do it at all, I can't comprehend how someone can take money over what is right. I can't understand how you can be happy if you don't make an effort to love the people around you. I don't understand why people continually do things like that, why, what is the point? It's senseless. Some barbaric practices are eliminated over a course of time; slavery, wife swapping (bc, not ad...I think? norse...), hard labor, undecent conditions to workers, legal kidnapping, stealing, but they still go on slowly. It's legal kidnapping, and it will end, the problem is the people it'll hurt before it ends.

Does she know the guardian angel prayer? I know it's formal, but it's comforting.

ANgel of God,
My guardian dear,
To whom His love
Commits me here.
Ever this day,
Be at my side.
To light and guard,
To rule and guide.

My mother used to pray that with me every night before going to bed. I dunno how I feel about guardian angels. I'm conflicted. I'm not sure they exist. (Kate! You'd be dead ten times over without me here! THanks a lot!) Oh, did I type that? But seriously, it is comforting to say it and be reminded that God is always looking out for you and taking care of you. Maybe if you could get that out to the kids it'd help them a little bit emotionally. They are probably so alone and so....hurt. He's always taking care of us though.

I know they do, I just could never do it myself, I think. Maybe I could. I dunno. Evil. I hate evil. It exists, people tell me it doesn't, but it does. It must. Does it seem like times are getting more and more immoral as humans "advance?" It's like the biggest war ever fought, and the casualties aren't made of flesh, they're immortal souls that will forever be with or without God. Evil looks good, it tempts us, it takes forms we like, it snares us, if we aren't careful, we're toast. Once the seed is planted, it grows. You control where it goes, but if you don't want to, you won't, and just....so many people, so many souls, so many potentially wonderful people, destroy themselves. It's saddening. God made Earth, and God made man, but both have become overrun with weeds. I wish more people would just....look deeper into something. If you're making excuses for it, it probably needs a closer looking-into. Eh. I have no idea how I'm going to raise children if I'm ever a mother. Growing up in this time in this family I was very lucky and I have a personality of obedience, I listen to my parents. seeing middleschoolers with drugs, getting pregnant, that isn't right at all. If this is what it's like now, how about ten years later when I'm about 27 or 28? How the heck do you protect a child while still giving them immunity to the bad things in the world? Maybe it's how the world is, but it's not how it was meant to be. Even from a biological standpoint, humans have always been herds(lack of better words)we live in groups and we socialize and all. Historically, humans look out for other humans for the most part, until they tyrants come. We've supposedly progressed past tyranny, yet there's more evil now, it seems.

Yeah, I noticed you had a guild when I was searching for another. Meant to check it out, but forgot. sweatdrop

Wow you guys..I'mma need prayer..for this song I'm singing for..church, a christian youth conference, and school choir..I just practiced it for an hour..ish..and the song..is 5 minutes long..

..and so..I am..very light -headed right now..may act..disillusional..

Oh my goodness you guys..you've got to see this site..

It's a Christian site for a Christian parody band..sorta, and it has different radio stations and info for certain/other bands..but best of all, it includes mp3s for some 'very' interesting songs..

If you are familiar with songs like:

"I like Big Butts(by Sir Mix Alot)", is now --> Baby Got Book(by Dan Smith)

"Mambo #5," is now --> Micah #5(or..something like that..)

"Stacy's Mom," is now --> JC's Mom

They've taken alot of these random songs..and have changed the lyrics into their own way that links to the Bible or Christian way. It's soo cool, ^_^
If you become a member, you can download free mp3s if you wish to, =3

http://www.apologetix.com/

Otherwise, this couldn't sound anymore than spamming in a sense, sweatdrop ..so I'll leave it at that. I just thought it was neat, *shrugs*..I mean, it's better to have these in my head than the older ones that might not be so good/aren't so good..