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"And if you find someone else? I dont want to be with anyone else. I know, i know its selfish of me but look at he state im in, I have the only guy i care about and I can deal with dating slowly, you meeting others but what about me in the end? I will end up laying here still not trusting anyone and the only one I do trust is with someone else. I am not trying to be selfish and forgive me if that sounds like i am its just a little hard to explain when I feel horrible."

He said as he wiped his tears away and tried to force himself to not cry "but I would like it if we took our time, I want to see if we do stand a chance, I want to be with you also but I do need to start learning to trust others again and thats just going to take time. Will you please help me when you have free time? I dont want to hate every male out there but right now i just cant help it, your the only one I am fully wanting to trust" he said softly as he lent over and took his medication, hoping some water might calm him down.

"What about me? I dont trust anyone so how could i be with you and someone else? However I admit that hearing you say that you might love me does sound so good right now, especially when I do think I feel the same way. I mean, I do but with what happend its just such a blur right now." he said softly as he snuggled down and closed his eyes "please darling, dont leave me, stay with me till I wake up" he said softly, wanting the angel to stay beside him as he slept.

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"Stay away from me" kim called as he woke up and pushed the angel away and moved over to the wall as much as he could. He had forgotten that it was Sabin who had stayed with him, he moved back towards him and kissed him softly on the lips. "Forgive me, I am just a little bit jumpy still" he said to the angel as he wrapped his arms around him once more and cuddled in close to him again..

Kim smiled softly at him yet still with sad and frigthened eyes "yeah, im feeling a little better but it just will take time for me to get over this. Thank you for for not turning your back on me" he said softly as he cuddled the angel "though i am wondering how Rayne is, dont get me wrong, im not exactly up to trusting him yet but still even if i dont trust him I could of been a bit nicer to him earlier today." he said softly as he nuzzled the angel a little, pleased to have one person in his life that he trusted.

Kim sighed "its just that with my past with that coon and this happening again by the same coon I just didnt feel like having him yell at me. I mean i would understand a little better if it was a once off thing but it happened to me before which is why i am taking this alot harder then say a normal person who was just rapped.

My past, in a way, repeated itself and he yells at me for something I couldnt controll, he told me that if i stay like this then he, the coon, would have won. Thats just it, he already had won, once before, when I was 12, so just imagine what it felt like for me when this coon shows up again and this time rapes me.

How could i not be upset? How could I not want to just ignore everyone and trust noone? Rayne just doesnt understand what its like for me to have my past relived and this time in a worse way. I just wish he asked about Dakota first before assuming that yelling at me would get me snap me out of this, obviously it didnt, it made things worse.

Of course I am going to feel horrible moreso when I had been sexually violated again by the same coon and i didnt need yelling at mne and making me feel 10 times worse." he said as he started to cry again and cuddled into the angel and nuzzled the angels chest and cried onto it.

Kim settled back on the bed and guddled the angel, forcing himself to dry his eyes "im sorry sweethert and i know" he said as softly as he cuddled into him, just wanting to stay close to the angel.

"I...I think I will go back to the apartment. Alot less people there, besides that I know you dont exactly want to be here right now anyway so I will go back to the apartment with you. Just let me pack some clothes" he said as he kissed the angel once more and pulled out a bag and started to put clothes into it.