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 Posted: Wed Oct 25, 2006 8:15 pm
Andie pursed his lips together and sat down on the edge of the table/bed he was on, smiling down at him as he allowed Jacob to hold his hands to his chest. "Lacking the sense of logic does not make you insane, Jacob. With the time I've spent with you... I know you're not insane..." Andie paused for a moment as his eyes softened while he looked down at him, "People may classify you as 'insane' because they don't understand, because you're different from them. I ought to know, Jacob, I'm not insane, either... You know that you are perfectly sane only when you question your sanity. Insane people don't sit there and think from time to time, 'Am I going crazy?' or 'I must be insane,' because in their minds, they're perfectly sane. It's the sane people who wonder about their sanity from time to time."
Andie smiled affectionately towards the second question, gazing down into his eyes for a few moments as he tried to work out an answer. He wanted to give Jacob that answer, and he would as best as he could. "Some times, our bodies can amaze us with the things they can do. Whether it was you weren't ready to die, or you didn't want to die, your body doubled it's strength to protect you from that bullet. You're strong, Jacob, strong willed and masculine. I ought to know, Sabre stuck his arm in my mouth," He said with a little giggle as he pushed back.. tears? though his voice was shaking slightly and his lips quivering as he tried to hide it with a smile, "You're special, Jacob... to me, and I'm sure to a lot of those around you... I believe you're going to live a long and healthy life, we just have to slow down on the insane stunts..."
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Posted: Wed Oct 25, 2006 8:44 pm
"You really beleive that..? Because.. well.. I suppose even if i'm not insane.. I still need mental care..." He sighed softly, his lip trembling himself. He let go of Andie's hand. He had a few troubles on his mind that had been plaguing him for some time now. It was one of the few links that would remain with him. And that was, this; No Razor, no more hope. He saw this because the only reason he was still "Free" to do as he pleased, and was in this asylum, was because he looked after Razor.
When Razor didn't require keeping an eye on. He'd have to go to a perminant home where he wont be allowed to do what he did nowadays.
"There's a reason why I do more and more crazy stunts now... Other than test how strong I really am, is because my time is running out here. One day I'll have to be "hospitallized" and not allowed to do anything anymore." He told the other. "And personally.. if one of my stunts kills me.. i'll prefer it to decaying in that home."
There was, of course, an alternative that Jacob or the other's didn't realise. Something that he had came across once, but lost due to his injury. It was sappy.. but if he could fall in love with someone, and care for them like razor (though razor dosn't count) then Sabre could be passed as mentally fit enough to not need care anymore.
But due to him not being able to put patterns together, somehow, figuring out his feelings for another became nearly impossible.
"I'm sorry.. But It likely isn't possible what you believe.. like Sabre can never sit on the clouds on the mountains. But.. It wont ever stop us from trying." He growled softly to himself. "I'm not gonna let them take me to some care home because i can't think straight damnnit." A few tears trickled down his cheeks at this thought.
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Posted: Wed Oct 25, 2006 9:12 pm
Tears began to silently fall from Andie's cheeks as he gently put a hand on Jacob's forehead, shaking his head softly as he tried to compose himself... he had never cried... he didn't realize he was crying, didn't realize the meaning of tears. He had never used emotions before, he always over thought things, always over complicated them... but now, what he was feeling was everything he should have been feeling long ago.
"No, Jacob... Sabre will sit on the coulds on the mountains one day, and I won't allow you to die in a silly stunt, nor will I allow them to take you away... If I have to, I'll kidnap you to my asylum," Andie said, trying to laugh though it only made more silent tears fall out from his eyes as he gently brushed a hand down Jacob's cheek, rubbing tears away softly with his fingers.
"I... wouldn't be able to sit by and watch any of those things happen. I really can't say I care for my own health. You, Sabre, Chisulo... you all accepted me without expectations, or making me live up to nearly impossible standards. You are the only 'relationship' I have ever had that didn't revolve around one night of sex and then goodbye forever. I can't--I won't lose you..." Andie said softly. He couldn't seperate one feeling from another, as they were all so new to him, but he was sure this was what friendship felt like. He had heard people talk about it, the bond between friends and how when one cried and felt something the other felt it too--that's what this was, wasn't it? He couldn't... he just didn't know... couldn't tell...
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Posted: Wed Oct 25, 2006 9:29 pm
Jacob started to cry more also, simpy due to seeing the other break down. It was true.. that empathy that was linked between friends. True friends. It was definatly there between the two.
He slowly began to grow, Sabre deciding to take ove the body. He winced as his head seared with pain still, and he also looked up at Andie. Biting into his lip he took a hold of the other's shirt, before tugging him down to lay with him.
"I can.. hug you if it'll make you feel better.." He offered, knowing it'd liekly make himself feel better at least.
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Posted: Wed Oct 25, 2006 9:36 pm
There was no look of suprise when Sabre took over the body, and no shock when his shirt was grabbed and he was pulled down to lay with the other--although it was unexpected, he wasn't shocked by it. Glasses falling to the ground when he was pulled down to lay with the other, he made no motion to grab them. Instead, he put an arm around Sabre and burried his face into the other's chest as he tried to clear confusion that was laying deep within him. Concern.... he could make out concern... but why did he cry? he couldn't quite figure out many of the new things he felt, so he simply gave into them and rest against the large bunnythro. "A hug... sounds nice," He whispered out with a shakey breath as he clung to Sabre, afraid of losing him... Afraid of losing Chisulo... afraid of losing Jacob.. friends... companions... those he could trust. "Sabre, you won't let Jacob die in a stunt, will you? If you need somewhere to escape to, you can come to my asylum--you can have my asylum... Just don't go, please... I'll find a way for you to sit on the clouds on the mountains... I promise."
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Posted: Wed Oct 25, 2006 9:59 pm
Sabre slipped his arm under Andie's slim body, wrapping it around him and hugging him from ther side, unable to move his head, as he was told by Jacob.
"No, I wont let him die in a stunt.. I havn't yet, though he came close when he went and got himself hit by a truck." He winced at the memory, remembering how he felt when he gained controll of the body again. For some reason, we seem to be indestructable.. but i just say we're the luckyest guys in the world." He laughed weakly.
"Don't you worry about us, Andie-chan. We've made it this far, though freinds are always welcome along the way. It'll be more fun to sit on those clouds with a friend like you."
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Posted: Wed Oct 25, 2006 10:08 pm
Andie curled up against Sabre and tried to calm himself down, rubbing his eyes against the back of his hand as he snuggled into the larger Anthro. After a few deep breaths, he had calmed down some, but not completely. "Lucky... indestructable... whichever it is, I still don't want to even risk losing any of you, at all... Not even to that house Jacob was talking about - definately not to that house..." Andie whispered softly as he whined softly and tried to organize thoughts and feelings within his mind. "I'll take you to sit on the clouds one day, Sabre, I really will..."
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Posted: Wed Oct 25, 2006 10:22 pm
"The house... The MacDowen Manor.." He confirmed breifly, shuddering at the mere name. "It's where we all go.. Even Alice will go there when shi retires.. it's a family thing, from our curse."
It was a funny subject.. the MacDowen curse. Somehow, even if it wasn't insanity. No one yet had avoided a mental disability of one sort or another. They had gotten over the fact that some way or another, their next generations would one day have to come to an asylum, and stay there even if it's a little while.
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Posted: Wed Oct 25, 2006 10:30 pm
"...I still don't want you to go... and Jacob said he'd rather die in a stunt than go..." Andie bit his bottom lip, it sounded like it could be a touchy subject, but he didn't want them to go somewhere they wouldn't be happy at. Snuggling into Sabre, he sighed softly and allowed his mind to wander on where Alice had gone, hopefully Alice wouldn't be upset that he was laying with Sabre, and hopefully the second opinion was a good one...
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Posted: Wed Oct 25, 2006 10:39 pm
"It's true... I don't like that place at all. I can't stand it there." He started to shiver uncontrollably, even to the extent he had to bite into his lip to controll himself.
"But i don't have to go there.. I know.. there are ways to avoid it.. but no one will tell me them." He said with a sigh, watching as Alice came back in.
"I'm so sorry for taking so long. But at least your not still unconscious...." Shi seemed happy, but also at the same time sad and unsure. "There's.. only one thing left we can do Sabre.. That Bullet has to come out if you're going to live past christmas."
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Posted: Wed Oct 25, 2006 10:42 pm
Andie sat up slowly, his ears drooping, eyes red from all the crying he had already done. Biting down on his lower lip, he gently reached down to take hold of Sabre's hand before he looked back at Alice, obviously trying to remain calm as he reached down and grabbed his glasses, closing his eyes after he put them back down. Everything would be okay, right? Sabre would be okay if they got the bullet out... right? So many questions ran through his mind as he bit his bottm lip harder and closed his eyes tighter.
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Posted: Wed Oct 25, 2006 10:54 pm
Sabre's ears lowerd himself. "Is that.. even possible?" He croaked, gazing up at hir without moving his head. "You said if.. it was moved it could.. could kill me.."
Alice sighed. "Well not the chances are it'll kill you much faster if you leave it in... I'm sorry Sabre.. I didn't want this to happen..."
Sabre said nothing any more, his gaze looking down at his hands. He remembered what he had said over the last 20 or so minutes.
Looking to Andie, he sighed. "I'm sorry..." He replied gently, bbefore springing to his feet and dashing out the room before anyone could figure out what he was doing.
He wasn't about to let this peice of scrapmetal in his head get the better of him after all this time, not now. Not ever.
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Posted: Wed Oct 25, 2006 10:59 pm
"Sabre..." Andie began softly before the other jumped up and dashed out of the room before anyone really had any time to react. "S-Sabre!" Jumping up, Andie immediatley ran out the door, whining as he began to follow the others scent, though he knew he was far behind him already, and so many scents were around... Following the other's scent the best he could. "Sabre! Where are you going? Wait up!"
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Posted: Wed Oct 25, 2006 11:03 pm
Sabre was visable still far down the corridor as he ran. The problem was, Sabre was only acting on instinct, and that was to run away, he had no idea where he was even going.
Though he seemed to be heading for the exit. If he got into the forrest, it would be nearly impossible to catch him. He was far too agile amongst the trees.
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Posted: Wed Oct 25, 2006 11:10 pm
"Sabre, stop!!" Andie sped up a bit, although he was in no comparison to the other's speed, his only instinct was to catch up to him.. to keep him from getting hurt. If he got into the forest... well, Andie knew the forest like the back of his hand, but there was still the matter of catching him. Speeding up even more, he growled softly, tempted to drop to all fours, considering that was MUCH faster.
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