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masturbation is done every day whether it's done by you or someone halfway around the world it's still masturbation and if you dont do it you are a freak

Man, I wish they did. I still have this throng of Yugi-Oh kids following me around from when I worked in the game shop.

You don't need to have answered them before. Just give your answers now and it'll let you back in.

This is the stuff I miss when I go out places and spend money. I should stay at home and be mizerly or just rattle chains. I'm in the mood for Charles Dickens or some sort of pie/cake. ...Because carbs make the heart grow fonder, or was that tense? Either way it still tastes good.

*hugs Pell* sad

Names omitted. =\


Okay, so first Man 1 decides to get drunk and IM me about it. Whoah. Like I DIDN'T have enough personal problems in my life. And I really like hanging out with 1. He just didn't seem to be the "I like getting drunk" type.
So I ask him why, and he lays it all out for me on a silver plater.
Well, I guess I walked into that one, with my personality and all, but now I'm "in" 1's life that I "have" to "help" him.

So then I walk into ED, and go into this thread about sexbots. Someone mentions some website about "real doll"s. So I check the website for that out.
Damnit, okay, now I'm attracted to silicon. GO ME.

So my uncle came over yesterday, and just like I do all the other times company comes over, I GLUE MYSELF TO THE COMPUTER.
This uncle is like the best uncle ever, and I want to spend time with him, really I do, but I don't have anything to talk about. What things I bring up only last for five minutes.

Then after another five minutes of silence in attempt of something else to do, I GLUE MYSELF TO THE COMPUTER. YAY. confused

So then person 2 comes on MSN, and I talk to her for a while. I am just talking with her for a bit, and then I decide to let everything out on her. Fun time. Phychological issues. YAY. 2 says some stuff and suggests other stuff, but ultimately, doesn't help me and makes me feel even more depressed than I originally was.
(This is my own fault though, not your's 2. Your help was appreciated, really).

All in all, this day has SUCKED.

Because yesterday, Person 3 came on and started telling me about how person 4 wanted to cyber with 3. 3 was asking me how to deal with 4, and I gave him suggestions. But then some time after that, 3 came on and started saying stuff about how 4 now had a crush on 3's bf, 5.
But 4 was still saying stuff about eating out 3, so 3 was confused.
I didn't know how to help, I said I wasn't into the whole love thing, so I guess I conviently weasled my way out of that problem.

But then person 6 came along and brought up how I reminded him of 4. I told him "Oh, PLEASE don't bring up 4..." and I haven't been talking to 6 sense.
I think 6 thinks that I hate 4, which is not the case, because even though 4 is mildly annoying and acts 14 even though he's 20 something, doesn't mean I hate him.
I kind of feel sorry for him and have this need to evade him desperately, but I do not penalize 4 or hate him. Grr.

All in all, my happy streak just went BAM! straight into a steel wall.
Woo. Downward spiral. =\

Okay... *begins thinking of rants*

Umm... I have an unnatural fear of rejection, not least compounded by the fact that I'm gay and thus when I get a crush on a guy he's inevitably straight so I can't tell him how I feel, then when I do meet a guy I like, make friends, hang out with, etc. and he tells me one night when he's high that he thinks I'm hot, I don't know how to respond. He later tells me that he's bi, and so I start flirting with him. Anyway, fast forward, I don't remember that much of what happened for the next few months, except that I fell for him. Then he ends up getting sent off for a couple weeks, and when he comes back he starts radically changing his life, which I can deal with. He converts to Satanism, which is fine. He also told me he would never be interested in a relationship, that he couldn't start a relationship with a friend, etc. and then immediately jumps into a relationship with a girl I innocently introduced him to on MSN. Natch, this was NOT fine. Well, a few weeks later he ends up getting high again, and ends up cheating on his girlfriend with me. They break up and he's single again. He then gets a don't talk to me attitude, institutes a no-touch policy, and basically pushes me away, even though I've been trying to tell him time and time again since that night a long time ago how I feel about him, and not only does he not believe me, he basically accuses me of lying.

More to come.

aww... *pets*
sometimes life just goes like that, and people are...
well...

feel better
*rubs your back and hugs you*
just no getting any thoughts in your head, like ones I deal with.