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 Posted: Sat Jul 09, 2011 8:00 am
 Oh Thank God there was someone! Dante sighed out of relief when he heard someone behind him asking him questions. Dante turned around only to be shocked at what he saw. Wow.. this woman was as tall as him, or almost! If he didn't have his heels on he probably would be same height as the girl! The twin in Drag wasn't used to looking eye level with most people especially a woman! And boy was she pretty! No.. wait pretty wasn't the right word... more like gorgeous, like some tall short haired angel. "H-hi." Dante said with a light blush. This woman looked mean she had some air of bitchiness to her, a lot like Bela had been. But Bela was shorter, and now hat she had children she wasn't as mean.. well to others not to him. She still had it out for him, so did that old lady. But he shouldn't get side tracked with those thoughts. Dante shook his head and refocused himself. "Sorry I'm not used to seeing a woman as tall as me." Dante said gently. "An appointment.. no i don't have one of those.. My twin brother kicked me out of the apartment cause i've been moping. And i just wanted... some help... i guess." Dante said with a light shrug. He was just fine wallowing in his pity party upstairs of the store. Okay no he wasn't fine, but.. oh hell.
"It's just a bit of heartbreak i guess. Okay i'm not sure what it is, but its something along those lines. And i just kind of wanted something or someone to make it all better. And since i cant go back to the Store until i stop being a whinny b***h as Vlad put it, then ah.. i guess i'm stuck wandering for a bit." Dante said with a frown. "Oh!" He perked up and held out a hand. "I'm Dante Tepes, by the way, co owner of the General store with my brother Vlad. And you are?"
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Posted: Sun Jul 10, 2011 11:47 am
Dante? What kind of a name was that for a woman? Seriously, her parents must have been morons. Poor girl, so many people must have made fun of her during highchool. Oh well, this was all over and, with lucky, would bring complex and trauma in Dante’s life that she would be all the more happy to help resolve in a series of long and costly therapy session. ”I’m Eva. Eva Baumgarten, the now psychologist here. We can pass to my office? We’ll discuss it. I can’t just give you pills like that, you know.” She told Dante as she was guiding her toward her newly acquired office. She flipped her hair as she walked in front of Dante, giving her a nonchalant allure. She opened the door and walked into it, sitting herself on her leather chair behind the red wood desk she had just reciced. The shipping on the island took quite some time and she was happy to finally have gotten it. Still, as long as she had her Pollock on the wall, she was happy. ”Take a seat and tell me all about why I should give you some medication, or whatever.”
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Zemblanity Insomnia Captain
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Posted: Sun Jul 10, 2011 3:46 pm
"Oh? A psychologist?" Dante said in a quizzical tone. He nodded and followed Eva to her office. Wow.. it was nice in here, it fit the woman rather well. Especially that gorgeous red wood desk. And that painting, the Pollock.. Dante ended up staring at it in awe. It was almost like one of those.. seeing eye paintings or a ink blot test. Eva's next words had Dante snapping out of his admiration of the decor in the room and focusing back on her. Which was a bit of a mistake. Dante blushed lightly. " Yeah sorry, i was just.. its a very nice room." He walked over to the seat in front of the desk and crossed one leg over the other. "Right, well i mean.. i dont know if i need medication for it. I dont think its that bad.. but.." Dante frowned suddenly, as he thought about what had him so depressed lately. He started playing with his hair idly as his gaze dropped from Eva's to the desk infront of him. "I know its my fault in the end. I mean.. i dont know." Dante said gently. "But, and i probably have alot of issues, what with being an orphan and all that. But still.. i thought i meant something to Raiden and in the end.. i was nothing more than a continuous guilt ******** for him." Dante said with a frown as he looked back to Eva. He realized he probably wasnt being clear so he cleared his throat and sighed lightly. "Let me start from the beginning.. well the beginning of whats been bothering me. I met Raiden at the Grindhouse here in town. A nice spot if you want to go there and have some fun. But anyways, I was a bit drunk.. a bit loose and when that happens i end up being a bit bolder than i am usually." Dante said to her. "Usually i'm the submissive one." Dante said as he smiled lightly and bit his lower lip. Looking at Eva as he thought about his own nature, of course the image of Eva dominating him came to his mind. God he was such a whore for attention. "I mean like really submissive too i don't mean.. like, i like to be on bottom. Its more than just that. I love the pleasure pain brings me. I like being told what to do, i like being treated like s**t at times.. and that's probably why im so heart broken over Raiden." Dante said with a blush as he put a hand to his cheek. His eyes had a dreamy gaze to them. "I mean.. yeah he was.. always drunk when we met up, even when i hit on him that night at the Grindhouse. But.. he was just such a hot enigma to me and when we did do it together the first time he was so.. demanding." Dante said as his eyes lit up at that thought of being dominated like that again. God it just gave him shivers thinking about it. Shaking his head Dante cleared his thoughts once again and refocused. He looked back to Eva momentarily getting distracted again with that thought of her being a dominatrix. "I-im sorry you're really gorgeous. I keep getting distracted. Okay anyways.. so.. the whole issue comes from... the last time me and Raiden were together. He was hammered out of his mind and showed up on my doorstep wanting ... well wanting a booty call obviously. Which should have clued me in that the relationship wasnt going to last. I mean thats all he ever wanted from me, but i went to him in my hour of need when my Twin had been kidnapped along with a few others on the island? I went to Raiden for support, only to find out that in the end, i wasnt enough for him." Dante said as he started to get angry and tears welled up in his eyes.
"I mean what is that? Just because i dont have something he wants he just has to leave me in the middle of having sex? And make me feel like s**t like that? I was just tossed aside like.. some... unwanted child and.. and.." Dante choked on his words, tears started streaming down his face and running his makeup. "I mean.. its not my fault im like this right? I mean.. .. right? I did it to fit in, and it became apart of me and i-i really cant stand the thought of being alone. It scares me to no end and with Vlad getting Camelia pregnant i-i.. just w-where does that leave me? huh?" Dante said in between sobs. He started wiping at his cheeks. "I-im sorry i d-dont mean to turn into a mess... i-i.. " Dante stammered before he went silent and kept wiping at the tears that wouldn't stop. "Its just... growing up in a orphanage.. i saw every other kid adopted out, including my brother, while i was left behind... because i was too weird." Dante said once he had calmed some. "I just.. want to be liked and loved.. and i know i have alot of good friends.. and my brother does care about me.. but.. Raiden.. leaving me like he did.. just kind of brought up all my fears again. Vlad.. has panic attacks because of what happened to him.... i start to feel that way too when i think about being left all alone..."
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Posted: Mon Jul 11, 2011 7:35 pm
Once Dante was done talking, Eva let a moment of silence fill up the room as she was re-reading her notes, stilling humming to herself, trying to think what to make out of all that. After a short while, she put her note pad down, put her hands together in front of her face, letting her fingers go in-between each other and started at Dante for another moment. Then, she closed her eyes, took a deep breath, let it out, and opened her eyes again. ”Dante… I only have one thing to tell you about all this….” Silence again… ”What do you think I am? I’m a Psychologist, woman, not a psychic! How do you expect me to make any since of anything you gave me when you don’t explain anything? And really? All that speech in once shot!? You sure you are deeply wounded and not just a little drama queen? I’ll tell you what, this sounded a lot like a script you had memorised in the past and just waited for the right moment to blur it out!” She said to the other woman in a calm town, but still frowning.
She then snapped her fingers twice in front of the other’s eyes. ”Focus! I’m new in town! I don’t know everything about everyone!” How was she suppose just who that Raiden or that Camelia were? Or about Dante’s childhood and thigns? She wasn’t there! Oh yes, Dante just was one other of those attention whores, wasn’t she? Well, it wasn’t going to work with her. ”So, from what I am able to understand, you just love to attract attention to you, be it good or bad! That’s something we’ll really need to work on.”
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Zemblanity Insomnia Captain
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Posted: Mon Jul 11, 2011 8:06 pm
"Eep!" Dante squeaked and jumped back into the chair when Eva snapped at him like that. She made him panic and with that it didnt take the scared, but blushing Twin in drag to blurt out more information. God if Dante was ever interrogated by someone he would be a horrible snitch. "I-im sorry i didnt mean to assume. I-i know your not a mind reader. I-i.. i mean i kind of am an attention whore i mean.. yeah but at the same time i mean .." Dante shook his head, his long locks waving side to side a bit. He bit his lip and continued. "Camelia and Raiden right... well Camelia helps me and Vlad run the general store and, Raiden is the receptionist at the tattoo parlor and-" Dante stopped as something clicked. He looked to Eva out of confusion. " Wait.. did you call me a woman?" Dante said before he looked at a nearby reflective surface. Oh.. OH! he.. was an idiot. " Oh.. oh.. honey. Oh... um.." Dante blushed immediately and looked back to Eva. "Im flattered but thats alot of my problem right there. I'm not a woman... im a guy. Who likes to dress in Drag. I didn't realize i had done it this morning.. honestly." Dante said sincerely. "But yeah.. so.. me.. guy in drag.. hit on Raiden.. at the grindhouse when he was drunk. Someone told him what i was, he walked away only to come back later and ******** me when he was.. again drunk. Things continued that way until... well until recently.. we were in the middle of doing it when Raiden realized.." Dante frowned lightly. "When he realized i wasnt a woman. And so he ran out on me and when i tried to call him, but a woman answered the phone so i knew.. our time together meant nothing... i just kind of got torn up about it." Dante said as he became serious and solemn again. "I mean.. I know alot of people dont.. approve.. or can even tolerate a man in drag but.. is it really that much of a crime? Dont i deserve love too? And you're right.. i do love to attract any attention.. because anything is better than nothing.." Dante said as he dropped his gaze.
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Posted: Mon Jul 11, 2011 8:48 pm
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Zemblanity Insomnia Captain
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Posted: Tue Jul 12, 2011 5:03 pm
"I.. I.. " Dante stammered. He started to panic he didn't mean to deceive Raiden. Is that what he had done? Was it his fault? Had he been asking for it all along? No he didn't mean to do it with Raiden! Or had he? He had put up the facade long enough when him and Vlad had been young. He had tricked other Straight men into thinking he was a woman. And then taken their money after they ******** him. Oh God.. she was right! He was self pitying! But no! He didn't like others to pity him.. did he? Well there was the concern and the attention and.. oh God.. she was too right! Or was she! Oh oh she was mean! And confusing him! "S-stop it you big amazon meanie!" Dante blurted out, as he stood up suddenly in defiance. "I-i have done that in the past. I have tricked men into thinking i was a girl. But but.. with Raiden i.. i didn't mean to! He had come to me after he knew what i was! Its.. its not my fault he felt guilt or.. whatever. AND! AND!" Dante said as he waved his finger at Eva. "You cant tell me any real straight guy would ******** another guy in drag even if he was drunk! There was something else there! Even if it was just the thought to experiment. Y-..you're just jealous! T-that i can look just as good if not better as a woman than you can!" Dante said before he blushed, shock over came him as he realized what he said. "Oh God i'm sorry! I'm so sorry!" Dante said as he instantly became sincerely apologetic. He approached her desk only to sink to his knees and peer over it at her like a little kid. "I'm sorry i-i i- didn't meant to.. i. I don't know why i said those things! I.. you're a very pretty woman! I.. i I'm not confrontational usually. I.. you just.. it.. i.. i'm sorry." Dante said his tone becoming meeker, and meeker. "Are you going to hit me?" Dante asked sheepishly.
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Posted: Fri Jul 15, 2011 3:08 pm
”I’ve never said that you were doing it intentionally. I think it’s just so deep inside you that you do it without even thinking anymore!” She exclaimed, slamming her hands on the desk, mere inchest from Dante. Oh, a little shock therapy never hurt anyone! Well, not since all those ethic codes existed… Were ethic code implanted on Nirvani? Oh, she would need to look it up later. She always had wanted to try a little electroshocks! Not too strong, just a little shock~ Oh, right, self-pitying drag queen in front of her, she had to go back to reality now. ”We’re not here to talk about him, we’re here to talk about you. You are the self-pitying, self-loathing, promiscuous, pathetic, crying drag-queen in need of help, not him.” Or well, she belived so. Maybe Raiden was one too, she had no idea, but from the way this conversation was going, he was a very normal man… drunk, confused and emotionally unstable, but a man in pants nevertheless.
Then, Dante did his/her little show. Ah, Anger. She loved that phase. She could just sit back and stare at Dante, daring her to believe what s/he was saying! Yeah, go On, woman, make you litte show, Eva is there, listening to you and taking note of everything. Oh, so s/he thought that Eva was jealous of him/her, eh? Well, yes, she was, but that wasn’t the point right now. What was important was that she now knew that Dante also felt insecure about his own look and self-esteem was as low as could be. Oh, the little things that anger could make you learn. She smiled at the drag queen once she was done yelling and had returned to the self-pity. ”Hit you? I want too! Not because you just yelled at me like you did, but because you just returned to the self-pity attention whore mode that you were in! You were all affirmative earlier! Now you’re back to being a little kicked puppy! Stand up for yourself for once! Why do you keep hiding yourself like that? You hide behind anger! Behind being pathetic, behind your drag?” She then stood up, grabbed Dante by the shoulders and started to shake him like you shaked a crossdressing whore! ”WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM? TELL ME! WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU?”
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Zemblanity Insomnia Captain
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Posted: Sat Jul 16, 2011 9:12 am
"I DONT KNOW!" Dante snapped back panting lightly. There was a blush on his cheeks at the scare the woman had given him earlier. And then she had started to shake him. He enjoyed the physical abuse but the verbal. It was starting to get to him. "I dont know alright?! Why dont you tell me it's suppose to be your damn job isnt it?!" Dante said getting snappy again. " Maybe you're right. Maybe i am just self pitying self loathing, pathetic drag queen! But.. but so what? Whats so wrong with that? huh? And maybe i like being the kicked puppy! People give attention to the kicked puppy and you cant ignore a drag queen!" Dante said breathing heavy. "So what if i do hide behind it? What if i enjoy dressing like this because it makes me feel safer and more confident!? What if im afraid others wont like me if i'm not this way? What woman or man is going to want a normal submissive male anyways?!" Dante said in a panicked defensive tone. "would you? No. I think not, especially someone like me. The drag is a comfort for me. Something i can hide behind and... " Dante stopped himself. Is that really what it had become? " Even if it has... I.. " Dante trailed off and adverted his gaze from Eva's. "Ive always been weird.. i've always been different. And yes i like the attention it brings, and yes i want everyone to pay attention to me and love me! Because... if not.. then the fear of being left all alone.. scares me too much. So i let people use me, because i want them to." Dante said before he shook his head, he looked back to Eva. "Even at the Orphanage the nuns knew something was different about me. What boy enjoys getting hit or disciplined harshly. So i would do anything i could to make them angry, just so they'd hit me. The nuns said it was because something in my brain wasn't wired right.. why pain turns to pleasure for me. And i always want to go to the extreme.. the life threatening extreme Eva. What normal man wants that?" Dante said to her. "When Vlad was adopted out and i was left behind it destroyed my world. Do you know what it is to have such a deep connection with someone? To have a twin? And then one day their just taken from you and you're left behind in the cold dark world?!" Dante said tears forming in his eyes, along with the fear that had him shaking. "We had already been abandoned by our parents.. then i was abandoned by him. I turned to the other orphans but they thought i was too weird.. until i let them start dressing me up in drag. As long as i let them use me.. they accepted me.... "
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Posted: Sun Jul 17, 2011 12:27 pm
"Dressing up in drag isn't the problem! The problem is the reason as to why you do it! It's how you do it! It's not that what, it's the why! She told her patient, with her voice return to the calm state she had when she had greeted Dante in the hall half an hour ago. "It doesn't make people love you! It make people look at you, judge you, gossip about you! And you... You love it! This is not a good way of life, Dante." She placed her hands in the desk in front of her, staring right into Dante's eyes. The man was on a path of self destruction and it was her job to make sure he didn't destroy himself! Or well, as long as she was working on him. Once they didn't have any connections anymore, she couldn't care less about what happened. What? Was she being heartless and Cold? Yes, yes she was, but what could you do about it? She couldn't be bothered to care about everyone she met!
"So, here how this will work. If you want the magic happy pills that I can give you, you're going to drop down the drag business for a week. Seven days and seven nights. No wig, no makeup, not bras and no frilly panties." Oh yes, she she knew that Dante was wearing frilly panties. She would have bet her left hand on it. "But that's not all. You're also going to go do some comunity work. I don't care what, I dont care where, but you're going to do it and you're going to do it dressed normally." This should help him gain some confidence in himself... and make sure he spent some times away from his abusive brother!
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Zemblanity Insomnia Captain
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Posted: Sun Jul 17, 2011 1:34 pm
"Who says its not a good way of life?!" Dante snapped, his world was crashing down around him. How else was he supposed to respond. And much like his twin when pushed to the limit... Dante pushed back, probably even worse than his brother did. "You? Who the ******** are you to tell me i need some happy pills and.. i don't even know you! So why the hell should i listen to anything you tell me? So what if i love it and it isn't good!?" Dante said in a panicked defiant tone. "Its my life, not yours!" Dante barked back as he pointed from himself to Eva to illustrate his point. "And why do i have to drop the drag business! If its a part of me you as a therapist shouldn't tell me to just drop it! Its not that simple! And i don't want to! I like my frilly panties and high heels, and who are you to tell me its wrong to where the stuff?!" Dante said standing where Eva had left him still. "There are alot of Drag Queens out that love who and what they are and they get loved back. You cant tell me its wrong for them to do that, or me!" He now folded his arms over his chest and glared icy daggers at Eva. Dante was fuming, but at the same rate tears were forming in the corner of his eyes. And he had to swallow hard to retain his composure.
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Posted: Sun Jul 17, 2011 2:39 pm
"And what do you know about being a therapist? Do you have a degree? No, I do. So shut up and listen to me, b***h." Her tone was now more firm than before. Nothing better than a little TLC (standing for Tough-Love Care, not Tender-Love) to shake a b***h back in shape! She just wished she would stop whining already and listen to her. "Before you can get confidant and better as a drag, you need to love you for what you really are, which is a tall dark haired man with a p***s. Now, go face the cruel hard reality for a week and we'll talk more about it next week. You're time's up."
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Zemblanity Insomnia Captain
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Posted: Sun Jul 17, 2011 3:03 pm
Dante was just left opened mouth, conflicted on what to do or say. She was she had commanded him and yet... she was right.. she was right and it made him want to throw up. He didn't want to face the reality that he was a man.. nor did he know how to love himself for being that. What did he really have if not this? And now, now she was just dismissing him! What the hell! But at the same time her commanding tone her harshness... she was right, he enjoyed letting people walk on him. So while one part of him wanted to resist her, the majority of him had him obeying her. Because it was what he was used to. Its what he enjoyed doing. Being told what to do... Not that he had a choice if he didn't he'd be locked in some room then! Maybe that would be better!
"I... i dont.. ill. ..try, but... " Dante said as he played with his hair, returning back to his meek self. "God dammit!" Dante cursed and stormed out of Eva's office, he slammed the door shut behind him and stormed out of the clinic. God he was so conflicted right now! -Exit Dante-
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Posted: Wed Aug 03, 2011 7:29 pm
-New Day-  After the birth of his child, Vlad wasnt so keen on setting foot in the clinic for any other reason other than life threatening or another child. Which.. ever since Isaac had been born, the random thought of getting Camelia pregnant again popped into his head now and then. Just as an after thought of how much he wanted to screw her right now. But once she was done being fatigued, he could easily cure her sour mood towards him with a good bit of attention. But not until things settled a bit more. Isaac did sleep alot, and was a quiet child for the most part, but still. He'd be walking on eggshells with just Camelia alone.. add to that a child that could wake up at any minute to interrupt them... well it was just.. difficult. Of course that's not why Vlad had stepped into the Clinic this evening and was in fact searching the hallways for a particular name on a door. Eva... Dante's so called Psychologist. A newer woman in town, who by the sound of it, enjoyed picking people apart to cover up her own flaws. Well.. he was just here to tell her to stay away from his brother. Not be evaluated himself. Though he was sure this b***h was going to try. Though the moment he stepped into the clinic, and the entire way here in fact he had felt.. something.. following him. And if he didnt know any better, Vlad stopped part way down the hallway of the clinic, turned and waited for a familiar red head to pop into view. Unless he had become paranoid over the past year.. which wasnt far fetched. Then again neither was Romane stalking him....
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Posted: Wed Aug 03, 2011 9:02 pm
So, she had followed. The woman had carefully followed Vladimir all the way to the clinic, all the while wondering whether it was the proper time to speak to him even when the weather was so.. well, stormy. But, before she could find the right moment to get his attention without alarming what was likely a ticking bomb, she had found he was entering the same building she was aiming to lead him towards. The clinic. Ah, how perfect. She didn't bother hiding herself as she walked in a short while after him, presuming that the man walking with such purpose would have hurried on into whatever room he was planning towards. But, it was a mistake. She discovered that with a look up to see him waiting for her expectantly, much to her displeasure. It was probably the rain that had driven her to be hasty into getting somewhere dry – her coat had already soaked through and was well on it's way to reaching her clothes! She frowned, pausing her hands on the buttons of the coat with the discomfort of knowing someone like Vladimir was nearby.
She lowered her hands and simply continued to walk, speaking as if they had been speaking just moments before rather than the weeks since their last contact. “Good evening, Vladimir. I would presume you are to enter Dr. Baumgarten's office considering your position.” She paused beside the door and him, looking from the nameplate back at the man, “I was unaware you were already seeing her.”
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