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Ly took the meds and read the instructions on the other bottle and noticed Aariel said that hes only meant to have one of the new ones as well and thats twice a day. "Thank you Sabin" he said as he poured a glass of water for the demon, he always did keep water in here so it came in handy.

"Sabin, would you like me to make you up a room or wont you be staying tonight or what? I think i might sleep out here tonight and help you keep watch, thats if you are going to stay of course." He asked the demon as he saw kim stir and start to wake up

Kim stired a little bit more before screaming out 'no' and sat up in his bed. He started to cry once more and curled up into a ball again. "get out" he said to them "i want none of you near me, I just want to be alone" he said as he carried on crying.

"Sabin i will let you handle this, I will be in the room across the hall if you want me but having one male in here would be bad enough let alone two and you are closest to him so I will leave you with him." he said into his ear as he walked out of the room to leave them alone.

Kim rowled "get out! I have had enough of being hurt, I have had enough of guys, I have had enough of everything, I want to be left alone, I dont want you near me so just leave me alone and GET OUT!" he screamed as he cried harder, moving as close to the wall as he could, scared that all Sabin was there for was to hurt him and he never wanted to be hurt again. So he thought it was safe to just block out his past and just stay here till he thought it was safe which to him would never be with all these males around.

Ly had been watching at the door and moved in "gently "dont leave, i know he wants you to but dont. You will get alot more trust out of him if you stand your ground and not leave him, I know he wants you to but if you can just stay here and show him your not going to leave or hurt him it might help more. Making yourself leave will just make him see that he can trust you for the wrong reasons because it might seem that though he trusts you you could easily turn around and hurt him and so your just biding your time and doing this because the more he trusts you in that way then the more easier it is for you to hurt him. I suggest you stay and just let him know other wise." he said softly into angels ear and left, watching at the door once more silently.

Kim did nothing but sit there, thinking of everything that had happend, everything that he wanted to happen, everything that went wrong, his past...he was so confused and hurt and just want to be left alone yet something just kept wanting him to have sabin by him but why? He hated guys, he hated Sabin yet a part of him wanted the angel beside him.

Kim looked up at Sabin with tears falling down his cheeks and wanted to scream at him but couldnt, something wasnt letting him do that and he didnt know what that was so he thought he might talk to him instead. "Y-your not going to hurt me are you?" he asked crying still but couldnt take his eyes off the angel "I dont want to be hurt anymore" he said pulling his gaze away from the angel and huged his legs and cried into them.

There was a deep feeling inside of him that told him that he could trust the angel yet he ignored it still, knowing that for all he knew he could be some guy who was going to hurt him and he was scared so much yet as much as he wanted to hate this guy as well as all the others he couldnt, there was something about him that he couldnt hate and he just didnt know what that was.

"please, would you come to me?" he asked the angel between sobs "I want to hate you like I do the others yet I cant. I dont know why but there is something about you that I just cant hate maybe you can be the only one I trust but yet im just so scared to even be around you dispite how much I feel like I can trust you." He said looking back at his knees, wanting to be held right now by someone but yet he couldnt bring himself to ask either, he just was to scared to let anyone touch him.

Kim gasped and pulled away from the wings a little before settling back down, he was in pain but he just didnt care right now. He wraped his arms gently around the angel and held him and cried "I-its not your fault, its mine, I shouldnt of been so...so trusting. I just honestly believed that he was gone, I wouldnt see him again, the day he was taken away to the asylum was the best day of my life ever. No more torment but now im just so scared, he came back and...." Kim did nothing but break down and cry harder into the angel "I just dont want to be hurt anymore" he said inbetween sobs and just held the angel.

"But look where my trusting nature got me? I ended up hurt once again and this time it was worse then ever before. I am now scared to trust anyone, the only person I can trust is you and thats basically only because something inside of me wont let me hate you or not trust you and im sick of fighting agiesnt it so i have listened to it.

What am i meant to do? I am lost, confused, hurt and not to mention in pain, whos going to want me? I cant trust men. I am just going to be alone for the rest of my life, I might as well have just stayed following that book and then this wouldnt of happend" he said as he cuddled into the angel and held him as he carried on crying.

Ly decided to leave them alone, he closed the door quietly and made his way to the room across the hall and started making a phone call.

Kim cuddled into the angel and listened to what he said which just made him cry a little bit harder. "I might not have been awake to hear Aariel say what is wrong with me but even I know that I can never bare children, I can feel it, I love children so much and yet I am never going to have my own. I feel so...useless, I wated children some day, I wanted to have a family of my own and yet I cant bare children" he said as he lent up and kissed the angels forehead.

"Thank you though, I think i might be able to bare not having children as long as I can just stay beside you, I care for you deeply also, always have, just that having sex with you and Rayne just confirmed what I knew all along.

So when I knew I couldnt get back with you and I had lost my chance it was why I took off in the first place, I needed to think and I needed to just get away from you and Rayne and come to terms that I would never be with you. Just that look where it got me, I was just used again like i was when I was twelve and by the same guy, I am so scared" he said as he curled himself into a ball as best as he could and held the angel and cried.