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Kim looked over at who was touching him and his mind played tricks on him and saw the coons head on the mers body and he crawled off the bed and into a near by corner of the room and started crying again, he was now petrfied once more "get out!! You have done enough damage, just leave me the ******** alone!! He screamed as he looked back down at his knees that he was now hugging again and wishing the wall would just open up and swollow him. "Get out of my sight!" he sobbed as he carried on crying, not looking at the mer again.

Ly looked over at sabin and watched him, feeling sorry for him and Kim, he stroaked his hair gently and silently wished that none of this ever happend.

"GET OUT!!" he screamed, wanting to be left alone, he wanted no males around him at all, he just wanted to be alone, was that to much to ask for? He hated males, he hated himself for being male. He just wanted to be left alone and he couldnt even get that "leave, now or else" he yelled sobbing into his knees.

Kim got up and started making his way towards the mer "You are so ******** ignorant. You will never know what this feels like, you will never know the pain I have gone through, you will never know how much I feel sick to my stomach just knowing im of the same gender as my rapist was." he said now standing infront of the mer

"you will never know how much I cant even stand looking at you or anyone else whos a male because of this, you will never know what its like to not be able to get a good ******** nights sleep because the you are haunted by the images of being raped and even when you oen your eyes you just relive the god damn ******** nightmare you just had when you were asleep, you will never know what hell I have gone through and still am till you have been through that exact same hell, You will never know what the ******** it feels like to be clawed to shreads!!!" He screamed as he was still crying.

"Get out of my sight, you or anyone else are not welcome by me ever again!! Get the ******** out of here!!!" He screamed as he turned his back on the mer wanting to punch the guy majorly but even he had to remember his teachings in all circumstances. He fell to the floor and cried, he just wanted to be alone, he wanted to hate the male race in peace, he wanted nothing to do with guys ever again.

Ly had gotten up from the other bedroom when the screaming started and had decided to go see if Rayne needed any help, he heard everything that Kim said obviously and decided to go save the demon. "Rayne" he said gently as he walked into the room and placed a hand on Raynes shoulder "come on, leave him, he is going to need time to figure this out on his own and you being here isnt going to help him with that.

He is right, none of us will ever know what he has gone through unless we have gone through it ourselves, we dont know what its like to be in his situation, we might of seen people rapped or what not but we will never, ever know the true nightmare that Kim has gone through and still going through unless we ourselves have been there. come, were leaving Kim alone, he obviously cant stand us so lets leave him be, do you want to be the one who makes him take his own life?

Im sure right now that is probably one of the many things he wants to do and so do you want to push him to it by being here? Leave it Rayne, you arnt helpping matters by being here, if anything you are just making them worse. So please, leave him, we will have to just take care of him for the time being that doesnt involve contact with him." he said as he walked over to the door and waited for the mer.

Kim had ignored what was eing said, he had just crawled back into a ball and laid there crying, images of what happend still floating through his mind which only made matters much worse.

Ly watched the mer go and turned back only to see kims foot leave the window. "KIM!" He called rushing to try and get him in time but obviously it was to late.

"Kim had grabed the towel from what he was wrapped in yesterday and climbed out through the window while noone was looking and had taken off. Where was he going? He didnt know or care, all he wanted to do was get away from that place, those people and to get the peace and quite he wanted. So obviously when he heard Ly he ignored him.

Ly closed the window and stormed over to the other bedroom "thanks a ******** lot rayne, I shouldnt of let you in there. Now we have a half naked demon out there somewhere and its thanks to ******** you. Next time why dont you show some damn compassion and leave things well enough alone." he yelled at the mer as he ran out of the room, grabbing his coat and keys and ran out of the apartment and over to the lift to go and start searching for the demon.

Kim knew of one place and one alone where he might not get the peace and quiet he wanted but he knew he would get the alone time that he needed, he headed back home to the Estate. He wanted to just climb into bed and lay there, only trouble is, is that as much as he hated guys right now there was really only one guy that he could think of and even that made him sick to the stomach but right now half of him just wanted him while the other half didnt.

"Sabin..." he whispered as he flew back home to the Estate, half just wanting to be physically sick for even speaking that name yet the other half wanted him so much. Sabin was the first friend, besides Ly, and though he never wanted to see a guy again, no matter who it was, he just wanted Sabin. It was horrible, confusing, and he was ill to the stomach but right now he did just really want someone and Sabin was the only name he could get.

Lenore had decided to visit Muraki, she hadnt seen him in a while and so she thought it might be nice to pay him a visit after all this time since talking on the phone can get tiresome. She arrived on the porch and knocked on the door and waited.

Kim was starting to get tired of flying and he ws starting to hurt as well, he was nearing the ground when he just gave up and fell the las couple of meters to the ground, landing on the drive way of the Estate. He lay there crying and breathing shallow and wanting to just sleep.

Lenore looked around as she waited for the door to open and noticed the half naked on the ground and rushed over to him "Kim, speak to me, kim? What happend?" He caled as she leaned over and held him in his arms as the door opened. Lenore looked back and saw Muraki there "Muraki, please, go get help, somethings happend to kim!" she said as she picked him up as best as she could and started inside with him.

Ly grabed his cell phone as he drove along, he didnt know who to call but he did decide to call Noah. He dialed his number and waited to see if he picked up, he didnt even know where his mate was..

Ly sighed and told Ly everythin that was said and done and where he was now and stopped at a trafic light "so now kim has taken off after Rayne yelled at him and I have no idea where he is. Can you see if hes at the Estate? I know he wanted to go back there most of all but the others wouldnt let him so might of gone back home" he said to his mate as he started to drive again.

Muraki had run over and picked up the phone and called Aariel, telling him what had happpend from what he could tell from what Lenore said and asked him to come over stright away. "Aariel is on his way Lenore" he said now looking down at the demon in his friends arms where they were sitting in the middle of the reception hall.

"Kim, please wake up, talk to us sweetie, what happend?" she asked again, wondering if she could arouse him but failed "thank you Muraki" she said as she bent down and kissed Kims temple and just sat there with him.

Kim did nothing but lay there covered in Lenores coat and was stiring a little before breathing out the name 'sabin' softly and fell into a deep but restless sleep thinking of many things, many people and what happend..

Lenore looked up at the other that just came down, she knew some of the anthros living here had mates that had moved in but not actually meet them yet so she didnt know who was whos mate. "I think Kim is is just exhausted but other then that I think hes ok" Lenore said obviously not knowing about the whole rape thing "though before he fell asleep he did mention a name, someone called 'Sabin'? she said to the wolf though kept her attention on the the demon.

Lenore looked up at Muraki "Muraki could you please go get kim some clothes and calle Aariel and tell him not to worry, if he is just exhusted then he isnt needed" she said as she held the demon tight and stroaked his hair, watching him toss and turn in his sleep and moaning a little but never waking up.

"sure Lenore, please excuse me" he said as he walked out of the reception hall and calling Aariel as he went.