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Thankyou, I couldn't afford any so I made a few out of sheer boredom.

Bleck, I"m sorry about the church thing. Whenever I go into mine, first of all, everyone stares at me because they've still got my name in intentions for the sick, secondly I'm not pretty enough (my church is FULL of people who are obsessed with looking great and little nitpickish things like, oh, how much money you put in the collection basket, how many times you blink, how well manicured your hands are, etc. One woman was nice once, though, she told me, "Cold hands make a warm heart," because my hands always freeze...), thirdly I went to school with a lot of them and they're whispering, fourth they'll memorize the gospel for the day, recite it as the guy reads, then smirk when you don't. The others are worse because they'll walk in, zone out completely, go through the motions, zone back in, leave, and speed out of the parking lot onto the next daily event and it makes you wonder if it's even about God to them or the formalities. Then there are a lot who brag. I was so angry once. This one couple has 11 kids, youngest is about 6 months, oldest in her twenties. So This other couple, two kids, the guy's a lawyer and he makes a lot of money. He was asking the mother of the 11 kids how much she donated, and she said five dollars (weekly; in the collection basket. That's a lot when it adds up and you've got 13 mouths to feed.) So the guy gets all smug and talks about how he gives seven dollars a week. He makes much more than the couple with kids do, AND he only has two kids to take care of. So he started talking about how stingy some people could be, loudly, and other people went along with it. Now that made me wanna quote. Except I didn't wanna make her feel poor so I just said, "Oh really? Well, I'm sure you can afford to donate that much towards the homeless each week, can't you?" Maybe I shouldn't have. Since he was my basketball coach and all....and I didn't get to start for the rest of the season. I'm trying to find a....more Christian congregation somewhere or other.

Truthfully, something only falls under the law of the land if God made no law for. Now before some one goes out and starts killing people for adultery, you must remember to do things in order. Get the law changes. Still, I don't understand why people people want to change God's laws. They must think God didn't know what He was talking about.

Maybe because the people who make the laws are the ones most susceptible to comitting adultery....just a random guess.

Truthfully, though, I kinda like the fact people don't get killed for it anymore. If my husband cheats on me, you bet I'm divorcing him for every penny he's worth and making him pay child support a long, long, LONG time....I will proceed to send him Christmas card every season detailing my love life, the life he's missing with my children, and exactly how rich I've gotten since the divorce. Long, painful, drawn out life where he has to live with the fact that he can never have me again, he comitted a terrible sin, and have to live with that, for the rest of his life.

Jk. Seriously, I'm not that evil.

Wow, I've never seen that smiley before. surprised eek eek

man. i thought i posted recently... didn't seem to go through. man..

ok,... i'm a member of a parent's guild. well, last fall, one of the parent members who is an artist.. she wanted to start making some pets. she asked for volunteers who'd put them in their sigs and post in teh show off your pets sticky... to generate her some business and interest for her pets. so i got one. well, after a month of rp [and she wants it to be a rp intensive pet which i have no qualms about], i got busy and didn't go. then seh said that people who were inactive with rp for too long would have hteir pets taken away and resold to other guardians who'd take care of them... ok well.. that's fine. she did make them. even tho i don't agree with taking back a pet. if someone paid for it.. and they've reached their max evolutionary state ... the owner should be able to do whatever they want.

well.. sometime mid january... i started to rp there again... well, some of the girls there are also members of the parents group. anyways.. some of them who also received pets to take care of from her first batch to gather interest... well... bleh. man... they get on my nerves so bad. and i'm trying to not make a ton of controversy over there.. it's so hard to just keep my mouth shut... geez... sweatdrop man. i keep feeling the memory of psalm 37 come to me.. fret not thyself because of evil doers.. neither be thou enviest against the workers of iniquity. i mean.. these girls over there are acting so bullysome. i mean. .. isn't bullying only for high school girls? is it so necessary to group up in your little clicks and gang up on people on individual basis? i mean... they went so far as to go in my journal and post comments in there to me... which.. is like... public.. but still discrete cuz only people who read my journal would see them say it..

wow... that is so providence that you would say that. Josh was just saying that to me too.. cuz just a little while ago.. i spent an hour explaining to him all the finer points of our current drama that i'm in now. yeah. don't know what it is about me.. but i guess i seem to get entangled rather easily into controversy. Maybe in part because i am an opinionated person.. and i tend to vocalize my opinions. I do try to be nice.. but if people try to patronize me... or pick on me.. and act like only they are allowed their opinions and feelings, but not me.. that will get me really worked up. so, then i just say something. but, then people start trying to be all aggressive with me... and man. i do not like people getting all aggressive with me.. cuz all that does is make me more aggressive. and, a person who is both opinionated and outspoken being turned aggressive isn't always pretty... but, i guess that's what meekness is for.. and I guess maybe the Lord is just trying to give me exercises to help me develop my sense of meekness.. ^^ learning how to be meek and learning how to hold back on people is part of growing up in teh Lord... so.. yeah.

but, I really am not a stranger to having controversy. Because for every situation i walk into where one person wants to control everyone.. or wants everyone to all act like dumb little animals being led about whithersoever the leader would will.. i'm sorry.. but the only flock I am in is the flock of Jesus Christ.. and aside from that, noone is going to make me conform to anything. to be quite honest, my personal nature is a nonconformist. I always the fan of the underdog and outcasts. I am like a magnet for them. I love the unpopulars and the ugly people. I mean. when i was in high school, 70% or better of all my good friends were either had suicidal tendencies or were heavy set. and I was very tiny and petite. I'm sure i could have been a beautiful plastic type person who was popular if I had been willing to dump hanging out with the unwanted types. But, me being the nonconformist i am... just naturally feel drawn to be with people noone else wants.

I think Jesus was drawn to people noone else wanted either. I mean.. I'm sure everyone who followed Jesus when he was here became rather famous afterwards... but before his death, I am fairly certain not many of them were really anyone. Cuz, Jesus says whoever is first shall be last and the last shall be first. In the kingdom of God, there is a time of reckoning and a great equalizer...all the things people have that make them feel are better than this person or that.. it is all torn away. and when time is to be judged of him good or bad... it's just him and us..

but, he keeps plugging psalm 37 in my mind... lol >,<;;

Maybe it's because people see what they want to see, and when they don't see it, they get angry at what makes them see it instead of getting angry at themselves. Poor guy. That's really nice of her. No one understands special needs until they experience it, either as a relative or friend. A lot of people completely ignore the possibility that there are people who do have special needs. Annoys the heck outta me, and even when they do, no one ever thinks it's work. I heard one woman complaining about how the woman in her church got there late sometimes, and so she's going on about how "and her kid's retarded. She's got an easier job than most moms." I dunno where she got that idea. I dunno how you can think that watching your child go through things and putting so much effort into doing things that others take for granted is easier, I dunno how medical bills, special care, and lotssssss of talking with doctors and counselers equals easier. Kinda sad. Another one went up to my brother's CCD class...years ago, when he was in the special ed class CCD....and complained to the teacher how they were going too slow and couldn't they go any faster. HELLO???? DO YOU COMPREHEND ENGLISH???? They weren't even that far behind mainstream. When you find people who understand sorta what you're going through and do things to help, it's a real God send. Maybe small victories and miracles are like a rainbow, sorta...reassurance from God, not about a flood, but that He's always there to look out for you. Well, that's how I think of them, but I'm a bit warped, lol.

Jesus talked to lepers, promiscuous women, tax collectors. Those were biggies. Tax collectors weren't all that popular. His apostles, well, don't know everything. A few were fishermen, including Peter(Simon) and his brother. One of them was a tax collector, don't remember....M...I wanna say it starts with either an M or a B. but I think it's M. They were ordinary, not very popular, not exactly stand-outish as "Wow he's so cool." If anything, "Ew, he smells like fish." Jesus taught us many things, but I think he lived more than he spoke on the issue of accepting and loving others, not "even" the unwanted, "especially" the unwanted, the ones who are most in need of love and acceptance. He spoke on it, but he lived it so much. Maybe you're just good at it.

Thankyou, I wasn't sure, lol. brain isn't all that good lately. I knew one of them was, though. In lit class the other day, my friend was taking a test and the rest of the class had taken it and were having a discussion. He asked what the seven deadly sins are. most people had never heard of them....my friend was amazed.