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He nodded abit. "I do have more confidence.. and i know my self slightly better.. well.. i thinki do at least. Kowing who I wish to become is the hard part. In a way.. I would like to become my father. Though.. in another.. i wouldnt. He is quite sad.. and lonely. He has lived a long and lonesome life. He told me stories, showed me things. He is a great man.. but He has gone through hell... longer then I have..and he had it worse... " He managed to actually say coherently. He scratched the back of his head. "I dont want to be like him in the sense that Im not often around.. for you.." He said looking back over to her.

Fox crawled under the bed still looking for his things, if it would be anywhere it would be under the bed, he used that was his place to put things.

She bit her lip a bit. To her, this answer meant he was happy doing what he was doing, happy to be participating and investigating his own life. To her, this meant he would be happy even without her in his life. Of course she respected this desire of his, if it even was truly what he had meant.

Considering his next words, she was unsure if these were good questions or insulting. Bobbing her head, she looked to him with a completely sincere expression. "Yes." she began simply. Taking a deep breath, she began to explain.

"Much of the time, I am happy. When I am able to help others, be they people, plants or animals, to help makes me happy. It proves that I am useful, that I am needed. The rest of the time .. I am not happy. I have no one to help, I have nothing to do, except try to learn more so that when I am honored with being able to help others, I may have the skill I need to do so.

Do I pretend to be happy for your sake or the sake of others .. yes, sometimes. Though that is dishonest. I pride myself in being truthful in my words and actions as often as possible. Because of this, I usually do not pretend." she concluded softly, her emotions now showing in her eyes. Slowly she dropped her gaze from him as she continued to speak.

"I am .. quite needy and selfish when it comes to my affections, whether I am giving or receiving. I need to know if those I love need me or not every day. I need to know if those I love are in need of love every day. For myself .. with love .. I need love every day. Else I will forget or come to believe it is not real, is not true." she said softly, looking up to him again with apology.

"More directly .. I am unhappy when there is too much distance. Even the last time we were able to spend time together, there was so much distance between us. My apologies to admit how deeply this saddens me." she said softly. Once she finished speaking, she again bowed her head, not wanting him to see the tears welling in her eyes though she tried not to be emotional, especially not in front of him. Thankfully, the cool night air brought a breeze to them as they sat on the bench in her back yard among the flowers.

"And I love you and want to be with you also." she said softly, looking down at him as he rested on his knees with his head in her lap. Smiling sweetly, though she felt as if she were about to cry also, she ran her fingers through his hair, gently caring for him even in a time like this, when she was wanting comfort herself.

"I wish to mate and have children, to raise a family. Perhaps not now, but some day. I very much wish to have a chance to experience a family .. you and I are the same in this respect. Neither have been raised in a family environment and despite being able to go on with our lives .. we know that we were given the short end of the stick." she said softly, comforting him still.

"The question I have for you .. is this what you want also?"

A loud groaning sound came from under the earth as a thick oil like liquid seeped up and slowly bubbled its way into a solid form standing near the two of them. The stern voice of Yawgmoth shouted the words. "Enough!" he began. "We can't stand to even spy on another minute of this garbage. Both of you are complete idiots! And jesus christ woman we gave you a lot more credit than you deserved concerning this matter." he said throwing his hands in the air and shaking them at the sky as he looked up just to showcase his frustration.

Bringing things back down to earth he pointed to Hunter. "You, boy. You're full of s**t you know that? Just like your old man. If you didn't want to keep leaving, then all you have to do is, get this, stay here!" he shouted smacking his forehead. "It's a simple concept that somehow you seem to have missed. Personally we think it's a little too late to be her shadow but that, that's where it brings back to you" he said moving his hand from pointing to Hunter to pointing at her.

"You're so wrapped up in this stupid feeling you think is love that you can't see your own hand in front of your face much less all of your friends. Think of why you really decided to be with Hunter. You're so desperate for companionship that you'd go with anyone, he just happened to be the best pick of the litter because...lets be honest, look at the other males you had to pick from around this dump." he ranted on. "There's us, a psychotic womanizing egomanical serial killer and downright evil son of a b***h, there's the dojo master who's far too righteous for his own good, there's an undead kid who idolizies that evil son of a b***h and there's Aliator, a vampire who's already taken and even then when it boils down he's not much better than we are in terms of good wholesomeness." he paused for a moment before finishing with "Now that it's all out in the open, hopefully you'll see that, for once, we're right and this isn't that giant ego we just mentioned talking. But we swear to whatever gods both of you pray to, if we have to listen to another minute of this crap we're going to pull both your heads off with our bare ******** hands! Gah" he said finishing his giant rant turning his back on them and throwing his hands into the air again mumbling something under his breath about 'stupid god damn fools' or whatever. It was quite apparent someone was just a bit on the grumpy side of things this evening.

He jumped from a nearby tree branch but kept silent and attentive to what it was boiling down

Well this is amusing to put it mildly *Seating again and let the events unfold. If he needed to step forward he will do so*