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 Posted: Mon Oct 10, 2011 11:30 am
Nada importante, mi amor. Como estas?
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Posted: Mon Oct 10, 2011 11:34 am
Eh.. Could be better. What about you, suga boo?
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Posted: Mon Oct 10, 2011 11:36 am
A lot of stuff going on.. My depression's gotten better in the past few days though.
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Posted: Mon Oct 10, 2011 11:41 am
Awwww thats good sweetheart. I missed you!
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Posted: Mon Oct 10, 2011 12:38 pm
Mr_Xander_Harris Unwanted?...you feel ******** is me hugging you as soon as you say hello a sign of you being unwanted?....Maybe you just WANT to feel unwanted....maybe that's why you blinked instead of hugging me back.... thats not it van..its just i'm not all to use to peole hugging me right off the bat especially you. normally its i whohugs you first. I'm sorry if my reaction hurt your feelings....i probably wont be on much anymore anyhow so why's it matter? i gues we will go back to talking every two ******** months. you wanna know why i feel unwanted is because when I'm upset no one comes to my aid. when I'm down i'm alone. No one misses me or atleast they dont say they do. im on here for hours and not one person talks to me... so I'm sorry van...
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Posted: Mon Oct 10, 2011 1:59 pm
Kyla "Darkness Is Harmony", you're sick in the head. I DESPISE you, I will NEVER EVER forgive YOU.
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Posted: Mon Oct 10, 2011 4:46 pm
Kei. Who are you talking about?
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Posted: Wed Oct 12, 2011 11:15 am
oOAnubisOo Mr_Xander_Harris Unwanted?...you feel ******** is me hugging you as soon as you say hello a sign of you being unwanted?....Maybe you just WANT to feel unwanted....maybe that's why you blinked instead of hugging me back.... thats not it van..its just i'm not all to use to peole hugging me right off the bat especially you. normally its i whohugs you first. I'm sorry if my reaction hurt your feelings....i probably wont be on much anymore anyhow so why's it matter? i gues we will go back to talking every two ******** months. you wanna know why i feel unwanted is because when I'm upset no one comes to my aid. when I'm down i'm alone. No one misses me or atleast they dont say they do. im on here for hours and not one person talks to me... so I'm sorry van... ...so I'm suppose to engage in conversation before hugging you and I'm suppose to tell you that I've missed you even if I assume you know I've missed you after you don't log on for weeks at a time...I worry about you and I care, I just don't say it all the time...As for coming to your aid...I never know if you're going through something...you never message me and talk about it, you just assume I know....
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Posted: Wed Oct 12, 2011 11:17 am
Mr_Xander_Harris oOAnubisOo Mr_Xander_Harris Unwanted?...you feel ******** is me hugging you as soon as you say hello a sign of you being unwanted?....Maybe you just WANT to feel unwanted....maybe that's why you blinked instead of hugging me back.... thats not it van..its just i'm not all to use to peole hugging me right off the bat especially you. normally its i whohugs you first. I'm sorry if my reaction hurt your feelings....i probably wont be on much anymore anyhow so why's it matter? i gues we will go back to talking every two ******** months. you wanna know why i feel unwanted is because when I'm upset no one comes to my aid. when I'm down i'm alone. No one misses me or atleast they dont say they do. im on here for hours and not one person talks to me... so I'm sorry van... ...so I'm suppose to engage in conversation before hugging you and I'm suppose to tell you that I've missed you even if I assume you know I've missed you after you don't log on for weeks at a time...I worry about you and I care, I just don't say it all the time...As for coming to your aid...I never know if you're going through something...you never message me and talk about it, you just assume I know.... never assume anything and i never expect you to assume anything..i normally don't say anything..-sighs- but I'm sorry ill just shut up now. theres no need to worry about me...i'll be fine. I always am, right? I wont bother you anymore van. I"m sorry I've been such a hassle to you lately.
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Posted: Wed Oct 12, 2011 11:24 am
oOAnubisOo Mr_Xander_Harris oOAnubisOo Mr_Xander_Harris Unwanted?...you feel ******** is me hugging you as soon as you say hello a sign of you being unwanted?....Maybe you just WANT to feel unwanted....maybe that's why you blinked instead of hugging me back.... thats not it van..its just i'm not all to use to peole hugging me right off the bat especially you. normally its i whohugs you first. I'm sorry if my reaction hurt your feelings....i probably wont be on much anymore anyhow so why's it matter? i gues we will go back to talking every two ******** months. you wanna know why i feel unwanted is because when I'm upset no one comes to my aid. when I'm down i'm alone. No one misses me or atleast they dont say they do. im on here for hours and not one person talks to me... so I'm sorry van... ...so I'm suppose to engage in conversation before hugging you and I'm suppose to tell you that I've missed you even if I assume you know I've missed you after you don't log on for weeks at a time...I worry about you and I care, I just don't say it all the time...As for coming to your aid...I never know if you're going through something...you never message me and talk about it, you just assume I know.... never assume anything and i never expect you to assume anything..i normally don't say anything..-sighs- but I'm sorry ill just shut up now. theres no need to worry about me...i'll be fine. I always am, right? I wont bother you anymore van. I"m sorry I've been such a hassle to you lately. ...Who the ******** said you were a hassle?...Who said you were bothering me?.....I worry because your'e my friend...don't you get that?...what I'm saying is that I don't understand why you won't just talk to me instead of thinking that I know what's going on...I want to talk to you but I don't want to play a guessing game....
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Posted: Wed Oct 12, 2011 11:27 am
Mr_Xander_Harris oOAnubisOo Mr_Xander_Harris oOAnubisOo Mr_Xander_Harris Unwanted?...you feel ******** is me hugging you as soon as you say hello a sign of you being unwanted?....Maybe you just WANT to feel unwanted....maybe that's why you blinked instead of hugging me back.... thats not it van..its just i'm not all to use to peole hugging me right off the bat especially you. normally its i whohugs you first. I'm sorry if my reaction hurt your feelings....i probably wont be on much anymore anyhow so why's it matter? i gues we will go back to talking every two ******** months. you wanna know why i feel unwanted is because when I'm upset no one comes to my aid. when I'm down i'm alone. No one misses me or atleast they dont say they do. im on here for hours and not one person talks to me... so I'm sorry van... ...so I'm suppose to engage in conversation before hugging you and I'm suppose to tell you that I've missed you even if I assume you know I've missed you after you don't log on for weeks at a time...I worry about you and I care, I just don't say it all the time...As for coming to your aid...I never know if you're going through something...you never message me and talk about it, you just assume I know.... never assume anything and i never expect you to assume anything..i normally don't say anything..-sighs- but I'm sorry ill just shut up now. theres no need to worry about me...i'll be fine. I always am, right? I wont bother you anymore van. I"m sorry I've been such a hassle to you lately. ...Who the ******** said you were a hassle?...Who said you were bothering me?.....I worry because your'e my friend...don't you get that?...what I'm saying is that I don't understand why you won't just talk to me instead of thinking that I know what's going on...I want to talk to you but I don't want to play a guessing game.... alot of people say im a hassle and a pian..and i know that i am one. i normally dont talk to people unless spoken to first...i dont think you know whats going on! no one does because i dont want anyone to! i'm not use to people caring about me, hell my own family doesn't care about me. i wont tell you something is wrong unless you ask..i wont tell you that im crying right now unless you asked. thats just how i am and I"m sorry that I'm like this...
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Posted: Wed Oct 12, 2011 11:45 am
oOAnubisOo alot of people say im a hassle and a pian..and i know that i am one. i normally dont talk to people unless spoken to first...i dont think you know whats going on! no one does because i dont want anyone to! i'm not use to people caring about me, hell my own family doesn't care about me. i wont tell you something is wrong unless you ask..i wont tell you that im crying right now unless you asked. thats just how i am and I"m sorry that I'm like this... Sylvia...I'm not trying to be mean here...I just want to be a friend to you and you're not allowing me...you keep things from me and then you expect me to talk to you when honestly it feels like you despise speaking to me...the words you type feel full of hate and frustration to the point where I have started waiting for you to speak first...just like the hug...it felt like I was just wasting your time and then when I took just a little 'to long' to reply you pouted and logged off....you always do that....I don't really understand what you want from me anymore because when we talk you honestly act like I'm the biggest aggravation ever...
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Posted: Wed Oct 12, 2011 11:52 am
Mr_Xander_Harris oOAnubisOo alot of people say im a hassle and a pian..and i know that i am one. i normally dont talk to people unless spoken to first...i dont think you know whats going on! no one does because i dont want anyone to! i'm not use to people caring about me, hell my own family doesn't care about me. i wont tell you something is wrong unless you ask..i wont tell you that im crying right now unless you asked. thats just how i am and I"m sorry that I'm like this... Sylvia...I'm not trying to be mean here...I just want to be a friend to you and you're not allowing me...you keep things from me and then you expect me to talk to you when honestly it feels like you despise speaking to me...the words you type feel full of hate and frustration to the point where I have started waiting for you to speak first...just like the hug...it felt like I was just wasting your time and then when I took just a little 'to long' to reply you pouted and logged off....you always do that....I don't really understand what you want from me anymore because when we talk you honestly act like I'm the biggest aggravation ever... I dont mean to be that way.. its grown into a habit i believe..you arent the first to say this either. I know I've changed from my previous self. You aren't an aggrivation...ive just become very very cold towards the world. i mean i even told my theropist that i do see it as i have friends. they are just people. because friends never stay forever. they come and go. idk what's going on anymore. I'm sorry van.. I truely am. I wasnt pouting. I just thought i did soemthing wrong so i said goodbye and went to do my hw...-looks down and sniffles- I know I'm a failure, okay. I'm told it everyday. I know I'm not perfect or great and that i hide things. its just i have to hide things. i have to hide my pain. I have no one to talk to.. for if i talk, if i trust..i just get hurt in the end. you are one of maybe 3 people that i ACTUALLY trust..and hell i dont even trust myself...idk what to say so I'm just going to shut up..
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Posted: Wed Oct 12, 2011 12:07 pm
oOAnubisOo Mr_Xander_Harris oOAnubisOo alot of people say im a hassle and a pian..and i know that i am one. i normally dont talk to people unless spoken to first...i dont think you know whats going on! no one does because i dont want anyone to! i'm not use to people caring about me, hell my own family doesn't care about me. i wont tell you something is wrong unless you ask..i wont tell you that im crying right now unless you asked. thats just how i am and I"m sorry that I'm like this... Sylvia...I'm not trying to be mean here...I just want to be a friend to you and you're not allowing me...you keep things from me and then you expect me to talk to you when honestly it feels like you despise speaking to me...the words you type feel full of hate and frustration to the point where I have started waiting for you to speak first...just like the hug...it felt like I was just wasting your time and then when I took just a little 'to long' to reply you pouted and logged off....you always do that....I don't really understand what you want from me anymore because when we talk you honestly act like I'm the biggest aggravation ever... I dont mean to be that way.. its grown into a habit i believe..you arent the first to say this either. I know I've changed from my previous self. You aren't an aggrivation...ive just become very very cold towards the world. i mean i even told my theropist that i do see it as i have friends. they are just people. because friends never stay forever. they come and go. idk what's going on anymore. I'm sorry van.. I truely am. I wasnt pouting. I just thought i did soemthing wrong so i said goodbye and went to do my hw...-looks down and sniffles- I know I'm a failure, okay. I'm told it everyday. I know I'm not perfect or great and that i hide things. its just i have to hide things. i have to hide my pain. I have no one to talk to.. for if i talk, if i trust..i just get hurt in the end. you are one of maybe 3 people that i ACTUALLY trust..and hell i dont even trust myself...idk what to say so I'm just going to shut up.. ...you're wrong....you're not a failure...you're a great girl with a world of talent...you have me...you have someone here to talk to...I know what pain is like...you know I do...and I'll talk to you about your pain just like you talk to me about mine...I'm sorry if I came across harsh but I had to tell you how you make me feel sometimes....I miss the way you use to talk to me....you've become really, really distant even when we're talking one on one...
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Posted: Wed Oct 12, 2011 12:14 pm
Mr_Xander_Harris oOAnubisOo Mr_Xander_Harris oOAnubisOo alot of people say im a hassle and a pian..and i know that i am one. i normally dont talk to people unless spoken to first...i dont think you know whats going on! no one does because i dont want anyone to! i'm not use to people caring about me, hell my own family doesn't care about me. i wont tell you something is wrong unless you ask..i wont tell you that im crying right now unless you asked. thats just how i am and I"m sorry that I'm like this... Sylvia...I'm not trying to be mean here...I just want to be a friend to you and you're not allowing me...you keep things from me and then you expect me to talk to you when honestly it feels like you despise speaking to me...the words you type feel full of hate and frustration to the point where I have started waiting for you to speak first...just like the hug...it felt like I was just wasting your time and then when I took just a little 'to long' to reply you pouted and logged off....you always do that....I don't really understand what you want from me anymore because when we talk you honestly act like I'm the biggest aggravation ever... I dont mean to be that way.. its grown into a habit i believe..you arent the first to say this either. I know I've changed from my previous self. You aren't an aggrivation...ive just become very very cold towards the world. i mean i even told my theropist that i do see it as i have friends. they are just people. because friends never stay forever. they come and go. idk what's going on anymore. I'm sorry van.. I truely am. I wasnt pouting. I just thought i did soemthing wrong so i said goodbye and went to do my hw...-looks down and sniffles- I know I'm a failure, okay. I'm told it everyday. I know I'm not perfect or great and that i hide things. its just i have to hide things. i have to hide my pain. I have no one to talk to.. for if i talk, if i trust..i just get hurt in the end. you are one of maybe 3 people that i ACTUALLY trust..and hell i dont even trust myself...idk what to say so I'm just going to shut up.. ...you're wrong....you're not a failure...you're a great girl with a world of talent...you have me...you have someone here to talk to...I know what pain is like...you know I do...and I'll talk to you about your pain just like you talk to me about mine...I'm sorry if I came across harsh but I had to tell you how you make me feel sometimes....I miss the way you use to talk to me....you've become really, really distant even when we're talking one on one... I've become that way because all thats happened within the past year.. I've become distant from everyone..ive been told to go die...tokill myself..that i'm a monster.. lower than the low..I've broken down to the point i almost had to go to the hospital several times...i stopped brerathing..i've gone into panic attacks..I can't get close to anyone..I'm afraid to..I'm afraid of being in that dark place again...i don't wanna be there..i dont wanna be alone..to be hated by all..I"m weak..you guys aslways say I'm so strong..but its just a front..just a mask..its not real. I'm not strong. I cowar alone in my dark lil corner and pray the monsters don't find me today..-whimpers and goes to curl up someplace- I'm sorry that i was so cold towards you of all people. someone that i cherish more than most. someone i was so close to not over a year ago..I do treasure the time i get to talk to you even if its for a few seconds. just seeing the word hello form you is normally enough to make me smile..I'm sorry i treated you and kei and everyone so wrong..
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