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Great..why can't I do anything right? My diet is a mess...I don't know why..but I gained weight..even tho I do exactly what I have to do...and so I told my mum I wanted it to be more strict...and she told me that if I'd care so much about that little bit I could just as well not eat at all..
it just all sucks..I should just kill myself so that they can live on without having to go through so much trouble for me stare

gonk
*clingsto* heart
your body goes through all sorts of wacky stuff when you start a diet, so don't despair if you don't lose weight right away...
if you're exercising along with your diet then you're probably gaining muscle which is heavier than fat 3nodding
so with exercise it's normal to gain some weight, but you're still losing fat so it's all good!!
My mother works at a fitness place and the one thing she tells women all the time is don't worry what the scale says!
If you're not exercising with your diet and you're still gaining weight, then this diet might not be for you. Your body might think that it's starving so it's going to hold on to all it's fat stores, and that's not healthy.
I starved myself from 7th grade until my senior year in high school, I was sickly and extremely unhealthy, it definitely was not worth it...
I, personally, think you're one of the most beautiful girls I've ever seen, so (I think) you shouldn't go on a diet for appearence reasons. I don't think you should be concerned with being a certain weight.
If you want to be more healthy (which in turn will make you feel better, and over time will help you lose some weight), then you should eat healthy foods (not weird diet foods).
Instead of eating 3 meals a day, eat 5 small meals. I've found that I feel the best when I just graze throughout the day, eating healthy snacks all day then a good dinner at night. I've been trying to get in shape lately too, and so far with my eating routine and doing some light exercise for 30 minutes every other day, my clothes are already fitting better and I feel so much healthier and more energetic!
Whatever you do, please don't starve yourself!! gonk

Very well said Gunny. My dad used to be a body builder so I grew up in similar circumstances in regards to exercise and eating right. Nyika hun, what Gunny said is very true. Please listen to her. And Blue as well. No one likes to hear Ny think anyone would be better off without Ny heart

yay!!
*huggles Ny*
I'm glad to hear things are going well again n_n
I could never do one of those low carb / no carb diets whee
I'm way to much of a bread and pasta piggy xd

argh!! my youngest cousin is impossible gonk
She never eats anything when she comes over for holidays / birthdays / special events...
she'll only eat bread and drink soda.
She'll only eat dessert if it's a specific type of cake, made a certain way.
And what's worse is that she'll make insulting remarks about the food everyone else is eating...
she's 16 and she makes comments like, "ick! that's just gross!"
so it's not like she's on a certain diet and she thinks our food is unhealthy... it's that she's acting like a 4 year old and talking about how yucky our food is.
She doesn't care about anyone's feelings, she insult dishes right infront of the people who worked all day to make them.
She made faces and puking noises at the cheesecake I made for Easter, she even moved to a different seat because she didn't want to sit near it.
The annoying thing is that she never even tries anything!!
She has never even taken a bite of cheesecake in her entire life, so how can she know if she doesn't like it?!
One of the reasons I enjoy baking so much is because so many people enjoy what I make... I know I shouldn't let her childish ways get to me, but it does hurt a bit when a family member acts so rude.
And now I just read in her journal about how she's going to eat tons of food at her friend's house, and her reason for eating there is because our family doesn't encourage her...
it's not: "I'm eating here because there's good food"
it's because: "I'm eating here just to spite my family"
We stopped trying to get her to eat a long time ago because she would have a fit and leave if we encouraged her to eat.
We don't shove food under her nose because we don't want to make her pissy...
we still ask her if she would like some food, and she always says no...
she's such a selfish little b***h...
I just had to rant about it for a minute xp

Today I realised that men (women maybe too, but definitely not that obviously) are weird.

I was sitting on the bus being bored, looking outside the window. We stopped. There was a black man outside being all happy and joyfull, so I watched him (not only because of that, you just don't see a lot of black people here and I think they have an extremely beautifull skin). He noticed I was looking at him. Straight away, he came to my window, asking for my number with this grin on his face.

I mean, wtf, can't I just watch a man without wanting anything more than that? They all react as if I want a relation with them or so. It's just annoying. Everytime you look at somebody, you have to look away when they do.

It's just so .. immature ... rolleyes

o____o

I've never even had intercourse, but hell, I give you props for despising it. <3 {hug}

Ny:I'm glad to hear the diet's working out! <3 Like Impy, my dad was a professional bodybuilder...scary, really. Mr. Alabama and then 3rd runner-up in the Mr. USA contest. I still have old magazine clippings of him and the then Mr. Universe. I {heart} my Tom Platts shirt.

Regardless, I've been having a bit of the same problem. Dunno why, it never was this way a couple of years back, but since I was taking some antidepressants (which I've since stopped) -- I kept wanting to eat like no other. So now I'm definitely more shapely than I desire. And it's spring. Blargh.

Now my dad's dragging me to the gym, taking notes about my strength limits and stuff - gonna design a workout for me: toning. Mi hermano's all bulky, at least a bit. I'm not fond of it, personally. Big guys should look good, not too top heavy, but my brother just doesn't. DD<

I have to work too freaking much, I wake up sore a lot (once I finally get some damn sleep, and imagine feeling like someone hit you multiple times with a baseball bat the day before, many days in a row) and my work is horribly understaffed and it's a big problem if just one person calls in sick. It ******** sucks and my damn department manager is too lazy to hire anyone new. I hope the last few days make her realize she really needs to hire some more people.

I'd quit my job if it weren't so close to my house, I got almost 40 hours a week, and I made $7.50 and tips.. can't really complain about a $440 paycheck every two weeks and roughly $100 in tips a month.. sometimes more. I get anywhere from $5-20 a day in tips.

Yesterday at work was the worst day ever.. it was so busy.. I think we constantly had ten orders going for at least two hours straight. And with all the people complaining, the person I'm working with telling me I'm going too slow, and just everything else, I thought I was going to have a mental breakdown. Seriously, while I was getting the quicker things for people's orders, like drinks or something, I'd whisper under my breath to myself, in a singing sort of rhythm "I hate my job.. I'm gonna burn this ******** down.. I hate my job.. I hope everyone dies." I'm probably psycho and I just don't realize it yet.

I feel like I'm always at work, and then I feel like I'm just wasting time at home. I'd go out and do crap if I had anyone to do said crap with. xp I'm so damn lonely it kills me. crying

Anyways, there's my rant. I don't b***h much.