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 Posted: Thu Nov 18, 2004 4:54 pm
[entry: Ares/Tahki/Merri]
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Posted: Wed Nov 24, 2004 6:41 pm
[busybusybusy! gonk Just serving posts... I'll be gone tomorrow-Sat, and I intend on writing while I'm gone. Nov. 19: Quest RP (post one)]
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Posted: Wed Nov 24, 2004 6:42 pm
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Posted: Wed Nov 24, 2004 6:43 pm
[Nov. 21: Quest RP (post two)]
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Posted: Wed Nov 24, 2004 6:43 pm
[Nov. 23: Quest RP (post three)]
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Posted: Wed Nov 24, 2004 6:45 pm
 RP that occured November 23, 2004:[color=white] Tahki sniffled a little bit as she neared the familiar house, her yellow eyes a little red as she stared on in a bit of a daze. She'd been really lonely and no one was helping her at home, and she was still upset over Raylan going with Ares on a trip. Not just that fact that she felt her own son was being taken away from her, but the fact that no one ever asked her if she wanted to go anywhere with them was really starting to get to her as well. Neko never took her along on trips, Merrimack tended to disappear every now and then, and Raylan never asked if she wanted to go to the shop with him. True, some of these things she could just do on her own (really hunt to find Merrimack or just go to the shop herself), but what was the point anymore? Her own kids had to set up a "reunion" for the family, and Talonfaust never came to visit anymore. In fact... No one ever visited. She hadn't seen Maquinar for about a month either, and she missed Arith dropping off her gifts. As of late, she began to feel no one really cared about her anymore, or that everyone'd forgotten about her, and it was sometimes too much to bare.
Thinking about all of this again didn't exactly help much as she wiped a few nearly frozen tears away from her eyes. Maybe Talon and Kookaberra would be home, and she could spend some time with them... Sniffling a little bit again, the red and black feien flitted up to the doorbell and gave a bit of a shove against the button with her shoulder to let it ring. Please let someone be here... she thought to herself, rubbing her eyes with the back of her hands to make sure they were dry.Karma and Meka were not there as they'd made a store run to get more cat chow and other odds and ends that the household menagerie required, so nobody answered the door for her. However, around the side, a yellow light bathed the grass from the lit guest room window where the window hung open a bit.
Inside the guest room, it was dead silent and still, save for a shallowly-breathing white shape in the middle of the guest bed coverlet. Talonfaust was not sleeping, despite the fact he'd been trying to for the last several hours. No matter how much he tried to calm himself, no matter what his mind threw out to playcate him, nothing worked. He was a complete and utter nervous wreck.
Though he'd been happy to see Ava, her arrival and the conditions it had been under had been the final straw before something in him had snapped, allowing the weight of everything the past week had thrown at him to come crashing down on him. He'd cried for awhile, and then been deathly afraid of everything, and, once THAT lovely emotion had passed, had settled into utter and inpenetrable misery.
Maybe....all of this would be easier if he just hadn't been born, he thought dismally.Tahki waited for a long moment, staring up at the door rather sadly. No one was home...? Feeling discouraged, she hung her head as she turned to begin to leave, but a bit of glistening frost had caught her eye. There was darkness surrounding that patch of light, emitting from a room within the house. Someone WAS home? Curiously, the cold feien fluttered toward the light, finding the window it poured out from. Peering inside, it took her a moment to recognize the guest room she'd been in so many times before. If this light was on, did that mean...?
"Talon?" she called out hopefully, carefully landing on the windowsill and searching inside for life. "Talon, are you home...?"Talon instantly recognized the voice and his first impulse was to wish nothing more than to disappear from it. Why was she coming to see him -now-...?? Where had she been a week ago? Where had she been before he'd become---whatever it was he'd become now? Knowing Tahki was there and that she, most likely, wasn't privy to any recent events made him feel undescribably low and dirty.
What a horrible person he was....what an awful curr.
However, he couldn't hide from her and knew it. Likewise, he couldn't keep things from her as tempting as it was. It would only keep things running smoothly for a little longer and, somehow, it would get to her and by then, it would be even worse because she'd have heard it from someone other than him. He knew very well this might mean she would never trust him again -- in fact, never want to speak to him again -- but it had to be done.
Lifting one wing slowly, as though it took a great effort, he peered outward at the windowsill. "H'lo Tahki...." he got out in a cracked and wavering voice.Tahki's ears twitched slightly at the new sound, stepping closer to the edge of the windowsill. Spotting Talon, it didn't take her even a second to be instantly latched onto his waist like a child and fighting with everything she had to not just burst into tears. She hadn't heard the waver in his voice... She couldn't feel any hesitation he may have had at that moment. The only thing she knew was that he was there now, right when she needed him most.
"TalonTalonTalon everything's so awful!" she immediately began to ramble out. "Ares and Raylan are gone and Merri won't keep me company and even the pixas won't play and I missed you and..."
...Something was wrong. Closing her mouth, she grew silent, her eyes tearing up as she continued to fight back her tears. Perhaps... he had something to say.Oh gods, she had to make it even harder? He wanted very badly to return the embrace...to just say to hell with all of it until another time when she might take it better....but he couldn't. His arms were dead weight at his sides. He couldn't honestly say that he deserved her....or any of the four wonderful children he'd helped create.
Squeezing his eyes shut, close to tears himself, he turned his head away shamefully, trying to get his thoughts in order. How....would he do this, exactly?Biting her lower lip softly, a few tears fell from her eyes as Tahki reluctantly released him, placing her hands in front of her as her wings and ears drooped down a little bit. Something was terribly wrong, and she wasn't making it any better, she knew. ...Did she ever make things better? Or was everything she ever knew one big lie the world kept up soley for her sake?
"What's wrong...?" she finally managed to whisper, her eyes fixated down toward her feet.One of Talon's hands balled into a fist, clenching tightly until it shook. God ******** damn it....he didn't want to be the bad guy. Not this time. Not to Tahki. But he really had no choice, did he? There really was no way he could present it where he didn't look bad...not without making Yeande look like some sort of vile homewrecker and that was something he was not prepared to do.
"I have to tell you something, Tahki...." he said in a voice that was a half-whimper. ".....and you aren't going to like it." Tears prickled at the corners of his eyes, realizing there was no going back. "....but before I say anything, I want you to know that I love you and that this wasn't your fault."Wasn't...her fault? She could feel her heart sink at those words. She was always so happy to hear that he loved her, but this time... those words felt so empty. His voice was usually filled with love when she heard it, but there was only sadness as he spoke. Tahki always tried to see the good in everything, but how could she if everything seemed to be wrong lately?
"I don't understand," she admitted, turning only her eyes up toward him. "You don't sound like yourself, Talon... This isn't the Talon I know..."His mouth opened, closed again, and then opened as he spoke this time. "....I....I don't -feel- like myself lately, to be honest." he whispered. The haggard look in his face and the tremble his entire body seemed to have taken, making him look much older than he really was spoke much more than his words did.
"Tahki...." the words boiled in his throat like foul bile. It was all he could do to get them out in a measured cadance instead of letting them all tumble out in a rush that made no sense. "....Berra went off on a quest to Canada..." he began. "....and the first night she was gone, I took it very badly. Meka....he gave me a lot to drink to try and calm me down, and it just made things worse. I did things that I couldn't remember..."
He gritted his teeth trying to keep talking despite the fact his better sense AND survival instincts were bludgeoning him with commands to shut the hell up. "I went to see Yeande today. And--apparantly, things had happened that night. She came to give me back something I'd left at her house on my last visit. We--" his voice lowered into a barely audible whisper. "....I slept with her."Tahki blinked a few times, looking back toward her feet again. Her eyes were dry for the moment, and none of what he said seemed to catch on right away. Berra went to Canada...? Why didn't anyone tell her this? Was she alone? Was she all right? Why wasn't Talon wi--
"Pretty... Lady..." she suddenly said quietly, the words beginning to settle in. Talon and Yeadne... They...
Her yellow eyes grew wide as it hit her. They... "NO!" she screamed. It was a lie... It was all one big lie.
"No..." She felt sick. Her entire body began to feel heavy and it was everything she could do to stay standing. "You're lying..." Why would he lie about something like that? Lie about... about cheating? "Please, tell me you're lying..."
He doesn't care about you. That's not true. He loves me... He SAID he still loves me! You don't know the meaning of love. Shut up. You're a burden. A dead weight. This makes it quite obvious. SHUT UP. Berra left without telling you. Raylan left with Ares to get away from you. Now your so called love is seeking elsewhere. That's not true! If it's not, then why didn't he come to you before? You said it yourself that your own kids had to set up the reunion. But... but he was upset over Berra... I didn't know... Do you ever know? Have you ever helped? Do you ever make things better?
Tahki held her hands over her long ears as the tears fell freely, her doubt and depression beginning to pick away at everything that was her reality. "You're lying..." she whispered. "Y-you... you would never do that to me..."Talon bit his lip hard enough to draw blood and reached out to her, meaning to try and offer comfort. His hand wavered in front of himself, trembling on the air, and then fell back at his side. He couldn't bring himself to meet her eyes.
"I never would have--if I'd just--" he faltered, looking for an excuse. He hadn't been in control of himself that night....he just hadn't. And short of what he was told, he didn't remember anything of what he'd done. And maybe if he'd been able to get his thoughts enough in order to say that, things might have been easier for her to understand.
"You're perfectly entitled to hate me." he muttered, inwardly steeling himself. Whatever happened now, he deserved it, he told himself.Hate him. What? Hate him. I can't... It would make a lot of things easier, don't you think? No... It would make things worse... You've been suffering even when you were with him. What difference does it make now? I still love him! I still... You don't know anymore, do you? He was the only one aside from Maq that accepted who I was from the very start. He was the one there when I really needed him, and he's s-- Maq had been there too, remember? I know that, bu-- Is he not just like Talon, but nicer? ...Maq isn't a one girl feien. And apparently, neither is Talon.
"I..." she started to say, her voice catching in her throat.
Tell him.
Tahki's hands slowly began to fall back to her sides, her expression softening a little bit as the tears still fell. "Talon, I..."
Say it, and everything will be fine.
"I could never hate you..." she finally said, turning her yellow eyes to him.
You fool.Somehow, he hadn't expected to hear this and looked to her with a dim glimmer of hope in his eyes. Maybe---maybe they could get past this after all. Maybe it wasn't entirely lost to them. Wincing then, he looked away once more.
"I don't deserve you, Tahki." he said quietly. "And you certainly didn't deserve to have me do something like this to you. You deserve much better than that." There was a pause, and then his hands reached out again, one finding either of her shoulders and remaining there. "....I'm leaving with Irisa on a quest of hers. Maybe tomorrow. We should be gone for a month....and I think we should both use that time to think..." For a short moment, Tahki almost felt relief. However, something snapped in the back of her mind, causing her to fall deeper into her depression.
They're all leaving you. Irisa's...also going somewhere? They don't care about you. Nobody told me... They want to get away from you. Nobody asked me if I wanted to go... You're dead weight. You're a burden. They're all going away... They don't want you. They don't want me...
The air around her began to steadily grow colder as her sadness began to change to anger. "Everyone's...going somewhere..." she said softly, lowering her eyes again. "No one... no one even asked me..."
They don't want you.
Tahki lifted a hand to wipe frozen tears off of her cheeks. "No one asked me... if I wanted to go..."
They don't need you.
"No one ever asks me..."Talon felt her flesh begin to grow colder under his hands and blinked, drawing them away. The shift in her voice made him nervous. He'd seen her happy to be sure, he'd seen her sad, never once had he seen her angry.
"Tahki...." he said, trying to explain and, at the same time, trying not to back away from her. "We just--it might be dangerous. We thought it was best....!"They...they were looking out for me... He's lying to you. Lying... to me...
"You just don't want me to go..." she concluded absently, a hand balling up into a tight fist. "If I hadn't come today, I never would have known you left. You and Irisa would have been gone, and I'd be here... wondering where the hell everyone was. No one told me Berra had left... How would I know you wouldn't have done the same?"
It hurt. Everything inside right now ached, and nothing she could think about would help her.
I should just go home... What's for you there? More disappointment? I can tell Merri... And what will he do? He'll tell you to stop bothering him. Remember, he doesn't like Talon much as it is, and it's not like he cares for you, either. Then Neko wi-- She's probably busy with Demare. What should I do, then? Run away. There's no place for you here. Maybe I could find Ava... What good will that do? You've met the child once, and she was more attached to Talon than anyone. Then... then I'll... There's no place for you anywhere.At this, Talon's eyes narrowed a bit, finding enough of himself to argue. "That isn't true, Tahki. It isn't that we didn't want you along at all." he told her firmly. "And I'm not the only one capable of checking in once in awhile either." he told her. "You didn't make an effort to come see me in all of that time as far as I know, and the times I -tried- to come see you, nobody was there."
He'd spent long weeks without seeing her at all when he'd used to see her every day when they had been younger. It had been torture, he could remember, if two days went by without running into her. Lately it seemed he'd resigned himself to simply not getting to see her at all except on rare and wonderful occasions where he was reminded that he was even wanted. It bothered him he'd seen more of Raylan than he had of her these days.
"It ******** HURTS, Tahki!" he exploded suddenly. "This past week---its been nothing but hell for me! Berra took off because she thought I was overbearing, Irisa showed up and asked me if I'd mind taking off for a month with her, then Ava showed up all beaten up and scared shitless because one of her housemates tried to rip one of her wings off! I ******** up! I said I was sorry! I will NOT be made to look like I'm some sort of mastermind in some plan against you!!"
He paused, panting, never having yelled at her before. .....and it felt terrible. Hunching his shoulders guiltily, he turned away.He hates you. Shut up...
"N-no one..."
You've always been home. Did he really try?
"I..."
What have I done? You've done nothing wrong. YOU were wronged.
Tahki's fist loosed up a little bit, her eyes growing blank. Neither of them had tried, it seemed. She could have gone to see him... She could have fixed everything. So, why didn't she?
I always had to be the one to visit. You're right. I always had to make an effort before... You did. No one would ever come to see me... You're on a roll. ...No one, except for Talon. Fool.
"You're lucky," she finally said aloud. Something was still amiss, however. "I did try very hard, Talon. I used to be the one to go see you all the time. But, at the same time, you also came to see me. Everything stopped after we bred... You didn't come to me, and I didn't go to you. I was alone, Talon... I felt I had to be home in case my bond needed me. I didn't know she was going to be gone for a month... Then, Raylan and Berra arrived. Again, we still didn't see each other... I did come to visit, but... that visit was never returned. At home, I was jealous. Raylan got to see you... he got to see his siblings. I couldn't... Even to this day I still can't find their homes and Neko's too busy with Demare to do anything for me. To help me... So I waited at home. Now, I find out that our children go to YOU about their problems. No one ever comes to me... Ares is more of a mother to Raylan than I am! I hurt at home, I hurt being out because I'm alone and now I hurt here, too! I've been hurting for almost 2 months now, Talon! I'm here because I thought everyone wanted me to be... but now, you and Maq are the only people I have left... I'm not a mother. You, who thought you'd be a terrible father, are a better parent than I am... I'm jealous, Talon! I'm... I'm jealous..."
You don't have these problems like I do... You're maturing, and I'm still stuck as a child. You're turning this around. I should have stopped listening in the first place... But you didn't. No... no I didn't... You know I'm right. ...You're wrong.
Tahki sniffled a little bit. "I... I think maybe we both messed things up."Talon didn't turn around, though her words battered at his back like a gale force wind, making him cringe further. Communication between them had always been shoddy to begin with...and now, it seemed like it had cost them near-everything. Before the children, it had been easier....now it seemed like the very things that had been meant to bring them closer -- to make a family out of them -- were what was tearing them apart. And there wasn't a damn thing either of them could do about it.
"I can't help that they came to me, Tahki...." he said quietly. "Irisa and Ava both wanted protection and I offered it to them. And for what its worth, Berra asks about you frequently. ....and I suspect she'll be wanting to come over on her own more to see you when she gets back as the entire point of her leaving was to get AWAY from my protection..."
He drew a shuddering sigh, his wings drawing closely around himself like a shawl. He didn't want to believe things were truly ******** up between them, but....they were. Badly. And it seemed like...even if they resolved things now, it all felt like too little, too late and would only tide them over until the next time it happened. They should have talked like this a long time ago...far before they'd been so quick to jump on the plant and have blooms. ".....and I think you're right." he murmured.Tahki was quiet for a moment as her fist uncurled itself completely, her thoughts slowly sorting themselves out. None of this should have happened. None of this WOULD have happened had maybe they both made a little more of an effort. Closing her eyes for a moment, she turned away herself, the air slowly growing warmer as she concentrated on controling her ability.
"I hate to say it, but... I guess more time away from each other is all we can do, isn't it?" she said a bit slowly, dreading the other option that somehow seemed to linger in the air. "This... this time will be different, after all."
He may never come back. I know that... What will you do? ...I don't know."Yeah..." he muttered, really unable to think of anything else they could do. Short of turning this into a juvenile blame-placing match, at least, and he truly didn't want it to resort to that.
"I think....I think we both have a lot to think about, Tahki." He was quiet for a moment. "I don't just--not want to see you anymore..." he looked over his shoulder, finding she'd turned her back on him as well, flinching and looking forward again sadly. "Even if for some reason, we decide we can't..." he trailed off, not really wanting to even entertain that, but making himself anyway.
"....even if we decide that we can't stay in love, I still want to be able to see you. I'm sure Berra will still want to see you too." he paused a minute. "....and if Ares is truly raising Raylan in your stead, there's--there's no shame in telling her to back off once in awhile. He's your son, Tahki. Not hers."Tahki turned her eyes toward her feet, swallowing hard. "Raylan...chose to take on Ares like a mother," she explained, lifting a hand to rub at her arm. "I... I wasn't there when Raylan actually arrived, because I went with Neko to deliver Ava to the Shiny Lady. He... he'd remembered her voice, not mine. I'm not fit to be a mother... I may be able to care enough, but I'm nothing compared to Ares."
You never have been. And... I never will be.
She bit her lip softly, thinking for a moment again.
You CAN do without him, you know. ...No, no I can't. It's torture being away from him as long as we already are, and... to not love him... You'd be better off. ...I'd be dead.
"I've always feared losing you, Talon," she admitted, feeling tears swell up in her eyes again. "I... I always feared losing anyone I met, but I'd feared losing you the most. The thought that... th-that you might not c-come b-b-back...."Talon cringed, unable to stand it anymore, and turned suddenly, seizing her up in a sudden and near-crushing hug, tears streaming freely from his eyes. "You're not losing me. I don't want you to think for one minute that I ever stopped caring about you. I miss you....being away from you is hell for me. But we can't keep doing this, Tahki. We can't keep going on making each other miserable if neither of us is going to do anything to fix it."
He hated saying it, but it was true. What was the point in continually pining for someone you knew was out there, but obligations on both sides kept you from seeing? It was like starving to death while working on a project that never got finished, all while knowing that if you just got up and walked to the kitchen, you could have some food.
"As far as the kids go, all I can tell you is to be available to them....let them know you're out there. I still don't know where Irisa or Ava live, and the only reason they come to me is because they know where to find me....I'm sure they would come to you if they knew where you were too."Tahki's eyes widened and she winced at the sudden bear-hug, a few tears escaping her eyes. Had she been on guard, it really wouldn't have hurt, but this had been completely unexpected.
He's pulling you into a trap.
More tears began to fall as she listened to him.
He's trying to ma-- Shut up. Just...shut the hell up. ...He could hurt you again. I'll take the ******** chance. Anything is better than being alone... And if you suffer more? It'll be my own fault. I love him... I always WILL love him. You could be making a mistake. Ares said we learn by mistakes. Besides... this is the Talon I know. This is the Talon I trust. This is also the Talon th-- I said to shut the hell up.
Sniffling a little bit, Tahki wrapped her own arms tightly around him, closing her eyes as she burried her head in his shoulder. She may have still acted like a child, but there were times even she could grow up.
"I'll do better..." she said softly. "I... I have something for everyone, but I wanted to deliver them at the same time. So, I'll find out where Irisa and Ava are, and when you and Irisa come back I can deliver them. E-everything will be fine... And if Berra comes back before you, then I'll protect her for you while your gone."
A thought occurred to her, but she felt a little nervous saying it. What if it wasn't a good idea? ...Perhaps the idea could wait until after Talon came back."Berra will be back before me." he said quietly, slightly muffled against her. "She's due home in a week....or so she says. I guess we won't know until she calls Karma and says she's ready to be picked up."
He felt a bit reluctant using the term 'protect' when it seemed Berra had left specifically to avoid needing protection. "I think spending time with her while I'm gone would be good for you both. You--you hardly know each other and I've spent so much time with her already...and I don't want her---either of you to be alone while I'm not here." There was a brief pause. "...and she takes after you so much...."
His head was a buzz of activity currently and he wanted little else than to simply withdraw from everyone and everything and go somewhere quiet and secluded to get himself in order before attempting to deal with this seemingly-endless string of problems. Maybe he just wasn't meant to love...he'd loved three women in his life and had hurt all three of them in different ways.
He'd suffocated Berra with his overprotection, he'd upset Yeande by violating her long-standing trust in him, and now he'd hurt Tahki by making her feel ignored and betrayed. Tahki's ears perked up slightly, but it was hardly noticable due to their length. "...Me?" she questioned, shifting her head a little bit so she was still resting against his shoulder, but could look up at him as well. Sometimes it was hard being the same height. "I didn't think anyone of them took after me... Raylan reminds me a lot of you, and Ava reminds me of you, and Irisa's really smart like you... Is Berra really like me?"
Perhaps it was a good thing she was easily distracted sometimes. Dwelling on anything obviously didn't do her much good, tending to make things a lot worse.Talon nodded, trying to lighten his expression a bit and not having much success. "She is. She's almost-always happy, she's sweet, she likes to help, she gets excited easily...she even does that--that thing you do when you're antsy. Rocks back on her heels with her hands behind her back..."
She reminded him VERY much of Tahki, actually, in a slightly watered-down version...both in looks and in personality. Tahki closed her eyes again, blushing slightly as she realized that it was something she tended to do.
"That makes me smile," she said, and managed to do just that, even if it was a small one. "...And, it does make me feel a little better. I really want to be a part of everyone's life... I guess most of me just wants to be wanted. To be needed... By more than one person. I wanna feel important, like how I used to feel before everyone started going away around the time I met you. I miss them... everyone. But, I can't find them anymore..."He listened to her and felt even worse, despite the fact he kept it contained, betraying nothing of the sort. He really hadn't wanted to be the crowning incident on her already-uncertain frame of mind and thinking that no one wanted her around.
"Berra and I both want you around, Tahki." he assured her. "Maybe while I'm gone, you should take Berra around with you and try to find them again. I feel like I took you away from your friends when I showed up...that was wrong of me." He sighed, starting to draw back from her then.
"I can't think right now..." he told her honestly. "I wish I knew what to do, but I don't. And you don't know how much I'd like to pretend the last few days didn't happen, but they did. And--And they ******** things up. .....*I* ******** things up." He looked to her, his green eyes lacking their usual luster and looking as vibrant as a dull polished glass. "....and I'm so sorry."Tahki looked at him rather sheepishly, sadly, but didn't look away. After thinking about it, she'd realized something: it was more than likely warrented. She wasn't there for him like she should have been, both as a friend and a lover, and Yeande had... happened to be there when he needed someone most. Whether he liked it or not, it was her own fault in her mind, and it was... I deserved it. I messed up, I missed my chance, and it's what I get for being selfish, she decided.
Besides. She knew Yeande meant a lot to him... Would the same thing have happened between her and Maquinar had she gone to him tonight instead? While she cared for the red feien greatly, it was her heart that had led her to Talon, and more than likely for the better.
"I... I understand." Somehow, she still managed to smile a little bit. "I f-forgive you... I think. I still have things to think about while you're gone, but just remember that I don't hate you. I could never hate you...""Thank you..." he said softly, reaching out to cup her face in either of his palms as he looked steadily into her eyes. This was all a huge mess...all of it. Up until now, he'd never found himself wishing that he was a child again, but tonight he wished for it desperately. He wanted things to be that simple again -- where his biggest worry and injustice was worrying that he and Tahki would get caught kissing.
All of this, frankly......sucked.
Leaning inward, he tilted his head and kissed her gently. There was no passion in it, and no element of suggestion. It was simply a loving and warm kiss. Something to try in vain to end this encounter on a positive note. Something to make him feel like they weren't turning their backs on one another.Tahki seemed to hesitate for a moment, not quite sure what to do. She felt happy, being about to touch him, but something was still different. She'd never felt a kiss be so cold, yet so loving at the same time... Lightly, she returned the favor, uncertainty in her actions. They would work things out... Everything would be fine again. ...She hoped, at least. They had time to think about what happened, and what will happen... That was all there was to it.Karma: ((end?))
Neko: ((Sounds good to m--...OMG.))
Neko: ((...Did we just finish an RP in one sit?))
Karma: ((Jeebus crow, I think we did o.o))
Neko: ((Tell me. Has hell frozen over? Do you see any pigs flying nearby?))
Karma: ((.....I hear Dave washing the dishes. WE'RE ALL GONNA DIE!! <=O))
Neko: ((OMG!! gonk Armagedon, man! Armagedon!!))
Karma: ((Game over!! gonk x 1000))
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Posted: Mon Dec 06, 2004 11:12 am
[Backlogs... =_= MORE of them. At least there's only a week left of school, then I can spend all day writing without too many distractions. I'm so sorry... *gives herself less work this time*
RP: Tahki/Merri/Neko]
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Posted: Mon Dec 06, 2004 11:13 am
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Posted: Mon Dec 06, 2004 11:15 am
[Quest RP (post four) November 27]
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Posted: Mon Dec 06, 2004 11:16 am
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Posted: Mon Dec 06, 2004 11:18 am
[Dec. 1: Quest RP (post five)]
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Posted: Mon Dec 06, 2004 11:20 am
"Ow!" Raylan cried with a wince, doing his best to bare with the pain. Ares continued to straighten his leg out the best that she could, listening carefully to make sure it didn't make any more sickening pops like it had just a moment ago. While the young feien was able to reposition his leg, she still insisted on him wearing some form of brace until they reached home.
"All right... place those sticks where my hands are," she instructed him, indicating with a light tap of her fingers above his knee and underneath his calf.
Raylan did as he was told, biting his lip to keep silent. Once the sticks were in place, the time feien took a strip of thread from the string they had to hold the two sticks in place before she began to place more twigs around his leg. After a few moments, the makeshift cast was finished, and secured with the rest of the string.
"There... I think that should be good enough until you get back home," she sighed, her bi-colored wings shifting on her shoulders a little bit. "Once you get there, Neko could take a look at it, and perhaps Merri might be able to heal it some. Just don't do any more foolish stunts until then."
The small feien fidgetted slightly where he sat, his green eyes sad as he stared at his wounded leg. Foolish...? She thought he'd been foolish...?
"But... Mama Ares, if I hadn't done something, you might ha--" he tried to explain, but she wouldn't listen to it.
"What you did was stupid, child," she said sternly, her three red eyes never once meeting his since the incident. "You could have been more seriously injured, and I won't tolerate any more of that."
Raylan looked at the woman, ready to defend his case. "If I hadn't done something, he might have hurt you! I... I was just protecting you, so you could complete your que--"
"That's not the point!" Ares snapped, a delicate hand curling into a tight fist. "You could have died, child! What then? If you were killed, I'd still have gotten hurt, am I right? Do you honestly think that an item is worth the life of anything?!"
His eyes widened a little bit, not having thought about that before. She had a point... Had something more serious happened to him, then his attempt to protect the feien would have been in vain. Defeated, his eyes returned to the cast as he contemplated what to say next.
"I just wanted to protect you..." Raylan finally said after a moment, closing his eyes. "All I wanted to do was make sure you were safe."
"I hate to be the one to inform you of this, but that really isn't your job," Ares replied, standing up slowly and turning around so she could retrieve a little water from the nearby stream.
"And whose job is it? Your so called "mate" that you haven't seen in 3 months?" he immediately retorted without thinking.
Ares froze, letting the words sink in for a moment before she turned around, reaching a hand out and lightly placing her fingertips under his chin to tilt his head up so that she could look at him. Ever so calmly, she stared down at him, her tail flicking once behind her before she lifted her other hand and struck him hard across the face. How could someone so innocent say something so cruel...?
"Don't you EVER question that again," she told him, straightening up again and stepping over to the stream. Knealing down, she cupped her hands together and dipped them into the water, closing her eyes and quickly splashing her face.
Raylan slowly lifted a hand to his cheek where he was smacked, tears welling in his eyes. He deserved that, he admitted, but even he could see that she understood his point. He knew pressing the matter wouldn't be wise, but... Forgive me, he thought to himself.
"Some guardian he is. He hasn't seen his own son in, what... I think Merri told me 4 or 5 months? And before you saw him the last time, it had been at least a month or so. What kind of lover would do something like that?"
Ares' ears twitched slightly, her tail lashing a few times behind her. She couldn't let it get to her...
"Child, don't go on assuming things," she explained, standing up again and rubbing her hands over her face. "I'm not perfect. I was perfectly cabable of going to see him, as well, but I didn't. And when I did go, no one was there... It happens. It always happens. I'm just as much to blame as he is, don't you understand?"
"So then why must you suffer?"
The time feien opened her eyes a little bit.
"Why is it that you have to suffer over someone who isn't there?"
Ares dropped her hands back down at her sides, her fingers curling into fists.
"Does he really even care anymore...?"
"That's enough," she ordered, closing her eyes again. "You went a little too far with that one."
Raylan wrapped his arms around her, resting his chin lightly on her shoulder. Somehow, he'd managed to get himself into the air, floating behind the adult to keep off of his bad leg.
"I'm sorry... You're right," he appologized. "I just want to see you happy, is all. However, I shouldn't have said it like that..."
Reluctantly, she uncurled a fist and lifted her hand to rest against his arm. "Happiness is a luctury I'm not allowed to have. You're a blessing, Raylan... Let's keep it at that."
Raylan smiled a little bit, deciding he could live with that. For now.
"I'm sorry I wasn't any help to you through all of this. We came out here for no reason, now, it seems..."
Ares shook her head. "No, it's just fine. A break from everyone was actually kind of nice... and spending time with you was delightful. However, to be safe, we'll head back home in the morning," she explained, looking up toward the sky for a moment. "Maybe we'll be back before Christmas."
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Posted: Fri Dec 31, 2004 4:35 am
((Final saved spots for a long while. Ares and Raylan come home??))
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Posted: Fri Dec 31, 2004 4:38 am
[Inform Tahki of secret santa, speak with feien about "taking a break"]
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Posted: Fri Dec 31, 2004 4:40 am
[December 19: Globin/Merri, Neko/Karma]
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