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 Posted: Thu Jun 12, 2008 8:48 pm
Rosalie was laughing too hard at this point to be able to think about sleep. She simply adored his jokes and having him back like that made her even more happy than she already was.
Kaori looked impatient for the most part and Delilah was sitting and waiting. "Come on people lets move," she said. "They expect us to the be there at a certain time and we better be there."
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Posted: Thu Jun 12, 2008 9:16 pm
Cast nodded and rose, "where are we going again?" Andy asked spacily while getting up slowly and leaning on his son for some support.
"Wow dad, nice listening skills." said Mitch smileing he looked to Rosalie and grinned, "eh...did sleep vanish?"
Cha just stood silently and held onto Amelia. He didn't seem to really want to speak.
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Posted: Thu Jun 12, 2008 9:27 pm
"We're going to where my parents had their vacation spot," she said, referring to the place where Andy had picked her up the one time. It was at least a good two hour drive.
"Sleep did vanish," she said as she bit into her toast. "Doesn't take much to make me wake up."
"Where did you get the bruise," Amelia finally asked. She wasn't willing to let go at this point because she desperately needed him to just be there at the moment.
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Posted: Thu Jun 12, 2008 9:44 pm
"Ah, ok. Well lets get out of here then," said Cast with a grin. Andy nodded slightly and Cast started walking with his father towards the car so Andy could rest and not have to stand. The doctor still looked like a rageing insomniac but some sleep did him good so his eyes werent very bloodshot and he could remember what 1+2 is.
Cha cringed, "parent. I'll discuss it later."
Mitch simply nodded to Rosalie and held her as she ate.
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Posted: Thu Jun 12, 2008 9:54 pm
Kaori had followed behind and escorted Delilah along with her. She'd already called dibs on driving because Andy was too stressed, Cast was too tired, and Delilah just hated driving.
Amelia looked up at him stubbornly, she almost looked like she was about to cry. "Then you're staying here," she said. "I don't want you get to get hurt... I don't want you to go away because then the monsters in my dreams will come back." When she spoke of this she was referring to the night on LSD, essentially.
Rosalie was happy for the most part and wanted to stay there but knew she would eventually have to go back to her apartment to get a suit case of clothing since she was staying here this week.
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Posted: Thu Jun 12, 2008 10:06 pm
Andy got in the passengers seat while Cast got in the back. The red head had a hand resting on his chest and his head resting on the window as he relaxed. Cast however looked like he was buzzed on coffee and sugar as he bounced his leg and tried to force his thoughts of work down.
"It is fine. I don't have...that woman...takeing care of me at her home this week. I'm staying with my dad this week, he would never harm me and I love him very much as he loves me. So I'll be fine. It's not a big deal. Plus, as you sleep just think of how we are possitioned in this moment, think of me chasing away the monsters." Cha choked on his words. What was he doing? This is what Kyoya was supposed to be doing. Not him. Why wasn't his friend here helping her? If Kyoya was here she would have never gotten into drugs in the first place. Tears dripped onto Amelia lightly as the blond started crying. He couldn't stop himself from doing so, Cha had been so emotional lately that it was killing him. This was why he was staying away from Amelia for long peroids of time. He couldn't let her see him going haywire in the emotional department. He'd have to up his medication to stop it. Cha had tried being blank but it wasn't working.
Mitch watched Amelia and Cha, he just shut his eyes after a moment not wanting to see the two. Cha shouldn't be holding her, Kyoya should. He still couldn't say his little brothers name. It still hurt too much.
"Why don't...I escort you back to your house Rosalie? So you can gather your things and come back quick."
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Posted: Thu Jun 12, 2008 10:16 pm
Kaori had pulled out of the drive way at this point and started towards where she needed to go. She was excited and tense at the same point. She would be able to see a few of the people she'd known when she was younger and introduce them to her knew family.
She had a feeling she knew what they were thinking and the constant reminder seemed to rip her heart to shreds. She just wanted to start healing but every time she saw some of these people, the look they gave her when she hugged Cha and now the fact that he was crying. She backed away from him slightly, confused. "Why are you crying?" she asked. "Is it because I'm not with the 'right' person in your eyes or is because I got into drugs? I didn't mean to at first but it made me happy for a while." For a while, it was the key words in that sentence and it just made her want to have more. She was shaking slightly, fearing the worst and doubting that she could hold off.
Rosalie had stood at this point, nodding at Mitch's idea. She gently patted Amelia on the head when she noted the distress and made a light shushing sound.
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Posted: Thu Jun 12, 2008 10:36 pm
"You ok?" mummbled Andy looking to Kaori slightly.
"I'm crying because I'm over emotional and need to take my medicine. I'm also crying because I miss my friend. You two were so right for eachother...but the Lord must have had other plans. So I can't deny or agree that your with the right person. I want to be the right person for you but I'm just...I can't get over his death. I can't help but feel that none of the bad things that has happened would have happened if he had never gotten sick. Sorry. I'll stop being like this." he put a smile on his face though it was more half hearted then anything.
"I really do like you a lot and I'm falling...things need to get better though."
Mitch nervously took Rosalies hand and headed with her to the door. "We need to leave them alone don't you think?"
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Posted: Thu Jun 12, 2008 10:46 pm
"I'm just excited," she said with a smile. "i get to see some people that used to take care of me while my parents work and they'll love you all." She was referring to everyone it the car at that point.
Rosalie was already ushering Mitch out the door rather than verbally answering him. She would get her things together quickly and they could take a cab back. She wanted to be sure Amelia was in on piece and she still had the obligation to watch her.
Amelia finally looked up at him when the other two were gone. She wasn't sure what to say. She wasn't sure what her feelings were at this point. "I'm trying to be tough," she finally said. "I really am but I'm so god damn scared. I still think about him every night but I think about you too. The way you support me and the way that you hold me. I can't do this alone."
She had broken down at this point and was quite literally sobbing. She was sick of the fake smiles and the disappearances, the blank look she'd seen on Delilah and the way she acted when Cast was at work and she was off work. Then there was the way that Mitch was always picking at his food and Rosalie did the same. She wanted to die just to go be with him now but she couldn't. She was selfish, she thought at least, for wanting to die, wanting to get out of this world, that was wear the drugs usually came in.
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Posted: Fri Jun 13, 2008 10:43 am
"I'm sure we'll love them to," Andy smiled and brushed her cheek lightly, "things are going to get much better."
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"Will they be ok on their own?" questioned Mitch, he looked a little nervous.
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"Wouldn't it be so nice...if the world was destroyed in this instant? Then nobody would have any more problems. Mom would be happier and wouldn't hurt me, Dad wouldn't get so tired all the time. Mr. Haru wouldn't have to worry about his heart or stress. Kaori wouldn't have to be so stressed and worry about everyone and be sad any more. Delilah and Cast could always be together without worrying about other people. Mitch and Rosalie could eat whatever they wanted and could stop worrying and could just be happy. You could be with Kyoya and me...well...I would just be there watching. Being friends with the both of you, seeing him again. Things could be so much better," Cha grabbed his throat and squeezed it hard to knock some air out, "but that's selfish. To want everything to end like that. Maybe soon I won’t have to live with watching anymore. Instead I can close my eyes and never wake up. See the darkness in a brighter light then the darkness I see now that’s so dim it destroys my sight." Cha let his hand go tighter and his nails dug into his throat, "but I'm selfish. I want to be with you too much. I want to love you and I want only you. I want everyone to start getting better," he coughed as his hands constricted his throat, "in death there is no selfishness though. There is only darkness. I don't want that. I'm going to keep being selfish and want you. But the darkness already consumes," a little blood trickled down his neck as his hand got tighter, it was like he was trying to rip out his own throat, Cha's face got pallor and dimmer. His eyes seemed to just stare at Amelia while she sobbed, "...We're all so selfish...tell me...will you be with me in the end?" His nails went across his throat as if he was just scratching it, but perhaps he was trying to rip it out.
((Well...that’s sort of a bitchin way to end a post. ^^; ))
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Posted: Fri Jun 13, 2008 3:41 pm
"They will get better," Kaori said with a smile. "After Delilah has a new medication that will probably work better.
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"I'm not sure," Rosalie responded.
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"Please don't," she said between sobs. She'd been muttering no over and over again as she watched his hands on his throat. She looked like she was about to break, so close that if you touched her she fall into a million pieces. She couldn't breath now, like his hands were closing around her throat instead of hers. The blood frightened her and as she gasped for water like a fish out of water she tried to take his hands away from his throat. She was shaking so much now that she could barely hold onto his hands or even stand.
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Posted: Fri Jun 13, 2008 4:18 pm
Andy just continued to smile and then closed his eyes but let hand rest on Kaori's leg.
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"...hopefully they will be..."Mitch lowered his gaze and followed Rosalie.
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Cha held tighter and just willingly stopped breathing attempting to let his long and thin fingers let all the air stop flowing through his body. His face turned a light blue after a minute but then his grip released around his neck and fell to Cha's side. The blonde wrapped his arms around Amelia and lifted her face to his, kissed her lips with his own cold ones, and then let her go.
"Sorry..."he croaked out, "...I'm just not myself..." he looked to the floor.
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Posted: Fri Jun 13, 2008 4:26 pm
Kaori jumped when he put his hand down but relaxed a bit. She hadn't been touched in that way for a long time. She drove well thought, despite the distraction.
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"I think they will be," Rosalie said with a sigh. "We'll just go quickly."
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"I... ca.. can't... br.. breath," she managed to say between the gasps. She was frightened and didn't want to stand. She was leaning against him now as his arms were wrapped around her, trying to calm down or at least waiting for this to pass.
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Posted: Fri Jun 13, 2008 4:34 pm
The blonde just continued to smile for some odd reason and held onto her. He lifted her up and sat on the couch with her nestled into his arms. "just take small breaths at first...relax...it's not happening right now...anymore. So shhhh," Cha rubbed her back as the color came back to his face a little.
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Posted: Fri Jun 13, 2008 4:39 pm
The shaking wouldn't stop and the fear seemed to grip her stronger than any drug she'd ever tried. She tried to take in a breath but she couldn't. Finally she was able to take it one small and slow breath and breath out. She was calming down though the process was slower than she would have liked.
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