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 Posted: Sun Jun 24, 2007 10:11 pm
"Why do you always do that?" Reeve asked her, his gaze lowering slightly. Once again he began to limp to his room. "Ziven, I think it is time we walk... Just let me sit down and I will answer your question..." Once he got to the room he sat down with a sigh.
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Posted: Sun Jun 24, 2007 10:35 pm
Lowering her head, she followed after him since he said they should walk. Unconsciously her clothes changed again to something more appropriate for being indoors for his house again. Following after him, she entered his room with him. Standing in front of him for a moment, she was still mulling things over before she slowly dropped to her knees in front of him, taking the time to consider her words carefully before speaking.
"I suppose .. part of it is that I feel so .. so very empty without my master. Every day we would spend time together, usually most of the day, sometimes not so much. They taught me a lot, I very much enjoy learning from them. Though I did not expect nor receive praise often .. there were many times in a day where I would feel satisfied with myself that I had learned something new or done something I knew correctly. After leaving them .. After .." she sighed softly, slouching a bit more before continuing. "Without them, I feel entirely inadequate in all things. I try but I rarely know that what I have done was done well, to the expectations of others." she said softly.
"My apologies .. I know not why I want to know this from others. I should be fine on my own." At some point of her talking, she gently balled her hands around some of the fabric of her skirt, trying to remain as calm as possible while speaking, trying very hard to be careful with what she said so he would not become upset with her.
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Posted: Sun Jun 24, 2007 10:43 pm
Reeve listend to her, unmoving. His smile was not on his face, but weather that was a good or bad thing is unknown. "Ziven, you should only need the approval of yourself... But I understand what you are saying. You have done a very nice job taking care of me, and I appreciate it." Not liking the fact that she was on the ground, her patted the part of the bed next to him. "I hope one day you will be able to over-come your need of another's aproval..." He sighed a bit before speaking again. "May I ask you a question now?"
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Posted: Sun Jun 24, 2007 10:52 pm
"I wish to help others. It is important to maintain quality in doing so. If I am unable to help others well .. I should not be helping." she replied softly. Hearing movement, blue eyes found his hand tapping the side of the bed where he rested. Looking at him for a moment, then the spot again. The idea of inviting her to sit next to him confused her. Was not he upset with her?
Still, slowly, fluidly, she rose from the floor and seated herself next to him, exactly where he had pat the bed with his hand, trying to give him space though she was pleased he wanted her nearer. Turning her head toward him some, but still not making eye contact, she nodded her head a bit. She decided that attempting to bring humor to the conversation. "You have already asked a question, why stop now?" she replied, finally looking at him with kind eyes, a small smile could be seen on her lips.
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Posted: Sun Jun 24, 2007 10:58 pm
Despite her sitting next to him noe, Reeve was still looking at the ground. When she said it was alright to ask a question her began to speak. "I notice that most of the time, when we are together, you enjoy my company. Sometimes you do not... Then I remember certain times that Kain told me you seemed to be displeased with me for some reason..." For a moment he took a deep breath, but then sighed. "Are you unhappy being with me? Like... being in a relationship with me."
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Posted: Sun Jun 24, 2007 11:12 pm
She noticed he was still looking at the floor and allowed her gaze to drop to the floor also. His question, though not at all what she was expecting, felt positively liberating to her. She sighed with relief but she was not smiling nor was she too eager to share her answer. "Again I blame myself for this. I do not truly know what love is, how to be in a relationship, what to say, what to do. I do not know what I may have said or done that would cause Kain or others to believe I was displeased with you."
Pausing for a moment, she looked to him quietly. A sincerity shown in her eyes as she continued to explain. "My apologies for how cruel this may sound .. but I did not trust you to begin with. I do not trust anyone easily to begin with. There have been far too many times where I trusted blindly and came to regret it very shortly after. Every moment we spend together, my trust in you grows stronger." she finished, still looking at him but her eyes were filled with determination.
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Posted: Sun Jun 24, 2007 11:21 pm
Looking at her, Reeve smiled a bit. It was a sad smile though. "Though very nice, your answer did not answer my question. Are you happy to be with me? Or do I simply make things hard for you?" He closed his silver eye, feeling something strange. His blue eye looked at her saddly.
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Posted: Sun Jun 24, 2007 11:29 pm
"Though I may often be confused and almost constantly do not feel worthy of your time .. I am happy with you. You try your best to be kind to me as often as possible, you listen to me .. and you let me listen to you. You let me be with you." she finished softly, lowering her head. Holding her hands in her lap, she fidgeted with her fingers, focusing on their movement. Her voice was unsteady as she spoke again. "You simply allow me to be with you. Together we are not alone."
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Posted: Sun Jun 24, 2007 11:49 pm
Smiling softly, her wrapped his arms around her. "I could not chose a better person to spend my time with." Kissing her cheek gently he spoke again. "I am in love with you, Ziven. If I am ever mean to you again do me a favor and slap me, alright?" He chuckled lightly, meaning it was a joke.
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Posted: Sun Jun 24, 2007 11:53 pm
After he kissed her cheek, she looked to him with a bright smile, her eyes shining though she still looked tired. Gently she reached her hand to the far side of his face, urging him to look at her. "I love you." she said softly, moving closer to him and placing a kiss on his lips this time. Gently letting her fingers trail off his cheek, she continued looking to him with a pleased smile, allowing her shoulder to rest upon him gently.
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Posted: Mon Jun 25, 2007 12:09 am
Kissing her gently, Reeve smiled again. He could tell by the look on her face that she was tired... Hell, he was tired too. Squeezing her a bit, he decided to ask her a question. "Would you like to sleep here tonight, Ziven?" Before she could say anything he sneaked another kiss, just like he always did.
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Posted: Mon Jun 25, 2007 12:13 am
Smiling, she nodded her head. "I would like that. I will not worry about you if I know you can call on me if you need something." she answered softly after being kissed a second time, her eyes remained closed as she spoke. Gently sh rested her head against him, giving him a squeeze around his waist. "Where would you like me to rest?"
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Posted: Mon Jun 25, 2007 12:25 am
Smiling slightly, Reeve wiggled out of her grasp a bit. "How about right here?" He asked as he suddenly picked her up, held her to him and fell back into a laying position on the bed, with her ontop of him. He managed to do it in a way that did not hurt him, but he lughed while he was doing it. Unless she absolutely wanted him to, he had no intention of letting her go.
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Posted: Mon Jun 25, 2007 12:38 am
She squeaked with surprise, worried only for a moment before she realized all was well. She looked at him for a moment, confused and surprised in a different way. This was quickly replaced by an immense feeling of comfort and happiness, her eyes feeling more and more heavy as the moments passed. "It may be more comfortable if I were beside you, not on you." she replied with a giggly, resting her head on his chest.
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Posted: Mon Jun 25, 2007 12:43 am
With a slight nod of his head he turned. This caused him to be on his side, still holding onto her. She was not laying on his wing, but he didn't seem to mind at all; in fact he brought his other wing around and laid it over them. "This is much better..." He said, kissing her passionately for a moment.
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