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Look, you are not the only one that has suffered here. The only difference between you and others that have experienced suffering is that we are doing something about it, instead of wallowing in our misery. Sure, I've done that for sometime, but I got over it, Christ helped me pull out of that hole. Please don't slander someone you don't even know personally. Instead let us help you. If you want we can help you out with your problems, and encourage you to move on. Believe it or not we care about you, and don't want you to have to go on with your burden, let us share the load. If talking about your experience helps you, pm me, I'll be glad to listen.

God doesn't receive glory from suffering. He receives glory when His children suffer for Him, or if they do anything in His name for that manner(excluding sinning). Keep in mind a lot of the suffering that you go through is brought on by yourself. Throwing pity parties and feeling sorry for yourself will not get you anywhere. If life throws you a lemon, make lemonade, don't suck on it until your lip bleeds, where's the sense in that?

The one who you believe is god, is not God. You have someone entirely different in your mind, satan. You may call him what ever want, but he will be the same sadistic hater of God. Our God is much different from who you think He is. Our God is loving, caring, and concerned about our well being. Everything He does, He does to help us grow and grow close to Him. When we grow close to God, we become at peace with God and experience the joy that comes with it. It is not an instantaneous transformation, but over time life becomes so much more bearable. You are not giving yourself a chance to grow close to God, you are allowing satan to rip you apart. Only when you take away the control from satan, will you be able to truly Know God.

If you need anything, let us know. We can answer questions that may have shaken your belief about God, we can be a shoulder to lean on when you are down. Just try to meet us half way, we'll do our best. I don't know if this will be any consolation, but I'll continue praying for you.

When you give your life to God you can go through hard times a lot easier then just relying on others, and activities. God is the one who you can talk to, when no one else is around, and you can talk to Him any time you want. Because of this, you start to change by becoming more patient, loving, caring, peace-filled, and so much more. It is even possible to get over terrible sins of the past(whether you did them, or they were done to you).

We are all sinners. Its what we choose to do about it that makes us different. As for talking to God, its not like talking to a human being, its on a completely different level. Sure, you don't usually get verbal responses, and sometimes it seems like you get no response at all. Even if you don't get an immediate response, God can answer your prayer at a time you don't expect. The important thing about prayer though is that you are not only communicating to God, but also communicating with yourself. When you pray and admit sins to God, you are also admitting them to yourself, to help you understand where you went wrong and how you may change. When you ask Him for help, you are also letting yourself know that you need help. When you tell God about what happened to you, you are piecing it together for yourself to reflect on. God, through the Holy Spirit, listens to you the whole time and often helps guide your thinking. The thing about the Holy Spirit is that not only does it allow you to communicate to God words, but most importantly your thoughts, feelings, and possibly things that lie in your subconscious. Prayer is very important because of this, with out prayer you will never grow, or grow close to God.

As for church, you have to find what brings you closer to God. Church is often a good thing, but it is not everything. Some people feel like the can be closer to God without going to church at all. Some people feel like church is the best place to grow close to God because there are so many people who can guide you along your walk with Christ. It is important that you find what works for you.

The reason why I tell you all of this, is because I know what pain is like, and don't want someone to continue to go through the same stuff I have, when I know there is a better life for them, and I know how to help them out of the pain they are experiencing. There is a much better life out there waiting for you if you are willing to take it. These sinful pleasures that you take joy in may not hurt you immediately, but you will never be completely satisfied with them. You will always have a void inside you that will never be filled until you give your life to God. I don't expect you to change instantly from what I tell you here, but I want you to at least open your eyes to your situation, and truly reflect on how you feel about it. What do you like about it? What do you hate about it? If you discover that you don't like the place that you are in, try God, give Him another chance. Remember, God did not bring your misfortunes, the sins of man did, and only Christ can lighten your burdens. God will always love you and take you back no matter what you did. All you have to do is humble your self and come back to Him, ask for forgiveness, and repent from your sins(stop actively doing them and change your life to try to avoid them). I know this is a lot to chew on, but think on it, think on your life. What do you want for yourself; are you happy with your life; do you want to change? Don't just live life without thinking and just allow things to happen to you, take charge of your life figure out what you want for yourself. All I can tell you is that I know from experience that God can change you to be a better person, and you can live a better life if you accept Jesus Christ. What you decide to do from here, is up to you.

That is your choice. You may be satisfied, with the scraps from the table, but the feast is much more enjoyable from the table. I have found that there are many pleasures in life that don't involve sinning, and you can be just as happy if not more. What you'll be doing when you give your life to God is giving up the worldly pleasures for better ones. You'll never know the difference until you really experience it first hand.

God wants us to be happy, He does not want to "ruin our fun", He just wants us to enjoy the better things in life, and help us grow to be wonderful people. Remember God has been around way longer that we have and knows far more than we ever will. If there is anyone to show us what is better for us, it's God.

Well, when you realize how short this life is, you may want to change your mind. 80 yrs is nothing in comparison to an eternity.

Let me share this with you. Most sins come from one way of thinking, selfishness. If you think about it, almost all sins can traced back to selfishness. Just think of who benefits of those sins. When you become a Christian and try to stop sinning, you adopt the loving way of thinking, which is putting others before yourself, selflessness. God is this kind of love. That is what He tried to teach us through Jesus. What is so wrong with that? Do you only care about yourself? Is that the kind of person you want to be? Who do you want to be as a person?

You are who you want to be. I just want you to think about what you want in your life, what kind of person you want to be, take a look at yourself, see how you really are, then decide if you match up. If not, take the steps to become the person you want to be. I can tell you my experiences and what I've learned is the best way to live, but when it comes down to it you have to make the decision. Listen to advice, or learn on your own. You have that choice, I just want to be sure you are aware of that. What ever choice you make, remember that you can always return to God no matter what you have done in life. Just don't wait till the end, because then its too late. I hope you think on this.

I don't 'sin' just because it's a sin. I am gay and have a boyfriend because I love him and the sex......well, it feels good and is one way of expressing our love for each other. I do not believe that something that feels so right can be wrong.