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 Posted: Sun Jan 15, 2012 3:36 am
“ Oh…”
Iorwen was convinced she wasn't going to get poked for any more information. She wanted to keep her mouth shut on it because any word she spoke about Bella was a reminder that she was deeply hurt and horribly pissed off. The time apart definitely hadn't helped to make her feel any better. The sour feeling had just turned acidic and she didn't want spew her bile just like that.
“ I apologize if asking you was painful…,”
It was... drop the subject. Iorwen thought, but she then bit her lip for projecting how she felt on a person she didn't know, but knew Bella.
“ Billy…I mean…Bella…She was my girlfriend all through high school. Things didn’t…end well…and I came to apologize…for how I treated her.”
High school? How long ago would that have been for real. A couple of years, but not many years. She was here to apologize for old rotten cows. Would it really make a difference? Iorwen turned her eyes away when the girl started rambling on. She didn't want to hear this... Especially not the question that followed the ramble
“ Do you…love her?...”
The question hit Iorwen like a brick and she widened her eyes to avoid crying. She pressed lips tight together and held her breath. Did she still love Bella?... In a way, but whatever was left was a mutilated flower that didn't get enough care. It was closer to hate than anything else, but Iorwen couldn't Bella for being stupid enough to fall for her. She let out a shaky breath and breathed in again and she tried blinking away the tears in her eyes. It seemed to help the situation a little, but she couldn't turn to look at the young woman again, so instead she stared at her own feet. Eventually she managed to shake her head, but she doubted that it was convincing. Eventually Iorwen turned her eyes to Sarah again, praying that no traces were left of the tears that had been coming and going in the last few weeks.
"Lets... Go back... Pino will be waiting. He loses his head over anything."
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Posted: Sun Jan 15, 2012 3:53 am
 The sudden reaction on Iorwen’s face answered Sarah’s question far better than words ever could. As her eyes widened and blinked back pain from showing on her face for wounding the friend/lover/acquaintance of Bella, Sarah stared at Iorwen’s face for the longest moment. Of course the woman saw the watering of Iorwen’s blue eyes as she recollected, she even saw what looked to be spite or anger; but, that was too personal for Iorwen to discuss and Sarah could tell that just by looking into her eyes. However, even if Iorwen shook her head, Sarah couldn’t help but want to act on her tears. To comfort or console her in some way…most importantly, to take some of the poison out that had muddled Iorwen’s features.
“ Lets…go back…Pino will be waiting. He loses his head over anything.”, Sarah was in awe of how Iorwen was retreating, since she had the impression that the studious woman would have been a much stronger person. While that image remained unchanged, Sarah could not help but try and poke through the once-blonde woman’s defenses.
“ Yes. Pino loses his head over silly things, but that’s just his sweet nature.”, in no way did Sarah want to talk about young Pino, especially when she knew that Iorwen didn’t seem to be the sort to want to talk about him either. If not for him being a ‘safe subject’ she didn’t think Io would mention him at all.
“ Iorwen, I don’t think you really care if Pino loses his head…since it seems he lost it just by looking at you…”, Sarah couldn’t help but chuckle, but that was the only delay she had before continuing. “ If you don’t want to talk about something, just tell me. But I know us talking for an hour…we weren’t ‘really’ looking for Bella; were we? Or you would be okay with sharing…how you feel…about her…with me.”, Quite melancholy, Sarah’s head slowly tilted towards the ground as she spoke, locks of stringy black hair cascading in front of her nose before her hand brushed those strands behind her ear once more.
“ If you don’t want to talk about her to me…I don’t know how you could…talk to her at all…and I don’t want to push you into a situation you don’t want to be in. But…I…I’m not sure why, but I do care about you being at peace. Please forgive me for asking…but I wanted to know…if you were her girlfriend. You’re very beautiful…and I have to admit I was a little jealous…Not sure why Bella would ever treat you poorly...”, feeling quite embarrassed for the comment that slipped out; Sarah glanced at the ground as her cheeks flushed with a scarlet color.
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Posted: Sun Jan 15, 2012 3:56 am
s**t... I said something wrong
Casey bit his lip, knowing all to well he had taken a stab at Bella unintentionally. She didn't make such a face otherwise. Then she started walking away without another word.
No, no, no don't do that! Casey thought following after her without much time to doubt his decision or the fact that Pino was with them.
“ I…I’ll be right back Pino! Go inside, find Sarah, and meet me in the café!”
"No.." Casey said, barely in time to pull Bella from the lift and stop her from going up in a wild goose chase. He held on to her, mostly not willing to let her search for Harold. The fact that she was pregnant the last thought on his mind now. After a few seconds of holding her, making clear that he was going to just let her go on that search she so seemingly wanted, He took hold of her face again. He held her head close making sure she could look nowhere but in his eyes that were hurt for who she seemed to be choosing.
"I'll look for him... Trust me." He breathed in sharply, this felt like he was giving her his last regards or something to some dangerous campaign.
"I'll be back with him, I won't fight him, I won't hurt him, I'll just find him... Trust me and stay with you little brother."
Casey waited to see if it sunk in with Bella, if her face showed any sign of actually trusting Casey with searching Harold. After another waisted moment, during which one of his thumbs carelessly caressed her lips, he bit his own lips hard.
"I'll find him... promise." He said once more, finally letting go before he decided it was a good plan to kiss her or something. He took the first lift chair he could get on and went back up the way he had first come from.
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Posted: Sun Jan 15, 2012 5:05 am
[Bella: Oh casey...why must you be so warm and smell so perfect? D:]
“No…”, Bella had barely gotten two feet off of the ground before Casey’s arms somewhat embraced her to pull her from the ski-lift before the railing dropped. Stunned at Casey…actually doing something (which was a blue moon as far as Bella thought) she stared into his eyes and held her arms up against his chest in an embrace that was a little too intimate to be just a friendly gesture. It wasn’t easy to feel the sensual tingles that spread through her body at a simple touch, much less how his embrace made her feel cradled and whole all in one moment. Her heart ached from missing him, and unable to restrain herself her breath caught in her throat. Gasping from her longing to be close to Casey and never have to ever let go. With his hand brushing under face, like a lover’s hold, the intensity of the love within her heart overpowered every other thought that had ever pummeled through her heart. With Casey, it was like touching the missing piece of her soul; and yet when Skully wasn’t around…it was like she couldn’t breathe. It made no logical sense that two men, who she did not feel the same for, could overwhelm each other so much to confuse her indefinitely. ‘ I love you more than I can say Casey…’ and once again, the man surprised her.
“ I’ll look for him…Trust me.” Why!? Bella’s heart cried out in pain, and she breathed in a sharp breath just as Casey expelled one himself. Feeling like Buttercup when Wesley said good-bye in ‘The Princess Bride’, the woman clutched onto Casey’s chest and resisted the urge to clamp her mouth over his own and clutch him too her without ceasing. ‘ Oh Casey why? You hate him! You hate a man…I love…’, Brown eyes flickered towards Casey’s chest to avoid eye contact, and all that did was press images of their perfect night together into her mind’s eye. Nothing felt as complete than when Casey held her, and yet it was so strange how safe she felt in Harold’s arms. Casey made her feel whole when she was near him; but, she didn’t feel secure.
Even if it was only because Skull made his thoughts known, asked her to be with him, and made efforts to show that he adored her company; Apologized in person… those were little things that she pretended not to notice. Even if it was only because Casey didn’t seem interested, even if she broke things off, for a while she had Chosen Harold…fallen for him…Whether she stayed with him or not, she loved him…and it broke her heart to feel that she was the only person that cared if he was happy. ‘ Oh Casey…if I hadn’t shown you my pain…would you even give a damn?’ as much as it hurt to ask that in her head, there was a question that wounded her even more: ‘ If I screw up and hurt you…are you going to hate me and not care about me? Leave me out to dry like Skull?’ That was really what scared Billy the most, even though she wanted Casey more than she could handle thinking about…the thought of him being silent for months after an argument…or wanting to solve things with cartoons…she couldn’t bear it. She was having a baby in less than a year, she couldn’t handle the thought of being abandoned (Intentionally or not) all over again. It was hard enough when it happened from Sarah…to be treated so by her lifelong friend? The woman could barely breathe at the thought. It was in that moment that the full weight of that realization hit, and her love for Skull stole her breath away again. Of course Skull was right. He could never compete with Casey. But she loved him still, because he was doing everything in his power to be there, to be worthy, and she knew in her heart that he wouldn’t ever have to doubt that she would be abandoned if she messed up big time.
“ I’ll be back with him. I won’t fight him, I won’t hurt him.I’ll just find him…Trust me and stay with your little brother.”, God; how hard would that have been to do before this moment? To Trust him…and yet, she could without hesitation. Bella trusted Casey with her life, and it showed in the deep appreciation glowing in her watery eyes. Unfortunately for her resistance, Casey brushed his fingers against her lips, and that sweet sensation felt so wonderful that it hurt more than she could bear to know that it would stop. ‘ Please don’t go…we’ll search for him together…’, Unaware of her desires becoming actions, Bella kissed Casey’s thumb and resisted the urge to deeply kiss the extremity further than that.
“ I’ll find him…promise.”, ‘ Please; don’t! Wait!’, Her heart cried out in anguish; writhing in pain as Casey sat on the next lift chair and let himself break away from her so easily. ’ Casey…I love you…so much…’, there weren’t words enough to properly express how she felt towards that raven-head; but, perhaps the small sensation in her womb could explain it better than herself. In shock of the first sensations of movement in her womb, Bella was stalled from jumping on the next ski-lift seat to follow Casey towards where Harold was. ‘ Casey…’, God; Bella wished she could share this awkward moment with that man. It was; after all, his baby. Nay…their baby…and Bella brushed her fingers over her womb with a shine of amazement overshadowing the brokenhearted pain that clung to her face. Pino; however…had been silently watching this interlude with wide, deer-like, eyes. In shock of what occurred just moments prior.
“ Belle-y…What’s going on?”, Oh god, why did he have to ask such a question? ‘He has to know…you might as well just tell him now.’ It took a very long time, partly from shame, and partly to hide the remainder of her tears, before she could finally answer her little brother; but, she did eventually turn to face Pino. A torn expression overwhelming her face as her heart beat in agony. ‘ Oh Pino…I wish it didn’t have to come to this.’ But he left her no choice…she had not the strength to lie anymore…
“ Pino…Casey and I…slept together…Just before Dad died.”, In shame of the beauty of their perfect night together; Bella watched Casey’s vanishing form on the far-away ski-lift bench and bit her lit so roughly that she let out a painful gasp.
“ Now I’m pregnant.”, Bella felt like a complete fool, because she couldn’t even turn her head from Casey to look at her brother’s face. “ I love him Pino…But I also love someone else…and me and him got into a horrible fight last night. I think I…I think I broke his heart, and I can’t beat the idea of him being in the forest all by himself.”, Bella looked down to hide the heated fluid streaming down her cheeks, and watched her fingers twiddle just to have an excuse to not look up at her brother.
“ It’s all my fault…and if not for the baby…Casey’s…baby… I would…very much like to run to the edge of the mountain and just jump right now.”, Perhaps Pino let out a gasp, but she still had her head downcast and couldn’t see him. At any rate, her maturing brother rushed forward to lock his sister in an embrace and squeeze her close. Guilty at feeling any sense of comfort from being in Pino’s arms, Bella couldn’t help but gasp from holding in her breath and let out another shuddering sound in the effort not to sob. ‘ God I’m sick of crying! Why!? Why on earth do I cry this much? I never used to cry; ever!’, everything caught up to a person eventually, tears happened to be one of them.
“ Belle-y…Don’t you ever say something like that again.”, There was something very strange about Pino, and it made Bella glance up and stare into his angered eyes with a look of bewilderment.
“ I honestly don’t care if you’ve been sleeping with Casey for the past five years; don’t you ever say something like that again. You think Dad died so you could put blame on yourself?! You think Casey got on that ski-lift because you aren’t worth it to him? You think I’m here…just on a whim? People care about you Belle-y! When are you going to start caring about yourself? I mean wow. I’m stunned; I’m going to be an uncle…but…Come-on. Mom’s going to be thrilled that Casey’s the father. Anyone you love mom will adore; you know that. Hell, I’ll care about anyone you like too. But please. I can’t handle things like that! Next time you wanna jump off a bridge or something you just smack yourself! Cause it’s stupid!”, Bella couldn’t breathe from shock at her brother’s words. Being chided, especially from someone that always seemed so…little and immature…quite stole her ability to think through the lens of her distorted vision. Being chided never felt like a good thing; but, it was something everyone needed. Like a tree that had to be pruned. ‘ You’re a mess Billy, you don’t deserve Casey.’ The voice tried to say, and even if she didn’t believe it completely, it wounded her like a spear that had been lodged deep into her chest. ‘ I don’t. Maybe no one can ever deserve another person though, and if so I can live with that. But Pino is right, I shouldn’t let myself think thoughts like that…much less believe them.’ She loved Casey…and here he was, showing that he felt the same in actions instead of words. Hugging her brother close to her; Bella couldn’t bear the idea of leaving Casey and Skully on that mountain together; but, if she followed what would he think of her actions? He might think she didn’t trust him, and that thought hurt too much for her to bear.
“ Come. We’ll wait just inside the door.”, and watching the ski-lift until she couldn’t see the bench she thought Casey was on anymore, Bella and Pino headed towards the lobby of the hotel. Pino quite angered and frustrated, and Bella feeling apologetic and worried over the men she cared about.
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Posted: Sun Jan 15, 2012 5:50 am
Somewhere inside it hurt Casey to tell Bella to stay behind the way he had, but he thought it was for the better. It felt like the right thing to do, but it left him alone in the cold with his thoughts looking for a man he had felt tender about... Still felt tender about.
I just hope he doesn't start digging at any of our issues... I don't want to start about that. I have a promise to keep here.
When he was back up he went back to the place he last remember seeing Harold and walked on following footsteps that were fading because of the snow. A while later he found the man staring at the lake. Quietly Casey sighed a breath approaching Harold walking until he was right next to him. He didn't look at his good old Skull though, just at their vague similar reflections in the ice of the lake. He stood there for a long while without a word before he actually said something.
"Isn't it strange?" Casey questioned quietly. "When the world you knew is tumbling down into something new?" The raven head looked up at the other man. His face not betraying much of the disgust he still felt for all he had done, all of the horrible things he had done.
"I'm not here for a fight..." Casey mumbled returning his eyes to the vague reflections.
"You got Bella worried. You took too long to find me." Casey actually chuckled at that. Funny how she needed both of them around to be not worried. Yet, soon after that chuckle his expression darkened.
She's sticking to Harold because she knows I'd drop him out of my life if it wasn't for her.
Casey lightly shook his head, pressing his lips together a little before saying one last thing.
"Are you ready to go back?"
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Posted: Sun Jan 15, 2012 11:45 am
“ Yes. Pino loses his head over silly things, but that’s just his sweet nature.”
Iorwen had been ready to turn and leave the room when Sarah spoke. It didn't seem that she shared the intention to return to their starting point.
“ Iorwen, I don’t think you really care if Pino loses his head…since it seems he lost it just by looking at you…”
Great, she caught both of them. Pino was obviously a young boy with hormones, no question about that and Iorwen didn't care for him enough to really worry about him going to a slight panic or heart stress. Sure he was a sweet boy, but that was it. Nothing more and nothing less.
“ If you don’t want to talk about something, just tell me. But I know us talking for an hour…we weren’t ‘really’ looking for Bella; were we? Or you would be okay with sharing…how you feel…about her…with me.”
Iorwen couldn't help but think that she wanted Sarah to stop poking her nose in the open wound she had stumbled upon with harmless words. Iorwen turned her vision to the outside where very little was still visible in the darkness. Yes, she hadn't been looking for Bella really. The company was a good excuse not to be alone, but the current subject just made her want to bawl her eyes out. That would be quite shameful in front of a stranger.
“ If you don’t want to talk about her to me…I don’t know how you could…talk to her at all…and I don’t want to push you into a situation you don’t want to be in.”
Sure... Seeing Bella again wouldn't be a situation she would want to be in, but she wanted to see how the pregnant brunette would react to her presence. If she ran again there was no telling how Iorwen would feel, but up until now she had put her money and hear and soul on Bella having some guts to face the woman she just left again.
“But…I…I’m not sure why, but I do care about you being at peace. Please forgive me for asking…but I wanted to know…if you were her girlfriend. You’re very beautiful…and I have to admit I was a little jealous…Not sure why Bella would ever treat you poorly...”
Her shot to the girl for a second, piercing her with an emotion that I cannot describe. Shock? Disgust? Something in between those? Hurt? Awe because this woman admitted to finding her beautiful. Jealousy was why she was here as heartbroken as she was here. If she hadn't been jealousy to find Harold in Bella's bed she wouldn't have had the need to admit her feelings and Bella wouldn't have found the need to run away from her own home.
After a few seconds she snapped out of the emotion and turned her eyes to the ground.
"I'll see how she reacts to seeing me... I wonder if she'll even recognise me." Iorwen let out a helpless laugh as if she was admitting to being beheaded in the next hour or so... Or at least today?
"Just drop the subject...I don't even know you." Iorwen remained silent for a long moment before swallowing something down in her throat. "I can take care of myself."
Liar, liar... You've almost broken in front of this girl.
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Posted: Mon Jan 16, 2012 2:27 am
[Harold = >|]
Indeed, Skull had been staring at the surface of the lake long enough for its clear, reflective, surface to be nearly coated in the freshly fallen snow. Soon he wouldn’t be able to see the lake at all beneath the lily carpet, and perhaps the man could fool himself that it was just normal terrain that he could walk through without fear of submersion. Nay, Skull wasn’t afraid of an icy grave…but he could at least pretend that it would be a surprise. ‘ What else do I have to look forward to?’ Of course Harold wasn’t actually planning on risking his life today, but the thought was tempting enough to daydream for a while. ‘ I wonder if she told him yet.’ Knowing Bella, he probably had a few more hours of staring at the lake.
It was then that Harold debated expanding his frigid walk to a place further out in the wilderness when the sound footsteps distracted his attention and the man peeked to see Casey in the corner of his eye. ‘ Oh ******** the hell is he doing here?’ Casey should be back at the hotel with his precious Billy. As tempting as it was to walk away and ignore the raven-headed ex, a part of him wanted to know why the man was here. If he had something to say, it was probably for the best that Harold hear it. Suffer for what you’ve done, you both know you deserve it.
The footsteps stopped, and for the longest time neither man spoke. The most action that Skull managed to do was to slip his hands into the pockets of his trousers, but aside from that Harold made no effort to speak. Staring down at their reflections for however long it might take for the snowflakes to cover them, he waited with an indignant expression. ‘ Go ahead. Grill me.’
“ Isn’t it strange…”, Casey finally said. “ When the world you knew is tumbling down into something new?”, Even with every instinct telling the man not to turn his head towards Casey, Skull looked over to see the disgust or contempt on his ex-boyfriend’s face. Relishing in his own misery being exacted from that ‘good’ man’s face left Harold silent as the grave and narrowing his eyes with an equal wish for vengeance. ‘ That can’t be all you had to say.’, impatience was never an easy adversary.
“ I’m not here for a fight…”, The man looked back at the surface of the lake, and Harold felt his eyes narrow just a little bit more. ‘ No…I imagine not. You aren’t strong enough to fight your battles.’, the poison seeped from Harold’s aura throughout that little thought, but to justify himself the man was certain he felt equal hostility from the other male.
“ You got Bella worried. You took too long to find me.”, The corner of Skull’s mouth began to curl in distaste from a bitter texture that flowed into his mouth. ‘ Go ahead. Rub it in.’ Casey unknowingly heard his thought it seemed, because the man chuckled and Skull felt some strange sense of accomplishment at being punished more by his ex-boyfriend. Casey’s expression darkened, and feeling whatever that was left of his attachment to Casey writhing in agony, a bittersweet snake coiled around Skull’s body. Just wait. Let him keep talking until he’s finished. Alas the man did not say anything more to wound him, Casey just pressed his lips together after shaking his head and spoke to his reflection as if Skull was the male version of Medusa and looking into his real face would turn him to stone. All I see when I look at you is a monster.
“ Are you ready to go back?”, Skull’s throat bubbled with a dark chuckle. ‘ Do I look like I’m ready to go back? Does it look like I even want to go back?’, Purposefully ignoring how much his heart yearned for Billy’s company, images of the fight intermingled with the disdain on Casey’s face and the bars of an imaginary cage tightened around his venomous soul. It seems he wants you to speak now. Heaven help him, Skull was changing the subject.
“ She misses you, you know.”, Harold began to say as he tilted his body posture to lean towards Casey and thereby pin his attentions on the real man instead of his reflection on the twilight colored lake.
“ For weeks I’ve had to watch Billy wallow over you.”, It was a truth universally acknowledged, and Skull wanted Casey to writhe or relish in it. His mouth a quiver of arrows that had been made from scratch and sharpened over the past few months of torture, this war of the mouths was long overdue. Did he want Casey to interrupt him yet? Never, and so the man pinned his narrowing eyes at Casey to wordlessly convey that he had more to say on the subject .
“ Do you have any idea how much pain you caused her? I know how…easy it is…to blame me for it, but I mutilated her for a night and remorse it. You crush her over and over and do next to nothing to apologize for it.”, Yes Harold spoke those words out of pain. For reasons he could not understand Bella had made efforts to forgive him even though their trust was shattered into remnants. She would think it an insult if her forgiveness was not enough for Skull to forgive himself, and though he hated to do it, he had to accept that his unforgiveable crimes were in the past and he would not repeat them. Was Casey allowed to speak yet? No.
“ If you want to see me suffer, congratulations. You’ve won. I don’t know when it started but I love Billy-Bee…and you can't imagine how it scorches me to have had to watch her sink further and further into worthlessness because you took so many months to write a ******** letter.”, even now, Skull didn’t retract his ominous aura to allow the other man to talk. He admitted his guilty secret, how the man reacted was entirely his own personal business.
“ She’s having a baby, she’s scared out of her mind and she only clings to me because I give her the reassurance that you fail to provide for her. ”, The features on Skull’s face curled into a snarl. “ Billy mumbles in her sleep sometimes, did you know that? You want to know what she says?...”, It didn’t matter what Casey’s reaction was, Skull was going to tell him.
“ She says: ‘Can’t mess up. Can’t mess up. Or he won’t talk to me again. Can’t mess up or he’ll drop me like Harold.”, Skull was vehemently disgusted and he wanted Casey to know how badly Billy’s words affected him. How it had been like laying in box of salt and feeling the water seep from his body in a slowly agonizing torture.
“ You’re a ******** child. You think Billy wants conversation and cartoons when everything she cares for has slipped through her fingers? I have no doubt that Billy already told you how she identifies herself as a man. Did you ever stop to consider that she’ll never have that again? She’ll have a little baby that calls her mommy and constantly reminds her that she’ll never be what she wants? I suppose we all have unrealistic dreams we have to wake up to though, and you need to understand how pathetic you’ve been to just sit idly by because its 'too much' for you to 'deal with'.”, It took a great deal of composure not to want to reach out and smack Casey Johnson.
“ No, she doesn’t say everything to me, and I’m not going to lie and tell you that she does. But don’t think that she doesn’t tell me some of her innermost thoughts. Thing’s she’s too scared to tell you to your face.”, Skull shook his head for just a moment before letting out a breath.
“ Billy wants things to be the way they were so much that she wastes the effort to get you to put up with being in the same room with me. But we both know that can only last so long. You’ll get tired of waiting for her, and I’ll have to watch her crumble into nothing when you give up on her again.”, If ever Skull resembled a monster, it was now in this moment. With the night overtaking the lake and scenery, Skull’s eyes almost looked black.
“ What the hell are you doing here? After all…if Billy can look at me and not see a monster, she sure as hell can keep looking at you. ”; Finally, the man stopped talking and pinned his dark eyes on Casey’s face with infallible accusation. What was the purpose of this little speech? That remained to be seen; however, it seemed obvious the underlining meaning behind the vehement passion burning in his chest. Skull wanted Billy to be happy, and that was never going to happen when neither Casey or Skull could find it in their hearts to forgive each other. It hurt to love someone, and watch them sink further and further into misery with nothing you could do to stop it.
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Posted: Mon Jan 16, 2012 3:04 am
It did not take longer than a heartbeat for Iorwen to pin Sarah with one of the most awful looks that the raven-head had ever experienced. Stunned from the intensity of the sting that pierced her chest, Sarah couldn’t say anything. Of course pain watered on Sarah’s face from not putting up defenses against such an emotional attack, but the woman blinked away the water and tried not to absorb any more pain from a comment that was more meant for Bella than it was for her. ‘ Wow, that wasn’t called for…’
“ I’ll see how she reacts to seeing me…I wonder if she’ll even recognize me.”, As if not girding herself before had not had strong consequences, the woman felt quite foolish to have not learned from the experience and put up shields to guard her heart against vicious comments. Iorwen seemed to forget that she was talking about someone very dear to Sarah, and that brunette woman had just insulted Billy’s character. ‘ Her not remember you!? She remembers too much that’s her problem!’, was she always this pleasant to be around? The laugh that blurted from Iorwen’s mouth was like lemon juice on a paper cut, and Sarah tried to keep her encouraging smile intact under the weight of it.
“ Just drop the subject…I don’t even know you.”, A moment before the vicious nature of those comments Io had been making had seemed to be directed at Bella specifically; and now the arrow had been aimed at Sarah. Who of course, forgot to put up her defenses and allowed her heart to be pierced by it. Someday Sarah would learn not to let people in, but that day was not today. Pain glittered on Sarah’s face, and her smile cracked under the pressure.
“ I can take care of myself.”, Well of course you will when you push everyone else away! Iorwen was bringing down wrath on herself by shoving people away, and Sarah couldn’t deny that it hurt to be shoved. ‘ She just doesn’t want to admit that she’s hurt.’ which was impossible, since she already did it. But being mean to a ‘complete stranger I don’t know’ now that was unacceptable to Sarah, and stepping forward a few feet, the woman crossed her arms and pinned Iorwen a gentle look.
“ My name’s Sarah, and your name is Iorwen. We aren’t strangers anymore, and I’d appreciate it if you didn’t shirk me off like one. You can say you don’t feel comfortable talking about Bella because its too painful for you, but you don’t need to pin any venom towards me.”, A tall woman and more confident at times because of that fact, Sarah stood tall and let her fingers brush over her arms as they remained crossed in front of her chest. Expelling a simple breath, Sarah didn’t hide the temporary wounding from reflecting in her eyes as her face fell to stare at the carpeted floor for another long moment.
“ In hindsight it really doesn’t matter what you say to me I guess…I won’t be here longer than a day, its not like you’ll remember me.”, With that Sarah walked towards the door, opened it, and slipped outside without a sound. As far as Sarah was concerned in this sour mood that she had caught from Io like the common cold, Iorwen wanted to be miserable and alone. ‘ Can’t help people or cheer them when they don’t want to be…’, wondering if Pino could have possibly found them, Sarah kept a slow pace towards the stairwell in the hopes that a longer walk would put more space between herself and Bella until she was in a more favorable mood.
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Posted: Mon Jan 16, 2012 8:45 am
“ She misses you, you know.”
Like that was news... He knew that. Casey knew that all too well, but at the same time Bella had spent the last week only around Harold. Perhaps she thought that Casey and Harold could fix themselves, but how? Casey preferred dancing around the issue because he couldn't let his thought go into that tar pit without hurting himself more than he had to.
“ For weeks I’ve had to watch Billy wallow over you.”
And for weeks whenever they were together she clung to Casey like they had to be just friends. Hell, she hadn't even given him a response to the letter. All she had said was that she couldn't break up with a man while he was in the hospital. That what all and now Casey made every effort not push her for an answer, but that only led to a very awkward feeling when the three of them were together.
“ Do you have any idea how much pain you caused her? I know how…easy it is…to blame me for it, but I mutilated her for a night and remorse it. You crush her over and over and do next to nothing to apologize for it.”
It was hard for Casey not to respond to that, but he didn't want to, because he didn't want to fight Harold. He just wanted both of them to go back to the hotel unscathed. He didn't wanted to shout about the bazilion of times Harold had taken the word instead of him and why did he do that? WHY!? It didn't help, made it worse and eventually became an obstruction that showed up before Casey could overcome it.
“ If you want to see me suffer, congratulations. You’ve won. I don’t know when it started but I love Billy-Bee…”
You love her because you want to be forgiven or because you want to be me or because you're an idiot.
Casey kept his eyes on the ice, not wanting the see the look in Harold's eyes especially if he was trying to blame Casey for this all. She ran away in the morning! How was he supposed to take that?
“...And you can't imagine how it scorches me to have had to watch her sink further and further into worthlessness because you took so many months to write a ******** letter.”
Casey eyes finally turned to Harold. no they more shot up. How did HE know about that LETTER! If he wanted Casey angry then it was starting to work, but he didn't say anything and tried his best to resist the urge to punch or choke Harold for intruding so many times into his relationship with Bella. The fact that he knew about the letter almost did it.
“ She’s having a baby, she’s scared out of her mind and she only clings to me because I give her the reassurance that you fail to provide for her. ”
"Shut up Skull..." Casey mumbled avoiding to rise the tone of his voice to match the anger he felt for being blamed. Yet, either Harold didn't hear it or he just ignored it. Whichever it was Skull just kept talking and raging on as if he had every right to aim words at Casey.
“ Billy mumbles in her sleep sometimes, did you know that? You want to know what she says?...”
"Does it matter? Shut it!" It was still to no avail... Harold kept going and Casey highly doubted that what he said about what she said was entirely true. Didn't she see the diference between Harold and herself? Didn't she see that she hadn't back stabbed her childish little Casey in the way Harold had done.
“You’re a ******** child.”
Well duh... not a newsflash there!
“ You think Billy wants conversation and cartoons when everything she cares for has slipped through her fingers? I have no doubt that Billy already told you how she identifies herself as a man. Did you ever stop to consider that she’ll never have that again? ”
"Harold if you know what's good for you you'll shut up!" Casey's voice was rising. He didn't need Harold take this right to take a ride on his back. He didn't even have that right!
“ ...You need to understand how pathetic you’ve been to just sit idly by because its 'too much' for you to 'deal with'.”
“ No, she doesn’t say everything to me, and I’m not going to lie and tell you that she does. But don’t think that she doesn’t tell me some of her innermost thoughts. Thing’s she’s too scared to tell you to your face.”
Casey knew that! He knew that! Whenever they showed how they truly felt they ran from each other or hid behind something! So much and so often that Casey didn't even know any more how to put his pile of mistakes right.
“ Billy wants things to be the way they were so much that she wastes the effort to get you to put up with being in the same room with me. But we both know that can only last so long. You’ll get tired of waiting for her, and I’ll have to watch her crumble into nothing when you give up on her again. What the hell are you doing here? After all…if Billy can look at me and not see a monster, she sure as hell can keep looking at you. ”
Casey had been breathing as if he was a bull ready to lunge and he did just that. He grabbed onto Harold's collar to make sure he didn't get away with and because he was ready to pinch the man's head of.
"Then get the ******** out of my way!" Casey stared angrily in Harold's eyes and he would've spit in Harold's face if he didn't think still something good of the man.
"Don't you dare think you got the right to tell me what I did and didn't do. Don't you dare think that because she still lets you in her life. Not because you heard a few things from her sleep and not because she tells you some of her thoughts." Casey grabbed onto Harold's collar harder, resisting the urge to toss the slightly larger man towards the frozen lake. Heaven forbid, Bella wouldn't be able stand either one of them any more.
"I might be an idiot kid according to you, but I don't go around your back to claim I'm speaking in your name. I don't try to set the wrongs you did right by sticking to you like a jealous little ******** took a moment to breath and he was convinced his voice would be hoarse when with the way he was speaking so firmly and loudly.
"Don't you dare b***h about the things I did, because I didn't pretend to be you to get what I want and I sure as hell didn't rape your best friend nor your sister and I definitely wouldn't leave it up to you to discovered that." Casey paused letting what he said sink in for himself and Harold. Then he swallowed and he pushed on. If Harold was going to let all the crap that has been between them of his heart, then Casey would be sure he had a proper say about it.
"You may have apologized to her or at least tried to, but you handily forgot that you made two victims that night. You just came and told me to leave her alone because I cheated on you with HER. And for you info I was TRYING to set that right, but you handily parked yourself between us and prevented me from doing so then. So before you start crying about what I did to Billy you should consider making amends for all the lies you told me."
He pushed Harold away from him directing the man away from the frozen lake as much as he could.
"That would be a good start to take care of what our Billy-bee needs. Now you're going to shut up and get your a** back to the hotel or I'll drag you back."
Casey finally fell silent breathing hard, emotionally exhausted for all the things he said. If... Harold would wanted to make amends he'd have to wait until later.
"Don't you think about talking... Just start walking." He added when he was starting to calm don a little, but he really didn't need to hear anything more from Harold.
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Posted: Mon Jan 16, 2012 10:10 am
[*runs away from Casey*]
Not even one moment after speaking and ignoring his comments to stop; Casey lunged towards the once painted fellow…and yet Skull didn’t move. Standing there and accepting whatever punishment that Casey felt justified in giving, Harold pinned Casey a threatening stare but kept his hands concealed in his pants pockets. However, the man expected Casey to pop him a good one or spit in his face. As neither event happened, Skull ended up raising an eyebrow.
“ Then get the ******** out of my way!”, Skull’s mouth curled in distaste as his face reddened from an equal surge of anger. ‘ NO. ’
“ Don't you dare think you got the right to tell me what I did and didn't do. Don't you dare think that because she still lets you in her life. Not because you heard a few things from her sleep and not because she tells you some of her thoughts.”, Harold just stood there and let Casey grab his collar tighter with a hint of discomfort on his face. The material of his shirt beginning to press a bit too roughly against his neck than any person would haveliked. ‘ But of course he wants me to choke on something.’, Skull thought in displeasure, not even realizing how that thought could have been taken the wrong way if he said it out loud.
“ I might be an idiot kid according to you, but I don't go around your back to claim I'm speaking in your name. I don't try to set the wrongs you did right by sticking to you like a jealous little ********>”, Guilt overshadowed Skull’s facial features for the longest moment; but, he did not allow his anger to diffuse because of it. Taking a deep breath, nearly snorting like a bull himself as Casey took a breath.
“ Don't you dare b***h about the things I did, because I didn't pretend to be you to get what I want and I sure as hell didn't rape your best friend nor your sister—” At this Harold’s eyes widened in shock and his entire face paled over like a corpse. ‘ What the ******** did you mean by that?!’ Up until that point Skull had felt mortified from anguish or remorse; but, the second his sister got involved the man’s right upper mouth curled up in disgusted confusion. Yes he had lied to get what he wanted, was he trying to justify it? Never; but, Skull had never raped his sister. He loathed the ground she walked on! ‘ Is Billy your sister now? Cause that’s ******** disturbing!’ But of course Casey continued on in his anger quite oblivious to Harold’s disposition.
“--and I definitely wouldn't leave it up to you to discovered that.”, If any of Casey’s words struck him hard like a sword; it was that sentence right there and the pain riddled every facet of his face. ‘ All we ever do is yell at each other Casey! Like hell you’d let me near you enough to apologize when I stopped taking Lithium. ******** yes I was a coward! I admit it, I should have told you the truth as well and let you shoot me.’
“You may have apologized to her or at least tried--”, Skull almost lashed out at Casey but he stopped hand just before latching his claws onto Casey’s jacket. Of course I ******** apologized asswipe! ’ ‘’--to, but you handily forgot that you made two victims that night.”, The hammer smacked down on Harold’s chest and the torment was immeasurable and acute. ’Of course’ you didn’t notice CASEY being a victim. You just wanted to punish Casey and didn’t look under your goal to notice that you had someone else to make up to. That voice in his head happened to only be half right today, and so the man looked away to hide the shame in his eyes from being seen by the person yelling at him. ‘ Course I wanted to apologize. Weeks ago, when my head was wrapped on strait. But that’s just the thing. There isn’t a possible way that Casey could ever forgive me, so I didn’t want to try. He’d just get an ax from the closet to chase me out of the house with.’, But Skull had wanted to, even in being ashamed at his cowardice.
“You just came and told me to leave her alone because I cheated on you with HER--” The snarl resurfaced and Skull’s hand began to tighten into a fist once more. “ You did cheat a*****e! But seeing as that ‘rape’ constitutes as cheating I imagine we’re even in that.’. “And for your info I was TRYING to set that right, but you handily parked yourself between us and prevented me from doing so then.” , Harold couldn’t stop himself from making a comment then, and the fury showed on Harold’s face.
“ Of course I did; She was crying her eyes ou!--”, Speaking over another person never left the brain much energy to translate, and so the man understood very little of Casey’s next statement.
“--consider making amends for all the lies you told me.” Addressing the other thing set before him, Harold’s face tightened and he bit down roughly on his tongue to not speak over the man and miss information again. Screaming over Casey wasn’t going to help this situation, and though his hand didn’t straiten out from a fist, the man didn’t move and he let Casey keep screaming until he was finished. ‘ Just because you didn’t hear anything from me, doesn’t mean I didn’t consider something.’, not a second after that thought Casey shoved Skull away and in trying to catch his balance the man wobbled on his feet like a newborn deer.
“ That would be a good start to take care of what our—”, Skull’s face momentarily paled at the word ‘our’ simply because of how disturbing it was to think of Bella as ‘something shared’. It was most disturbing because it was true…While he didn’t think (or want to think about) that Bella and Casey were still seeing each other in the physical sense, he knew in the back of his mind that Bella belonged to Casey. If not for Bella taking pity on him, they wouldn’t be dating right now. Go to the apartment and find the ring. If you hurry, you’ll be able to get your money back. Unable to keep from thinking about it in all its wretched glory, the image of Bella and Casey in flagrante whenever he wasn’t ‘home’ crawled into his soul and refused to depart. ‘ A part of me might be attached to Bella enough to let her do whatever she wanted when I’m not around…but I’d lose my good opinion of her, and hell I’d rot if I knew about that.’ Could Casey live with such an arrangement? ‘ Hell no, if it came to that I’d rather she just be with him.’ It was dark thoughts such as those that kept Skull from moving for the longest time. Enough time for Casey to calm down and add yet another comment.
“ Don’t you think about talking…Just start walking.”, And then Skull’s chin raised from the snow to pin Casey with subtle raise of the eyebrow and a perplexed expression. ‘ I hardly doubt you care if I’m outside at night in the snow. Why are you so persistent? You don’t have to walk with me like I’m a two year old.’ Nothing in Skull’s inner being felt submissive enough to want to walk back to the hotel without giving another two cent’s worth of his thoughts to him; but, some of Casey’s words had sunk through his anger to penetrate a deeper level in his consciousness. What were ways to try and make amends with Casey? If his mother was right about anything, then doing things you don’t want to do was the only thing a person was able to contribute. ‘ Alright. I’ll listen to you, but later. Later we’re going to talk about this.’ Vowing to write a letter before he went to bed, Skull’s feet began to crunch in the snow.
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An awkward ride on the snow-lift later, Harold and Casey had barely a minute of walking through the door before a brown-haired figure rushed from some secret spot behind a decorative plant to smother them into one big bear hug. As if in apology for being so close to Casey against his will, Skull sent the man an expression in-between compassion and a grimace. Sure enough, Bella noticed how white Skull’s skin had gotten with being stuck outside for so long, and as the hug departed Skull bit down on his tongue. One look at Billy’s face told Skull that he was in big trouble, but with seeing Pino hovering nearby, Billy didn’t seem to want to make a scene. She just pulled them all into another group hug, and made Skull give another apologetic expression towards Casey as he tried to weasel out of a forced embrace.
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Posted: Mon Jan 16, 2012 12:14 pm
[Me: Bella...what are you doing?!]
For hours the night before, Bella couldn’t forget the look on Skully’s face when she accused him of trying to justify that horrible night. Even if she was in the right for saying so, she shouldn’t have interrupted him like that and shouted at him! Yeah Billy, just push everyone away when they’re trying to talk to you about something personal. While she did feel so horrible for hurting Skull, just hearing about that night stung like a razor blade. In thinking back on that night that forever haunted her memory, it wasn’t just what happened after the light turned on that had shattered Bella so completely. ‘ If I had suspected…at any time…that it wasn’t Casey…at least then I wouldn’t have felt so lousy about myself.’ What burned Bella to her very core for hours after finding out she hadn’t made love to Casey was…
Lost in her own thoughts as her hawk eyes kept searching the snow-laden pathway for Casey, the brunette female’s face lowered towards the carpet at reminiscing dangerous subjects. If that mockery with Skull hadn’t felt…perfect…before that lamp came on, you wouldn’t have been so devastated. Bella tried to justify herself, that it was simply because Skull and Casey used to be together, that he would know the…little things…Casey did in bed; but, she couldn’t prove that. It could have been a much more disastrous thing, such as Casey learning sexual advice from Harold. Not wishing to let her mind unwillingly think of both her men in bed together, Bella tried to change the subject but her mind decided to force the issue anyway. Had Pino not been sitting down in the lobby near the fireplace, he might have wondered if his sister tasted something weird because of the look that crossed her face. Sad to admit it, thinking of Casey and Skull together left her feeling terribly scorched. Even if they hated each other now, they didn’t always look at each other with contempt.
Forced between contemplations that made her sick with jealousy, or rampant with heartbreak, Bella chose the latter. Seeing as the argument was all she could think about anyway, the woman didn’t seem to have a choice. You do know why Skull hesitated right? Why he’s been missing all day? Spoke the accusatory voice in her head, and Bella grimaced as a pain began to resettle in her chest. Skull thinks you’re leaving him… In highland’s terms, Bella tried to remember the pain on Harold’s face and all she could feel from him was this overwhelming sense of worthlessness. Looking down at her feet, Bella’s fingers clutched the cold glass of the window in the attempt to feel something tangible draw her out of her thoughts; but, it was like a rope being dangled in front of her. Bella would have to grab it and pay attention, and as she remembered how she felt the previous night, the brunette turned around and slunk down to the floor.
‘ I’m not going to lie and say that…had things not gone so bungled in the kitchen I would have agreed to being Skull’s girlfriend, but I’m tired of waiting for Casey…Especially when it felt like he didn’t seem to notice how hurt I was. I know I can grow up, go over there, and talk to him…but is that really going to change anything? Skull has his moments of being psycho, but I know he wouldn’t have been ‘that’ out of control of himself if he hadn’t been messing up by his meds mixing together and screwing with his head. What the hell was Casey’s excuse?’, Bella stopped herself and bit down on her tongue. She adored her Casey, and outside of the pain festering in her chest she would not think so poorly of him. As hilarious as it might be to think that the thought came from spending too much time with Harold, the woman would only punish herself for making a comment.
‘ I know why…I’ve been…so stagnant with Skully.’, Thought she as she stood back up and turned to observe the window once more. ‘ I can’t think about sleeping with Skully without remembering that night and feeling ice run through my veins.’ Sometimes she felt overwhelmed by nausea when she thought of being physical with him, and other times she burned at the thought of it. There was always that fear that he would laugh at her and humiliate her when it was over, that he dated her for weeks as some elaborate prank. ‘ But that look in his eyes…you can’t fake that…’
All Bella had tried to do last night was try to kiss her ‘boyfriend’ to try and see if they could really work as a couple. The man had been melancholy for such a long time, and she thought that maybe if she kissed him the way they kissed in the bathroom at that party that he might seem like he still wanted to be with her physically. Even for just snuggling close…like the morning Iorwen caught her…Harold used to playfully tease and jokingly make moves towards her...and lately, he had teased less and less. ‘ Is he doubting me? Or does he just doubt that he wants to be with me anymore?’ Bella wept because she tried to start something that could have been intimate and wonderful, and he didn’t even realize what she was doing. ‘ If I do leave someone, its because I don’t love them or we just don’t work.’, Not wanting to be a failure more than she already was, Bella was doing what she could to make them work.
‘ If Skully isn’t in some ditch somewhere…he’s going to be in major trouble!’, watching the snow for enough minutes to begin to be worried about Casey’s wellbeing, finally two figures started walking up the pathway. One of them looking to be sneering at the other in white and she knew without a second thought that Casey had found Skull and brought him back. ‘ Casey you’re a hero!’, waiting inside simply because it was too cold, the female rushed forward from her hiding spot and bathed both of them in an embrace; Casey because she was eternally grateful for him willingly obligating himself, and Skull because she missed him.
Unable to part from either man, Bella raised her chin and took one strong look at Skull, and her heart broke in her chest. Skull didn’t hug her back when she cradled them, he even tried to keep his body like a statue as if hugging her was something unpleasant to do. Casey seemed stoic as well, and so she just broke the hug and debated hugging them separately. However, Lord knew how that would blow over, so she just hugged both men again and squeezed them close. Strange, not even Casey seems to be hugging you back. Wondering if both men got into an argument and soon not doubting the fact, Bella looked up to see the most wounded heart refracted from Skull’s eyes, and she bit down on her tongue and froze in one spot. ‘ Oh Skull…did you really think I’d still be mad at you about last night?’, the look on his face seemed to convey that he did, and though it shattered her heart at the thought of Casey seeing this, there was only one thing to do on a stubborn male who refused to show affection around Casey.
Without a word Bella leaned in, pressed her hands under Skull’s chin, and pressed her mouth against his own. For a long moment she felt like she had kissed a wall because Skull didn’t move; but then, she felt cold arms fold around her waist and his frozen nose rub against the nape of her neck. Eyes widening from how cold Skully was, a claw of despair started to nudge her psyche that something was wrong before Harold snuck kisses against her neck and melted away all her concerns. After all, if he was alright with just sneaking kisses and holding her with Casey around, then they weren’t both doing everything in their power not to daydream about him. Shoving away with a playful mock scowl, Bella glared at Harold with fake contempt.
“ I asked you to fetch Casey hours ago…Did you get lost in your own hotel?”, Thinking that statement was the most hilarious thing since John Pinette, Bella glanced at Casey with the warmest smile she had made in days and wet her mouth to bring some color back into her lips. Casey looked so hurt, and she wished more than anything to run from Harold, hold Casey, and kiss him with as much passion as she could muster. But she couldn’t keep entertaining thoughts like that until she was sure of her own feelings. Seeing that pain on his face…Bella knew he wouldn’t have to wait much longer…
“ I-isn’t that funny Case?...”, Feeling like she had no right to even speak to Casey after that attempt at public display of affection, Bella bit down harshly on her tongue and smiled even though her hands began to tremble by her stomach. ‘ Please don’t glare at me…I’m so so sorry, I was just trying to fix an argument…’
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Posted: Mon Jan 16, 2012 1:22 pm
Maybe Casey was a little bit too persistent. Maybe he should've gone ahead, but somewhere inside he didn't trust Harold alone for the time being. Like he had been infected with some of the worry that he had seen in Bella's action before coming here to find the man staring at a frozen nearly snowed in lake.
When they got down Casey kind of expected to see Bella from as soon as the two of them neared the hotel. Yet, somewhere inside of it she tore at him by hugging the two of them. It made Casey feel like crying, because he had just said allot of things he had rather kept silent. One of them being that Harold had to make amends... But could the once painted male still do that? Casey pressed his lips together, not quite ready to return the hug because she obviously couldn't decide who was more dear to her. Her -so thought Casey- Hero or the stumper she was worried about.
He merely patted her back when she hugged them again, that being the best he could muster. Harold was right in a way... He couldn't wait for her to say something forever. It didn't help that he felt like he had just proposed to her with a letter and was sitting on one knee with his heart out for her to grab... Apparently she didn't get that part of the message even though he had written it as large as the paper had allowed him to.
It was then too quite a slap in his face when she kissed and hugged Harold. His eyes slightly wide in disbelieve his mind was scolding him for being an idiot kid that still believed in fairy tales. Well if you aren't going to get it now you never will. Casey got a lump in his throat when the thought crossed his mind and it didn't just stop there. It just had to spell it out for him. She cares more for him. She might carry your child but she wants him more. She really isn't waiting for a henpecked boyfriend(1*) like you. You were right in the hospital... You're too late... Casey had the utmost trouble keeping his emotions from surfacing and he just felt like the beaten and lost dog watching a warm family through a window. Harold only seemed to want to add to the painful nature of the scene by adding more to it.
Fine gloat!... See if I can keep up the charade for her if you're doing that! Then I'd love to see you pick up the pieces!
“ I asked you to fetch Casey hours ago…Did you get lost in your own hotel?”
Casey knew she meant well with that, but it didn't quite help him. It just seemed like there was a dagger in his chest and she just slapped the handle in some joyous movement that she was trying to share. Just keep up the appearance... You can at least do that for them The lump remained stuck in Casey's throat and he could hardly keep his eyes on Bella any more. But he gave her a smile, with every bit of fibre of his being he did give her smile a weak one, but still a smile. Yet at the same time he could help but think: I need to get out of her, before I hurt her moment of joy. Blind to the fact that Bella was just as torn.
“ I-isn’t that funny Case?...”
Casey let out a fake joyous sigh to get over the lump in his throat.
"Yes,... Quite... uh... I'd hate to get lost in my own home." But from as soon as he stopped talking the lump returned with a vengeance. He tried to hide it with a small smile.
"It's alright Billy... I... I Just need a breather." Casey said his voice just not falling apart just yet. "Privacy... And get my head straight." Now he had stretched it for to long and without further ado he turned away for the little couple and cleared the scene. He went up the stairs towards his own room, hardly noticing the changed Iorwen he passed at the top of the lobby stair. He didn't even notice that she practically followed his footsteps two minutes later. On his way to his room he did run into a familiar face about to enter a room.
"You look like you can use a smoke." Said Einian when Casey passed by. Casey looked up like he had just escaped from a horrible nightmare.
"Yeah...Tomorrow though... It's bad for sleep."
"Fine... I'll lend you one then." Einian added, but he doubted Casey heard it, he was gone already.
((1*.... uh I had this dutch thing in mind here... which literally is slipper hero... Which would be a person that isn't exactly a winner. Tries good but fails at it... I unno if this really fits, but... That's what google gave me and it's not all bad. I can't help it sometimes my mother tongue slips through))
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Posted: Tue Jan 17, 2012 9:59 am
[Poor Casey...]
Contrary to what Casey believed, Skull wasn’t trying to gloat when his arms folded around Bella’s waist to hold her when she kissed him. At first because the man was in a callous state, and he felt confused without the shock that usually came with being surprised. Why on earth is she kissing me? He had been gone for hours, of all things he expected to be smacked by something, yelled at, or at the very least receive a harsh little look in punishment. It was almost like an alien in Bella form had leaned in to kiss him, and he didn’t move because he was waiting for a sign that her mouth felt differently as to prove that suspicion true. If you don’t kiss her back she’ll think you don’t want her and you might get into a fight. As much as he didn’t want to show any affection in front of Casey, his desire to try and heal the damage done the previous night far outweighed that. And so Harold did fold his arms around Bella’s body, but it was a half-hearted movement that made him feel like a puppet being tugged by strings to do so. ‘ I hope Casey can see that I don’t want to hurt him.’, but Skull doubted that completely.
If at all possible, Skull kept the kiss as brisk as possible to not wound Billy-bee, and given how her face was not the look of devastation that it had been the previous night, Skull let out a breath of relief. Just flickering his eyes towards Casey was enough for all his serenity to vanish under a wave of anxiety. Hell, it was like seeing the man during that night at the party when he finally confessed to sleeping with Bella. The pain that riddled his face tortured Harold’s stomach and made him feel so sickly that the man doubted his ability to eat the rest of the day. Softening his stoic face to show the pain on his face in the attempt to express to Casey that he didn’t enjoy wounding him, the other man’s eyes were on Bella too much to notice. Honestly. Just stop trying, you had no problem being selfish before. It was true that a person was their own worst critic, and the pain riddling through his chest emphasized that. ‘ That isn’t true. I was ignorant before. It wasn’t that I didn’t care, I just chose to care about other things more to distract me. That being then, this being now, I can’t just stand here when he’s hurt and feel happy about it. Not without Lithium.’
Bella tried to make a joke, and Casey barely contained his pain as he commented; but, Harold’s eyes rarely left Casey’s face. How could he not care about that man’s pain when he shouted his concerns by the lake and opened up in front of him? Unlike another member of the family, Skull did have a heart under his monstrous surface. Only holding Bella close because she was a delicate flower that needed to be cradled at all times, the man’s hazel eyes followed Casey upstairs and his chest felt colder and colder until he couldn’t see him anymore. By then, all Casey felt was ice. The lake was in his heart, and even Bella’s presence couldn’t make it thaw. ‘ I’m sorry Casey…’ Sorry most because his hands didn’t drop from around Billy’s form even though his conscience told him he should. One glance at Bella told him that he was not the only one numb with frozen pain. Neither of them spoke for the longest time, But finally Bella began to move away and look at the floor.
“ W-well, I’m guessing you d-didn’t eat anything…so lets g-go upstairs and o-order room service or something.”, A delicate hand clutching his collar and tugging him towards the elevators, Skull’s eyes hovered towards the last place Casey could be seen before nodding like the statue he had become and following Bella upstairs. ‘ I don’t think I’ll be able to eat anything Bells, but if it will make you feel better, I’ll play along and order something.’
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Posted: Tue Jan 17, 2012 10:52 am
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In the mean time or shortly after, but certainly that same night a few floors up a young blonde struggled with he convictions and judgement of the people around her. Not that she had allot of people to keep track of. Not with the way she easily tossed away the few binds she made with any human being away in a short period of time.
For the whole time that Annabelle was showering she couldn't decide between whether she needed a hot shower or a cold one. The result was her changing between the two scorching and freezing her own skin as she tried to get some sense in her mind. It wasn't helping though and it didn't help that her mind just persistently kept returning to the little scene she was in in the elevator. It didn't help that she was in a room she hadn't paid for and helped even less that his shirt was there. The mere idea that the dreadful thing was there made her remember how he pleasantly musky he smelled. Once she was sick of changing the temperature of her skin she got out of the shower her skin hot with the last and ending choice of a little bit too hot.
After drying she reread the note -as if that would change anything. Quietly muttering the male's nickname.
"Fang~..." It tasted good in her mouth and rolled sweetly off her tongue... She was going mad and insane as well, but that didn't stop her from quietly thinking, no remembering, the few times he had bit or nibbled her like it hadn't been hours ago. This was horrible... Not a single flirt lasted in her memory for longer than and hour. The result of Annabell's frustration was her slapping herself because she let her mind warm her body instead of letting the cold air cool it.
It didn't help that her mother decided to call that moment and all the blonde could think of was the possible results if she let herself be carried away. Just because he had made her come so intensely and beautifully once... Just once.... Yet that was more than most men could say if they forced her to give up her reins in a fling. She didn't pick up her ringing cellphone and just let the thing play it's tune until it sent her mother to voice mail again. Annabelle wasn't in the mood for the little plots of her divorced and unhappy spinster mother.
Her cheek stung from slapping herself and it seemed to give some counter weight to the mad things swirling in her mind. There was no happy ever after in real life. It only happened in Hollywood and Disneyland, two places most likely coming from the imagination of people in just as lonely situations as her own mother. Nobody in her family had a happy marriage or relationship. Hell, the happiest person she knew was her sugar aunt that only had her family to go to.
Come on now Annie... Forget it... You might not even see him again.
Yet, she didn't forget how convinced she had been that he'd see her 'later' to finish what they had started. You didn't pay for a room for a person you were soon to drop out of your life right? Unless you were filthy rich and didn't trust a single possibly jealous woman with what you owned. Or if you wanted to make the loss a little softer, the fall from the dream a little more gentle.
I hardly know him and here I am, fantasising about him and the next minute blaming him for things he didn't do yet.
But he was following her textbook and doing exactly what she did. Reel in your target and ******** it. Next steps were screw up whatever you had as much as possible and then leave, but he hadn't gotten to that yet.
Not everybody is as afraid of committing as I am. Maybe if I'm really done with him I'll forget.
Yeah that was a good idea. That and maybe sleeping helped to pale the memories that still burned lively in her mind now.
She didn't wait long to try and put deed to the thought.
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______________Annabelle~
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Posted: Wed Jan 18, 2012 2:26 am
Bang
"Kono! I told you we're keeping this room silent!"
Aiko didn't even need to turn around to see who had been slamming the door.
"I'm coming with you."
"What?" No, no, not Kono. Out of all of them why did their pink rascal need to want to come along.
"Don't think I haven't seen you packing!... I'm coming with you whether you like it or not."
She then turned around to glare at her little brother.
"No your not it's a six hour flight."
"I knew it! You're going after Mato! You're not going to leave me behind with the little princess and Genjii."
"I am leaving you here."
"What are you going to do if you get in trouble? With two we can get around better."
"It's not like your English will help me. Besides you're sixteen and barely five foot four."
He was going to use any excuse possible. She knew that now.
"I can still help! Just please take me with you, please, please, please~."
"Fine~. If you don't cause any trouble."
"I won't... word of honour."
"Ugh... just pack your bag already."
"Did that."
About two hours later then had left, buying tickets to their destination on the airport. Looking back on that trip she was sure it would've been much more boring if her little complacent brother hadn't been with her. He couldn't sleep during the flight and kept bothering his sister for thises en thats. If she was honest, the sound that the plane made didn't help her sleep either and she wasn't alone. Though the obvious tourist going home on the plane seemed already verse in the art of in flight sleeping on a plane. One of them -a particularly fat guy- even snored like a mad man, but despite that he didn't get over the roar of the plane making both Aiko and Kono giggle about little jokes they made concerning the massive snoring man.
Despite the distraction the trip took forever and they arrive in the early morning of their destination. They caught a cab and with the address on a paper they asked the man to drive them to the hotel. Whether it cost allot didn't matter at the time and they didn't wonder about how their brother even made it to the hotel. They barely managed to arrive with all the snow on the road, but apparently that was normal for the region. By late morning they made it to the hotel and then came the hard part... Finding their brother.
"So, should we take a room? Or ask for where Mato sleeps?"
"I don't think she's going to get us when we ask the question."
"Maybe we're lucky and he's just going to come down when we're trying to think of a plan."
"Maybe... Maybe not... I'm not putting my money on it."
For a long while they stood there in the lobby, like two little lost souls trying to contemplate what they should do next. Almost like they were afraid to get lost in an instance if they set another step in any directions. They even got as far to squabble about who was the bigger wuss for not trying anything. Until a familiar voice in a familiar language sounded behind them.
"What are you two doing here?"
Aiko nearly jumped a hole in the air. They were saved! They had found their brother or more he had found them.
"Getting you to return home of course!"
"Really? Am I that needed that you needed to bring Kono as well?"
"What am I not wanted here maybe?"
"No you're as welcome as Aiko, but you two seem very out of place here."
"You're coming with us. Back home where you're needed and wanted."
"But I said two more weeks."
"Then we're here to make sure you keep yourself to that Toto."
"Well, then you two need a room. Need help?"
"Yes, please."
With that said Makoto took to being the interpreter on hand for the two. It took about half an hour to get the things over with, but what both of them didn't quite know was that their youngest sibling hung back and eventually slipped away to explore the hotel.
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