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Ly sighed and fell down on the sofa and looked up at the roof before kneeling down beside his mate and wrapped his arms around him and held him "maybe kim would of grown to love Sabin if they didnt get together in 5 minutes? I mean, I know kim likes him but they did move awfully fast.

Maybe if they took it slow Kim wouldnt of looked elsewhere since it was only basically a few minutes between him getting out of his ways to an extent and dating a guy, it was to fast for them, maybe they should of taken it easy and worked on it, if they didnt like each other after so many months or whatever there wouldnt be a relationship. Sabin likes Kim right?

Well kim likes him just that he had rayne who wasnt so full on like Sabin was so he could find out what he was like and form something for him. Maybe Sabin and Kim could work out IF they didnt move so fast" he suggested to his mate as he nuzzld him "and this isnt your fault." he said as he kissed his temple.

Ly took his mates hand and got up and made his way to the lift "thanks" he said as he pushed the button and waited "i just hope he hasnt or planning to do anything stupid" he said to his mate.

Kim had already gone to a bottle store and now walking down the beach, taking the occasional swig from a vodka bottle, wishing he never had meet sabin in the first place and then this wouldnt of happend.

Ly ran out of the lift as as soon as it hit the bottom "check the beach first, might as well since its closest and then lets check everywhere else" he said as he ran across the road towards the beach and started up one side, hoping his mate would be able to handle the others side.

Kim found a small cove to the right side of the beach, he looked around to see if it was shealted enough to hide in for the time being and realised it was. He could be left alone which is all that he wanted right now as he took a swig from the bottle.

Kim sighed as he heard Noahs voice and didnt want to go to him, all he kept thinking about was Sabin and how he hurt him. He got up and walked out, he knew he shouldnt be drinking and being out here alone when he was like this dispite no matter how much he wanted to. He leaned agiesnt the rock shealter and took another swig from the bottle "you called" he said as he looked away from the wolf and took another swig, still crying.

Kim took another swig and then threw the bottle into the near by bin and yet never stopped crying "thats just it, my feelings might not have been strong with him like they were with rayne but I did deeply care about him. I hated being apart from him, i loved cuddling him, i loved being around him, I mean, I honestly could see myself with him but I was forcing myself to be with him and told myself I would grow to love him" he fell down agienst the rock wall and hugged his knees and cried into them a bit.

"it might of been to fast, I agree with that but still if there was one thing I had grown to love again was his arms around me. I had never had that in years, not since my mother died, I blocked myself away from any and all affection and spent my time following gods teachings, I got Sabin to give me back the one thing i longed for all these years and...." he couldnt finish his sentence, he just wanted Sabins arms around him once more.

Kim wrapped his arms around the angel and closed his eyes and cried into him "im sorry, Sabin, truely I am, we were going to fast but I lead myself I could believe that i could fall for you and in the end i just couldnt keep that sharade up anymore. I wanted to love you, I did but I couldnt and now...now I have just hurt you and myself and i never wanted to hrut you, i never wanted it to be this way especially when I do still care deeply for you Sabin.

A part of me still longs for what we had, the kissing, the cuddling, sleeping together...I want it still yet I know besides the cuddling i cant ad it hurts. I am such a fool...." he said as he trailed off softly as he just cried harder, just not wanting to leave the angels embrace.

"Im just new at this, maybe if I wasnt so new I would be alot more experienced in cassual or not I wouldnt of found this so hard." he said feeling a little better but still he hurt so much, this was just far to new for him and he hated that, he hated being like this. He hated even going this fast and this far yet now that he had, everthing that he had gotten now seemed to be shreaded and he knew that it was for the best yet it felt so horrible. "Thank you sabin, its appreciated really, I couldnt ask for anything more then being a friend to you, because though it might sound weird but thats what I turely need right now.

Can i please stay the night? I just want to fall asleep in your arms, I dont want to be alone tonight. I know that nothing will happen between us but still, whats sleeping together just holding onto each other? You know i dont want to go there but still i just dont want to be alone, not after being in the same bed with you all this time, its just going to feel horrible" he said softly as he nuzzled him back and stroaked his own hair. "I know im going to have to learn but its just going to have to take time after forcing myself to not feel anyones arms around for years and now that I have and knowing that im going to have to learn not to again is just going to take some time, this is just so new and hard on me..."

he said softly trailing off hoping Sabin wasnt upset that he had asked him what he did but he just couldnt be able to cope with not sleeping in someones arms again, not when he just found out how much he loved it.