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My heart slowed down and my world became black. I couldn't feel, hear or see anything.
A hand extended to me and I saw Shirokey, bending down, silently telling me to take his hand. But his aura was the same as when I saw Death. His figure changed and I was looking at Kei, but my twin shuffled backwards. I tried relentlessly to follow him. "Kei! Please! Don't leave me!"
"Kura-chan~, you have to get up! Aisu, Shirokey, Kuroboshi, Rose, Kaito and Ichigo are all worried! If you don't get up, you'll never wake up!"
I tried and tried again, willing to get to Kei. But my twin kept backing up into the shadows, his hand still extended to me.

...Um, Bleachluver-san? Kuragari's in a closet... half dead... far away from a river.... Very far away.... And I highly doubt that, using flash step, you could get back to Tokyo in under an hour. Anyways, Aisu would be find it quite weird that she opened a closet with sobs, finding lots and lots of blood, and yet, no one's in it....
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"Kei!" Please, stop! I didn't want him to leave me. The shadow shifted, and, how did this happen, Shirokey was bent over, his hand extended, wear Kei clothes....
I wanted to scream, I wanted Shirokey to stay with me. Two other forms were created of the shadows. Aisu... and Kei...? Another two people appeared. Ichigo and Rose. What was going on...?
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Kei clutched his chest, knowing something was wrong. He felt colder than ice. Worse than that, he felt as if we was ripped in two, as if part of him had died. Tears sprung to his eyes. "Kura...ga..ri...?

My heart was beating in my chest so hard that I thought that I might die. It was new to me, my heart beating fast. Whenever anything happened my heart beat would slow not quicken. My breath became labored and it felt as if my head would explode. Is this the Mew bond that Kuroboshi was talking about?
I threw the door open and ran towards the closet where Kuragari was. Her mother, if you could call her that, was snoring loudly from the couch. I tried not to feel ,succesfully... I hadn't felt anything in days, as I saw Kura laying on the floor in a puddle of her own blood. I pulled her into my arms.

"I need your help."
"Oh my dear!" My aunt gasped. I had come here because it was the closest and because she probably not as that many questions. "What happened?"
"Parent trouble." My voice was a totally monotone.
"Oh... I see you haven't changed since the last time I saw you." I just nodded and passed. She ran towards her bathroom to get the first aid kit as I lay Kura down on a blanket on the couch.

It took a half hour to bandage Kura up, with very small talk, but it was done. I headed towards the kitchen to make tea. I awkward silence and that was my aunt's specialty.

"Um... mom can I help?" I looked into her eyes. The last time I had helped it had ended with her going to the emergency room. I was so scared of hurting her again. Almost as if sensing my thoughts,
"It wasn't your fault." She lifted me onto the counter. "Up you come." Everything was my fault. Even when they said it wasn't I knew it was. They just didn't want me to be hurt but I knew the truth. I helped with the tea then made sure that mom didn't get hurt at any cost. I was so proud of myself when I managed to protect her from me.

It took three hours before Kura stirred. I stood in the kitchen staring out the window as she pulled herself off the couch and turned towards the kitchen. I had felt my body and brain got numb hours ago.
"Aisu-san?" The normal Aisu would have bounced over and hugged her chiding her about adding the san but right now I had no such feelings. I had none at all. I looked over at her.
"Sorry you have so many injuries." I turned my head back to the window to avoid the look that I could feel on her face. Confusion, sorrow, worry. I hated all of them! "Your at my aunts... in China." I watched the rain.
"Where's your collar?" I evaded the urge to reach for my throat. I didn't answer just poured her a cup of tea and left the room.

"Hello?" I could feel the tension in Kei's voice.
"Kura is fine." I heard him sigh and I could almost feel him relief. "I'll have her on the next plane home... I'll come to and maybe Ichigo..."
"Okay have fun bye!" He hung up his cheerful voice replaced with the buzz in my head.

"Ichigo."
"Yeah."
I was in the bedroom. "I'm in China ans have Kura with me and I can feel that your here."
"Yeah."
"Are you coming home on the plane with us or are you running?"
"Why?"
"Just answer." My answer came out sharp and impatient.
"Plane."
"Okay. Meet you at the airport and 10 in the morning. Bye." I hung up before she could say anything else. I fell backwards onto the bed. I could hear the light breathing of Kura and my aunt from other rooms. I focused on Kura's, slow stable. I drifted to sleep just like I was.

I sat laying against the window of the plane staring at the seemingly never ending clouds. I looked over at Ichigo out of the corner of my eye and saw her staring at me again. 7... that was how many times I had caught her so far. Kuragari I had only caught twice. I ignored everything until the plane landed. As we walked into the airport I spotted the others but kept to myself.
When they did spot us Kuragari was the center of attention to which I was glad. I stood in the background as everyone swarmed Kura. I smiled a lit to myself.
"I didn't think you'd be back for a while." Kuroboshi lounged a few feet away against a wall, casual, almost amused.
"I'm not." I looked at the ceiling. "My plane leaves in half an hour." Quiet took over the Mew crew. I looked over at them. I hadn't think I had spoken that loud but everyone was looking at me with a look of shock on their face. Kuroboshi's face was expressionless and cold.

The look on Kura's face would have broken my heart if it wasn't already shattered. My face was as impassive as ever. I could feel the hurt rolling off them but I couldn't do anything.

We stood there for several minutes without saying a word. The moments until my plane took off ticked away. I only had five minutes until the plane left. Kuroboshi hadn't moved since I had told him. They all had the same look on their as my friends and family had had when they saw me after the crash. The look of despair and of unfamiliarity... only Kuroboshi showed no signs of anything. He was looking off into the distance.
I turned away headed for my gate. I could tell that they were watching me seeing if I was really going to abandon them. I promised Rose I would stay way so I will. I will not hurt anyone ever again. I will never again hurt Kura, Kei, Rose, Ichigo, Shirokey, Kaito... hell even Kuroboshi. My last name means Hope and I always found that kinda strange because that is the only ting I had ever had over my whole life span... hope.
I didn't belong here. I didn't belong anywhere. I handed my ticket to the woman at the gate.
"Goodbye everyone. I'll always love you." I closed my eyes as a tear drop rolled down my cheek. All I ever wanted was to be loved but Ice is something that can't be warm only cold. If everything went as planned no one would be bothered with me ever again.

I wondered if what I was doing was the right thing. Of course it was. You are the reason everything bad happens to your friends. I looked out the window only 15 more hours before I reach Jacksonville, Florida. I could speak English very well since my father was English and I vaguely wondered if the rest knew English... probably Ichigo she seemed to know everything but I don't think Kura or Kei could and I had no clue about Kuroboshi. I reached for the bell on my neck only to feel my skin. Oh right I had left it for Kura.
I smiled to myself at all that Kura had done for me... but it seemed like Kuroboshi knew me the best. I blinked and scowled. How did he know more about me then Kura or any of my other friends? Oh... right the graveyard incident. My chest seized up suddenly wanting to see Kura and... for some strange reason Kuroboshi. I wrapped my arms around my knees and tried not to feel the pain of leaving, tried not to feel the happiness that everyone was okay, tried not to feel anything...

I had the sicking feeling that someone was following me. Ichigo. I closed my eyes as I made my way through the maze called the Jacksonville airport. I don't want to see her and if I do I will seriously be pissed. I ran towards the curb signaling for a cab. I head for the nearest mall. Wearing a long skirt and blouse in Florida made you stick out like sore thumb. Time to change.

Shopping stop my mind from wandering back to my friends in Tokyo. Short shorts and tank tops seemed to be the style at the moment. I grabbed a top in white and short brown shorts and threw them in a bag. In Florida do as the Floridians do. Time to find a hotel. I could feel Ichigo coming closer and closer. The hair on my neck were standing on end as I got in a cab. Ichigo please leave me alone!
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I've decided to dress my avi as Aisu in what she's wearing in the rp!

As I entered the hotel I was aware that more then one person had turned to look at the blond teenager making her way to the check in desk. I ignored it all as I carried a bag full of clothes I bought to the front desk.
"Welcome. How may I help you?" The woman behind the counters smile was way to perky to be real.

I threw my bag on the bed and lay there looking at the ceiling. I pulled my phone from my pocket and texted Kura.
'This is the last text you'll get from me.
I left my collar for you at your house. Please take care of it.
Love Aisu'
I put my phone on the night stand and lay on my stomach tracing the pattern with my eyes. I fell asleep to the hum of the air conditioner.