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 Posted: Sat Feb 28, 2009 5:07 pm
Quietly, York slipped into the room, peering from side to side. The small room afforded only so many places to hide, and he hadn't heard the sound of any doors, so Raleigh couldn't be in the closet. Strange how much has changed in here...when the girls lived here, it was more...friendly... He shook his head. That was just his imagination. Rooms weren't any more friendly than any other inanimate object. It was just that now Raleigh lived here--Stop that. He's just a little more frightened than the girls were. Was it so long ago that I was a kit living without love that I can't remember it?
He was under the bed, York was sure. He got down on his paws and knees and peered into the darkness. He was right. With a sigh, York reached out a paw to slowly pull Raleigh out. He was careful not to be too rough; those bruises would still hurt, and both of them would hate him for hurting his son. "Raleigh," he said softly, feeling betrayal and loneliness fill him, "why can't you trust me? I don't want to hurt you..."
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Posted: Sat Feb 28, 2009 5:26 pm
Raleigh yelped as York's paw came near him and he lashed out with his teeth sinking them in before darting back to the furthest corner under the bed. "Liar!!!" he snapped out. "You're a Liar!!!" He hugged his tail tight to him and glared at York from the dim gloom that lurked under the bed.
"So go away!" he yelled. "I won't let you get me! I know all your tricks!" he growled and trembled slightly. "You all lie! All of you!" he said, green eyes wide in panic. "Just leave me alone! I haven't done anything wrong!!! Nothing at all!!!" he yelled swallowing a sob. "Just leave me be!" he sniffled then and burst into embarrassed tears. Stop it stop it stop it stop it! he yelled at himself. You don't cry!!! Never! Not Ever!!! Raleigh ignored the proddings of his conscious and clung to this tail and sobbed into it all the tears he'd never cried at Carolina's.
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Posted: Sat Feb 28, 2009 8:14 pm
York stifled a howl of pain as Raleigh bit him. He fell back onto his tail, throwing an arm out to catch his fall. He raised his paw to his face and examined it; not too bad, but it was still bleeding a little. He sucked on it, listening to Raleigh cry. Any impatience he might have felt at his son's attack faded away at the sound of Raleigh crying. He closed his eyes gently, and he almost heard himself in those tears. York wriggled onto his side and watched him. "Raleigh," he said gently. "I never said you did anything wrong. I'm not going to hurt you. I just...I just..." He sighed. "It hurts me that you can't trust me. I haven't hurt you. Intentionally, that is."
It bothered him. A question echoing on the back of his head. He reached under the bed and pulled Raleigh out, holding him to his chest, prepared to fend off all attacks. "Who hit you?" he asked. The anger grew in the locksmith's chest. "Was it Ayin or Rho? Tell me it wasn't Cary. She wouldn't beat her own children." If she did, then come hell or high water, I am breaking into that apartment and taking Lawrence and Lyon back. They don't deserve that."
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Posted: Sat Feb 28, 2009 8:57 pm
Raleigh struggled and fought as York pulled him out. "Lemme go!!! Lemme go!!!" he sobbed and tried to get a grip on rug but failed miserably as he was scooped into York's chest. He struggled and tried to hit York but failed as the way York was holding him made it impossible for him to get enough momentum to hit very hard.
He trembled and bit his lip at the question. "No....No it wasn't Her...." he said slowly. "Rho....Rho hit me...." he said in a whisper as if suddenly the AI would appear and hit him for telling someone what had been done to him.
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Posted: Sat Feb 28, 2009 9:26 pm
York held Raleigh close, pulling his head against his chest and stroking his neck soothingly. He ran his fingers through Raleigh's hair. "Sh...Sh...it's okay, Raleigh...I'm not going to hurt you...I will never hit one of my children. I'm not the sort who does that." He closed his eyes and scooted around to lean against the wall. He remembered when he had been like Raleigh, hiding under the bed and attacking the first person to come near him. At least he didn't barricade the door...
Somehow, York wasn't surprised. The blond angelic seemed just the sort to hit harder when Raleigh infuriated him. "He's gone," York said flatly. "I will never let him hit you again. You are safe here. In this house, you will not be hurt by any adult." Daringly, he kissed his son on the top of his head and wiped the tears from his eyes.
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Posted: Sat Feb 28, 2009 9:52 pm
Raleigh struggled again. "I don't care! I don't care!" he snapped eyes flashing angrily. "Let me go!" he said. "You don't want me! You don't care about me! You lie and eventually all the pretty lies will fade away and you'll lash out at me!" he snarled. "You're all the same! All of you!" he wriggled struggling to get free. "I hate you all! I hate you! Do you hear me HATE YOU!!!" he slammed his paws against York's chest stifling another round of sobs. "I hate you!" he said weakly breaking down into tears again.
He froze as York kissed him, eyes wide in shock. He remained motionless hoping that if nothing else that would lead York to letting him go.
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Posted: Sat Feb 28, 2009 10:30 pm
York let Raleigh hit him, determined not to let the struggling kit go. He had begun to cry, and made no attempt to stop the tears, only clutching Raleigh closer to his chest. "Raleigh..." he croaked. "I don't hit without a reason...as of yet, you haven't given me a truly good reason to hit you..." York shivered. They always hate me...when I was a kit, my parents hated me. Now that I'm a parent, my kit hates me... He closed his eyes and swallowed, tears dripping off his chin and into Raleigh's hair. He rubbed them out, kissing Raleigh on the forehead again.
"If you want to hurt me," he began softly, "don't hit me. Just keep talking. Because sometimes words hurt more than actions, Raleigh." He swallowed, not sure if he should continue. "I've been hurt worse than you've ever been injured." That was true. Being punched in the eye is even worse when the person punching you was a furious, adrenaline pumped Freelancer wearing her heavy armored gauntlet. "But the worst injuries? Didn't come from people who hit me..."
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Posted: Sat Feb 28, 2009 10:54 pm
Raleigh struggled. "I don't care! You just want me to trust you so you can hurt me! I know it! I can't trust you! I can't trust anyone! No one loves me! Everyone hates me!" he said with another sob. "Everyone does!" he flailed. "Let me go! I don't wanna be held by a liar like you!" he kicked and squirmed determined to make York let him go even if it killed him.
He didn't want to be held, didn't want to be coddled. No one loved him, it was all a lie. There was only sex and lust. Nothing else. "You don't love me!" he said. "No such thing as love anyway!" he snapped. "Now let me go!!" he gasped suddenly going limp with exhaustion both from struggling and his emotions. "Don't love me..." he said again with a dry sob.
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Posted: Sat Feb 28, 2009 11:37 pm
York was stunned, but he tried not to show it. Instead he smiled wryly and shook his head. "I've given up telling lies, Raleigh. I stink at it. I couldn't lie my way out of a paper bag. Trust me, you'll know if I tell a fib." He kept on talking--maybe it wouldn't help Raleigh, but he knew it would help him. Besides, who knew? Maybe he was wrong. Maybe Raleigh might feel better. "Everyone hated me once...Everyone I knew...it wasn't a lot, but they did hate me. Anyway, there's no reason for me to hate you." He rocked back and forth, stroking Raleigh's back and hair gently as he went limp. "For someone who doesn't want love, you seem to talk about it a lot...if you don't want my love, why do you keep convincing me to love you by telling me that everyone hates you? Seems like a request for love to me." His words masked a broken heart. He had almost had it this bad...almost...He's treating me like I'm Rho...I'm not like that. I wouldn't hurt him! And yet...he doesn't believe that...how can I make him believe?
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Posted: Sat Feb 28, 2009 11:49 pm
Raleigh sobbed. "I don't care what you think! Just let me go! NOW!" he yelled his voice hoarse from yelling and crying. "Just go away." he said. "Leave me alone." he moaned. He waited until he thought he felt York loosen his grip just enough before pushing away hard and bounding up onto the bed and away from York. He clutched a pillow and bit into it to stop him from crying. Why am I crying so much!? I don't cry! What's wrong with me!? Why won't he go away? I just wanna be left alone! he bit harder into the pillow cramming it further into his mouth glaring with cold hard eyes that still streamed tears. Now go away! he screamed at York mentally unable to muster the strength to do it out loud. Just leave me alone. he sniffled and clutched at the pillow feeling worn out and numb. He couldn't remember the last time he'd let out this much emotion.
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Posted: Sun Apr 12, 2009 7:04 pm
York was startled by his offspring's sudden launch onto the bed. With a sigh, he stood up and stretched, giving Raleigh a second to cry into his pillow before sitting down on the bed and cuddling him again. What's brought about the change in him? And why can't I reach out to him? Raleigh...what's happened to you...? What have I done? He didn't say anything. He wasn't sure there was anything to be said. Instead, he kissed the top of Raleigh's head and rocked back and forth soothingly, hoping to calm his son. It probably wouldn't work, but it was worth a shot. He ran his fingers through the kit's hair and curled his tail around him as well. He felt...protective...he wanted to protect this poor, messed up kit...My Raleigh...
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Posted: Sun Apr 12, 2009 7:38 pm
Raleigh glared up at York as he came and sat on the bed. He struggled at bit as York kissed him unused to the gesture. No one kissed him back There]. Kisses were reserved for the trio and usually only given in bed. Raleigh didn't know what to think. Everything he knew revolted against the innocent peck, while part of him broke down again and whimpered begging to be shown that not everything was about the activities between adults in bed. He struggled weakly against York before slowly starting to calm down a bit, a wave of fatigue drifting over him. His eyes fluttered but he instantly snapped them open futilely as they closed again and he drifted into an exhausted sleep. His dreams haunted by the AI that had ruled his life since the day he'd emerged.
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Posted: Sun Apr 12, 2009 9:16 pm
York held Raleigh tighter as he struggled, making soothing noises. Poor kid...it's obvious he doesn't like to be kissed...how can I show him I love him? How do you make a kid feel appreciated and loved if they reject all your affection? York sighed and continued to stroke him soothingly on the arms. That wouldn't threaten him, right? Maybe it would...he sighed again and stopped. He probably hates all physical contact...there's nothing I can do to make him feel safe. York couldn't help but feel sorrowful at that, as though he had somehow failed. And he had. He hadn't taken care of his children...and they were his children...
Once he felt Raleigh fall asleep, York gently set him down on the bed and pulled the covers up over him, pulling the pillow carefully away and setting his head on top of it. York watched him for a minute, then turned and padded back to the main room. D...
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Posted: Sun Apr 12, 2009 9:22 pm
D sat at the coffee table in the living room. His hands were folded on the top and he was staring at them for lack of anything better to do. His tail twitched idly the only sign that he was active and not in standby.
His head snapped up as he heard York leave the spare room and he turned quickly to face his lover. His expression one of concern. He knew fully well that Raleigh had nearly broken his partners heart. He swallowed and then slowly got up ready to spring to York in an instant if his partner indicated he needed him.
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