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I glared at Jaden. "You can wait a moment. She means more to me than your questions," I said harshly.

I listened to Fate and sighed once again. "We're so different, you and I. Yet we are still able to be with each other. Amazing, isn't it? I still don't understand it myself, but no matter what I say or do, I know. I know that I still love you and nothing could change that in the world. Nothing. Even if I act harsh at times or I say things that hurt you. You must remember that I do still love you. I have my own feelings too though. You always act upon yours, but you never have any consideration for mine. How do you think I feel right now?

I hurt so much inside my heart, its incredible. No matter what damage my physical body takes, the pain can never trump the pain I have inside. It revolves around you. Every time you are hurt, I am. I am convinced that even now, if you died, so would I. We're connected in so many ways.

Can you see that? Can you? I am with you and I am you. That is the way things are.

I'm sorry if I said things that hurt you, but after I said them they hurt me too. Sometimes I think that I should just sew my mouth shut so I don't hurt any one else. I don't mean to do it on purpose, but I still do it.

Please accept my apologies. I beg of you. Please! I can't...I can't live without you. Fate...i'm sorry..." I spoke loud enough so she could hear me outside. Jaden was still there, but I didn't care what he thought of us. These words came straight from my heart and were the very essence of my soul. I laid everything before her and now I let her decide. The choice was ultimately, like always, hers. For good or bad.

I glared at Jaden and dared him to say something scathing. Even in my state, I would find the energy to hurt him for it.

Staring at Jaden and even with all of the tension in the room, I laughed. "You think I am still afraid of you? Oh, that fear ended a long time ago. You can no longer scare me.

You must be proud to beat up a person who can barely stand up. Good for you. The big, scary lycan beats up people and also near invalids. Will that be your listing?

And i'm sorry that you didn't get to kill Logan like you wanted. I would have been very happy if you did, but i've decided no longer to fear anyone. All my life is devoted to is making sure she," I glanced out the window, towards the fire escape, "is safe. Thats all. So you can stop all of the bravado and put me down and talk like a sensible person.

Got that?" I stared right at him, showing how serious I was. I even showed my anger in my eyes. If he tried anything, I would get him back later. He could count on that.

I laughed again, and said," Fine, fine. If that will have you let go of me, fine. Anyways...

Let's just say that Logan was the one that bit me and changed me. He said that he would allow me to be free for a time, but the call of the pack would draw me back. Funny enough, it never did. I suppose he just got fed up with waiting and came to get me to return with him to the pack. He showed up at the perfect wrong time. When he saw Fate and realized that she was a vampire, he kinda got a little mad. Logan doesn't like vampires...at all. I suppose that he decided I wasn't worth it anymore, but since I wasted his "time" in preparing me, he wanted a little payback. I guess that is understandable...if you have a warped viewpoint. And that pretty much covers it. Anything else or will you let go of me?" I raised my eyebrows when I said this.

So I guess he might be something to fear. Nothing so far has made me believe that though. I do hope the next time they meet, Jaden will kill him. Hopefully...I slowly got up and walked over to the couch. Groaning, I sat down again. Fate still hadn't answered me so I waited patiently, knowing that she would answer in her own time. I had put a lot out for her to look at and it would take her a little bit to come up with an answer.

(You can mention me and Jaden's discussion, but I still want an answer from when I talked to you earlier. The longest post ever...@.@K?Thanks!)

Hearing her shut the opening, waiting for her to speak. She said nothing, but I still waited. I knew that she would say something eventually. I heard her go into the bedroom and I leaned back closing my eyes. She's probably thinking of what to say. I'm not making this easier on her, but I really need an answer. Closing my eyes, I went through my mind trying to sort out where things had gone so terribly wrong.

I heard her get into the bath and I knew I had a wait ahead of me, but the bath would probably be better for her to think. I slept for a while while I waited.

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Hearing her leave the bath, I awoke and pondered what to do when she finally came over. Soon the smell of coffee came and I sighed at its heavenly smell. I hadn't had coffee too long ago, but it seemed like a million years. When she sat down beside me on the couch, I glanced over into her eyes. I didn't say anything. It was her turn now...no matter how long it took.


(I'm not talking here. I talked too much earlier. You turn.)

I was surprised when she put her hands on my chest. What is she do...! Some of the pain had gone away and I saw her hands glow red. She withdrew her hands and I stared at her.

I was about to thank her when I felt her lips. My eyes widened. My emotions took over and I saw her face go red. I couldn't see for a moment and my eyes clouded over. Yes...that certainly did answer my questions. "Thank you..." I whispered.

Then I drew from my pocket the silver necklace Jaden had given to me. I held it out to her and grimaced for a second from the pain of holding it. "This is what Jaden gave for me to keep safe for him. He said I was the only right person from the job. I didn't and still don't understand what he meant. I...I just wanted to let you know that." I still held out the necklace to her.