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Ellie stayed where she was looking out at the water. she was in clear view of the kitchen but she didnt care at the moment


Lilly was asleep on the couch and Roy was laying next to her asleep also

Ellie got up and walked over to the water and stuck her hand in the water. she was still crying tho

Ellie saw him in the water and she sighed and closed her eyes as she sat back down and went to say 'im sorry' but nothing came out cause she wasnt able to talk till healed so she lowered her head

Ellie stood up and looked at him as she cried a bit harder and mouthed "im sorry ok, i cant change the past. and im in the same shape now as i would be if they had done the damn surgery at the hospital. that includes the not being able to talk. so im sorry i screwed everything up, alright. im sorry" she started crying harder and walked past him and headed back to the house. the feeling of being hated by him hovered over her because she felt he did hate her. considering the last look he gave her before she blacked out was one of anger

Ellie turned around quickly and jumped in and swam to him and grabbed him and took him back to shore before he could say anything against him then she looked at him then hugged him and forced out "dont do that" as load as she could. and held him, even tho she felt he hated her she still loved him

"i about lost you for being stuborn too. and dont say you wouldnt have cause you was close and you scared me. you put me through hell when i took care of you, but i kept going, i didnt just try to take my life. and i wasnt too bad till i fell over you and onto the floor when the doctors were there. if they had just waited for you to wake then i would have been fine. but you was busy when i was at the hospital. i wanted the one i love there and you wasnt cause you was too busy working. thats why i didnt do it. when he first called he actually was telling you so you would come down. i had asked for you, i wanted you there with me and you wasnt" Ellie forced out, making her throat hurt. she was crying harder now and she buried her head in his chest. he and the kids was all she had and the one she wanted the most wasnt there for her when he had needed him the most. and that was at the hospital more then anything

"i know, but i really wanted you at the hospital. i didnt want to deal with a surgery with out seeing you first. tho after last time i dont think i want to see you before hand now. and i wont leave you like that, never would it. i wont let death take me away from you, i refuse too. i have been through hell and back more then once and i have seen what the verge of death felt like before even coming here. and you could have brought Lilly to the hospital, they wouldnt even left me hold Roy for a while. they had taken him out of the room cause you wasnt there" Ellie kept forcing out and she was breathing heavy. she closed her eyes and relaxed against him "please dont be mad at me, and im sorry and i hope you dont hate me. tho i feel like you do after the look earlier and how you are acting around me"

Ellie nodded and closed her eyes as she stayed there. she softly said "you scared me more then i have scared you" then she was quiet as her body relaxed. actually causing her to fall asleep right there on him as the pain meds in her system put her to sleep