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 Posted: Mon Sep 25, 2006 6:45 pm
3nodding blaugh woah that was a close one, i almost lost crying that would have sucked :p
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Posted: Mon Sep 25, 2006 6:46 pm
boredom just a little bit, i swear :p
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Posted: Mon Sep 25, 2006 6:48 pm
All you need is love
do do do do do
all you need is love
do do do do do
all you need is love, love, love is all you need
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Posted: Mon Sep 25, 2006 6:50 pm
i think i'm a little bit more calm now...biting helps :p
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Posted: Mon Sep 25, 2006 6:53 pm
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Posted: Mon Sep 25, 2006 6:55 pm
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Posted: Mon Sep 25, 2006 6:56 pm
my wrist kinda hurts..guess what baka..i drew blood this time, i could totally taste it too :p...even though i'm very doubtful you'll read this..cause you're off doing whatever :p
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Posted: Mon Sep 25, 2006 6:57 pm
With that, I'll tell you when you log onto aim :p
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Posted: Mon Sep 25, 2006 6:59 pm
damn i can't believe i ran out of time :p crying
anyways, my wrist is sooo much better and my friend echelon still hasn't been talking to me for like the last week..
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Posted: Mon Sep 25, 2006 7:02 pm
actually more like month...or two
It's so sad cause he was one of my good friends and for a while he would respond to me then i'd ask how he was doing and he'd say shitty then he'd stop talking to me when i asked why but now he doesn't even say hi back, idk if i did something wrong or if he's busy or he just hates me or what crying
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Posted: Mon Sep 25, 2006 7:06 pm
i think he just hates me, i'll have to ask baka..because i think baka's been talking to him crying i feel so sad..but i'm always depressed..why am i always depressed, and am i really this stupid to do the exact same thing i did last year..do i really like him so much? It can't just be because of him, i've grown since last year haven't I? I know it's not just cause of him..it can't be because of him..and yes I am aware that none of you know who him is..I'm just ranting to myself...
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Posted: Mon Sep 25, 2006 7:07 pm
crying why is it when I go into a really bad depression it gets worse everytime, I hurt myself more everytime, I torture myself more everytime? Each time I get into a depressive state, I become a little more dead to the world...and I'm usually pretty dead to the world because I'm always depressed but I really hate this moments where I'm uber depressed crying I'm ranting to myself and to the whole guild at the same time I guess..
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Posted: Mon Sep 25, 2006 7:10 pm
I just ugh..I think I have that one disorder, except instead of being like seasonal it's more of school...there's this disorder called seasonal disorder and it happens around fall around winter...it's depressing, but I get depressed usually around the time school starts..I'm pretty sure some of the reasoning is that school is soooo dramatic and for the last two years people I became really attached to left and I rarely got to see them....ugh crying
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Posted: Mon Sep 25, 2006 7:14 pm
Its so horrible how depressed I get sometimes, and the worst thing is for the last two years it's been because I missed somebody sooo much, but when I actually got to hang out with them I felt so detattched...well that's what happened last year and I'm so afraid it's going to happen again, because I'm pretty sure that detachment from the first guy is what led to our breakup...and now idk what to do because the new person that I'm so attached to is just a friend and I don't want to hurt him because he means a lot to me. I don't want him to be affected because I'm pretty sure I might end up pushing him away, I don't want this to happen again. I don't know what to do though!!!! agh
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Posted: Mon Sep 25, 2006 7:16 pm
But this depression can't be just because I miss him, and that I wish I wouldn't lose his friendship...that's just horrible, I thought I got past that...I don't do deep deppressions on the behalf of just one person leaving anymore, or do I? I keep telling myself that there's other things bugging me in my life, but idk the only problem that's really on my mind in my spare time is him and how it's just not going to be the same, the other problem is that it's just going to be the same way it was with my first boyfriend, who I might as well refer to as my ex because I've only had one boyfriend...
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