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 Posted: Sat Jan 10, 2009 11:32 am
*hugs Jezz* I am so sorry to hear for your loss. If you need someone to talk to you know we are here for you.
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Posted: Fri Jan 16, 2009 10:15 am
I just wanted to update people on my current mental state regarding my Weed addiction. I've totally stopped now, its been 9 days but the withdrawls are kicking in and its pretty hard to focus. Im feeling really depressed, little self worth, anxious, paranoid, im not in a very good place atm, lets just put it that way XD. The reason I know its the Pot and not just my mental state is because my friends been going through the same thing, as soon as this crap is out of my system im going to have a long reflect on my life.
Also, im booking myself with a phyciatrist XD
Its a horrid emotional state that i would never even curse to have it upon my worst enemys, I'm riding it out, tinking of you guys and hopefully as the days progresses, ill get better.
I also have a question, if anyone knows anyone who did drugs like weed and how they managed to get through it?
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Posted: Mon Jan 19, 2009 11:46 am
Depression, anxiety & Fear of loosing grip with reality.
Or more like, fear of loosing grip with anything.
I fell so emotionless, like I dont even know Good between evil anymore.
I'm scared of loosing touch with what makes me happy, if this is normal or am i really anxious?
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Posted: Mon Jan 19, 2009 9:00 pm
It's just withdrawal Fuuj. You're body's going nuts that it hasn't had any weed recently. Come on! Buck up! You can do this! We're all rooting for you!
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Posted: Mon Jan 19, 2009 11:10 pm
Indeed we are! *cheers for Fuu!* YOOOUUUUU CAN DO EEEEEEEEEEEEEET.
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Posted: Mon Jan 19, 2009 11:13 pm
We're with you Fuu-chan. I know it's tough.
I've not been through an addiction myself- but I know others who have, and it's not pretty.
You're so brave for doing this- I'm so proud of you!
And so proud that you've taken all these steps. Everyones behind you in this Fuu-chan! We love you very much, never forget that.
If anyone can face their demons and get beyond something like this..it's you. GO FUU-CHAN!!
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Posted: Mon Jan 19, 2009 11:48 pm
Ky-chan is right ^^. YOU CAN DO THIS. Everyone here is supporting you n_n. We're all here for you, rooting for you, because we love you. Lots. Like, SUPER-SPECIAL AWESOME lots ^o^.
You can do this, Fuu. Because you are awesome. YOU SOOOOOO DESERVE AWESOME POINTS FOR DOING THIS ^O^!
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Posted: Tue Jan 20, 2009 2:47 am
*after crying tons and tons* Thanks Guys, I love you all so much too, Having you're support really gets me focused, as long as i know you guys are here I dont have anything to fear.
I don't think i'll be roleplaying for awhile, not untill my head is cleared and I know in my heart that all of this foggyness has gone.
Thank you for putting you're belief in me, I will change, I won't let you all down, I promise. heart
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Posted: Tue Jan 20, 2009 5:32 pm
My brother's addicted to weed. Refuses to admit it, even though he smokes a joint every night. Every night.
I've smoked with him a couple times, but considering my condition... Let's just end it at "giant centipedes".
Rooting for you, Fu. I'm not going to pretend I know what it's like to have an addiction (MY ONLY ADDICTION IS CONVENIENCE. CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT IT), but I will smother you with virtual huggles and guggles.
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Posted: Tue Jan 20, 2009 8:48 pm
Good for you for kicking the habit Fuu! I, myself, haven't done anything like that, but I hear it's hard to kick addictions, so go you ^_^
On a lighter(heavier...?) note...I'm getting kicked out of my aunt's house.
I've been living with my aunt for the past...4 years? Yeah, 4 years this month. Apparently, I broke the final straw today, though. I was apparently asked to do the driveway(shovel, cause it snowed in NC), and my other aunt(we'll call her Aunt A, and the one that owns the house Aunt S) decided she was going to shovel it.
Well, what happened is that it was after work, and I was still awake, and I wanted to go for a walk and enjoy the cold and snow. As I was getting ready, Aunt A decided she was going to shovel the driveway. Aunt S had basically a hissy fit, and said that I should do it, not aunt a cause I was younger than both of them and a few other reasons like that. Basically, aunt a said she wouldn't do it and would make a snowman instead(she loves snowmen), and I went for my walk, planning on doing the driveway when I got back.
It was done when I got back. Came inside, aunt s got up, staring at me like someone had died. Then I was told I broke the final straw and some other stuff cause I had left aunt a to do the driveway all by herself, and now have 30 days to find a new place to live. Didn't even really get a chance to explain myself.
So, let's see, no place to actually go, no car, no license to drive, no money saved up cause I've been paying rent and my cell bill anyways, and small paychecks from working one night a week. Let's also say that cause my body is tired from working nights, I'm stressed out too often, and I'm dehydrated, that I'm constantly sick almost.
Basically, I apparently screwed up badly, even though I didn't really do anything wrong. Apparently, though, I did something so heineous that I needed to get kicked out...evicted...whatever. *head/desk*
God, I'm tired right now...then again, that could be my natural reaction to just curl up on my bed and lie there cause I'm depressed...
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Posted: Fri Jan 23, 2009 9:39 pm
Byne, just yesterday I finished helping my boyfriend move in with his mom because his dad was, and I quote, "sick of raising a kid."
Evan's 20 years old and hardly a kid anymore.
I know what you're going through. It's ridiculous how the people who have taken you in and sheltered you can so easily just turn around and decide that they don't want you anymore for whatever reason.
This is a load of s**t.
They don't seem to take into consideration the fact that it's not possible for someone to move out on their own for whatever reason. They're too damn caught up on themselves to think about the fact that while you may have a job, it doesn't pay for s**t and you have other expenses to worry about and can't afford a place of your own for whatever reason. They never consider that maybe, just maybe you don't have anywhere else to go and you're only staying with them because it's the best you can do at the moment, and your only other option is being homeless.
I swear to god that if it were at all possible I'd beg my parents to let you stay with me, but because there's barely enough room for three people in this house, much less the four people and a dog already living here, there's no way I could.
That, and you'd have to move to Omaha. oO; You don't want to do that, there's no job opportunities here unless you enjoy telemarketing. I wish that Disney still had their animation studios here, but that's another topic...
Do you have a buddy you could stay with for a while until you can find a better paying job or something? Or a few buddies looking to move out that you could split rent on an apartment with? 30 days isn't a lot of time to find a better paying job AND find a place to rent AND pack up and move AND anything else you might need to do (like classes or something). Try asking around your group of friends and seeing if anyone wouldn't be willing to lend you some couch space for a while or something and work from there.
If you need someone to rant and rail at in the process of figuring something out, bombard me with PMs or something and I'll listen, I promise. I haven't been there myself, but one of my friends and now my BF has, so I at least have some second-hand experience if you want any advice.
Or, y'know, just throw stuff at me. Like a lamp. xd I'm fine with being a target for stress-relief, too, as long as it helps.
And just remember, man, we all love ya. heart
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Posted: Sat Jan 24, 2009 7:17 pm
Man I know what you guys feel like about the whole moving thing, I just moved four hours away from where I was living with my boyfriend and bestfriends it a tiny apartment.
The sad thing is the landlord thinks ferrets are ugly and smelly so I had to get rid of my babies...I have been crying my eyes out. We donated them to Petco and they said that they would do background checks on whoever gets them. That makes me happy.
Fuu, I had a friend who quit smoking weed cold turkey like it sounds like you are. He started smoking cigarettes and said they helped with the withdrawal then he slowly got off the cigs. That's worth a try. He also just tried to make sure his life had as little stress in it as possible. It took him some time but he's been clean for two years now. You can do it!!!! We're all rooting for you.
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Posted: Mon Jan 26, 2009 3:25 pm
Ugh. Never thought I'd be posting here seriously again. So I'm feeling horrible. I've never really had any confidence, it comes from being made fun of much of my life because of my weight. Recently though, I discovered a band called Dillinger Four, and this band seriously seemed to inject confidence into my veins.
So here's my problem. With my newfound confidence, I asked a girl out last thursday, but the teacher basically told us to STFU for talking in class. Problem was, she was on her phone when I saw her last that day and I had to leave. I waited three days. During those three days, I couldn't stop thinking about her, and eventually realized that I was seriously in love with this girl. But ********. She said no, she told me she wasn't really looking for a boyfriend. And that was it. I thought I was going to take it fine, but for most of the rest of the day, I felt completely depressed and like I had been stepped on. I wouldn't talk to anybody, and nothing any of my friends said would console me.
I'm seriously heartbroken, and now I don't know whether to let it be or to keep trying with her.
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Posted: Tue Jan 27, 2009 9:51 am
Mizu_Kage_Hikari They don't seem to take into consideration the fact that it's not possible for someone to move out on their own for whatever reason. They're too damn caught up on themselves to think about the fact that while you may have a job, it doesn't pay for s**t and you have other expenses to worry about and can't afford a place of your own for whatever reason. I'm sorry, but I don't agree with that at all. How do you think most parents get started? They probably got a crappy jobs, too, and scrimped, like your friend would have to. Too damn caught up in themselves? They raised him for 20 years; how is that caught up in themselves? Other expenses to worry about? Hello? I think they would know better than you about "other expenses". YOU are another expense that YOUR parents chose to have. It sounds to me like you are caught up in yourself. I'm sorry, I don't want the Life Issues thread to turn into a debate, but I have issues with ungratefulness. There are worse things in life than moving out on your own. Maggie struggling with her withdrawal symptoms, for example... or being in a serious car accident... or not having ANY parents... or the death of a loved one. Getting your own place is part of the circle of life. Feel grateful that you can even CONSIDER "getting your own place", instead of working $3 a day making shirts for Wal-Mart and living in ridiculously bad conditions. o.o; Maggie, I'm no expert on drugs or anything, but I don't think... it would be wise to switch to cigarettes... It doesn't do you any good to get addicted to some other chemical, I don't think... I mean, you're trying to get RID of substance influence, aren't you? I think it would behoove you to get interested in some sort of physical activity... and read something uplifting... I like "The Message" translation of the bible, personally... It's written in "plain English", so no "thine art thou thus forever". I know they have free versions online, and you might be able to find some sort of church giving them away for free, even... Good luck! heart
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Posted: Tue Jan 27, 2009 5:57 pm
Quote: I'm sorry, I don't want the Life Issues thread to turn into a debate, but I have issues with ungratefulness. By even directly countering someone's opinion on what they think about something, you turn it into a debate, so your statement is pretty much moot. Also ungratefulness is not a synonym for impoverished. If you can't afford a place to live, you can't afford a place to live and being upset with those who put you into a homeless position is only human. Not ungrateful. IK, don't sweat it, man. I've been denied many MANY times (I'm an a*****e, what can I say?), and you know what? You're still the same person. Period. The only difference is you didn't get the girl. Which can be overrated (or so I am told. Again, I'm an a*****e). My point is, I have a mountain of rejections, but my confidence is still here. Just keep at it man, try getting to know a girl first. Become their friend. The game of love is by no means a simple game of "keep asking". It's more of an RPG. Level up your relationship with her as a friend, then maybe one day you can class change to boyfriend (or at very least "toy"). Al, sorry to hear you're getting kicked out. The only time I ever got kicked out was... well, when I kicked myself out. Nothing says "motivation" like nowhere to sleep. My suggestion is to find a friend to stay with for a while and bunk there until you can find a roommate and a better job. Craigslist did wonders for me.
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