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 Posted: Mon Mar 20, 2006 9:26 pm
Nyoko smiled at the other and nodded "of course we will have time, though do you just want to see the spa or care for a dip?" he asked as he reluctantly pulled away from the angel and made his way towards the door. He stood there smiling at the other "come, the pool and spa arnt that far from the house, just need to go out the back a short way to get to it" he said to his angel as he held out his hand and waited for him.
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Posted: Mon Mar 20, 2006 9:55 pm
Val took the offered hand, wrapping a wing around Ny's shoulder. Glancing down at his mechanical arm, he grimaced faintly. "I'd better not go in..." Chlorine in the air would probably wreak havoc on the metal, especially at the joints. He smiled, "But if you'd like to go in for a bit, I don't mind waiting.
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Posted: Tue Mar 21, 2006 3:04 am
Nyoko sighed and cuddled into his angel, as much as he loved his angel and everything about him that mechanical hand was a bit of a problem when it came to spending some quality romance time with him in the spa. "Cant that just be removed?" He asked his angel in a small upset tone "I love you darling, I dont want the chlorine damaging you but its just that I would love to spend some quality time with you in the spa, it would be perfect just you and I, a few candles around to set the mood and a bottle of wine with chocolates to eat.
I understand the reason you dont wish to go in dont worry, I guess im just going to have to find other ways to spend time with you alone in the perfect romantic setting." He said smiling up at his angel, happier then before "I am sure to be able to handle that, especially when I have someone as beautiful as you to set this up for, it will just make me work harder.
I will be able to find something romantic for you and I, just give me a little bit of time and I will set something romantic up for us. Though it will wait till after the camping trip, I have a few things in mind now but nothing concreit so lets just wait till after the camping trip before I make a romantic night for us both."
He said as he snuggled in close to his angel, reaching up and carressing his cheek with his hand and stroaking it with his thumb. "You mean the world to me, I could never love anyone as much as I love you, you truely have given me so much that I will always be thankful to you for. I wont ever leave you Val, I will be with you always, I promise" he said softly and sincerly as he reached up and kissed the angel softly yet passionatly with his eyes closed, hand left on his cheek and cuddled into him, wrapping the other arm around his waist as he held the angel close, not wanting to let him go.
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Posted: Tue Mar 21, 2006 6:33 pm
Val paled slightly, though perhaps it was not noticeable against his dark hair and normal pallor. "Ny...my arm is not just for looks," he murmured, smiling and chuckling lightly in an attempt to speak without making the other feel silly. He reached up and ran fingers through Nyoko's hair along the side of his face. "It's cybernetic. I can't just take it off like a piece of clothing. My arm ends here," he said, pointing to where metal and flesh met. Grimacing, he continued. "Besides, wouldn't it be awkward if I went into the pool with just one and a half arms."'
He cleared his throat, knowing that he meant well, and was putting forth an effort. "It's just the chlorine though. I should take you to a hot spring sometime, or maybe just a professional spa that doesn't use chlorine. I don't have to worry about water so much." He smiled lovingly and kissed Ny tenderly on the lips.
He was disappointed however. What could be more romantic than being outdoors on a hilltop surrounded by the calls of night birds at sunset, then the vastness of a cloudless starlit sky? The new moon was so near... They obviously had different ideas in this area, and while neither was wrong, Val could not help but think of Nyoko's mother and the estate's owner. Would they end up the same way, with little in common but similar passions?
As usual, he sighed softly and resolved himself to just wait and see. So he smiled and buried his face into the intersection at Nyoko's throat and shoulder, kissing his collarbone. Holding him close, the angel murmured, "Your skin is so soft..."
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Posted: Tue Mar 21, 2006 7:00 pm
Nyoko murred happily at the kiss and blushed "im sorry, I didnt know, i guess there is still a few things I need to know about you" he said holding the angel close. "The spring sounds wonderful, i would love to go with you" he said happily as he stroaked the angels hair. Nyoko was a true romantic at heart, anywhere that he could spend with his angel was fine with him, he just had many palces he knew could be romantic so wether here or under the night sky or in some hot pool, it was all romantic as long as you were with the one you love and the atmosphere was right.
Muraki and Nyokos mother have more in common with each other then anyone else, the only reason Muraki and Kuri broke up was because they got 'together' for the wrong reasons and Muraki believed that Kuri deserved more out of life then just staying as someones sex partner. They are the best of friends and share many things in common but just because they wernt together anymore doesnt mean they havent got anything in common or very little at best.
Nyoko swore to himself that he would always be there for Val and love him unconditionally and he sincerly means it, he loved his angel greatly and could never be with another. Just because Muraki and his mother never stayed together doesnt mean they wont, they never got together for the wrong reasons, they got together because they loved each other. Ny knows in his heart of hearts that he could never be with another, he loves Val, he would die for him and god knows he will proove this to Val one way or another no matter how long and hard he had to try.
"Thank you" he said softly as he held his angel, tilting his head back "I dont think I have ever been so happy" he said softly to the angel as he stroaked his hair "you truely are perfect in my eyes, thank you for comming into my life my darling. I love you" he said as he sighed contentedly.
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Posted: Tue Mar 21, 2006 8:02 pm
Val chuckled. "Maybe we should make a to-do list of things we want to do and places we want to go together." He smiled and kissed Ny's nose. "I take no exception to what you asked, as you couldn't have known. You would not have said that if you had known." As Ny tilted his head back, Val kissed his lips lovingly. "I know this and I love you so very much."
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Posted: Tue Mar 21, 2006 8:16 pm
Nyoko purred at the kiss and chuckled "that list sounds great though believe me that I will be happy anywhere I go as long as I am with you. I just never want to leave your side, I just hate being away from you" he said to his angel as sighed contentedly. "and you and I definatly have to get to know each other better on our camping trip, i dont want to keep anything from you so no matter how embarasing the question might be I want you to ask me. I want to tell you whatever it is you want to know, I dont want to keep any secrets from you" he said to the angel as he closed his eyes and snuggled into him a little more, this was perfect just being here in his embrace.
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Posted: Tue Mar 21, 2006 9:27 pm
Val hummed in reply with a contented smile, "I believe I would be happy wherever I go with you as well, or did not go for that matter. When I'm with you I think of us, and when I'm alone I think of you and want to be with you then resignedly think of my own problems."
His smile faded as he thought of the upcoming trip. "I worry that what I have to tell you will overshadow the trip. I've been debating whether I should tell you before we go, maybe tonight even... or whether I should wait til the beginning, possibly end of the trip. Timing, I think, is everything... You see, what I have to tell you of my past may make you uncomfortable or even very frightened. It could ruin the trip if you take it badly.
"I know you don't want to worry about the past and you've promised not to lose your resolve, but dangers don't go away with wishful thinking. If we go any further in our relationship, I want you to know about this, because I feel you would potentially be in danger just being with me. From the beginning I've just wanted to protect you as much as I can - it's part of who I am - and I know you don't like to be coddled, but in this..." He sighed and trailed off. He had been looking at Ny directly, trying to find the right words. If he did not say even this right, Ny would get the wrong impression and pre-judge before Val could even tell him. He would dismiss everything as not a big enough problem when it was. On the other hand, he did not want to terrify Nyoko if at all possible. A very small part of him wanted to get it all out at once, to lay it on thick, and to shock the hell out of Ny. To say, You think Vampires are bad? They don't hold a candle to me... But he was not a sadist. He wanted Nyoko to know... to understand. Someone has to understand!
"I guess what I'm asking you, for now, is for you to trust me when I say these things...and that when I seem depressed or pessimistic when I think about our future together, my trust in you is not lacking. It's my trust in myself." He watched Ny searchingly, knowing that at least for now the bunny-cat could not possibly understand, but maybe - for now - he could accept it, knowing that all would be explained.
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Posted: Tue Mar 21, 2006 9:58 pm
Nyoko listened to Val as tears welled up in his eyes "I feel exactly the same way Val, I cant stop thinking of you and I never want to. Yourmy very last thought when I go to sleep, your my first thought when I wake up and your always in my thoughts throughout the day, I long for you to be near me when your away and when your near I dread the time you and I have to part."
He said as he held onto his angel tight and thought about what he said and started to cry into him, mixing his own thoughts with the thoughts about what Val said "I trust you with my life completely so of course I trust you with this. I admit I might be scared at whatever it is you wish to tell me but I swear to you that I wont run away from this, I am not ever going to turn my back on you no matter how bad this might be.
I dont want to lose you, I dont want to go back living my life without you in it, I would rather die then know that you would never be there when I need you or wanted you. But I just never want to go back to how I was without you in my life" he said as he kept hold of his angel tightly.
"I want know your past, when you are ready to tell me, I just know that the way I feel about you will never change and I dont want it to. I still dont care what happened in the past, I just know that I couldnt live my life without you and I dont want to. I am willing to die for you if I knew it would keep you safe, I dont care what happens to me all I want is for you to be safe. That is my only worry in this relationship, the fact that I might see the person I love more then anything in this worlf just get badly injured or worse.
You want to protect me well im willing to protect you as well, I dont care what it takes but there isnt anyway im going to leave your side, I will protect you no matter what. Losing you would be worse then death and I dont want to even go there" he said as he nuzzled the angels chest a bit, still crying. "I trust you with all my heart Val, now and forever" he said as he closed his eyes and carried on crying into the angel as he held him tightly still.
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Posted: Tue Mar 21, 2006 11:00 pm
Nyoko was not the only one trying to fight back tears, though Valentino was more successful. "It's good we made a promise to sleep in the same bed right away, isn't it?" he murmured softly with a little chuckle, leaning close, cheek leaning into the bunny-cat's hair and running his fingers through it. "That way we can be together more often."
He squeezed his eyes shut. He had trusted himself before... but what was different? Nyoko was no fighter, not a warrior. Was that really why? Or was it because more than anyone else, if Ny was ever hurt or killed, he would never forgive himself?
He sighed and squeezed Nyoko tightly, as if an embrace could make separation impossible. Kissing his hair, his ears where they began, forehead, and lips most fiercely, he finally pulled back and looked into Nyoko's mismatched eyes intensely. "I believe you... I trust you. Forgive me my cowardice in thinking that by telling you, you might turn your back on me - and rightly so." He paused, then straightened, smoothing out Ny's hair and wiping away his tears as best he could. "I think I'm ready now, at any time. When shall I tell you, Ny? When do you want to know? But consider it carefully before you answer... I guarantee your outlook will change, and it might ruin the rest of your day - it certainly won't be romantic," he said the last with a faint grimace.
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Posted: Wed Mar 22, 2006 3:54 am
Nyoko chuckled softly a little as he kept his eyes closed as he savored his angels kiss for a few moments before continuing "yes it was good that we made that promise" Nyoko agreeded, purring deeply at the angels touch. Nyoko might not have been a warrior or a fighter but god knows he knows how to protect himself with a blade when and if the time came, his uncle taught him that and he wouldnt hesitate to use a blade on anyone if need be.
Nyoko might not look it but he was alot more brave and could handle alot of stuff that was thrown his way as well. He might look meek but he was anything but, however he did admit to himself that he hated fighting dispite him being able to weild a blade.
"You have nothing to apologise for, you wernt being cowardice, you just wanted someone to trust you before you told your past to. That isnt cowardice it is passing a fair judgement, I wouldnt want to tell my past to someone I didnt trust either and so I understand why you did it and it isnt a cowardly thing. I promise you that now" he said as he sighed a little and kept close to his angel.
Ny smiled up at his angel sadly as Val wiped away his tears "I understand what you say Val but the longer you wait to tell me the harder it might be. I might never be ready to hear what it is you have to tell me but I know I am going to be with you through the entier thing and after it as well so though you warn me and I thank you for it, I want to hear now. You tell me you guarantee my outlook will change, well all I can say is that maybe you should let me be the judge of that.
It is my outlook, I will be the one who sees if it will change or not and so I will be the only one who will make such a guarantee on it as well. It might ruin the rest of my day but I have you with me, I have the oen person I love most in this world beside me, my day is never ruined when your beside me, no matter what is said. My day is always great when you are with me.
"I swear to you, whatever it is you are willing to tell me I will have you beside me to help me through it and if need be I will help you through it as well. So please Val, lets go sit down out in the living room and just cuddle with each other while you tell me? If I have to hear this then I might as well be comfortable and im always the most relaxed and the most comfortable when im being held in your arms. I am ready to hear what you have to tell me" he said as he took the angel by the hand and started leading him gently back towards the sofa "I love you Val, that will never change and your past wont make that change either.
If anything your past will just make me love you more, I know it sounds strange but I dont think I can ever hate you or even dislike you. I cant, my heart wont let me and right now my heart is telling me also that im just going to end up loving you more because of your past. It might be wrong but I am willing to take the chance and listen to my heart" he said as he arrived at the sofa, forcing himself to no longer cry and sat down, waiting for his angel so they could begin.
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Posted: Mon Apr 03, 2006 12:07 am
Valentino looked Nyoko deeply eye-to-eye as the other spoke. He smiled and sighed softly, admiring the bunny-cat's resolve to be so strong in the face of the unknown, even when advised repeatedly of its dangers. The angel allowed Ny to lead him to the couch and sat down beside him, then took him into his arms. "I only wanted to warn you. So many times I have argued with myself over whether to tell you or not. It is not your problem, and much of it no longer is my own either. And yet, my past has made me what I am now, and so much of it refuses to stay buried." He gazed down at Ny and smiled gently, very briefly. "And it's all right to cry..." he said softly, sliding his fingers downward through Nyoko's hair, taking note of how the other endeavored to end his tears.
He looked up and across the room at nothing in particular, frowning. "I was once a hired killer, Nyoko, sharpshooter. I worked within a branch of a large organization; we were assassins, bodyguards, special ops... whatever our superiors required of us." He paused for a few moments listening to Nyoko's breathing and his own, but pressed on, not allowing for comments or questions.
"Later, said organization betrayed me. Perhaps it was my own fault for getting too close to the information at hand..." He trailed off, images and events flashing before his eyes. "There was a vast section devoted to scientific research, specifically genetic engineering. In exchange for getting in the way, the scientists in charge decided to use me in some of their experiments. The results were varied," he continued, voice going flat, "in many ways they 'improved' on the human body, speed and strength. They even gave me a new arm." Val raised his clawed arm, flexing the fingers. "They amputated it at the elbow, trying out their latest cybernetic advancements. As far as I can remember, there was nothing wrong with my arm, it was simply normal." He stared at the arm for a few moments, turning it this way and that, a mixture of anger and dispassion playing across his face.
Finally he sighed and glanced at Nyoko, then looked away again. "There were all kinds of injections. I don't know what all of them did, but I know one thing for certain, when all was said and done, I was a monster in all senses of the word. I woke up in a rage, destroying everything in my path..." He sighed, events again playing out in his mind. "It was very difficult to get used to, and an undetermined amount of time passed before I finally came back to myself. Perhaps months. What I learned for certain was this: when sufficiently angered, especially when a loved one is in danger, I will go into a rage... when this happens... I become something else..." He paled, turning faintly green. "A monster. I can't control myself, I go berserk... And anyone that gets in my way becomes an obstacle, or worse, a threat." He paused to let the last sink in fully. He hated to think of what might happen if someone he cared about got in the way. "I don't really remember what happens when I transform... I try not to think about it; there's usually blood on my hands. I'm sure if you asked Cloud or Nanaki, they could tell you." He sighed and closed his eyes.
Perhaps it seemed as if Valentino was finished for the period of time he stopped speaking. But he opened his eyes once more and looked at Nyoko. "What I've described began over fourty years ago." A grin managed to flicker across his face. "I'm kind of old. But... part of my condition is I don't age, at least as far as I know. Of course... it might have something to do with the fact that, after I went out on rampage that time, I came back and realized what I had done, and went into hiding. I...slept..." He looked away and frowned gently. How many years had he been hiding? How could it not be labeled cowardice? "Thirty years later, Cloud found me. I became a fighter again. I'm sure it will happen in the future. I never truly escape that. I can fight, and so when the time comes, I must. The consolation is, by the time Cloud came along, I had more control, but not much. I've always lived alone, away from people, since then. Until Mel came." He sighed and frowned.
"There's not much else to say..."
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Posted: Mon Apr 03, 2006 1:42 am
Nyoko sat there listening to his every word, silently crying and after what seemed like hours he finally spoke "im so sorry" he said as he cuddled his angel close "it would of been terrible to go through something like that. I cant exactly say I understand where your comming from since obviously I have never been in a position like you have though I stand by what I said before, I dont care about your past and if your still a killer then so be it I will make sure im out of your way when you transform into that beast.
I am pleased you have told me and I thank you but the only thing that really hurts is that you had to go through this and still am. I am not saying im an expert on what happend but it hurts knowing that someone had to go through what you endevored." He said as he lent foward and kissed his angels cheek "I understand this is serious but I still love you and always will no matter what, you said my outlook would change yet it hasnt.
You are STILL the guy I love, your still the guy I have given my heart to, the only thing that has changed is that I have become more knowlegable of your history. I want to be shocked, I want to be angry at the fact you could still kill again, I want to be scared yet I cant be anything but sad for you for going through what you did.
I apologise if you dont want pitty or sympathy but I guess thats just how I am." He said with a sigh and dried his eyes "I admit I might have questions after I think about this more but I can tell you now that I will still love you no matter what and if anything I just love you more because you told me. Just please dont worry about my love for you becomming less, I swore I wouldnt turn my back on you and im not going to, even after its completely sunk in, I am just pleased you have told" he said as he stroaked the angels hair, hoping he hasnt upset him or said something wrong dispite how much he stands by what he said.
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Posted: Mon Apr 03, 2006 2:12 am
Valentino sighed and closed his eyes. Tears over this particular part of his life had been shed many times over, during a span of many years. That he was offered anger in response to his killings and pity to his past, while entirely expected (and even tamer, really), managed to annoy him. What could he possibly have expected from one so young and naive? But the tears were real and for his benefit, and to his credit he really was trying to listen and understand what he was conveying. Perhaps with time and more thought Nyoko would realize that there were words 'between the lines,' as it were that he had yet to understand. He sighed again and smiled at Nyoko, running his fingers along the side of his face. "You're trying, and I appreciate that..." he smiled and kissed him on the forehead.
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Posted: Mon Apr 03, 2006 2:39 am
Nyoko purred softly at the kiss and looked away, silently hating himself for not showing and saying to Val what he truely wanted to hear and see. He was trying and Val appreciated that and he wanted to show Val what he wanted to see and hear but this was just still so much to take on and maybe he was just to naive to understand. Nyoko got up from cuddling the angel to hugging his knees and cried again "im sorry Val for not saying or doing what you would have liked me to to when it came to this.
Being naive is a fault of mine, i am inexperienced at alot of things and I guess this prooves it." He said wipping his eyes and sighed "I am trying as you know, I guess it might just take a bit longer then you expected. Im sorry Val" he said as he rested his head on his knees and looked at Val, wiping away a lone tear that fell from his eye.
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