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It's not death, it's not being alive anymore.
I don't want to die, and the idea of not being anymore terrifies me.
I don't understand how someone could not care.

I've always feared death, ever since I was a little girl and realized one day everything is going to vanish for me it terrified me. I just don't think about it and live the best way I can because it's inevitable, but whenever I do think about it, it's pretty paralyzing.

Artis, the point is you don't exist. Yes when you're dead you won't realize it, and that is one thing that is a great fear of mine. I don't want to stop existing, I want to always be. Why should we just simply go, "Oh well, when it happens I will feel nothing so there is nothing bad about it." I don't care if I feel it or not, ceasing to be is horrifying.

When I'm dead, hopefully it will be on that TV show 1000 Ways to Die... , my brain will cut off and so will all thinking process and nerve function.
The idea of not thinking about dieing while dead keeps me going.

That and I just don't give a damn. I lived a nice life, better than most.



Funny, though, because I was scared of death when I was a Christian. HA! XD

I don't fear death because I'm not going to be around to say "Well that was horrendous", or even "Oh this is a pretty nice coffin you got me". I'll just stop. Like every other living thing in this world. I'm going back to what I was, before this funny little blip on the radar called Life happened.

Besides, over the course of years, my body is going to break down, back into the dirt, and over many more years, help make up bugs or flowers or animals or heck, whatever else you can make out of a dead Ana. If that's not snazzy recycling, then I don't know what is.

But I'm alive not and it troubles me that some day I won't be. I don't see how anyone could think that doesn't matter, unless they're miserable and don't care if they died.

i don't fear death for the same reason i don't fear the dark. just as people who fear death fear it for the same reason others may also fear the dark. both fears are merely subcategories in the larger topic, the fear of the unknown.

i accept that i do not know what will happen to "me" when i die, if anything happens at all. just as i accept that when the lights are out i don't know what exactly may be in my room.

but, when you are in a dark room and you begin imagining that things are in there with you, it is typically a trick of the mind. it is NOT typically a message from a higher power telling you that some one IS in fact in the room with you despite the lack of hard evidence supporting this.

as people standing in the dark, we must wait until the light turns on to find out if anything is there with us.

but, as i like the dark, and as i know that the light, once turned on, won't turn off, i think ill stay in the dark for a while.

I'm not afraid of death because I don't spend my time worrying about it. It is the one thing you can be sure of, so why bother fretting over it. I could walk outside, right now, and get plowed over by a bus. A plane could crash into my house this very instant, and turn me into a fine red pulp. I have more important things to do than worry about how or when I'm going to die. Namely making a name for myself so that I'm remembered after death.