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So I'm already stressed out. Finals are this week so everything has to be in. I'm moving in half a month, I need a job, packing, two photoshoots before leave, and too many hamburgers on top of it.

Anyways so stressed out and while I'm eating dinner my stupid (Insert string of curse words) step-dad starts snapping at me. I'm not the best person to snap at because I demand respect. I call him a couple of things to his face then go back eating. 'I'm almost done with the hamburger and I can walk away' was all I was thinking. So then he walks out of house and I continue to munch. I don't say anything because I'm glad he's leaving and there's food in my mouth. He comes back in a moment later and starts accusing me of saying something while he was out. I told three (F-word-ing) times that I didn't do it like I'm that one guy from the bible or something. He kept saying I was like I'm some kind of liar. I know wants going on. Something similar to this happened before. My siblings would never defend me. They don't like me and they don't tell him to back off a bit. So I slam what's left of my food down and go to walk out. A walk around the block and do wonders.

So the idiot had to follow right behind me. I don't take well to men. I have a slight phobia of them because I'm small and I get freaked out. So in response I turn and wipe my fingers on this shirt (my mad on this on). He then continues to follow me. I of course get really freaked out and mad mouth him a bit. Calling a (Another F-word-ing) idiot and try to get away. He stops following me after a bit.

I then walk up to the fence border and start having the third panic attack this year because of him. Doesn't help that my mom always seems to side with him. Like I'm the one always messing up. I flat out told her I can't wait to move. Then she had to go and lecture me. I don't need a lecture when I'm depressed. He even said I assaulted him five times. It's two at most. One today and one before.

Me leaving can't happen any sooner.

There was one woman who I was talking to recently who was surprised that I could smile.

Is everything all right?

Which do you think you'll choose?

Lucky me more drama. At least this one isn't as bad.

That I may not be on for a week.

Here's the 411

My mom is going on a trip and I'm not sure if this is a family trip, but it sounds like it just a little because they may be picking up my cousin. I'll be in Canada this weekend that means.

On the way back we are not stopping. in fact we'll be going to Idaho. My (step) grandpa has been sick for a while and he's not getting any better and he is in fact on life support. My grandma announced today that he'll be taken off and his funeral will be on Tuesday which means I wont be back till Wednesday evening.

Well mostly just to check for any new people and answer their questions.