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Yeah, sorry about that. I've been checking the guild every now and then and I've been reading everything I just always forget to post. I was going to post last week and then I had to do all these chores around the house and I just said it wasn't worth it. It's kind of sad really that it's come to that. I used to post 2 page posts and now I can't manage a few sentences on here.

I can't remember the last time that I updated but I'm sure it was around the time that I got the job at Long Beach Memorial. It's definitely a good job as I've been noticing. I've been asking everybody who tells me they have a job what they make. I don't really mind what they make I just want to appreciate very much the job I have and I do. My one friend works 5 days a week 30 hours and brings home 600 a month. A grad student I know makes 8 an hour at the library she works at. My girlfriend works 4 days a week 20 hours a week and with tips she usually makes around what I do. But her job is more stressful. I net a 1000 a month work 2 days a week. They're 12 hours but it's nice only working 2. So, I really appreciate my job.

As far as balancing school, work, homework, and a girlfriend with the little social life that I have left, it doesn't seem to be working so well for me right now. I took the first week off basically and now I'm playing catch up.

I have:

Calculus I.
Art History
Recent History
Intro to Computer Programming

No fun classes really this semester. A lot of logic and reading. I couldn't take Web Design 300 because it was taught on Friday's and I work Fridays. Kinda sucks since I'm almost done with the minor. At least I could say that I have something with all these electives.

I got a credit card last month. Which makes me wonder when the bill is coming because I don't want to be late at all on the bill. Just trying to establish credit so I can buy a house one of these days. Maybe even rent without cosigning. I've noticed that it's extremely easy to use one. No wonder people rack up thousands. It's easier than a debit card, a lot easier.

I guess I'm in the system now? Credit card, job, draft, etc.

The girlfriend and I are doing well. We just mend really well I think. I know it's supposedly my "first love" but I think the you know counted because you still feel the same way in a sense. It's better offline though, but yeah. It's 4 months the 16th. 5 months if you count dating. Apparently, she has this thing where her boyfriends only last 3 months so it was a big deal when we passed it with a breeze.

Umm, I don't really have much of a social life and the one person I used to hang out with all the time is getting back into heavy drugs so he doesn't call or when he does it's weird. So, pretty much I go to work and school and then girlfriend everyday. Trying to find a balance.

You guys are awesome. I think I'm done for now. I have a photo album to finish up for the girlfriend for the 4 month. I like her a lot. If she didn't last, it'd be sad.

I was also thinking the other day as I was buying a calculator (165 bucks sheeze), what if one of you guys died? How would any of us find out, you know? I doubt they would put aliases in the directory would they? It'd have to be by word of mouth, huh?

As far as the advertising goes. I like that they tell us about it. It sucks that they do it, but a lot of websites try and cover up the corporate bullshit and it's really disappointing when you find out and stuff. Eh, my first reaction was this site blows now. The design is too complex than what it used to be. But, you know, if this was my project, I'd be so happy to finally get the money to pay for all the bandwidth of adding nice graphics and everything and getting more users. Can't blame them.

As far as the high tech designs go. I'd be fine with going back to the old profile system and the old chatterbox where you could see how many users were on. But, again, you can't blame 'em. It must be really awesome for them.

Over.

Yeah, likewise... One of my friends would be informing everyone if I died... Which would mean that they would go through all my friends on here and facebook and stuff. They're good people like that.

So this is a convo I had with my dad this morning:
D: Trailer Trash was crying last night cause she thinks you hate her.
Me: I don't hate her.
D: But you really don't like her.
Me: *shrugs*
D: You don't like her?
Me: No
D: Well too bad.
Me: It's a fact of life. You can't get along with everybody. We're two completely different people who don't see eye to eye on anything.

Trailer Trash is obviously not what my dad calls her, but whatev. I think it's sad that it's taking me leaving for him to realize how bad things are between the two of us.

I should get back to packing. Booooo.

Don't you think the doorstep might not be the best place to put a computer?

Maybe not, but one cannot take out the consideration of how very romantic it would be compared to, for example, leaving it on the roof. smile

I actually don't much care for where or how it shows up, just that it does.

Status update: normal.

My best friend of six years has completely ditched me... And the rest of his friends. Right now I don't care about everyone else, I care about me. I'm so pissed off and angry, frustrated, hurt, annoyed, and everything else that falls under those categories. His new girlfriend consumes all his time, and I'm just so ******** fed up with him. So I'm done... I can't be friends with this new version of him. He has let me down time after time for the past nine months, so I'm done. Every time I think about it, I start crying. This hurts like hell.

I totally see your point Butters... And I mean, he's busy with uni and stuff too. I get that, and I'm really understanding of that. The frustration stems from specific incidents, such as... Him not calling me when my grandfather died, even though he knew how close I was to him. I was at college, all by myself, I had no family in that province, and that was incredibly hard for me to deal with. And from the fact that he promised to put aside some "us" time the week I was in Calgary, before moving to Ontario... And we had made plans, less than a week before I came back. But apparently he "forgot" that I was coming home, and "forgot" that we made plans... And he went camping with his girlfriends family. Then, he's invited over to my house for dinner the night before I move, and he asks if he can bring his girlfriend... I said no, because I'm not spending my last night in the province with him and his girlfriend. So he comes anyway, shows up half an hour late, and leaves not even two hours later... With his girlfriend... Who was the one to drop him off late, cause they were busy shopping for something. I was so choked about that. And then this summer was soooo hard, living with my dad and his fiancee... And I phoned him, bawling my eyes out, and left a message. He didnt' return my call for two months... Or my text messages. Anything. I didn't hear from him, at all. So I move back, try and talk to him, and he pretty much told me he doesn't have time for me anymore.

But here's the thing, not to put him down or anything but.... I went to college. While I partied a lot at first, last year I did a double diploma, so had 8+ classes a semester, went to the gym for two hours a night, had tennis lessons on Sundays, did trail runs every Friday, put in at least five hours of homework every night... And still managed to spend time with all my friends... Whether we went out for dinner, or to Timmie Hoe's to study, or even if they came to the gym with me. And in between all that, I also had a guy who consumed my time. So I dunno. I'm just really upset and hurt that he'd let six years of friendship go... I'm not asking for the world... I'm asking for a few hours of his time once a month.
/rant

All of my friends are ******** up in college. Highly dissapointing. I decided on a computer engineering major. I need to move out and my hair is reaaaally long.