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 Posted: Mon Apr 29, 2013 8:52 pm
 "Micha didn’t know what to think about Samuel sudden secret. He wondered if he would ever find out if it nor for Samuel’s little game of wanting to know his secrets. Micha wondered what it was that he saw in such a man, a man of liars. He knew it wasn’t something one normally told his partners that they were previously engaged but still he would have liked to known and not like this. Micha heard Samuel speak again and it only surprised him more, four others. The number struck hard in his head as he stared at the sky as he kept walking. Micha kept his hands in his pocket not wanting to touch Samuel at the moment.
He wasn’t quite exactly pissed nor was he happy. Micha left a blank expression on his face as he walked beside Samuel. He rounded the corner on the block. Micha could feel Samuel’s gaze on him as if he were trying to study him. He wouldn’t give Samuel the satisfaction to know what he was thinking. Micha felt Samuel stop all together beside him. He heard Samuel apologize but he didn’t want to hear it. Micha didn’t need an apology after all it wouldn’t change the reality. He stopped as he turned to look at Samuel. A face of no express stared back at Samuel. Micha listened as Samuel tried to explain but it only twisted his feelings more. He stared at Samuel as he spoke finding it funny Samuel still liked him. Micha caught the last words though; he didn’t see how they fit him.
Micha looked at Samuel as he stared at him, ”Please don’t apologize because I don’t want to hear it.” He spoke softly as he looked down. Micha didn’t want apologizes from Samuel. He looked back up, ”I understand it wasn’t your intention to lie but you did Samuel.” Micha spoke as he watched Samuel. He really didn’t know what to say to Samuel that would change how he felt. Micha sighed as he looked down, ”I like you Samuel I really do but sometimes I feel like an idiot. I wonder if this whatever it is…Is good for either of us. Maybe you were right when you told me I should find someone who will actually love me but the sad thing is that I don’t want that.” He spoke as he looked up at Samuel. ”I’m an idiot because I feel for someone who likes me but will never want me because he’s engaged to not one but to four other people.” Micha spoke as he laughed softly knowing how stupid he sounded. He turned away from Samuel, ”And the worst part is I don’t care…I don’t care Samuel you could be engaged to twenty woman and I would still want you and only you.” Micha spoke as he smiled up at Samuel."
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Posted: Tue Apr 30, 2013 10:11 am
 Sɑɱυεƪ ᴊᴏᵴҥʋᴀ Ɖɑᴠіʂ
“Relationships are ropes. Love is a noose."
Myshonok meant "little mouse". Micha might not see the how the term related to him. But compared to someone like Samuel who was always loud and couldn't stand silence, the term fit perfectly. The silence between them seemed to stretch for ages. He really should have stopped at the not coming out to his parents bit. The rest was unnecessary.....that was the story he was telling himself anyways. Honestly though, as badly as it felt to tell the male all this, at the same time it was somewhat a relief to tell at least one of his partners about this. Even with his more serious relationships he'd never told any of them he was engaged. Micha's suspicions were right, were not for his games he probably never would have said anything. Samuel saw the male pause some steps ahead of him and turn to face him. If the silence was bad then he wasn't even sure what to make of his expression. There was nothing there. No hate, no anger, no sadness, nothing. As blank as any of his own poker faces.
He nodded quietly as Micha asked him not to apologize. Of course he didn't want to hear it. What sane person did want to hear an apology when they find out the person they like is already taken? He frowned down at the ground as Micha accused him of being a liar even though that was exactly what he was apologizing for. Strangely enough it was one thing to call himself that but to hear Micha call him that....he hated it. "Can you really call me a liar for something I never wanted in the first place?" he replied, glancing up at the male, keeping his face just as blank despite his stirring emotions. "It's not like I haven't tried getting out of it. One would think after fifteen years of "I don't want to get married" they would understand I didn't want this." Samuel shook his head sadly. They didn't. No instead, somehow I don't want to get married turned into I don't want to marry her. Please, I beg you bring in a substitute so I can compare the bitches.
He let Micha finish what he had to say as he walked the other carefully. Even though the males words should have made him even the tiniest bit happy, they didn't. They didn't and it only seemed to piss him off more. "You're right. You are an idiot. But not because you think it's okay to still like me and know nothing will come of this. But because you think I'll like you and want nothing more than what we have now. You're a real ******** idiot. I may get around and have my share of one night stands but I'm not so heartless that I can't love someone. Believe it or not I have loved before, quite a few times actually. But things just seemed to fall out of place in the end. "
At last he looked up at the male, sighing softly. He stepped up to the male so he was now standing right in front of him. Looking him up and down, he studied him for a few moments. "I'm engaged, yes, but not because I want to be. Who can love a name and a picture? As if a bunch of stories can really make up for really knowing a person. And I'll tell you one other thing, out of every single person I've ever been with you are the first I have ever told about my engagement. No one else knows. Not my colleagues, not my old exes, not even Alaine. So you keep your trap shut." Reaching up, he playfully ruffled the males hair and stepped around him to continue with their walk. "Let's go myshonok." he called, deciding to keep the nickname for the male. At least for now, until Micha got annoyed with it, which he was pretty sure wouldn't take that long once he figured out its meaning.
  
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Posted: Tue Apr 30, 2013 4:20 pm
"Micha knew Samuel didn’t ask to be engaged but that’s not what he was pissed about. He was pissed that Samuel still lied to him that he was taken. Micha heard Samuel speak as he questioned him. He nodded, ”Yes, because you never told me.” Micha spoke letting his smile drop from his face. He was annoyed now knowing this conversation was likely to get ugly. Micha sighed as Samuel spoke knowing it wasn’t Samuel’s fault but still he wished he wouldn’t have lied to him. He listened as Samuel spoke again as he returned his words on him. Micha nodded simply, ”Thanks…Thank you Samuel for calling me an idiot…but I never said you couldn’t love...and your the one who keeps telling me you don't want a relationship..so why should I keep thinking that there will be more when there won't?” He spoke as he stood there watching Samuel. Micha didn’t know if they would have anything more. He knew Samuel didn’t want a relationship so they crossed a line of not having one. Micha felt movement as Samuel stood before him.
He looked up at Samuel as he stood before him. Micha felt so small compared to Samuel even though he was only a few inches taller than him. He stared up at the man as he stood before him. Micha listened as Samuel spoke as if it was some great honor to know that he was engaged. He sighed as he felt Samuel ruffle his hair before side stepping him. Micha heard Samuel call toward him as he called him by a pet name again. He rolled his eyes a little as he turned. Micha started walking again as he picked up his pace. He knew what Myshonok meant but still didn’t see why Samuel insisted on calling him it. Micha kept his hands in his pocket as he walked. He didn’t care about dessert anymore or anything more. Micha was simply too annoyed to give a s**t. In a way, he wished Samuel would have never told him anything. He was probably better off having never not known like the rest of the people Samuel never told. Micha wondered why Samuel felt it necessary to tell him. He looked toward Samuel, ”If you’ve never told anyone…Why tell me? Why did you find it necessary to tell me that you were engaged?” Micha asked curiously as he watched Samuel as he waited for some sort of answer."
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Posted: Tue Apr 30, 2013 8:40 pm
Sɑɱυεƪ ᴊᴏᵴҥʋᴀ Ɖɑᴠіʂ
“Relationships are ropes. Love is a noose."
Funny thing about relationships, even if a person claimed that they wanted nothing to do with a relationship, they would still have one. Just because you choose not to add a title to it, your actions will always speak louder than your words. Just the act of admitting he like the male alone and receiving that same liking back was proof they were more than a simple bartender and customer. Samuel frowned as the male spoke, still failing to see he was a liar. Liars told lies, he had said nothing about his engagement. Micha never asked if he was involved with anyone else he merely assumed he was single or at least making time for him. So who was really at fault here? The man who sleeps around without a care of his prior engagements? Or the man who takes things at face value and can't ask the right questions? Samuel didn't care if their conversation went sour, it already was. How much worse could it possibly get? If Micha wanted to lock him out, fine. If he smashed his car he had another. If he damaged his club he could keep him off his property. If Samuel wanted he could cut all ties from him here and now. It was that simple.
After calling the male an idiot, he found it odd to be thanked for it. He said nothing and merely listened to him go on before stepping up to him to step then walking away. He pondered the males words. Even though he was aware nothing could come of this was it wrong of him to think of wanting more? He was human after all. Humans were greedy. Even when they had everything they needed to survive they were still forever wanting more. Was Samuel really no different than wanting to see just where he could take things with Micha? Was he wrong to see if there could be more than just blowjobs and headaches? If so than maybe he was a fool.
He continued on down the street, walking fast, but slow enough that Micha could easily catch up to him. He glanced back at the male as he was soon not too far behind him, sighed as he asked another question. "Simple, they never asked and you wanted to know three secrets. I gave the first three secrets I could think of." he replied honestly. Samuel knew it wasn't the answer the male wanted, but there was no other answer to give. If you thought about at times Samuel was a bit like the old way of the military, "don't ask, don't tell". No one ever asked if he was ever involved with another. It wasn't really a thing that was ever thought of when things were going hot and heavy. And afterwards it was pretty much assumed he was single and more focused on what happened with his previous relationships and why they went wrong. Most people don't like hearing about others dirty laundry so they tend to not want to hear to the part were things would get messy and problems arose. Those were all unrelated to his engagement and more to his work schedule, cold attitude, and how he was this, that and the other. Micha asked for secrets, he gave them. He didn't say what kind of secrets they had to be, just three. He gave him three.
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Posted: Tue Apr 30, 2013 10:18 pm
"Micha was content with just seeing where things with Samuel. He knew it seemed odd now to know he was with a man who was engaged. Micha just couldn't see logic anymore in it. He knew Samuel didn’t want to be married. Micha didn’t know what he wanted at the moment. He wanted things to be the way they once were but now that things were out in the open it was kind of hard to go back. Micha wasn’t mad at Samuel enough to block him out of his life nor was he mad enough to resort to violence. He followed after Samuel who walked ahead of him. Micha wondered if Samuel would answer his question. He heard Samuel speak and nodded simply. True he asked for three secrets and the last one was Samuel’s biggest secret of them all. Micha sighed, ”Fair enough.” He spoke as he kept a steady pace behind Samuel. Micha didn’t want to talk about it anymore. He just wanted to ignore it for now. "
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Posted: Tue Apr 30, 2013 10:45 pm
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Posted: Tue Apr 30, 2013 11:28 pm
"It was Samuel’s fault that he was mad but he was getting over it. Micha knew it wasn’t Samuel’s fault. He had to open his mouth and request something of Samuel in return. Micha walked slowly beside Samuel without a care really. He wasn’t in the mood to please Samuel. Micha walked around the corner as he followed after Samuel. He could care less if they got weird looks from people. Micha probably looked like a lost puppy dog walking after Samuel. He almost ran into Samuel when he stopped and turned toward him. Micha looked up at Samuel when he demanded his hand. He sighed as he gave Samuel his hand before he started walking again. Micha held onto it as he walked beside Samuel as they continued down the block. He looked toward Samuel as he held onto his hand. Micha glanced away as he kept a moderate pace beside Samuel. ”Did you still want to go to TCBY?” He asked softly toward Samuel. Micha wasn’t sure if Samuel still wanted to go or if he just wanted to return to his studio."
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Posted: Tue Apr 30, 2013 11:57 pm
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Posted: Wed May 01, 2013 12:26 am
"As Micha held onto Samuel’s hand, he felt Samuel squeeze it. He walked with Samuel as Samuel laced their fingers again. Micha wasn’t that pissed he would ignore Samuel. He was mad sure, but he would get over it soon enough. Micha was like that pissed one minute then fine the next. He walked beside Samuel as he waited for an answer. Micha didn’t want to sit in silence or have bitterness between them. He nodded as Samuel spoke, ”I’d like to.” Micha spoke as he watched Samuel. He still wanted to be around Samuel even if things were bad at the moment. "
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Posted: Wed May 01, 2013 12:54 am
Sɑɱυεƪ ᴊᴏᵴҥʋᴀ Ɖɑᴠіʂ
“Relationships are ropes. Love is a noose."
As they walked along hand-in-hand Samuel was slowly started to feel a bit better. But his attitude wasn't totally gone, not yet anyway. He wanted to get over it quickly but that wasn't likely to happen. Though he teased Micha for his attitude, the true was his own could change just as quickly and be just as stubborn. Walking further down the street, he heard the male reply, smiling a bit down at him. "Alright then c'mon." TCBY wasn't too far from where they were. In fact it was just a little ways up the next block. With a little more stride in his step, Samuel lead the male towards the shop. He walk too fast, he wasn't in any rush, but it was faster than their previous snail's pace. When they reached the shop, he smiled pleasantly as he went inside and headed towards the counter, answering the cashier's greeting. He looked over the menu a bit figuring he'd just get something simple like a waffle cone. Letting go of the males' hand for the moment, he went to look over the different flavored ice creams, soon finding a flavor that he liked. He soon came back to Micha, coming up behind him and hugging him from behind. "You know what you want?" he asked, resting his chin on top of the males' head.
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Posted: Wed May 01, 2013 1:28 am
"It didn’t take long to get to the ice cream as Samuel led the way. Micha held onto Samuel’s hand as he walked into the building. He looked around the shop as they were greeted by the man behind the counter. Micha nodded simply to the man’s greeting. He felt Samuel release his hand as they walked toward the counter. Micha looked over the different flavors of ice cream not sure which one he wanted. He peered down behind the counter at the different flavors when he felt Samuel behind him. Micha leaned back against him lightly as Samuel’s hands slipped around him. He shrugged a little, ”Probably vanilla with Reese’s cups in a waffle cone.” Micha spoke as he felt Samuel’s chin atop his own head. He looked up at Samuel, ”You?” Micha asked as he slipped a hand over Samuel’s hands that were holding onto him. "
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Posted: Wed May 01, 2013 4:10 pm
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Posted: Wed May 01, 2013 4:47 pm
"Micha didn’t mind what people thought either about Samuel and him showing each other affection. He was content leaning against Samuel as Samuel held onto him. Micha looked up at Samuel as he listened to him. He nodded a little at the thought though it seemed too rich to him. Micha looked back toward the ice cream flavors as he felt Samuel hold onto his hand. He nodded as Samuel spoke, ”Yeah.” Micha spoke as he turned his attention toward the male behind the counter who was waiting for their order. ”Can I vanilla ice cream with Reese’s Cups in a waffle cone?” He spoke as the male nodded and went about making his order. Micha stood watching as he waited for his order. Once it was finished he took it, thanking the male as he licked his ice cream while he waited for Samuel to give his order. "
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Posted: Wed May 01, 2013 5:16 pm
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Posted: Wed May 01, 2013 8:36 pm
"Micha licked his ice cream as he stood waiting. He watched as the male made up Samuel’s ice cream. Once the man was finished, he felt Samuel release him. Micha pulled away as he waited for Samuel to pay for their order. He bit off a piece of the waffle cone as he stood aside. As Samuel finished, Micha felt Samuel take his hand again. He held onto it as he followed Samuel out of the building. Micha licked his ice cream silently as he enjoyed it. He looked toward Samuel as he spoke toward him. Micha shrugged lightly, ”We can sit if you want.” He said looking toward a small table with chairs. Micha walked toward it releasing Samuel’s hand. He pulled a chair out as he took a seat. Micha relaxed not minding if they took a seat while they enjoyed their ice cream. He continued to eat his ice cream as he sat there."
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