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Alright I gotta b***h someplace and I might as well do it here! scream

This fackin' girl will not leave me alone! She stalks my a**, copies everything I do, tries harassing me, shows up everywhere online that I go. Everytime I do something, she does it. I sign up for an account someplace, so does she. I post about something in my LJ, SHE DOES TOO! She is a psycho! And she has a small army of minions who all hate me because SHE TELLS THEM TOO! She claims I'm sooo fake. She says I'm self absorbed, greedy, am a terrible mother, and selfish, blah blah fackin' blah! I AM NOT! I'm the most honest person I've ever known of. I take very good care of my son. Better care than my mother ever took of me. If I was so fackin' egocentric I wouldn't be taking antidepressants for my low self asteem, anxiety and depression. I would of spend years in therapy because I hate myself so much. Why wont she leave me alone!?! It's been 3 years! Three years I've had to put up with this girl. Everywhere I turn, she's there. I can not friggin get away from her. I've tried confronting her, running from her, hiding from her, EVERYTHING! I wish she'd just.... stop existing! Or at least stop caring so much about me that she has to try to annoy me all the time. I wish she'd just forget that I exist. I forgot that she existed for a while... but no no no, she couldn't have that so she had to show up and have her friend hack into all my accounts (That was a few months back). GAH!... She's everywhere, I swear. I'm so tempted to delete every internet account of mine and start all new accounts so she can't find my a**.


*sigh*... Ok I'm done... I feel better now...

*wonders if stalkergirl is single since she is like mcg*
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J/K of course. First of all, I am shocked to hear of your esteme issues since to me, you have always been one of the coolest people I know. Second, if I could, I'd personaly take care of her so you'd never be bothered again. Third, well, I wish there was more I could say that would actually be meaningful sweatdrop

I know that it should be almost flattering in a sence that she wants to be more like you but I have never understood how come people feel fulfilled in some way by slandering other people. Just because I know of your caring nature, I am certain you are an excellent mother. You have never talked bad of your owner (lucky bastiche) or your son. OR anyone else for that matter unless they really deserved it.

Fighting on the internet is like winning in the special olympics people. Even if you win, yada yada yada....
(last part not directed at mcg)

I know a great excersize routine. 3nodding

I'm never happy with myself either. So I know how devasting the feeling is. *Holds close*

You're such a beautiful, sweet, wonderful person. You shouldn't have to feel so badly. You need to talk to your boyfriend. He's in the best position to listen, to care, to understand, and to help you through it all by reminding you of how amazing you really are. And doesn't not telling him, even while trying not to ruin an evening for him, make you feel worse? He wouldn't want you to do that to yourself when you could share your hurt with him and maybe he can help you figure out how to be happy with yourself.

I hope you talk to him and he does what I'd do, everything in his power to make you feel better. heart

He wants to be there for you, Ny-heart. Tell him you need that hug. He'd be more than happy to give it. I'm just like you. When I'm hurting the most, people know the least about it. And only someone who can hear my voice or see my face and knows me will know something is wrong. But I feel guilty sharing my pain because I don't want to disturb anyone or bring them down or make them worry. But someone like that who cares enough to let you call on them anytime is wonderful. And I'm sure you would do the same for someone you loved if you could and they needed it. So even if you don't want to call him in the middle of the night, take comfort from his offer, and talk to him when you see him next, get that huge hug, and try to let it all melt away for at least a little bit.

Exams are stressful. But the happiness of Ny is of the utmost importance. 3nodding

Depression often relapses like that. I know. He can't be really happy knowing something is eating at you all the time. He'd be happier, I think, if you opened up about it and gave him the chance to do something to help. I think the only thing friends and loved ones hate more than seeing someone they care about unhappy, is feeling helpless to do anything about it. I would tell him that, yes, you're unhappy and things are bothering you and that you'd like to talk and more than anything just be comforted by his presence, but that you don't want to upset him or worry him and want him to be happy even when you are not. And then let the decision be his about whether he thinks he'd be happier knowing something is wrong but having you shut him out or happier helping you get through it. *Hugs tight and never lets go*

That sounds like a good plan. I don't think he'll be mad if you tell him you were trying to spare him. I'm sure he'll appreciate the thought even if he thinks it was wrong to keep it from him. He'll understand. It'll be all right, love. heart

i feel so useless at times like this

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