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 Posted: Mon Sep 14, 2009 12:48 pm
I was shaking. I closed my eyes trying no to cry. I wrapped my arms around my chest. As hard as I tried water leaked from the corner of my eyes. I wanted to jump on Rose and hug her and tell her everything was goingto be okay but I couldn't make myself move.
'It was my fault! My fault again!' I was shaking even harder now. 'Everything is my fault! My parents dying, my grandfather having a heart attack, Rose not feeling wanted! It was all my fault!'
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Posted: Mon Sep 14, 2009 1:48 pm
Kei grabbed my arm to... 'protect' me I think. I don't know. It's a giant panther, I don't get what's so scary.
I must have voiced this out loud for Kei looked at me like I was insane. I smiled at him. There was nothing wrong with me. I think that the idea of a giant panther is awesome.
What worried me was Kuragari, when I pointed this out (and making comments about her new wounds) Kei suddenly tried to leap foward to get her out of the panther's path. I stopped him
"Let me go! That's my sister over there!"
"Yes, and your sister is choosing to tand there!"
"She's probably scared!"
"Don't underestimate her. Kuragari's strong. I may not like you, but I'm not completely stupid either."
Kei calmed down. Shirokey and Kuroboshi were obviously painfully aware of the pain 'they' caused. I all honesty, we all plays a part in Rose's downfall.
Yep, I'm just so understanding. See why I'm a teacher?
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Posted: Mon Sep 14, 2009 2:00 pm
I balled my hands into fists. Rose... why? I could feel eyes on me. Only one person had seen me when I was REALLY mad. That was Kuroboshi after the insident with Kuragari's sister.
'This is not you fault! This is not your fault!' My head screamed at me.
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Posted: Mon Sep 14, 2009 4:50 pm
My wounds, new and old, bled profusely. I was growing lightheaded very quickly, my sighting already blurred. Tear from the pain threatened to spill, but I blinked them back. I am stronger than that. I know I'll be fine, I don't need to give up like the Third Alice.
Alice of Human Sacrifice was a song Kei likes. It really is beautiful, but the words are a bit... creepy...
I bit back a scream that was ready to burst from my mouth. I could bare this pain, it was nothing... right?
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Posted: Mon Sep 14, 2009 5:08 pm
Don't focus on that! Get everyone out of here! I looked at Rose then grabbed Kuragari by the arm and pulled her over into the tress where I pretty much shoved her into the bushes. I really didn't care. I would later but at the moment I just felt numb, the slashes on my arms didn't matter, I could feel no pain. As I came back out I was lashed in the face just under my eye. It was a deep wound but it really didn't matter I deserved it. I ruin every ones life I touch. I was going to stop Rose then leave... for good.
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Posted: Mon Sep 14, 2009 5:26 pm
I bit back another scream as my body hit the unforgiving ground, biting my bit so that it bled.
My eyes dialated for a second, turning into a slit but reverted back quickly. Why was Aisu so upset? Did she blame herself? I hope not. She's done so many good things...
Everyone has. I glanced at Hitsugaya and Ichigo (once again, don't question how I know his name), those two were strong pair. Rose was strong, I think I saw something to do with wrestling with her in it. Aisu helped me out, giving me one of the first friends I've every had. Really, I only had Kei and Kira until now. Since now, I have Kaito, Aisu, Shirokey ( heart (Thank goodness Kei can't hear my inner dialogue) Kuroboshi, Ichigo, and probably even Rose, but people usually don't see their faults... or they only see their faults. Human aren't perfect, we never were. Aisu's older than me, she should know that by now... I think. Maybe I'm being judgmental...
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Posted: Mon Sep 14, 2009 5:35 pm
I stood in front of Rose. I knelt down just in front of her and she looked up and glared at me. I sucked in a deep breath and exhaled down on my hands.
"If I leave will that make the pain go away?" I whispered in her ear. Her breath caught. I nodded. "All right." I smiled at her. "It's settled. Tell them I said goodbye." I took her hand and squeezed it before getting up and walking into the park. As soon as I was out of site I started to run. I was excellent at running, no one had ever beet me.
I ignored the longing in my chest and pushed on as far away from the Mews as possible.
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Posted: Mon Sep 14, 2009 5:42 pm
Aisu ran away, I didn't understand, but I guess she really did blame herself. Damn bushes, I wish I could move. "Ohohoho, look who we have here..." I froze up at the sinister, mature voice and turned my head... and scream.
Ume narrowed her eyes and clamped her hand over my mouth. I suddenly couldn't breathe and passed out
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Kei heard his sister scream and scurried to the bush where she lay. He was shocked. All that was left of her was a puddle of blood. "Kuragari.... KURAGARI!"
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Posted: Mon Sep 14, 2009 6:00 pm
I shook. There was something wrong. Someone was hurt. Ichigo is never hurt, Rose was fine if not stunned... that left Kuragari. I forced my body not to turn around, not to go back to where I promised Rose I would stay away from. I could feel warm blood streaming down my face and a light rain had started to fall but I could barely feel anything beyond the humming of in my ears and the numbness of my body.
Doll... that's what I was.
"She's as fragile as a doll." I had heard the doctor say to my grandparents. "Her mental sanity is not one hundred percent and she seems to feel no pain. She has bruises from the x-rays and from the IV." The doctors voice dropped even lower. "She will not eat either. Her heart beet is slower then normal but her vital signs are good." The doctors voice almost seemed pleading. "Is there anything you can do to make her eat? If she doesn't eat anything soon then she may not make it through the night." I stared at the ceiling. I really didn't care if I died. There was nothing left for me.
Doll, doll, doll... I was like a doll. Smiling all the time trying to making people happy and keep myself away from the truth... I don't have a soul anymore. The real Aisu died along with my parents. The real Aisu would be bouncing in the cafe making cake and joking to Kuragari about Shirokey. The real Aisu would be flirting with Michio.
The real Aisu, the real Aisu, the real Aisu!!! I wish I was her!
I clutched the bell on my collar to my throat. I was right around the block from Kei, Kira and Kuragari's place so I circled. I pulled the collar from my neck dropping through the mail slot. I pulled a pencil from my pocket and wrote;
"I love you all but whenever I'm around pain seems to be the dominant emotion. I'm sorry for causing you pain and I hope that you can forgive me. Please take care of yourself. Kuragari please keep the collar to show how sorry I am that I had to run out so early in our friendship.
I love you all, goodbye,
Aisu Mikomi." I slid it through the mail slot with the collar and started to run again. I ran away from Tokyo, away from everything I had ever known and loved. I hoped that now they could live without pain.
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Posted: Mon Sep 14, 2009 6:09 pm
"You ******** b*****d!" Kei yelled at Kuroboshi through the rain. "My sister aand Aisu are both missing and what do you say? 'We continue the Mew project. Those two have left of their own free will, that's their choice!? What the heck's wrong with you?" Kaito was huddled in a corner with Kira tring to comfort him. Kei never swore unless it was something serious. Rose had (sort of) calmed down but still seemed pretty tense, Ichigo was in deep conversation with Hitsugaya (Kuragari told Kei) and Shirokey was trying to calm down Kei, who was attacking Kuroboshi. "She's my only family left! I wont have anyone else."
"Well than you don't know my story."
"She's my twin and I can't feel her living presence!" with that yell, the whole cafe seemed quite.
"Living... presence?" Shirokey whispered fearfully to no one.
"Yes, her living presence. Kuragari is the only I cared about and I to her, and since we're twins, our bond made us almost the same person. I even know her inner dialogues! I always know where she is, what she's doing, if she's okay, but I can't feel anything! The only explanation is that she's severely injured or that she's... she's...."
"Dead" Kuroboshi finished.
"And we have to find Aisu! She's probably hurt emotionally!"
"And how would you know that?" Ichigo demanded. Rose looked down, having not telling them what Aisu had said.
"....I don't know."
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Posted: Mon Sep 14, 2009 6:20 pm
Nurutomachi. My breathing was shallow my pupils dilated. I was sure at that moment I looked more cat then human. Nurutomachi was my home town... the place where I had killed my parents. The place where I was born. The place that I loved with all my heart... so that must be the reason that no one was around and it seemed like a ghost town. I ran towards the town hall... or what was left of the crumbling old building.
I want to die. The words seemed to swim through my head. I want to die. I was moving again but the only thing I could see was the look on my parents faces right before I killed them. Peace, happiness, love. All the emotions I want to have... all the emotions that killed me.
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Posted: Mon Sep 14, 2009 6:24 pm
I couldn't feel myself, only pain was in every inch of my body, it hurt... Where was everyone...?
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Kira comforted her friend. He suddenly grabbed her wrist and pulled her close while she noticed something on his wrist. "Kira... I believe that the two will come back. Either on their own accord or with our help." The laidback Kaito was serious. It was sort of eerily. "Just believe in them, okay?" he said, smiling sweetly, and it was contagious, because Kira smiled too.
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Posted: Mon Sep 14, 2009 6:59 pm
I stood at the edge of the road watching the traffic speed through. With each car my chest got tighter and tighter until I couldn't breath. I pulled the collar of my shirt over my nose and turned around to look down at the river at the bottom where you could still see a car part or two on the rivers edge. I held my breath and climbed down the embankment.
"Honey, you should eat." My grandmother swept my hair from my face. I just looked up at her. She seemed disturbed by the look on my face. "Please? I really want Aisu to return." Aisu... to... return? I... went somewhere? "It would mean so much to me and your grandfather." I looked over at the wall. I wasn't hungry, not at all but I can't let them frown. I nodded. Grandma gave me a hug and smiled.I tried to smile back but the smile on her face flickered so I just looked at the wall again. She was unhappy that I smiled? Why? My chest throbbed.
"It's alright, Aisu." One of the nurses was rubbing my back as I leaned over the toilet. This is what I get for eating. I had been sick for the last half hour. Holding anything down was futile. I leaned back from the bowl and looked down at my hands. The crisscross scars from the accident marked my sin.
"What did the doctor mean by doll?" I kept my eyes down.
"Your..." she had to stop to think. "very fragile. We understand the pain your in. Can you move?" Her changing the subject.
"Am I Aisu?" I looked out the window at the black sky watching the angry clouds circle.
"Y-es of course." She seemed to be thrown by my question. "W-why would you ask?"
"Because whenever someone I know looks at me, I can see it in their eyes. They don't know me, it's... it's like their looking at a stranger." I shook my head. "Never mind. Can you help me?" I looked at her. "I can't move my legs. She smiled a little and picked my up cradling me. I was a sleep before I was on the bed.
I stood there looking at the river. Take me to!
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Posted: Mon Sep 14, 2009 7:35 pm
Ichigo got to were Aisu was fast. Ichigo was sitting at the riverbank near were Aisu was standing. "what are u planning to do?" as Ichigo said while Aisu was just about to jump off. "if ur gonna jump off so soon wouldnt Michio be sad? after all he looks like he likes u. also wouldnt u be letting many other ppl down too" '*Aisu's thoughts* thats right Michio. I havent seen him much lately but i still do like him. and being a mew mew to means saving the earth. i forgot. "ur right i shouldnt do all this because i have a job to do! I AM A MEW MEW!"Aisu yelled. "heh so just because of the a few scratches from Rose doesnt mean the whole world ended. she just didnt feel appreciated much. also she has been practicing a lot lately. I've seen her practice outside her apartments were no body can see her. and i can tell she has been working hard. we all have."....Aisu was quiet and then Ichigo spoke."also she said that she learned a new way to use it and we didnt. well i have to but dont say anything about it to any one else." Aisu nodded and sat next to Ichigo. "so what did u learn?" Ichigo held out her hand and flames were around it for a second and then her flower appeared." u see all 5 of the petals here right? well each one has a different power. if i pull one off it would giveme a different outfit that changes as I pull of the petal. and when i pull off a petal it wont come back until i change back into my regular form. it also has a yellowish orangish ribbon appear where the petal was. the first one changes my outfit into a kimono and has a power of a sheild in a fan. the second one has a bloody bat outfit with a demonic bow. the third petal is an outfit which is all black with a little bit of white lace with two thin swords. the fourth petal is mostly red and black and has a ceptor with a long bow on her back. but i dont really know what the fifth one is because my heart was telling me not to pull it off until bad things would happen. u know i could help u with ur sword if i can see it and see if there will be anything else special. k" Aisu was amazed." how could u learn to do all of that in such short time!?!"
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Posted: Tue Sep 15, 2009 1:01 pm
Humoring Ichigo I sat down and pretended to be amazed at her new attack. I was good at that. Making people happy. I smiled and pretended to enjoy myself.
"So you coming back now?" She asked looking at me.
"Um... well there's something I need to do here." I lied. "It may take a while." She just looked at me nodded and left.
I just sat there. I was gonna miss her in a weird sorta Ichigo way. I wonder where I go from here? I stood up and headed for the town hall. I knew that there would be no more visitors.
"So that's my story." I looked down at the scars on my hands. Kuroboshi hadn't said a single word since I started. I peeked over at him.
"So that the reason you ran?" He looked at me. It was nice... weird way.
"Yes. Can you make me a promise?" I looked at him.
"What is it?"
"Just promise." I looked at him.
"I promise." I nodded.
"The next time that I run... don't chase me." I looked down at my hands then back at him. He looked kinda confused. "I don't want to hurt you or anyone." I peeked up at him. He still looked confused. "Hurting everyone just seems to be something I'm good at." I smiled at the horizon.
"I promise." I looked over sharply at him. "On one condition." I looked suspiciously at him.
"Okay. Condition excepted." I looked at him.
"You can't just leave without telling someone." I nodded.
I didn't break my promise so that's why I had absolute faith that I will be able stop their pain.
"Hey miss!" I turned to see someone running up behind me. She was about 20 with brown eyes and black hair very plain. "You shouldn't be out here this late." She grabbed my arm. She seemed to be upset about the cuts on my face. "You can stay at my house tonight." She pulled my towards her house.
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