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 Posted: Sun Apr 09, 2006 11:09 pm
Val whipped around. "Don't... you have no idea what you ask," he hissed, a wild look in his eyes. "I'm not hiding from myself. I'll just go back into seclusion where no one else can get hurt." He tugged back with his metal arm, glaring at Vlad, more to make a point than to try to get free. He was not trying to anger the coon.
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Posted: Sun Apr 09, 2006 11:15 pm
The coon held tight to Val's arm, not letting go. He was serious, and his crimson eyes showed it. He wanted Val to be open with him, it was the least he could do. "Show me Val...I know what I'm asking...if you really are a monster...show me...let yourself be free...please..." He sighed, releasing the other's arm for a moment, lifting his claws to the other eye level. "If it is the monster you fear....at least...yours is not you...blood does not stain your hands....but the hands of this...monster..." The blood on Vlads claws showed the angel a different story.
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Posted: Sun Apr 09, 2006 11:35 pm
"I was a killer before, and an instrument of wholesale slaughter after. I can't just change on a whim because I must become enraged first, or put in mortal danger. Then... I don't know what happens. Death. So much death... and I wake up later to see what I have done." The look of horror in his eyes faded slightly as he looked upon Vlad. "It is one thing to kill someone face to face, but I don't even see my victims until their blood has run cold. Do you really want me to show you that? Would you like it if I rampaged through this temple and murder everyone within it? What about Ramos? He would not be safe. I would have no control!" he spat the last, speaking each word as if it were its own sentence.
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Posted: Sun Apr 09, 2006 11:42 pm
Vlad stated, starring at Val. he was shaking, his heart feeling as if it had bursted. He pulled away, his heart ponding hard in his chest. "Val...I'm trying to understand you...I want to be your friend...I think, perhaps...we are the only ones that truely understand..." He ran his claws along the curtains, tearing large holes in them. "if you really cannot control when you kill...I understand...do not show me...but do not run away."
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Posted: Sun Apr 09, 2006 11:50 pm
The angel let out a ragged sigh of relief and nodded. Showing anybody was the last thing he wanted to do. He watched as Vlad tore at the curtains with his long claws. "Believe me, I wish it were not this way... but whatever they did changed my DNA. I can't change it anymore than I can change the fact that I have wings." He looked away. "It would be best if we remained...aquaintences. Nothing more."
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Posted: Mon Apr 10, 2006 12:01 am
"Not even friends then..." He sighed, leaning his head forward against the cold glass of the window. "It is the fate...for those like us I guess...forever alone...even with our own kind..." He looked over h is shoulder at Val. "We couldn't even try...one day...one hour...?" he sighed. He hated the fact he had become what he did, but how do you tell anyone you care about that you were a murderer?
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Posted: Mon Apr 10, 2006 12:14 am
"I don't think you should lower yourself to my level. I'm used to living alone, but you've raised a brother. That should count as something, right?" He sighed. "But what do you want me to do, pretend I'm normal for you? I just got done trying to do that. I was hoping things would last, but trust me it doesn't work. I thought I had finally found someone who could love me, all of me... as soon as he found out I knew it was over. I wasn't going to tell you..." he added softly.
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Posted: Mon Apr 10, 2006 12:22 am
"How can you keep such a thing a secret, Val? You cannot feel for anyone because you hide yourself away. If you truely care for someone do you not warn them?" He sighed and turned to face the angel. "Ramos likes you Val...and...I like you...if you are a danger to us, so be it, but we will andle that if it ever becomes a problem...Ramos has not opened up to many... be he loves you...would you hide from us? Rob us of your friendship?" He sighed, reaching out a hand, placing it lightly on the Angel's shoulder.
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Posted: Mon Apr 10, 2006 12:46 am
Valentino's shoulders slumped. "If it were you, would you want everyone to know? Would you knowingly put people you care about in danger - a danger you can neither predict nor control? Or, if you knew that you could, would you extract that threat to their safety?" He turned back to Vlad, eyes narrowing. "You spoke earlier of how Ramos sometimes doesn't trust you because you are a killer. What do you think he will think when he finds out about me?"
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Posted: Mon Apr 10, 2006 12:52 am
"He doesn't need to know...Val..." He sighed and shook his head. "He needs friends, you said so, how will he feel if you come into his life than leave it?" He felt his stomach lurch, his heart hurt. "Val...What can I do...? tell me?"
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Posted: Mon Apr 10, 2006 1:21 am
"I...I honestly don't know. I feel like I don't know anything. That everything I've reached out for was beyond my grasp; kinda funny for someone who can fly. I thought I knew what I wanted, but when I was with Nyoko, I was too busy trying to be normal. Before, I was consumed with the desire to be normal, or close to it. Now... now I know I can't." He sighed and shook his head. "But I'm good at pretending, aren't I. I can fool everyone, and I have. So I'll help find friends for Ramos, I won't go back on my word. But I don't want to bring you down with me," he said softly, reaching up to touch the side of Vlad's face with his hand before kissing him on the lips. "It wouldn't be fair to you."
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Posted: Mon Apr 10, 2006 1:37 am
The coon was startled. His heart lept into his throat at the kiss, his eyes closing, his head spinning, he had just begang to kiss the other back when he pulled away to speak. The coon opened his eyes and stared at the angel. "Val...you salvation...or my damnation...either way...I want us to go through this...with eachother." He nodded. He had to swallow his heart down before he could speak again. "If you....are scared...it's ok..I am too."
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Posted: Mon Apr 10, 2006 1:59 am
Heart racing, Val began to curse himself for kissing the other. Listening to Vlad's words though, he waited, wondered if possibly this was not the coons hormones speaking. But he knew otherwise. Just as he knew that while Ny had tried to promise the same, he was too young, and while his stubbornness was strong his experience was severely lacking. There were just too many things that would never have worked. But even since the first time he had seen Vlad, not today but a long time ago, he had felt ... something. A kinship. He doubted the coon even remembered.
After looking into Vlad's eyes searchingly for several moments and seeing the truth of what he said in there, Val nodded and reached up to embrace him. He grabbed the coon tightly around back below his neck, digging in with his fingers, though his claws remained in a fist that he hoped would do no harm. His face twisted in pain as decades worth of tears spilled hotly down his cheeks to stain the coon's shirt at the shoulder.
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Posted: Mon Apr 10, 2006 1:28 pm
The change of emotion that ran across the angel's face startled the coon. His crimson eyes searching for the source of the change. The angel was hurting, he could see it. He held him close as he began to cry, the coon pale hair , brushing lightly against Val's cheek. He had been a comfort for Ramos before, this was different, this was real pain. He ran his clawed fingers down Val's back, touching those darkened wings.
To speak would be pointless now, his actions had to speak his words for him. He would not leave this angel to his teras, he would not leave him alone. He was true to his words, come salvation or damnation, they would live through it together.
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Posted: Mon Apr 10, 2006 5:47 pm
Val found himself finally relax though as tendrils of light hair tickled his face a wing-ear flicked reflexively. Fingers slid up to cradle the back of the coon's neck, lips gently brushing Vlad's throat as he pulled back and let go. "I'm sorry..." he muttered as he stepped backward and wiped tears from his face, "but um... if you ever need a shoulder to cry on, I'll be there," he grinned ruefully, looking back at the coon.
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