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Picking Up Stars Vice Captain
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 Posted: Sat Jun 07, 2008 9:56 pm
She found it best to count her blessings at a time like this since doing anything else was just about certain to send her into a fit of temper. He wasn't giving her the silent treatment which was a very good thing. Then again, he usually only saved that for times when she did something inordinately stupid and nearly got herself killed for it. If only he knew...
"I do wish and I am sorry. Sorry I jumped to conclusions about your reasons before asking you and sorry that I let you suffer for the past week and wouldn't let you near your children. I know how I've been behaving and I know it's got to stop." Lounging in the doorway was beginning to hurt her shoulder so she walked in and perched on the arm of the sofa. "I want to understand, Sevilin, but I still don't. Did you feel you needed to prove something to yourself? Or was it just a loose end that has been bothering you ever since the girls went back?" Shaking her head and then reaching out and resting a hand lightly on his arm. "I miss them too."
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Posted: Sun Jun 08, 2008 3:23 pm
He was happy that she at least knew why he was angry at her and what she needed to apologize for. The things that she knew would hurt him the most and she had been doing out of spite. Honestly he couldn't blame her too much down could he? He deserved it all in some part or at least he thought so. As she came over and sat with a tenative touch he got his elbows underhimself and sat up some, at least to be soemwhat comfortable. "I don't expect you too. Since when has anyone been able to understand the way my head works?" Shifting lightly for some comfort. "I was just tired of shadows, and I know how they work." Shaking his head lightly, "The girls leaving I just made me think harder on it."
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Fractured Moonlight Captain
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Picking Up Stars Vice Captain
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Posted: Sun Jun 08, 2008 6:18 pm
She studied his face closely, reacquainting herself with all the planes and angles that made up her husband. She'd missed him for the last week whether she was willing to admit it out loud or not. And she couldn't' live without him, no matter how mad at him she got. Her recent bout of almost catastrophes had taught her that. "But I want to. I've always been able to understand at least part of your actions before. Like I know you seduced me to keep me from being aware enough to know what you were doing. You slammed bonds shut on me so I couldn't find you..." That had driven her absolutely crazy.
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Posted: Sun Jun 08, 2008 6:33 pm
A raise of one finger that indicated that she should be quiet right now and that he was about to make a very important point. "I did not seduce you to keep you unaware of things. Let's just get the straight now. And I didn't want you coming after me...if she knew that you existed and she got the better od me then she would of turned her attention to you and our children. I couldn't run the risk." Shaking his head. "It's a simply assassin's practice...you take out what is deemed to hold things together. Without Marrkellyn, things fall apart. Even if she was drawn away for but a time it would have set things in motion."
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Fractured Moonlight Captain
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Picking Up Stars Vice Captain
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Posted: Sun Jun 08, 2008 7:32 pm
That made her feel slightly better. It was nice to know that the mind-blowing sex hadn't been just a means to an end for him. "But you devoted yourself to it wholeheartedly. You used everything I loved, everything that would make me burn and brought me to heights that..." Well, did they really need to go into that much detail. "You loved me like it might be your last time to." The truth hit her and she felt awful for ever thinking anything else, her face draining of color and her eyes softening the way they'd been when he'd been doing said act.
"Even then you didn't know how it was all going to pan out. There was always a chance that you might..." She couldn't bring herself to say the word but it hurt and only made her behavior since that much worse. "I'm sorry...truly sorry. I jumped to conclusions and caused more problems than I should have. But now she's dead and the other girl is as well. Does that mean that our girls are safe regardless? What if Mahlari catches wind of their last name?"
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Posted: Sun Jun 08, 2008 8:23 pm
Her sudden silence meant that she had just gotten the point and was realizing the mistake she had made in accusing him of using it for the sole purpose of making her uncaring to what he did afterward and went to 'work'. "You know me, I always consider both sides. I didn't intent to go to Marrkellyn and put my tail between my legs at her first word. But I didn't want to make myself too cocky by thinking things were over before they begun."
Reaching over her rested a hand comfortingly on hers as she was still apologizing as she continued to make connections in her head. "And without her, the other four will fight amongst themselves. Eventually they'll all do each other in." Shaking his head lightly. "Mahlari won't know unless she heard it herself. Everything else goes through Kahiver...or Telisha but her sister wouldn't tell her. They struggle for power after all. Khaiver won't do himself in...and I told Malik that if such a thing got out in the first place, I would be hurting him with extreme prejudiced."
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Fractured Moonlight Captain
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Picking Up Stars Vice Captain
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Posted: Sun Jun 08, 2008 8:33 pm
She'd been so very wrong. Flinching at that first contact as if she expected something vastly different, it seemed to break a barrier between them and the next thing she knew she was curled up in his lap reminiscent of the times when he would punish her with nothing more than his silence and disappointment. "Then you're forgiven. When I thought it was for the other reason, I felt betrayed that you would take something so special and use it against me like that. Now, it makes more sense." She was relieved to know that her girls were safe which was basically what he was implying. "Good. As long as they both return home that's all I really want." Reaching up and resting her hands on his face running over his features one by one. "I've missed you."
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Posted: Sun Jun 08, 2008 8:41 pm
He was a tad surprised as she climbed into his lap and gave a little bit of a cringe at the bit of pain all the shifting brought but put it out of his mind for the moment and merely let her settle. He didn't understand it, but he was glad to feel pain again...not that the last week had been fun for it was no less than excruciating. "I would never do that...besides I was never raised to use such a things as a weapon anyway." Closing his eyes as she brought her fingers to his face and let them more or less explore. "I've missed everything in the last week. Though me and the couch now have even more hate for each other than before."
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Fractured Moonlight Captain
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Picking Up Stars Vice Captain
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Posted: Sun Jun 08, 2008 9:06 pm
She caught that cringe and every nuance of pain emanating off his body. He was stiff from holding himself in funny positions all week to alleviate pain and from sleeping on the couch. Resting her hands against his shoulders, she began to work the muscles there, gently relieving him of the pain in his neck. "That's why it was so devastating when I thought you had. It was a whole new side to you that I'd never seen before. And then this attempt at what I thought was revenge..." Shaking her head and dropping a kiss to the spot where his pulse beat against his throat. "I thought I was losing you...maybe permanently. But now it's really and truly over?"
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Posted: Sun Jun 08, 2008 9:23 pm
He felt his muscles immediately start to settle and loosen in response to her hands, getting rid of pain caused by his efforts to keep other pains at bay and making friends with a piece of furniture that never liked him in the first place. "Well...I hope it was a side you enjoyed before you thought badly. You may just see more of it." Tilting his head some from side to side to work muscles a little as her fingers continued before she took to affections. "Yes, now it is. You never have to think about things you'd rather not and I've finally found footholds."
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Fractured Moonlight Captain
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Picking Up Stars Vice Captain
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Posted: Sun Jun 08, 2008 10:03 pm
"Oh, I did. Very much so." Continuing her massage and frowning, "You could have slept in our bed, you know. I didn't but you could have." It had hurt far too badly for her to sleep in the bed where the betrayal that she'd thought occurred had taken place. Besides, she missed him. But it was so relieving to hear him tell her himself that everything he'd been battling had finally come to a head and he'd lanced it. Now it could heal and he could enjoy his life rather than looking into the past and falling into those shadowy places she hated. "I'm so proud of you, Sevilin. You did what you knew you had to do. I don't approve of your methods but then again, maybe I do. If I weren't so close to it myself I could probably tell you that you did everything exactly the way that I would have myself. I can't change the fact that I'm your wife and I'd much rather you be alive. But now Andal will no longer carry a threat to you and while you may never want to go back, you only have one family now. One that will never betray you and always love you." Frowning as another thought came to her. "What about your children?"
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Posted: Sun Jun 08, 2008 10:22 pm
"You weren't speaking to me, or letting me see the children...I hardly imagined you wanted me in the bedroom." Yup he had pretty much lived in the library for the past week. He smiled under her praise, maybe beaming much like a child under it. He was just glad to know that he had indeed done the right choices, once all the obscurities had been removed that is and she knew where he had been coming from and what he had done and hadn't done at the same time. "Now I can be old and less worrisome with however much time there is to have." Raising an eyebrow at her a moment as he translated through her question. "You mean the ones that I am responsible for but not at the same time." He sighed at that...he hated talking more or less about how his sisters loved to contract him out for a good price. "All of those were born under other House names...the one Marrkellyn brought with her seems to be the only one she allowed to be born and raised under the Inthara crest. I don't think you've too much to worry about, despite the animosity held to fathers. Most are never figured out." Like he to this day still didn't know his own...but he figured it was best that way.
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Fractured Moonlight Captain
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Picking Up Stars Vice Captain
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Posted: Mon Jun 09, 2008 1:09 pm
"I know how much the couch annoys you and causes you pain. I'm not completely heartless you know." Listening quietly as he explained; she'd more or less drawn the same conclusion and wasn't surprised. It did make her worry that some of his old fears might have strengthened in regards to his children. They'd discussed some things about their four before and it had scared her. "She was your daughter?" That was...interesting. Sure he'd mentioned it before but this time she was seriously paying attention. "Don't think bad on yourself for killing her, Sevilin. I know what you're thinking but you won't. Not ever. You love your own more than yourself and I know that." Nuzzling him and resting her head against his chest. "I trust you implicitly with my babies, you know that. Don't go doubting yourself."
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Posted: Mon Jun 09, 2008 3:07 pm
A light nod to her. "Apparently so. I remember her mother, but I never knew that Marrkellyn had decided to raise her actually inside the family." Shaking his head though. "I don't think badly of it...not now anyway. I hesitated at first, Zykariel even tried to stop me when I did hesitate...but she almost killed him then. It wasn't a choice of loyalty or possibility anymore, just my son." If he had really thought about it...he already knew that girl would be nothing like his own ever and there was going to be no reforming of her either. Not from under Marrkellyn's rearing. But she was right, he did entertain the thought of his ability to be able to kill his own beloved children if given the opportunity and motive. She was also right that he'd never do such a think and would rather kill himself first. Sighing lightly he raised a hand and brushed his hand through her hair as she rested her head against him. "I know." Nuzzling her hair lightly, happy to just be allowed to do just things again. "I think though, we need to worry about Zykariel right now, he needs to know that....there's no danger of us quitting on each other." Saying the last part carefully as if it was really a question that he wasn't sure of.
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Fractured Moonlight Captain
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Picking Up Stars Vice Captain
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Posted: Mon Jun 09, 2008 8:16 pm
She was worried about Zykariel, worried far more than she was willing to admit out loud. The truth was, he was withdrawing from them both and that upset her. He'd actually pushed her down the stairs and that could have been so much worse than it had actually been. She rubbed her elbow where her glove had torn and scraped her skin. Closing her eyes at the contact, she inhaled his scent and sighed softly. "Do you know why I treated you that way, Sevilin? This whole past week that I've avoided you and refused to let you near my children? It wasn't because I wanted to leave you or cut you out of my life. It was because I was so hurt and so angry that I couldn't let you think that everything was okay but I also love you so much that I couldn't bear to look at you when I was that emotional. I didn't want to say or do something that I'd later regret and I couldn't trust myself. But I will never leave you."
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