candee-addict
Dude, I did it again...
I thought you said them and you were making emo kid jokes.
...awkward
...sorry
^^ That's okay. I was actually talking about depressed people in general, myself included. I lack the social skills to be emo(depressing, I know) because I don't think I could ever bring myself to go up and just join any group of people, including emos. It's really hard to make friends when you're so afraid of people not wanting you to be around that the only way you end up hanging out with people is if they come to you.
sweatdrop And besides, I'm fat and have this ridiculously frizzy brown hair(not like movie characters that are supposed to have frizzy hair like Hermione from Harry Potter, but the real thing, as in I look like I've been struck by a bolt of lightening frizzy, and my friends have often described my hair for lack of a better word as "fluffy". I look absurd. ^^; ), and I'm very easily amused so I probably giggle too much, and I find it easier to go around and act generally cheerful and silly, so I think I would be shunned by most serious emo communities. I once asked my friends their opinions of what I'd be like if I dyed my hair black. They laughed. And laughed. And laughed. I think they laughed so hard they actually cried a little.
Regardless of my social skills(or lack there of) and my appearances, in middle school I kind of had a more closed off defensive attitude that people usually interpreted as hostility(and a lot of the time it was), and I acted somewhat like a trapped animal, snarling at them from a corner and treating them with suspicion and hostility if they got near. I was absolutely miserable, so once I switched to the school I'm in now and saw everyone was nice, I decided to be the more silly and generally cheerful acting person I am today and never looked back. ^_^ But I still battle with depression, which is less than fun, and I gripe a lot, which is why I said depressed people instead of emo people.
^^; Wow, sorry I took so long to get to my point, I ramble on for forever if nobody stops me, and on the internet people can't cut me off mid-sentence and make up some excuse to leave or change the subject, or the one that I consider the worst which is just start a conversation with the person next to them as if I weren't there(that one's a pet peeve of mine. It's incredibly rude and it hurts my feelings when instead of just telling me they don't care what I have to say and that my babble is boring them, they think it's okay to start talking to somebody else even though I was directly addressing them. It makes me feel like I'm not there, like I don't exist, like I don't matter at all, and not in a good way. It's mean and people who do it should have it done to them so they know how bad it hurts).
sweatdrop And I've managed to further prolong my already lengthy babble with a random rant. Sorry about that, I'm too ADD to say things clearly and concisely, I have to do it in a long boring roundabout way. ^^;
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