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 Posted: Thu Jun 24, 2010 8:46 pm
when Hatomi didn't get an answer he icked Rosuto u bridle style. "What the hell am I supposed to do? I feel so lost," He spoke only to where Rosuto could hear him. "Why?....why can't I help the ones I love....Why do I have to watch them hurt even if by my own hands? I don't want to see them hurt..." Hatomi could feel himself about to cry. He walked away from the school calmly and to the hospital nearby. For sure his father would hear about all of this. He knew it, but he didn't care. God by freedom, hello to his death penalty. Hatomi walked in and caught the eyes of one of the nurse. to be surprised it was the nurse that worked at the school. Did she work two jobs? He shook his head slightly and she could tell by the look on Hatomi's face that the boy needed help.
"This way Hatomi, I'll take care of him," She ushered him with Rosuto to a room where Hatomi placed him on the bed and he stood against the wall and out fo the way while the nurse tended to him. "Rosuto hun can you her me?" She asked trying to get a response.
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Posted: Thu Jun 24, 2010 9:20 pm
After hearing the familiar voice, Rosuto began to calm down. His memory was starting to return, and it was a relief. He wasn't sure how much longer he can last in his anxiety attack, but his relief was short-lived. It seemed that everything was still changed... and still strange. It had been something he had dreamed of for years, but it was now a nightmare. Why? Why was Hatomi mocking him? Weren't all those beatings and humiliations enough? Why couldn't he move on to a new punching bag?
All Rosuto could do at the moment was stay there, still trying to calm down. It seemed that his life had gotten so used to being bullied that he refused kindness from those that hurt him. The irony of it all was that the one who hurt him the most was the one he loved and dearly wanted kindness from. Now that Hatomi had changed, fear of another humiliation must have caused Rosuto to snap.
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Posted: Thu Jun 24, 2010 11:09 pm
It was like Hatomi knew it was his fault. Once again causing pain to someone he cared about. He didn't looked at anyone as he stepped out of the room, but the nurse noticed, "Hatomi! Please come back...."
"No....i'm only causing trouble again so it's best I leave," He sighed and looked at his hand.
"Don't you dare Hatomi....Don't you dare think that way," she said to him loud enough for even Rosuto to hear.
"Leave me alone....because alone seems to be the only thing I'm good for," He walked out the front doors and took off towards his house at full sprint, wanting to get away. Wanting to leave all he knew behind. He could always finish his courses online right. Keep out of trouble and away from his father. Not to mention to keep from hurting the people he cared about again, but this time remove himself from their presence. Once he got home he slamed the door behind him and slid down against it feeling the pent up emotions over the day take him. He could be strong and hold it back while outside these walls, but once hidden from others eyes he let them take him away. Bringing his knees to his chest he whispered softly, "What have I done?" His cat sat at his feet softly pawing at him. He picked her up and cradled her in his arms, seeming like she just wanted to be ther and comfort him. She was silent until his emotional break down was over.
He got up and walked to his room, He suddenly felt sick to his stomach and so he pushed his school bag off his shoulder making it fall next to his desk as he walked over to the bed and layed down on it with his kitty in his arms. He didn't bother to lock the front door. He normally never did, for his landlord had large dogs that walked the lands he owns and Hatomi asked him to let them roam over his as well. Putting up an invisible electric fence that spand a great distance for the dogs shock collars.
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Posted: Fri Jun 25, 2010 8:32 pm
((good news I get my internet card to work so I can now have internet On the road XD. I'm so happy I started to laugh for no reason X3))
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Posted: Sat Jun 26, 2010 8:41 pm
((I'm starting to love how this is turning out))
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Posted: Sun Jun 27, 2010 9:29 pm
(Is that so?)
Rosuto had wanted to follow Hatomi and tell him that the panic had nothing to do with him, to tell him that he wasn't in the wrong, but that would be lying. It was obvious that he panicked the way he did because of Hatomi's sudden change. As much as he didn't want to believe it, he knew that little detail as much as, if not less than, Hatomi did. This fact really scared Rosuto, because he didn't want to think of his senpai as the cause of the attack. Of course, all the denial in the world couldn't cover up the obvious.
'I shouldn't have confessed to him in the first place,' Rosuto thought miserably. He should have thought of the consequences. Hatomi had mentioned that he didn't like homosexuals, so of course that would mean bad things were going to happen. How could he let his feelings get in before his common sense. Because of that, Hatomi was constantly being tormented by being reminded by his violence and seeing the results of it.
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Posted: Sun Jun 27, 2010 10:19 pm
((Yep sure do XD.))
Hatomi curled up under his covers after waking moments earlier from passing out. He really did feel sick now. He soon slid out from under them and wobblely stood up before placing a hand on the wall and another on his forehead. Great he had a fever go figure. Guess it wasn't a entirely good idea to walk in the rain let alone walk the a very cool building to the point were the cold water had been obsorbed into his skin and weaken his imune system. Hatomi walked to the kitchen and filled a glass of water before taking it to his room and going into the bathroom to find some medication to take. His stomach churned and he ignored it as he took the medication and took something to settle his stomach. He wasn't going to return to school tomarrow and he vowed never to go back again. Just to make sure nothing ever happened again because of him. Tanya and the others would be worried and seek him out, but only one person knew where he lived and now even he wouldn't want to be near him. Who would after the things he'd done for so long? Sighing Hatomi climbed back into bed and curled up on his right side. His kitten lept up on the bed and licked his face before he pulled her close and fell asleep. Letting the medication pull him back into his dreamless and restless sleep.
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Posted: Tue Jun 29, 2010 4:49 pm
Because of weakness from the attack, Rosuto had to stay int he hospital for quite a while. Nobody really visited him, but there were a few times that someone would stare into the room. Those times made Rosuto very uncomfortable, but he tried not to show it. It would be bad if a person who liked to bother people decided to just stare in for fun and therefore further bother Rosuto.
What happened next was what surprised him the most. A nurse had told him that there were people outside who claimed to be his parents. The thought of his parents wanting to see him excited him, but he also dreaded the moment as well. It's been a couple of years since he saw them, so he didn't know what they could possibly want with him.
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Posted: Tue Jun 29, 2010 5:36 pm
Tanya had been called up by Kyo and Shadow saying they couldn't find Hatomi anywhere and considering he hadn't called in to say he wasn't going to be able to show up for their get together was a complete surprise. He never had been late and he always called. She had forgotten to ask Rosuto to join them and she found out from some students that had seen them saying Rosuto was in th hospital. So she went there, she didn't get far though when she saw a nurse enter a room and told Rosuto his parents were there to see him. Curious she stayed distant and watched while being practically almost invisible. She was always good at stealth and alert calls so she had been a wonderful asset to the gang when she joined up with them.
Hatomi lay at home panting softly as the meds wore off. "I guess it was a bad idea...to walk in the rain," He chuckled mirthlessly. "Maybe this is my punishment for causing him pain and trouble...." He rolled to his other side and stared at the wall his kitten curling up against him gently.
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Posted: Tue Jun 29, 2010 7:51 pm
Rosuto knew right away that he had to leave, but then again he hadn't seen his parents for a long time. What should he do? Should he try to reconcile with them? Nervously, he asked the nurse what his parents were doing outside, and she had replied that they were worried. Well, that was a good sign, right? It seemed that they had changed after all, so that should be a very good sign. But it's the same with Hatomi. After so many years, Rosuto's parents had finally decided to come in contact with him? What kind of nightmare had he been trapped in?
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Posted: Tue Jun 29, 2010 8:01 pm
Hatomi shovered and crawled out of bed to his bathroom where he violently got sick. Cleaning up he walked back to his bed with a cup of water in hand before placing it on the end table and crawling back under the covers.
Tanya waited and watched to see as to what might happen. If those were Rosuto's parents then it was a good thing that they were worried, but hadn't they abandoned him because he was gay? Tanya connected the dots and realized Hatomi had done all that to Rosuto and was suffering just by seeing Rosuto suffer. Hatomi's guilt was rooted deep and this whole situation of changing wasn't helping Rosuto one bit because even he would have a hard time beleaving it, in turn making Hatomi feel even worse then dirt. Tanya bit her lip. There had to be some way to fix this right? She stayed silent and watched to see how they would react around Rosuto.
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Posted: Tue Jun 29, 2010 10:03 pm
Before long, Rosuto's parents walked into the room. The only one who was actually worried was his mother, while his father looked reluctant to be here. After just a few seconds, his father left the room and therefore the mother and son were alone. They stared at each other in silence, and before long the mother walked toward Rosuto.
"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry," she said, grasping Rosuto's hands in her own trembling ones. "I let prejudice get in my mind. I can't even describe how miserable I've been feeling without you." She was sobbing as she spoke, and the sound of her voice almost made Rosuto go into another panic attack. He could tell that his mother was very sincere with her words. He was so relieved that she loved him after all.
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Posted: Thu Jul 01, 2010 5:09 am
Tanya didn't like Rosuto's father and she picked up on his stronge feelings quickly. The man was still unable to change his ways for his son. Tanya decided then to walk into Rosuto's room after talking with the nurse she guided her in and annouced that she was there. "Rosu-chan," She smiled sweetly and looked to Rosuto's mother. She looked her over once and decided she liked her. She walked over to Rosuto's mom and held out her hand to her. Her usual cheerful mood filling the air in a way to calm Rosuto. Hopefully it would work. "My name Is Tanya. I'm one of Rosuto's friends," She answered sincerly. She ment every word and she was going to prove to Rosuto that she was his friend now and forever.
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Posted: Sat Jul 10, 2010 6:29 pm
After wiping her tears and attempting to calm herself down, Mrs. Yayoi accepted the newcomer's hand, though she had to reluctantly let go of Rosuto's. "Nice to meet you," she said, her voice still shaky. "As I'm sure you know, I'm Rosuto's mother, Mrs. Yayoi." She shook the girl's hand, of course in a greeting way, and smiled. Relief came over her that her son wasn't really alone like she had thought.
"Has anything happened to Rosuto, by the way?" Mrs. Yayoi asked worriedly. "He looks like a wreck and I thought I saw blood near his wrists. Please tell me he didn't try to kill himself." She felt like she was going to cry again at the very thought, knowing that her son had never had much self-esteem and could easily turn to the thought of suicide if he was pushed past his limit.
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Posted: Sat Jul 10, 2010 11:09 pm
Now she wished Hatomi was here to explain this to her, "As far as I can tell No he hasn't had an easy time. To tell the truth I recently became his friend and though he finds it hard to beleave I won't give up. Though I wish I could answer the wrist part. I only know very little, but from what I heard yes he had tried to hurt himself. Hatomi had stopped him....he may find it hard to beleave that Hatomi would give up his ways, but.....what more proof does he need? Hatomi has suddenly vanished and we can't find him anywhere. I don't dare ask his syco father. I'm afraid of what he would do to him if he ever found out that Hatomi suddenly vanished like he did. He already has enough problems to sort out without him in it. I was hoping Rosuto could possiblely tell me where Hatomi is and to convince Rosuto that he really has changed from the bully he had been."
Tanya paused for a moment and sighed, "I'm sorry for what happened to Rosuto and nothing I can do or say will change my guilt let alone Hatomi's heavy guilt. But I do know one thing....I would rather fogive those dearest to my heart then to have to fall apart with the ever eating away guilt that builds within my soul." She stated to both her and Rosuto for their own beneifts. She may not look it but she was really wise for her age.
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