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`Though thy crest be shorn and shaven, thou,' I said, `art sure no craven.
Ghastly grim and ancient raven wandering from the nightly shore -

Tell me what thy lordly name is on the Night's Plutonian shore!'
Quoth the raven, `Nevermore.'

The passing days drew us closer
The pain is matched with joy.
Both hands reflect that
I cry when I think of you.

Try it without spaces?

Too close to Citation Needed. I'm going to have to play around with symbols and see what I come up with.

And link, sorry. Herald of War really doesn't like me...

I've just been made lead pastor of Alpha & Omega Christian Gnostic Church. I'm honored, flattered, and scared.

I am scared mainly because I know that the lead pastor of the Church, James, thinks he's not going to be here much longer. He's been like father to me and while he's still going to be participating, it's going to be in the back of my mind that there may be a day that he won't be there.

I am praying for forgiveness and I hope you all can forgive me too. I had to put my dog, Fathom, down today. He was my baby boy. He was suffering from stones in his bladder and the surgury was not only too expensive but there was a big chance the stones would have come back even after surgery due to his genetics. I feel like a hypocrite. I always encourage people to have hope and stand by those that are suffering yet I feel like I took the easy way out. Instead of caring for him, I had my baby boy put down. I feel so horrible and disgusting. I can't believe that I went through with it. I was there for the whole procedure and he went peacefully but it is still so unreal. It feels like a nightmare but one I'm not going to wake up from. I know I made the most logical choice based on my circumstances but yet I feel like a murderer. T-T please keep me in your prayers.

Oh hun...

It's hard when we have pets that become part of the family, because they almost always go before us, and we get to feel the acute loss of our loved one almost as if it was a brother or sister.

The thing that comforts me when faced with this situation is, our pets, if they had been left to nature as wild creatures never would have made it as long. They have been given an extended chance of life with us. The people who have pets and feel awful when they leave usually have given their pet a wonderful and happy life. Something that most animals never have. Most animal's live their last days in pain with no way out,but much suffering. You spared your baby boy that.

This is really my harsh realization, and it might sound really callous. One of my dearest furry friends helped me see it though, and it applies to life though... Grieving for those lost is really a selfish act, yet, it is a necessity. We are not really grieving for the sake of the subject of our loss, we are doing it for ourselves and the fact that we have lost. We cannot possibly help our loved one any further. This realization has helped me learn to move on with my life after such loss.

Your baby would not want to see you sad, he would try to comfort you, and make you happy once more. I don't believe there is anything that needs forgiving. I hope you can cherish the fond memories of your dear friend, and not spend so long dwelling on what you feel you could or should have done.

Well Rob. You didn't do it because you didn't love him. What would have happened when his stone came back? He was only 3 or 4 when he got these stones, so it is almost guaranteed that they would have been back. The way I see it is, he didn't have to suffer that pain while you tried to pull the resources together to have his surgery, and he didn't have to feel the next time it happened either.

Pulling the plug isn't always a bad thing. I think you weighed your options and made the best decision that was in the interest of you and your dog. It doesn't make you a hypocrite in my opinion... maybe someone a bit more world-wise... your feelings on how you view yourself through this decision are still a bit self centered... but at least it shows that you didn't make your decision lightly.

Most people that are considered hypocrites were really just naive before they were faced with a decision that they had previously had a strong stance about. Once they learn that their stance is to rigid when the issue is so flexible, their brittle opinion is shattered, and they must make the harder decision they previously felt would be impossible to make. Most people have been there before, but for some reason, it is still the in thing for people to hold others accountable for their ignorance before experience.

I don't think you should have to worry here about what others would judge you for. I think right now you should focus on forgiving yourself. You are not the one who instigated your loss, you did what was best for your pup and yourself.

finally got some sleep and I must say I'm feeling much better.