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Lol I know, I just looked through some of the post...and well sweatdrop

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Ok, this is it. I've reached whatever limits I had and I'm going to gather what last reserves are in me and cling to them for the next little while.

When I got back from England on the 11th I unpacked and went to bed. From the time I got up on the 12th everything has snowballed into the crappiest month I can remember having ever. I got word my manager, who was AWSOME, was let go directly resulting from stuff my a** of an assistant manager did, including theft. Another of my co-workers was fired/quit on the same day also directly resulting from said a** assistant manager. I caught and discovered I had bronchitis by the 13th, I missed some work, and then got my wisdom teeth out on the 19th, it was surgery as they were still underneith the gums and some bone was removed and I had stitches. My cheeks swelled to four times their natural size dispite an entire day of painkillers and icepacks. By the time I was able to talk normally again I was back at work, and my eating habbits have been s**t since I am only just now getting back to real solid foods. My eating habbits were sucking a bit and my immune system seems to still be in England and I caught some Virus that sent me home sick on Saturday and made me miss three more days of work while spending both Saturday and Sunday nights in the hospital, Sunday with an I.V. (which HURTS damnit) to get me some fluids because I threw up water. WATER for God's sakes, I lost weight I didn't have to lose! I was already underweight and my already baggy pants now permanantly drag on the floor. My new manager has seen nothing of me but me being sick, missing work, and screwing up random little things because she makes me feel like a deer caught in headlights and now I have a 'talk' from her to look forward too. There's a job fair on the 11th held at my store for all the stores need staff and so there'll be new people, all this after my workplace had the same well-working staff for over a year. I'm closing every night this week so I don't get much time with my Alexander, I spent all freaking morning trying to get ahold of SOMEONE who would actually not be an answering machine or actually call me back after I left a message on theirs inquiring about the schooling I want to take. ONE woman called me back and gave me all the information I wanted and I'm going to THAT College and no other now. However I've applied, so I'm waiting on a response from that. IF I get in I don't start until September, and it's a four month course of 9am-4pm, Mon-Fri. Meaning at that time I'll be only able to work weekends and PERHAPS some evenings. So no real income. I can afford it but I'll pull out my hair the whole time I know I will. Until then I have three months to hold out in what has become a shithole of a job and basically it feels like I have to hold my head under sceptic water until I'm allowed to breathe again. Getting a new job is out of the question for several reasons, including the fact that in 3 years I've gotten a couple of pay raises and going elsewhere means less money, I'd need to be trained and then hope they forgive me for my a**-tastic availability in the fall, and I'd be competing with all the High School kids who want summer jobs. If I don't get in for lack of room this fall I have to wait, but I'm registered already at another College just that it doesn't offer the course but it has a couple others I wouldn't mind taking, but neither of them would let me get the job I want they'd be purely for my own interest, so I'd rather get in to this new College first.

Everything is so messed up and stressful I don't think I'll be online much for the next bit, lest things start picking up.

Whoa...that sucks. Just venting or do you wanna talk to us... ninja Um ok...I think I'm the only one here sweatdrop